Dear Brittany:
2 weeks have passed since that heart breaking day I had to make the most difficult decision of my life. And the pain is so overwhelming.....Each day I come home from work to an empty apt. You used to always be there waiting for your breakfast & your walk....But now there's nothing..
I hope that you are happy.....Playing with Brody & trying to get treats & "belly rubs" from Grandma & Grandpa........I know that their so happy that you are with them....But my heart is breaking, not being able to see or touch you......
I still talk to you every day thinking you're right behind me.....but you're not....I still make meals enough for me & you, knowing that you'll be there looking for scraps...... but your not. I still wake up in the middle of the night to see where you're sleeping.....but you're not there.

I know that you're not suffering any more, and that should comfort me......but it doesn't. I wish I was selfish & kept you with me for a while longer.......But that last day when you couldn't even come to me, & just looked up at me with those big brown eyes I knew it was time.......
For you, but certainly not for me.......I know that you're watching over me, so you know all the pain that my heart feels.
Be happy Britt
I love you & miss you with all my heart.
Love your mom
Felicia

{{{{HUGS}}}}
I wish I cld take away some of you rawness, it well get better, it's just that right now it seems impossible I know. I've made it to a month without my Buddy.
you will make it, the loneliness is is very hard.
i will prayer to help u get thru the nxt day.
elaine

Felicia,
I am so so sorry for the pain you feel in your heart. It has been 32 days since my Sammie passed. I put flowers on her grave last night and just cried while talking to her. I will always miss her as long as I am on this Earth as you will too. As hard as it is to think about, each day does get slightly better. People would tell me that and I thought there is no way, but they were right. I did a lot of things to memorialize Sammie's life and with each thing I did it helped my heart heal a bit. I can now smile when talking about her and laugh again. I even adopted two puppies last Friday. And I never never never thought I would even consider that. My kids, husband and friends talked me into it and for me it has been a true blessing. Yes, I miss Sammie and cry over her and feel the sense of loss but those puppies have brought new life into our home and new love into my heart. I will pray that each day your heart heals a little more and the pain becomes more tolerable. I wish I was there to give you a hug.
Melanie

how r u travelling Felicia?
thinking of you
elaine

Elaine:
Thanks for all your hugs......Getting better seems like such a long way away......I wish I could take Wed. out of the week.......That's the worst day of the week. Because each Wed. that passes brings me another week of pain of the last Wed. that I saw her.

Hugs to you
Felicia

Dear Melanie:
It's people like you who get me thru these really rough times.....I have so many days that I walk around wondering what to do next......Thinking it's time to feed her...but she's not there. It's time for her walk...but she's not there. Time for her treats....but she's not there.

So empty......I just sit & look at her picture & hold her quilt with her scent on it....I know they say that time heals, but right now I don't feel that way....
But this web site has let me talk about my feelings without feeling like I'm crazy getting this emotional over a dog......
Maybe in time, I'll be able to talk about her without bursting out in tears......I hope so. Because she gave me 12 yrs. of happiness.

Hugs to you also
Felicia

Felicia, Wednesday is my day too. It's been 29days since Buddy died. I remember those times when just like you, I wld think.."oh I've got feed him" or "I've got to let him out" or "wondering why I hadn't seen him wondering past the window", those days were the pits!!!!!! I too remember thinking I'll never get beyond this sense of shock, confusion & loneliness....remember to keep taking a breathe out, then in..........I'm glad you found this site too
elaine

can i say something? first of all, i am so sorry for your loss. a month... 6 months... that is NOT a long time if you weigh
it against the years we had our beloved dog. grief has no time limit. we love our dogs with abandon.. and they love us just the same, so it takes a long time to come to terms with their being gone. it's just so terribly sad to lose a dog we loved so much and who loved us that much. even tho their gone, they are still all around us mentally. things we did for them on a daily basis... their dishes...their coat.. leash. it's heartbreaking... no way around it.

our grief is a reflection of our love. remember that. like i've said in a few other threads, my beagle was put to sleep yesterday. i miss her and wish she was still her so i could love her, but she's gone. and yea... it's empty. but having lost 3 other dogs i know that in due time i'll be able to smile without all the tears and sadness i feel now.

hang in there, because the more you express your grief, things will get better. if your up to it, at some point get another dog who needs a good home and lots of love. i dpn't know why God gives us dogs for such a short period of time, but He does.

hug. gail

Dear Gail:
I'm so sorry for the loss your your precious furbaby. It's now been a month & I still feel as though it just happened.......I still have the same daily routine......Running home after work, to take her out & feed her. I turn the key & open the door & she's not there.........then i just sit & cry. I know that in time it will get better, but I have a hard time believing it.....It was just me 7 her for 12 1/2 yrs. Side by side. Getting another dog is an option, but not right now. I fell she will steer in the right direction when it's right.
But my thoughts & prayers go out to you..I know exactly what your going thru.......We just have to grieve our way thru this process.

Felicia