It's Two Years Today

It has been 2 years today since I said goodbye to you my sweet kitty. I wish I could have done something to make you feel better and that the ending was not so bad for both of us. You did seem like you were not really there though that last day- you just did not have your spark. I hope you don't blame me for making the decision to end it. I did not know what was the best thing to do and wanted to spare you any suffering. I miss you so.

Iams Proactive Cat Food Recalled

I just saw on the news that this cat food has been recalled. Wasn't sure if this was the place to post this or not. But in case you have a sick cat and this is what they are eating-get to the vet ASAP.

It's Been Almost A Year

I'm not sure if it is Mother's Day that is getting to me or what. A year ago on Mother's Day I spent much of the day trying to get my cat to eat. He had had kidney problems for several years (but just barely abnormal) but had then developed thyroid problems. He was doing OK but when I gave him some thyroid med he got worse and never ate really after that even though I stopped the med. A little bit of food now and then when I would bring it to him. He was coughing and sneezing as well. He had had bouts in the past where he did not eat but always snapped back. This time was worse and he seemed to want to be by himself-sleeping on my bed. He did seem to pick up a bit before I took him in but it was a different vet and she made me make a quick decision and I don't know if I should have done what I did. I will never forget the loud cries on the way to the vet-he had never done that before and I think he knew. At the vet he would not come to me and just stared into space and kept trying to get back in the carrier. I could not stay and watch-after they started to hold him down. I felt like I was murdering him and did not know what to do. I thought of taking him home but did not know what to do. After what seemed like forever-why does it take so long-they told me he was gone and I had to pay the bill and leave-they were in a hurry to get me out and actually pretty nasty-hey they got paid-why make me feel worse. I was in a daze and sometimes feel like I still am. People ask me when I will get another cat and I will never do this again-I don't know how you all manage to keep doing it. Today I just miss him so much and feel like I let him down and I don't know if I made the right decision.