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9 Feb 2006
We had to put our sweet 15 yr old Schu Tzu, Chelsea, to sleep today and I sit here and cry tears for here and miss her so much already. When we lost Dieter, she became my constant companion and such a sweet little soul. We adopted her when she was 3 as a playmate for Dieter and they had a wonderful bond. Now they can run and play together free from sickness and pain at Rainbow Bridge.......I hope he was waiting for her arrival wub.gif

My prayers are with all of you
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Libby
1 Jun 2005
I hope all of you are well and to everyone that has found themselves here, I hope that you are finding the comfort that is so necessary during such a loss.

First, I'm sorry if I have posted this in the wrong place.

I have moved to a good spot in my grief, or so I thought, til tonight. I really just need to get this out, and my heart is aching and I find myself back here, my safe place, to pour my heart out.

I got a phone call from my best friend asking if we would be interested in a Schnauzer? It literally felt like a stab to my heart. We've tossed around the idea of another Schnauzer, but would Chelsea, our other dog, accept a new dog? She is such a happy little girl right now, really enjoying her life as an only.

I guess the real question is if my heart can take it. It's a 1 yr old male and his owner is away all day and doesn't feel that it is a very good life for him, and that he is a great dog. My mouth was saying "yes" we would like to meet "Dasani", but my heart was breaking into a million pieces again, almost like the moments right after Dieter took his last breath.

It's been a couple of hours now since the phone call and I'm just a sobbing mess. What the heck is wrong with me. I have not been this emotional in months. I thought I was better. Am I not ready for another dog? Is that what this is? Or, is it that I'm afraid of the depth of my love for another Schanuzer, only to know that I will outlive him and experience this all over again. I know that is life, and I wouldn't trade a minute of the time I had with Dieter, even though this hurt has been unbearable at times. Thanks for listening, you are truly the most special people.
25 Jan 2005
I was just reading something that touched me regarding someone rescuing a dog from a shelter and it hit me like a ton of bricks and I just am sobbing. I looked at the calendar and tomorrow it will be 5 months since Dieter was in the here and now with us. I just would like to know how everyone is doing.

I have more good days than bad now and I think the Holiday's delayed my healing a bit. I just miss my little guy so much. Just the other night I looked over at my husband and saw he was crying and I asked him what was wrong and he just said he missed "D". It's truly amazing how a little furry creature can crawl into and steal your heart.

I find it hard to come here like I used to, but not because I don't care!! It just opens up this wound and I find I'm back to square one in the grief process again. I really want all of you to know that I care and I think about you and your furbabies often and wish I had something magical to say that would comfort you.

I hope anyone who reads this will share where they are in this journey, I'd really like to know how you are doing.
Just thinking about all the wonderful souls at LS wub.gif
28 Dec 2004
Happy Holidays to all.

I know this has been a tough time for all of us, and thanks to Mark and Lightning Strike we all have a safe place to come and share with people who truly understand and care.

I've never talked about our other dog, Chelsea, here before. We actually adopted her from a girlfriend who could not keep her, as her husband disliked her and was abusive to this sweet baby. Chelsea is a Shih Tzu. Dieter was 4 and she was 3 and he loved her the minute he saw her, she was his girly. If he came inside before her he would wait by the door and bark as soon as she was there, telling us to "let her in"! He was quite the character. Needless to say she has experienced her own grief over the loss of her companion and friend, too. I've been very fortunate she has kept me company, but she has never been a really loving dog like Dieter was, kind of has always kept to herself. I believe it is because of the abuse she received at a young age. I still can't believe anyone could ever harm an animal.

We had to travel for the holidays and board her at the same vet we've used for their entire life and also where we had dieter put to sleep. I have the most difficult time going there and break down each time. I see the room where we last held him and I fall apart. It's just like that enourmous grief all over again. I picked her up yesterday and coming home without him was like it happening all over again and it will be 4 months tomorrow. When we got home Chelsea ran around the house and then would lay down and whimper. She did this a couple of times right by where his collar hangs around the neck of the "schnauzer angel" figure. She has never done this before and I wonder if she was missing him too? It was really strange. Today I've cried most of the day and am just really missing him. I'm just rambling and needed to write my thoughts down.
20 Oct 2004
Life just isn't the same since losing my little guy. I'm extra sad today and keep finding myself here at lightning-strike where I know so many others know what I mean. I'm so slammed with work and just can't stay focused. I know it's because I work out of my home and Dieter was my co-worker right with me every step of the way. Rationally I know that is why I feel the emptiness so intensely, plus he was just such a fun dog! When reading Daryl's post I realize I'm so lucky to be able to just go with these feelings and not be trapped at a desk when all I want to do is escape and cry.

Sometimes I wish I could jump off the Corporate merry-go-round. I mean, really, in the end, this job and all it's daily demands and crisis won't have meant a thing. Friends and family are the true cornerstones of our lives and the legacy we leave behind. That leads me to another reason that people think I feel this loss so intensely, is that I never had children. I found myself on the career ladder and didn't believe that was something I ever wanted to do. People always told me that one day my biological clock would let me know the time was right, but that never happened. I love children just was never sure I wanted to raise one of my own. We did have one unexpected opportunity that sadly ended in a miscarriage and now, I just feel like that is a ship that sailed. I don't regret it, just wonder if this pain of losing Dieter would be less intense if I had little ones running around? Strange thoughts, I know, but thoughts just the same.

My husband and I went to adoption day at a local Petco on Saturday and there were so many cuties looking for homes. We played with a few, but left alone. Tears were shed on the drive home by us both, because even though all of them were so wonderful, we just want our little guy back and KNOW it's impossible. Who knew that a dog could touch our life so much. I'm just really missing him today and needed to talk about it. Thanks for providing a non-judgemental place to come to.
Libby
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