One Month Ago, Today, For My Caesar-pup

Caesar, can it be that it was a month ago that we buried you? Even those few words don't seem real, can't be real, can't have happened. Sixteen years of you in our lives, filling our house with your love, still finding bits of your soft, sweet fur I can't even bear to part with... Bits of fur stored away in a box, single wavey pieces of fur that can only be yours... tiny single strands more precious, more rare than diamonds now, more precious to my heart than I ever could have imagined possible. Oh, my beautiful darling Caesar ... bits of you drive me to my knees in sorrow and tears...

One month ago, today. Unspeakable thoughts, breaking hearts, how can a human heart be so fragile?

Eyes that look into your soul. Beautiful button eyes that can no longer see. Eyes that I see in my thoughts, forever boring into my soul. A soft little mouth, a warm little chin resting on my lap...

"Mommy.... why are you crying?"

"Oh, Caesar-pup, mommy just misses you so very, very much..."

"Mommy, I miss you too..."

Oh, Creator of All, please allow me to be as strong as he thought I was....


Caesar, I love you and miss you so very much ~~ Please visit me in my dreams so we may at least have the dream-time together, once more... Caesar-pup, mommy could use one of your puppy-smiles, about now...