My Heart Knows The Way To God

My heart knows the way to God
I follow her
stepping lightly over fallen leaves
and falling through the branches of winter trees

the way smells like fluttering feathers
and chittering tails
and feels like the soul of December

but only for a while

When my heart whispers
“I know the way”
I think the flowers bow to her
and the grass rolls away

She flies so brightly
her wings make lightning of things
and God stands their waiting
his spirit smiling

all the while
she teases her friends
and rolls in the memories
fallen in the wind

like soft sand they surround her

and heaven waits for my heart
while she contemplates
a wiggle of living color and
and an assault on a clover

and she feels the warmth
of her world inside her and I know
that I will always follow her
because

My heart knows the way to God

Pet Reincarnation

I spoke to a pet psychic today who told me that Teensie had passed on. She said that she missed me as badly as I missed her and when she asked her if she wanted to come back she was very eager to do so. Of course finding her will be the problem, but it gave me hope that I might be reunited with her again.

She told me a story of a friend of her's she'd counselled about a pet who passed. When she found a dog that she felt was her beloved pet returned in a new body she brought him home. He was completely comfortable in the house and liked all the same places as her previous pet.

Then I read another story about a woman who found her reincarnated dog in a shelter and when he got in the car he sat in the very same spot as her dog had and did a lot of the same things.

Have any of you ever felt like a pet returned to you in another body? Have you ever hoped for such a thing?

Teensie Is Gone

I know there is another board for missing pets, but there is no one there and it seems a lonely place. I'm already so lonely without my beloved Teensie.

Last fall we had to euthanize our Yorkie DeeDee we had for about 13 years. A week later we visited a pet store and found Teensie. We did not plan to bring home a kitten, but we were very glad we did. Even my husband, who didn't grow up with pets, and never really bonded to one, fell in love with her right away.

She turned out to be the best kitten I ever had in my life. I absolutely adored her. She was very sweet and loving and loved to cuddle. I let her go outside, but she never went far. She was a creature of habit and came and went from the house several times a day. In the evening she would always come in, and if she hadn't, as soon as I called her she would come in. That is something I was never used to a cat doing.

Last Saturday she did not come in. I knew right away that something was wrong because she was always within calling distance. She has not returned since then.

She is wearing a collar with a tag with our phone number and we are in a small rural community where people know us. No one has seen her.

I've looked everywhere for her. My concern was that she was locked in a shed or garage that was opened on Sat afternnoon. I've asked all the neighbors to open their sheds, I've looked inside the windows to all the weekend homes, called through the cracks in those sheds, garages etc...

I've searched drainage ditches and the wooded areas in case she fell from a tree, I've looked in the water (we are on the cove of a lake), I 've searched in boxes and bins and even trash cans that might have that she could have fallen into.

We do have wildlife here, but most are not out during the day. I've seen no stray dogs that might have hurt her or chased her.

It's as if she vanished into thin air and I'm devastated. Although I've had pets all my life and loved them fiercely I've never been as close to any animal as this precious kitten. I am beginning to give up on ever seeing her again and to console myself with the belief, that for whatever reason I was meant by God to only have her in my life for a brief shining moment.

I think I could deal better with her loss if I knew I was doing the right thing. I am afraid to stop looking because if she is trapped somewhere my failure to find her could result in her death. On the other hand, continuing to search and failing to find her day after day is only pushing me further into a deep depression.

I pray for my kittens safe return, but I have lost my hope that will happen.