Two Months Without Lacy, now more bad news Options

[drifty1027]

I haven't written for sometime because it has been so hard for me but I have
read so much of what all of you have said and it sure hits home.
I lost my Lacy 2 months ago. Yes, it is easier than the first few weeks but
sometimes the pain is still unbearable. I still catch myself looking for her
and waiting for her little command to let me know when she was hungry.
Or just any little bark to let me know she was there. I also feel like
Abby's mom, I don't think I can get another baby . I don't think I can take
this pain again.I have had other dogs that I lost when I was younger and I don't
remember that hurt being this bad. Maybe because I am older, 44, that
has something to do with it.

We have 2 other dogs , Weimaraners, Duke and Roxy who are 12.
When we took them for the yearly shots in march, the vet took blood just
to check to make sure all was o.k. Well, Roxy's liver numbers were up
and we had to wait about a month for a recheck. We did that this week
and now the Vet says the numbers are still up and she could possibly
have Cushings disease. I have to take her for a test in 2 weeks. He said if that
comes back negative, we are probably looking at Liver cancer. She doesn't even act like anything is wrong. She is eating and drinking like normal.

I really wasn't ready for this bad news. I am still grieving over Lacy being gone
and just the thought of losing another baby this soon is just killing me. My life
feels like a roller coaster. Just when I think I am doing o.k., I just lose it.

Lacy is buried in our backyard and I went to her grave today and just cried
my eyes out. Then just the thought of her little body being buried in the
ground hit me so hard. I just don't know when this all will end.

Reading all of these post at LS have been so helpful because I know we all
can relate to each other. I just feel myself in so many of them.

Thanks for being there,
Julie

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