My Precious Noah Options

[moon_beam]

My dear friends, I need to ask you to please keep my precious Noah close in your thoughts and prayers. He will be having serious abdominal surgery tomorrow, September 25, 2012, to remove a mass that has finally impeded his colon. Of course he showed no signs of illness until last Thursday, September 20, when he had an upset tummy after his breakfast. Since he has occassional challenges with furball tummies I gave him a dose of Laxatone which seemed to settle him for the rest of the day. Friday morning, September 21, he had numerous upset tummy spells after his breakfast. I took him to his doctor Friday afternoon at which time an X-ray was taken which showed a suspicious "something" in his intestinal tract but since it was late Friday the only thing the vet could do was give him fluids for dehydration and medication to help with the nausea. He was not a chipper boy during the weekend but we managed to make it through a very difficult yesterday when I thought I might have to take him to the ER vet - - but he settled down after awhile and was okay for the rest of the evening. I took him back to his doctor this morning so she could do a barium GI test. She called a few moments ago to confirm the worst -- that an abdominal mass is pressing on his intestinal tract which is now causing him to exhibit distress. The owner of the hospital who specializes in intestinal surgery will be doing his surgery tomorrow. This is a very long and invasive surgery that he may not survive, and if he does, the recovery is very serious.

I am going to go visit with my precious baby boy for awhile this evening as the hospital is opened until 7 p.m. tonight. As you know there are no words to describe the pain my heart is in - - I want my baby boy well again.

Peace and blessings,
moon_beam

[moon_beam]

Hi, Tracy, DannysMom, LoveMyMickey, and Angelinda. Thank you so very much for your outpouring of love and concern for my precious Noah and me. No words can begin to adequately express the comfort I feel in your thoughts and prayers.

I visited my precious Noah for about 1.5 hours - - almost until the time when the vet office was about to close. Dr. Neal showed me the results of his barium x-rays. The tumor is elsewhere in his body that has grown to the point where it is now collapsing a section of his intestine - - which is now causing him to exhibit symptoms. The surgery tomorrow will be exploratative and to determine the extent of the mass. I told Dr. Neal that I want a DNR on his chart and that if the tumor is indeed as invasive as it shows on the x-rays and that his quality of life would be severely diminished that I do not want him to wake up. She gently told me that this was a wise decision, and reassured me that Dr. Buckland is "the best" veterinary gastric surgeon in the entire region. Dr. Buckland does surgery in the afternoons between 1 and 4 p.m., so it may be late tomorrow afternoon before I know if my precious boy has a chance at recovery - - or if this evening is the last time I have seen him during his living earthly journey.

This house is so empty without his precious energy. Today I looked out the big basement window and remembered how full of life it once was with my beloved Oslo, my number one kitty son Eli, my precious Noah, and beloved beautiful baby girl Abbygayle. I know my precious little boy has been very lonely without his housemates - - particularly his beautiful baby sister Abbygayle and his big adopted kitty brother Eli. It has been 2.5 years since his baby sister joined the angels - - leaving him to be the sole survivor in a household that once enjoyed four furkids - - including my precious Noah. It has been a fear in my haert that I would lose my precious Noah - - a normal paranoia that accompanies grief when one has experienced multiple losses particularly in a short period of time. So to a certain extent I am not surprised that he is now closer to joining his fur family members in eternal joy - - but this does not diminish the deep sorrow in my heart.

I can't believe it's after Midnight already - - I have no desire to sleep. It's hard sleeping when your bed is empty - - no precious furchild to cuddle. I am soooo glad I was able to leave the "pit" in April and spend these precious 5.5 months with my precious, precious baby boy. And I am sooo glad that I do not have a job that I have to try to focus on so that I can focus on him - - and devote my energy for him should God answer my prayer - - and each of your prayers - - that he come through the surgery okay - - that the involvement is not as bad as it looks on the x-rays - - that he will have a safe and speedy recovery, that his quality of life will be a good one for as long as possible.

As I'm writing to you I can hardly see what I'm typing through swollen tear-filled eyes, but I know each of you understand what I am going through, and I deeply and sincerely thank each of you for your comforting support and encouragement. I will let you know how things go tomorrow.

Peace and blessings,
moon_beam