The Pan,when Will It Go Away? Part 2

Hello again...its been a while since I posted about my Charlie and his passing. What I want to update about now is...I went to vets office 2 weeks ago to get a copy of all Charlies records, and much to my surprise and dis belief....3 days before I was told my baby was in respitory distress, in his chart it stated: No dyspnea (resp distress) noted during exam, and heart and lungs OK. Also, all the tests I was told that were run, there was nothing in his chart to that effect. Now, Im feeling I was not given all the true facts, and based my decision on what I was told. Im heart broken again, feel betrayed, and full of guilt. Now I question myself, did I put my boy down for nothing? I wrote the vet a letter this past Friday, but have heard nothing back,yet. Tell me, in your opinions, what would any of you do with this new info? How would ya'll feel ? I would love to hear. Though I know that nothing can be changed, and I cant bring him back, I very angry and hurt. Thanks for listening !
Dawn

The Pain, When Will It Go Away?

I lost my best 4 legged friend on Feb 23,2009, it's just been alittle over 2 weeks now, Charlie was my sweet boy, a beautiful silver grey long haired cat. He had been "sick" for nearly 2 years before I let him go. We had seen 4 vets, tests, Xrays, meds, fluids, blood etc, and great expense. The only symptom was a snotty nose,the vets didnt know what or why either, but on 2-23 my vets said it was time, he was in resp distress, so I made that decision to let him go....still not having any answers as to what was wrong with him, what caused his snotty nose??? Im lost without him, the first week, all I did was cry, I too had to go see my doc to get some help with this...I had him cremated, and he has his own little shelf in my home with his urn, a lock of hair,and his picture. My heart aches for him, I miss his head butts, rubs and ocassional purrs...he has forever left his imprint on and in my heart...thanks for all that read this, as I just need to vent, and let this all out...this song is dedicated to my sweet Charlie....mama loves you now and forever, I'll see you at the Rainbow Bridge sweetheart !! Dawn


The Dance

Looking back on the memory of
the dance we shared, beneath the stars above.
For a moment all the world was right,
how was I to know that you'd ever say good bye?
And now I'm glad I didn't know
the way it all would end, the way it all would go.
Our lives are better left to chance,
I could have missed the pain,
but I'd have had to miss the dance.
Holding you, I held everything,
for a moment, wasn't I the king?
If I'd only known how the king would fall
hey who's to say, you know I might have changed it all.
And now I'm glad I didn't know
the way it all would end, the way it all would go.
Our lives are better left to chance,
I could have missed the pain,
but I'd have had to miss the dance.