Lost My Little Tiger Yesterday

Hello everyone. I am so grief stricken right now I can't stand it. I have cried until the tears stop coming and then I cry some more. Tiger was my little grey striped Tabby mix. He showed up at work one day in 2005 so of course I brought him home. He looked to be about six months old or so. I am a cat person but I pretty much love all animals. I had one cat already so another certainly wouldn't be bad. Let me first offer apoligies for my post as I know I am rambling. I'm not thinking very clear right now. Anyway, when I brought him home it was obvious he had something physically wrong with him. His hind legs did not work correctly, he was pretty uncoordinated. His breathing always seemed labored as well. After some vet visits I was told he had some nerve damage and he couldn't poop without three daily doses of medicine. He actually had to have a number of surgeries to clean out his bowells because sometimes the medicine wasn't enough. I didn't care what it took to keep him with me, he was so precious. Even the vet workers were taken by his sweet demeanor and personality. He never complained. Saturday he began to throw up liquid and was very listless. This had happened before but he came out of it. Sunday I tried to give him some petromalt and amoxycillin as I did before but to no avail. I set him on the love seat by the wood stove where he slept a lot, checking on him every couple minutes or so but the last time....... that was it. I could tell he had stopped breathing and he had that look on his face. You folks who have been there when your pet passes on no what look I'm speaking of. I called his name several times and then he inhaled deep then exhaled and that was it. He was gone. My grief over this little guy is every bit as great as it was when I lost my dad. This little guy had so much wrong but he was such a sweet kitty. I feel he didn't get a fair shake in this life. I feel cheated as well. I am a Christian and I know God is in control, but I really have to question what the point of this was. Thanks for listening (reading). Bruce