Thomas My Angel.

Hello i am new here and i need someone to hear me as my heart is aching.



Thomas is our darling part persian part bred lad we bought 13 yrs ago as a kitten he was shy but in no time at all he grew to love and be part of our family.
He was hansom and so very kind and loving ,he came up on my lap and loved to have his belly patted and would lie on his back and purr and pad the air with his
furry feet and stretch out and ask for more if i stopped ,he did this for many years
and would ask for love and attention all ways .
In all of the 13 yrs we had him he never scratched or ever showed any malice
i loved and adored him .
sadly this week he became unwell and i took him to my vets and she said he had cancer and that his kidneys were very large he was terminally ill i was heart broken and i ask if she could make him comfortable just to have the last 12 hrs
with us at home and he came home dure in that time he was weak and frail but always kept purring i cried but spent all night with him slowly the morning broke
he was tired but we took him into his garden one more time for 10 mins he watched the birds and blinked his eyes at me like a smile .
We talked awhile and cuddled he was weak now .
My husband and i took him to the vets he travelled in my arms in the car
still purring we got to the vets and we cuddled for the last time ,i loved him some much it was the hardest thing in my life ever i gave him over to my husband
who was with him till the end i just was not strong enough to let him go .
Oh the aching in my heart has not yet eased it was only this morning tonight it seems so strange him not coming in the cat flap and jumping on my lap there is such an emptiness and the house feels strange ,i have 2 other beautiful cats
and they seem very quiet ,Thomas was so special not like other cats but like a child
to us my bond with him was so strong i loved him so very much and its hurts like hell in my heart , we have bought a cat special coffin for him he will be buried in his garden on Tuesday by us it seems so far away as he still lay at the vets untill
his coffin arrives .
I believe in life after but can anyone answer will he come home or will he cross over
go to the light and be happy i wish i knew for sure i couldnt bear the thought of him being at home trying to get my attention and me not knowing it would break my heart i really need to know if anyone can answer please .
My heart is with all those who have loved and lost or is losing a pet as nothing compares to the pain and sense of loss god bless you all and thank you for listening and to admin for this wonderfull site where hearts can meet and share the loss of a much loved pet .Thank you so much.