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Posted by: Bobbie Jul 23 2012, 09:43 AM

My Dearest, Darling Trevor,

Well, here we are at a new crossroad in our Grief Journey and Life Journey. I was on this section, briefly, soon after we had to part, but then went back to the Death and Dying section, where I felt more comfortable at the time and met some exceptional animals and their people! I guess you could say that we are "movin' on up" to this new section to continue our love notes and messages. Make yourself comfortable, my hunky bunky!

Yesterday's ceremony was so special. I will stop by today and see how thngs look. Might even stop in and say hello to Andrew!

Trevor, my love for you continues to grow, each and every day. My gratitude to you will never cease. I still have so many questions about your life before us, but I'm not going to obsess about any of that. I think I'm going to take some time to remember and at the same time, look forward with you!

Please have a wonderful day with ALL of you buddies and friends! I'll write more tonight.


Posted by: My Doxie and Me Jul 23 2012, 09:03 PM

Letters from my Heart

To a Friend that sets me free...
To a Friend that sits and waits for Breath i need...
To a Friend that Grace the light i Take...
To a Friend that Holds me when my Heart Breaks...
To a Friend that has all my Tears...
To a Friend that whispers gently through the years
To a Friend I Hear you...I Hear...I the Mornings that shine into are Hearts is where i live with each Breath Brings life as you hold me once again
Can you Hear Me as you fill my water dish and place it on the ground...I kiss your hand to let you know i;am still here i walk in your shadow
as if it where my own Special game that connects us for we are the same as i lay my head in your hands to easy your pain...
I Hear my name throughout the night as tears fall as i weep by your side...

I Hear your whispers of me and i wish for your Touch i look to find you holding my own Special brush close to your heart as i sit with Angels that Whisper in my Ears
As i have little Time To speak so I Hear your every word that fills me with life as each Tear that falls touches my Heart for i have given you all i have
and you have given me A life that i hold in a special place that we both share...

The Beauty of your Heart reflects in your own Tears as you sit and winds start to sweep across your feet thats my playful side oh how i like to play
How i like to run around you in circles and look up to see your Beautiful smile as you look into my eyes i fade into your Heart so we will never be apart...
The special gift you have given me travels far Beyond the words i speak for i watch you in my own silent ways as i never leave your side...
When you put my water dish on the ground i shall ever kiss your Heart with Mine.

Author Mr.Trevor

Posted by: Gretta's Mom Jul 24 2012, 11:59 AM

Hi Mr Trevor

Good to see you over here. Have you rested up from your party? You are the love bug of my heart. Always and forever.

Aunt jeanne

Posted by: Bobbie Jul 24 2012, 11:11 PM






Posted by: Gretta's Mom Jul 25 2012, 06:42 AM


I'm seconding your mom's thought. We need to learn that from you - the master.

Aunt Jeanne

Posted by: Bobbie Jul 25 2012, 10:04 AM

Good Morning, Trevor!

Today is going to be a better day! It was nice out this morning, I am taking more control of my illness and I love you more than ever!!!!!!!

THANK YOU for the beautiful Monarch butterfly you sent this morning! It appeared and then just floated by and was gone. But THIS time I got the message loud and clear. Did you hear me say "Hi Trevor!"? You know, probably every one of your brothers have sent me messages and I was way too dense to figure it out. I can just hear them now: "Mom, will you ever get the message???????"

You are the bravest Cocker Spaniel that ever lived on this earth and don't you forget it! I owe what I can do now to YOU and only YOU!!

Have a GREAT day, my sweet boy, and say hello to all your friends and relatives for me.


Posted by: LoveMyMickey Jul 25 2012, 06:14 PM

Oh Sweet Trevor,

Thank you so much for sending your mommy that beautiful Monarch butterfly, your message of love and comfort. I read something today about butterflies representing angels, souls, and most importantly rebirth/new life. Monarch butterflies are very special, just like you, your mommy, and your Aunt Jeanne.

I LOVE YOU, TREVOR, wub.gif wub.gif wub.gif

Auntie LoveMyMickey

Posted by: Gretta's Mom Jul 26 2012, 06:40 AM

Good morning, Trevor-Forever

I'll never forget your darling picture taken on the steps. It's the most beautiful portrait of a doggie i ever saw. Thank you for comforting your mom - she needs you today and every day. I don't know how you did it (well, yes I do - your spirit is SO good and SO strong) but you are stamped on my heart .... forever.

Here's to a good day up there and down here.

Aunt jeanne

Posted by: My Doxie and Me Jul 26 2012, 07:02 PM

The eye's are the window to who we become after are friends light are path
So we can follow are foot steps only to kneel and Honor the fallen ones can you
See what i....<Look close>

Pure Love that holds are attention as are Innocence shines within us when friends pass we struggle for Breath we think...

How can we continue..
How can we follow without your lead
How can we as Hearts fall free
How can I...

Are friends bring the purest of light as they stand by are side in Love In Pain In Broken Dreams as i can no longer Breath...
It's Time for you to fix my Heart so i can see....

As the colours in my mind show me a sliver of time i try to make words..Let me Focus...Only these words are not mine;..

I felt so much love that moment-like i used to when he would finally sleep and lay next to me as i try to Memorize
Every Feature of his face...
Every soft Hair on his head...
The Rythm of each Heart Beat...
The Touch of his paw in my Hand...

As i know i will never have the chance to experience this again and i Hurt for i did not take advantage of are time... I believe you just did;...

My special friend your words that touch my heart as you speak brings me closer to my jen as my path brightens for the words you weep
you see your true heart fills mine with hope as this hope leads me to my friend.. So i thank you my words where a sliver of light as your heart
shines so bright as my words weave your love for a friend where truly without effort.. If i have connected with others it is my friend
For i do not have this ability...

Let me shine for a friend with Heavens light...

Forgive me as you speak so beautifully can you hear Mr....Speak to...So i offer the same for Jack's Human as to you....

Posted by: Bobbie Jul 26 2012, 08:57 PM

Dearest Trevor,

We have a (new) friend who is also gifted with the talent of manipulating words into exactly the right emotions and feelings! He captures our thoughts and weaves them into a love POEM! Now you have love letters and love poems - you lucky boy! Now I'd like you to go find those Doxies that the Poet talks about and introduce yourself, if you haven't already, and tell them that your mommy thinks their daddy is awesome and she is forever grateful! Thank you!

Today was not a good day and I will not bore you with the measely details. Suffice it to say mommy finally got the message that the Almighty has been trying to tell her. Sometimes I can be really hard-headed, although not as much as you Cocker Spaniels. All you guys ran into bumpers on parked cars right on your heads and didn't flinch at all! It sounded like you had broken you skull! But, nope. You were fine.

Now I hear a thunderstorm. Must mean that those angels are back into bowling again. I kind of like hearing the sound and remembering what my mom and dad used to tell me about the angels bowling. Thunder meant they'd hit a strike!!!!!!

Trevor, I am very tired tonight and am going back to bed. Have a peace-filled night and I will write lots more tomorrow!


Posted by: moon_beam Jul 27 2012, 12:17 PM

Hi, Bobbie, thank you so much for sharing with us how you're doing, and your beautiful love letter to your beloved Trevor. I'm smiling at the angels bowling. I think that is a better description than what I had been told - - they were moving furniture.

I hope you were able to get some rest yesterday and last night, and that today is a better one for you. Thank you for the blessing of your friendship, Bobbie, and of your precious Trevor. Please know you are in my thoughts and prayers, and that I always look forward to sharing your news and your treasured memories of and beautiful love letters to your beloved Trevor.

Peace and blessings,

Posted by: My Doxie and Me Jul 27 2012, 08:06 PM

As Gods of time never walk upon this earth as only the
Purest of Hearts will carry them....

Word manipulation No for this fairy Tale would have a Happy ending i know so little as a picture is worth a thousand words as so
many speak in idle ground its hard to...As colours bring light as others speak as i write and i wish only for my friend when words...
I know nothing of your life and would not...The only thing i see..Let me put this into words spoken...

When you put a water dish on the ground is like giving life Compassion Love as water is life...As your Heart Kisses Mine Is a bond of understanding
True love in Health and sickness are friends only wish to teach us as we help them cross over as Sight becomes silent... So we can carry this over
to others to ease there pain...

Forgive me i have much to say as sometimes it may be out of turn....My new friend has suffered a great deal as i hold her in my arms you see
My friend has taught me she lets me know and i smile once more for hidden tears still fall as my friend still brings me smiles we have a special friend
that leads us down a path so one day we may travel once more....

As words come to life as i bring life to a friend ineed as smiles bring peace...
Your Doxie Friend no Heart is bigger in such a small package;...

My heart breaks everytime i think of you....

Posted by: Bobbie Jul 27 2012, 09:32 PM

Dearest Trevor,

I wish I could speak to you in the ways some others can, but, shucks, you are stuck with a Catholic school mommy. laugh.gif

I hope you had a good day today. I got some more medical information and it seems that the sooner I cn have some surgery, the better I will be. BUT, just like with you doggies and kitties, we have to make appointments and wait in the mean time. I have to remind myself to take advantage of the waiting time. I must do things like: think of YOU, love YOU, remember YOU, miss YOU, think of YOU, love YOU, love YOU, love YOU..............
I think that's my entire list.

Do you know that I cannot remember when or if I told the world about our beginning? I must have, but will go back one day and find out. We do have a story to tell, don't we?

Meantime, give my love to all of your friends, buds and relatives (yes, all of them), those nonremembered by others and thoes that suffered and crossed the bridge in the name of experimentation/science.


Posted by: Gretta's Mom Jul 28 2012, 06:59 AM

Hi Trevor-Forever,

Time to keep a round-the-clock presence at the love-ray station and send down thos love-rays every moment of every day to your mommie, OK? Gretta, this means you, too, babyface.

Getta's mom

Posted by: Bobbie Jul 28 2012, 08:47 PM

Dear Trevor,

How did a little golden Cocker Spaniel with so many, many problems manage to steal my heart immediately? Would you mind sharing the answer with her?

I LOVE YOU, TREVOR, forever and a day. I need to remind myself that if you could do it, so can I.


Posted by: Gretta's Mom Jul 29 2012, 05:30 PM


It's because both of you are miracles!

Aunt jeanne

Posted by: My Doxie and Me Jul 29 2012, 06:21 PM

Wishing you well in Health and life...

As we sit at this park bench as a reflection of my love comes....

I may have writen in a daily log Forgive me i have been complacent after my friends passing.... I have a few more words for
my new friend then i will move on. As i speak it may have helped a few or even one that have lost breath intime of need is shared
by many, it's the ability to understand are friend while they are with us that helps are heart heal as we look into there eyes for...

I hope my words have reached someone ineed that in the great lose we search for answers as others share pain brings comfort
Bobbie As you have cared for a friend in sickness and you watch over him take care of him so Trevor could have a better life is Great Beauty....
As i see something in common Miss Gretta shows the same love and understanding as i write with great thought and in return
I have seen not one but 2 Angels...

This photo has so many meaning the eye of the Beholder;)

So much more to say it's crossing that thin line as i may have already crossed Thankyou Bobbie in Learning your love for a friend
and how much you care for others... Helps me and the lose of my Jen as the light brightens my path i walk on to find...


Posted by: Bobbie Jul 29 2012, 09:06 PM

Dear Trevor,

My Doxie and Me has, once again, found such incredibly wise and warm words. He is able to capture and tell our love story without knowing either one of us! I hope he can find time, now and again, to continue helping us on our journey as he says we have helped him with his Jen. Such a beautiful name, such a beautiful girl!

Trevor, you are still my everything. How am I going to explain taking your picture to the hospital and not the others'? I know! I'll take your memory pillow that Auntie Jeanne just finished for me! That way I'll take Dreamer and Kelley's pictures and stil cuddle with you at night, especially when the going gets rough.

Have a beauty-filled night, my sweet boy!


Posted by: Gretta's Mom Jul 30 2012, 06:47 AM

Hi Trevor

I hope you like your pillow - it's for your mom and it's made of your second favorite blanket. Every stitch was done with love for you and your mommie.

Say hi to Ms Gretta.

Aunt Jeannie

Posted by: Bobbie Jul 30 2012, 02:49 PM

Dear Trevor,

How do I seem to make it, day after day? especially with this awful medical stuff staring me right in the face and making me so tired that I can barely do anything actively? when I miss you so much and could use your example right now? Your mommy is so frustrated and I know that you know all about being must have been so many, many times just living with us, not including the years before that. Mommy is scared and I know that you know all about that, too. So many things scared you, especially towards the end. I can't even imagine how scared you must have been before meeting Grandmom and while you were living in that nasty foster home. Of course, you stayed in the here-and-now, whereas mommy has thoughts running all over the place in her mind. It IS very hard to LIVE each day as if nothing was going on when plenty is and shows you by sucking all your stamina and strength right out from under you. You doggies and kitties and bunnies and all of God's creatures have that as an advantage to you. Humans can, without even trying, imagine all sorts of awful things happening to/for them and that scares a lot of us. And you also know all about being alone for hours at a time.

So, Trevor, please know that your mommy continues to love you with all that I have and even more than that. I must remember what a good example you set the entire time we were together and how not to be afraid of crossing my own Rainbow Bridge if it is that time sooner than I'd like. Because YOU will be there, with all your friends and brothers and cousins and all of mommy's friends and relatives that went before her. I don't think anything like that is going to happen soon, but it is an eventuality that I must address. So there, I've addressed it.

Thank you, my sweet boy, for always being in my thoughts. Just push your way in when you need to or when you know I need you to. And stay the wonderful, gentle and kind Cocker Spaniel you have always been.


Posted by: Gretta's Mom Aug 1 2012, 06:42 AM

Dear Trevor

Thank you for coming into you mom's life. You've been a continuing miracle for her. Now she needs you like you needed her when you lived on earth. And you two are part of the same being, so only you, little guy, can speak to her heart in a way that truly touches it. Keep it up, my man. There's a whole army behind you!

Aunt Jeannie

Posted by: Bobbie Aug 1 2012, 10:28 AM

Good Morning my sweet boy!

I want to say that it seems a lot less active and almost lonely in this section, but I must watch my words so as not to offend. But what the hey? It's you and me and the baby duckling, all walkin' down the same path together. Did you know mommy has a new motto? Yup. It has a picture of the little baby duckling walking down a path (just how I remember they walked) and the saying is: "To Infinity....................and beyond!" Don't you think that's great? I just wish I could remember where the original picture came from so I could make some good copies.

Anyway, this is not about me, it's about YOU! Today I am going to visit you and gather the reminders of your First Anniversary in Heaven. I don't say "Angel-versary" because you were already an angel while still on Earth! Think of it.....all that pain in your neck and back and you having no idea what was causing it or when it would stop or how to make it stop. And, yet, you were gentle and kind and curious all the time. Only when you needed more medicine did you let mommy know. Then we had to wait it out together until the medicine "kicked in" and took (some or all of) the pain away. Those were incredibly fragile times for you, and me, because I so wanted the time to fly by to get you feeling better. And no matter where you were, in the room or in the house, you always seemed to make that last turn in my direction. I knew that was my signal to come and sit on the floor closer to you and MAYBE touch you, but mostly just talk softly to you. I don't know how I knew what you needed, and sometimes I was really wrong, but a mommy knows what her baby needs, whether that baby is human or not. And you were (and still are) my baby. My sweet, sweet, brave boy!

Oh! How I wish everyone could have at least met you once. Everyone that did, with one exception, just LOVED you. Of course! 1. You are a Cocker Spaniel and 2. You are Trevor! What more is necessary? I know my threads are long and scattered all over this site, so it is difficult for some to really KNOW what you are like. One day, soon, I'll give a "short version" again. That way we can hope that many, many loving folks will start to love you, too!

I'm going to start getting you ready (you and all of your Heavenly friends and family) for next week when mommy sees the BIG doctors and finds out just exactly how "good" or "not very good" things really are. Of course, you are alway right beside my heart so you will know when mommy knows. I'm going to lean on you and your example and follow your Life Lessons #2, 7, & 8. I must post these Lessons in more places around here for the immediate future so that wherever I am in the house, your Lessons will be close and I can read them again and again.

I will say au revoir for now, reminding you just how much mommy loves you. wub.gif wub.gif wub.gif


Posted by: Gretta's Mom Aug 2 2012, 06:42 AM

Hi Trevor,

Thank you for being such a love-filled and courageous being. Your transformed your mom - and everyone else who loves you. I know you made - and make - a huge difference in this old heart of stone! I know your mommie feels so bad about not being able to hug you ... so I made her a huggie-pillow out of your blue blanket. It looks a little funny but it was made with love and, much more important, has your love and spirit in it. Now she at least has something to hold. Keep on sending those love rays down, sweetie. Mommie needs them.

Have another good day in the perfect World.

Auntie Jeannie

Posted by: Bobbie Aug 2 2012, 03:15 PM

Dear, Dear Trevor!

You are my sunshine, my only sunshine. You know that, right? From the first moment we met, I knew that we should be together for the rest of our lives. I just did not realize how short or how quickly that time would go by. Poof! and you were gone. I still don't like that, but it's not your fault at all. I was the mommy and had the awesome and painful resonsibility to repay your love with my love, even when that meant breaking my own heart and soul. I truly did not know if I could go on, but once again, Mr. Trevor stepped forward and rescued me! Rescued me from the deepest depths of crushing sorrow, slowly and gently, knowing just what to do and how to do it. Now, I can be happy at times because I know you are safe and you want me to be happy. Because when I am happy, you are happy and the other way around, too.

Thank you, my best friend in fur, for all that you have done for me. For what you have shown me by your love and what you have taught me by your example.

I hope you have the BEST DAY yet, up in Heaven! Tell all your brothers that their mommy still loves them with all of her heart and soul, too. Mommies can love all their dogges, kitties, bunnies, etc. completely, at the same time! laugh.gif


PS: Now I am seeing at least one butterfly each day when I go outside!!! It's GREAT!!!!!!!

Posted by: Gretta's Mom Aug 3 2012, 06:21 AM

HI Mr Trevor-Forever,

Thank you for sending a butterfly a day not only to your mom but to your Auntie Jeannie too. How can I tell you how much I love you? Every time I look at your perfectly sweet picture it brings a little ray of joy and warmth to my heart - no matter how down I might be feeling. Truly you are a miracle dog, my little man.

Gretta and Rufie's mom

Posted by: LoveMyMickey Aug 3 2012, 06:26 PM

Hello Sweet Trevor, wub.gif

Just stopping by to say:

I see that your Mommy and Aunt Jeanne are finding your Love Butterflies. I haven't seen any for a few days so I think Mickey is sending his Butterfly Love to them too.

Have loads of fun, Mr. Trevor-Forever, and keep sending love and healing rays to your Mommy.

I Love You All!!! wub.gif wub.gif wub.gif

Auntie LoveMyMickey

Posted by: Bobbie Aug 3 2012, 08:33 PM

Hello, today, my wonder-dog Trevor!

I still am amazed at how you continued to live life as much as you could, right up until the very end. I really want you to be my example these next several months. The morning would come and you would greet the day in the best way you knew how at the time. Evening was for being with daddy and mommy and having some "quality" time (as humans like to say). Then the nights........Oh, not so sure about the nights. This was when the spiders would crawl all over and the pain would become unbearable. You'd have to let someone (mommy) know so that you could get relief. And mommy would rush downstairs to makes you a "meatball" of various pain medicines to take away the pain and let you sleep. After awhile, I just grabbed as many pills as I thought it would take to really let you sleep and sleep. If an overdose occurred, then so be it, a good way to slip into the next world. Only it didn't happen that way and each time mommy was kind of glad. When that awful breathing descended on you one night in your last week on earth, I was so, so scared. Daddy and I stayed up all night with you until you fell into a regular sleeping/breathing pattern. Only to find out that this wouldn't be such a bad way to "pass on".

Oh, Trevor, you were and still are such a miracle to me, even more so now that I have the gift of hindsight. I don't know how you were able to continue, day after day, and still be so kind and gentle. But I promise to learn from you and put your lessons straight into my heart and my resolve. Thank you, my precious one. You still mean the world to me.


PS: Thanks for the butterfly today!

Posted by: Gretta's Mom Aug 4 2012, 07:05 AM

Hi Trevor

You are one beautiful dog - have been since the beginning of time and will be until the end of time. Please stay especially close to your mommie's side now. She needs you. You two were destined for each other by the Man who made heaven and earth. You're a pair ... you're part of the same being. Thank you Trevor. Thank you God.

Auntie Jeannie

Posted by: Bobbie Aug 4 2012, 11:04 AM

[color="#4169E1"][/color] Dearest Trevor,

REMEMBER: I have always loved you and will always love!


Posted by: moon_beam Aug 4 2012, 11:35 AM

Hi, Bobbie, stopping by to say hello and to thank you once again for sharing your beautiful love filled letters with your beloved Trevor with us. I hope today is treating you kindly, as well as Stan, Dreamer, Kelley, and all your family. Please know you are in my thoughts and prayers, Bobbie, and that I always look forward to knowing how you're doing and to sharing your treasured memories of your beloved Trevor.

Peace and blessings,

Posted by: My Doxie and Me Aug 4 2012, 02:45 PM

First and for most as you speak i hear as Health my be...As Hearts are Heavy in this instance your friend in your words
call to so many if i may what a beautiful voice you have for a friend as it has reached me as i follow Miss Gretta ..Forgive me
I see through my friends eyes as i speak with words not....

I look through a window yet without thought as a picture has not been given...
Seems your love for a friend speaks louder then My words.. The colours of bright white lay in my Heart for are friends...

My words where to find my own friend so in speaking in thought a moment in time where you see through Trevors eyes not in pain;
In peace a walk in the park something you may have missed in Idel ground again forgive me for my words as i wish.... Every word i speak
Takes a piece of my Heart for a friend as... Again i find the bright light that shines in your words for Trevor as so many seem to speak as
are friends have changed are life as i kneel and i Beg for Forgivness i...

To your living tribute to your friend Trevor has touched many as if a short time may bring many thoughts as you leave a blank in Trevors Voice...
I struggle to see so forgive...As i cross this thin line i reach out with Heart in Hand....

Your Kind words for my friend Moved me to speak...Thank you Bobbie and Mr Trevor

Posted by: My Doxie and Me Aug 4 2012, 03:35 PM

Once in a lifetime shall you every see a flying Spaniel....

I found one ;)Be well my friend..

Posted by: My Doxie and Me Aug 4 2012, 04:48 PM

A few words for a friend... as Thunder strikes...

Major Thunder Storm moving into Are Area as my new friend is very scared as my teachings tell a story i find comfort...
As a Bully teeth cleaning stick from Bingo brings peace.. Thank you Jen;

Bobbie have you thought about a rescue Spaniel to bring your teachings to others as i my speak out of turn please forgive me..
As i see your golden heart shine so bright into my friends light...

I will leave you this thought with Heart in Hand..


Posted by: Bobbie Aug 4 2012, 09:00 PM


Our friend(s) are back!!!!!!! Yippee!!! The words of the parent and thoughts of Jen have come exactly at the right moment - when I need them the most! THANK YOU, Jen and Trevor! Another miracle worked by you.........................................

Do you think we should tell that mommy has two rescue Cockers in her home now? OK! Dreamer and Kelley.

One day I will tell YOU all about them!

God bless you, Trevor! Oh! You are already in what do I do? God bless you, my friend.


Posted by: Gretta's Mom Aug 5 2012, 07:32 AM

Hi Trevor's mom

What a joyous miracle that your friends have found you on your new place. Isn't My Doxie WONDERFUL. That sleeping cocker puppy just goes straight to the heart. Hold onto things and thought like that and the love of blessed Mr Trevor and, as the OLD song says, everything will be all right.

Aunt jeannie, Gretta and Rufus

Posted by: Bobbie Aug 5 2012, 03:04 PM

Mr. Trevor,

I just cannot love you enough. Every day reaffirms our love and commitment to each other, no matter where we might end up. I love you. I love you. I love you.

And always wil!

YOU are my Mr. Miracle!


Posted by: Bobbie Aug 5 2012, 10:53 PM


HELP! sad.gif


Posted by: Gretta's Mom Aug 6 2012, 06:18 AM

Bobbie and Trevor

We're giving you all our strength and love. Even if your heart is so frightened that it can't be ffelt, it's there. We love you.

Gretta, Rufus and their mom

Posted by: LoveMyMickey Aug 6 2012, 12:05 PM

Bobbie and Trevor,

We're sending all our strength and love to you too. Many prayers are being said. We love you! wub.gif

LoveMyMickey and Mickey

Posted by: My Doxie and Me Aug 6 2012, 07:43 PM

As Angels Sing

I stand in the Memory of my friends shadow and wish for time passed as the grey falls from my sight....As Angels Sing

I look out a window in search of my Heart for a friend carries much of my sorrow these days as i feel something brush against my face as Angel
Wings Free strength begins to return...As i look up i;am filled with grief and bow my head as my Angel kneels and starts to weep...
With each breath i take another is stolen for i have no words...With Angel wings in my ear starts to Whisper and memmories of joy seems so real as
Breath fills me once more i open my eyes a prayer has been answered when my Angel Sings i have the Ability...
To See
To Hold
To Feel
To Ask
For my friends forgiveness as my friend has already given....I see my friend play in the fields of gold only to give chase as the wind that passes
Threw the tree's and she runs so fast as she turns not one paw touches the ground as my Angels Sings to me I have sight and my friend jumps
into my arms as i will never let go....We spend this last night looking into the waters as falling light from the night sky that shines down on us..
My Angel speaks as Wings Whisper in my Ear<Their time is short >As she looks to me for great care and understanding...
With the Ability to see when Harm may come between are Hearts...As words must be spoken only once for the pain that follows...

Till my Angel Sings once more i will wait with open Arms...

This Candle is for you Bobbie sometimes in letting others care for you...

You see how Beautiful their heart is..<Thats for you Trevor>

Wishing well to you and all your friends be strong seems you touched many on this site with your friends voice
as i find myself Thinking of others intime of need...How i miss my friend She has the beautiful Heart i just stumble
across thoughts that become words..

Be Well Bobbie and Mr.Trevor

Posted by: Gretta's Mom Aug 7 2012, 06:23 AM

Oh Bobbie

This is SO beautiful and So touching. What an Angel-touch that My Doxie and Me has once again created one of his masterpieces - one that goes straight to the heart - as usual. He's a huge blessing!! Thank GOd for people like him.

Gretta's mom

Posted by: My Doxie and Me Aug 7 2012, 06:45 PM

When Angels Fly

The wings that grace your feet are strong as this angel will hold you in his Arms only to Hear each Heart beat of the ones that part
As all your friends of passed sing this song as Angels Whisper and Wings that touch are Feet intime of need...How my friend lay me
down to sleep as she holds my head so i may breath each time your heart skips a beat so mine can be ..intime of need...
as i look up as the Angel that i may see true beauty shine within my reach my unspoken words have taught many things as the
gift of your voice seems to sing you are my angel that whispers in my Sleep<I will forever love you T.... Forgive...>

When time has passed you must know Tears will fall with each Step you take my life would have been lost if not for your love
When none with thought pass my cage...Each day many travel and look down to say... Oh what a good boy but i think not today....

My words will come for i wish for a friend that might say..

I promise to love you
I promise never to raise my voice
I promise to never raise my Hand
I promise no harm shall ever....ever come to you while i stand...
I promise to be by your side intime of need as i whisper Angels Sing.....

I will speak for only the Breavest Hearts will follow So my life without words to share with those that will have carried my sorrow
In my voice i find the magic words that shine.... with each Heart beat you take... as your Heart becomes mine...
My Friend will set me free so one day i can run through the days with angels wings i will speak.. only the Breavest hearts will sing so i can sleep in the nights even when are time shall be Brief
As the night sky shines one special light i will be the brightest Star you will see this is my love you have given me
for all my years in your time of need i shine down on all With angels Wings so many will see a Beautiful heart that i have seen...

I wish in your Tears to look close as i sit with Angels Wings as i Whisper ..I love you my Friend.. Thank you for my Wings...

Author Mr.Trevor

Posted by: My Doxie and Me Aug 7 2012, 08:49 PM

To Bobbie Seems smiles will have to come another Day my friend had other plans;)....

Wishing Well as this Angel Tree as many stories to tell...

Let me try my friend Leejay once said the colors of friends fly out my window as friends give chase
as Birds have many colors as they all sing the same song..My attemp to send Good Energy...I may need some help;)

Be well Bobbie i will hold your Strength for my friend holds mine...

Posted by: Bobbie Aug 7 2012, 10:17 PM

My eyes leak the salty tears of so many things, My Doxie. Tears of gratitude, hope, amazement, fear and resolve. Right now I could use Mr. Trevor (are you listening, my sweet boy?) as never before.

Tomorrow (wednesday) is the beginning of a whole new and frightening journey I must take - one step at a time. So much like Trevor did when he came to our house to live with complete strangers. He didn't know how he was going to be treated. He had no idea that I had already fallen head-over-heels, completely in love with him and that my only goal in life was to make his remaining years, his best EVER! But he held on to one thing, for sure, and that was TRUST. He decided to trust himself and then to trust me (and his daddy). Why else, when he felt so utterly frightened at the vet ER, would he bite into the arm of the person who love and accepted him the most? I would have it no other way (and the actual bite lasted several seconds). That is what a mother is all absorb the painand fear and confusion from her little one, then make some sort of soothing sense of it all for him.

That is what I must do, starting tomorrow and going on for how long? TRUST! And I will make Trevor (and you, my friend) so proud! I have chosen a sort of "theme" for this journey, along with a special picture. It can be seen on Google if the words "duckling - To Infinity and Beyond" are typed. The duckling if from my childhood and that's exactly what they look like and do! The know no different.

So, now I takes my chances, leaning on my forever love, Mr. Trevor, and my friends here. And I will TREUST!


Posted by: My Doxie and Me Aug 7 2012, 11:13 PM

Seems my friend and i will stand Guard;...

Posted by: Gretta's Mom Aug 8 2012, 05:52 AM

And God and I will be together full time today - storming heaven. I'll go to the google duckling right now, little sister. Everything is on hold today in the Perfect World as ALL the animals turn their faces to the Lord and ask for help for you - the best friend of animals on earth. If there is love on earth (and we know there is) my pack's and mine are at the front of the line.


Aunt Jeannie

Posted by: moon_beam Aug 8 2012, 09:42 AM

Hi, Bobbie, you are in my thoughts and prayers today and frequently every day. God is your strength and refuge, my friend, at all times and in all circumstances. May you feel His loving, comforting arms embracing you this day and every step of your journey - -one day at a time, one moment at a time.

Peace and blessings,

Posted by: LoveMyMickey Aug 8 2012, 12:06 PM

To my dear sweet friend, Bobbie.......You are in my thoughts and prayers to have faith and be healed......You know I love you and Trevor!.......LoveMyMickey & Angel Mickey

Posted by: Gretta's Mom Aug 9 2012, 07:31 AM

HI Bobbie and Trevor

Thank you for being you (both). We love you so much.

Gretta's mom

Posted by: Bobbie Aug 10 2012, 08:36 AM

Good Morning, Trevor!

Your Aunties are at it again! Auntie LoveMyMickey sent the most beautiful angel for us to share and Auntie moon_beam and Auntie Jeanne sent such wonderfu love notes! See, you DO make a difference each and every day.

Today could be a gloomy day - raining and cloudy, etc. - but I'm going to watch the Olympics again, although I am getting tired of water polo. Mommy has a million-and-one things to do around the house, lists to make, instructions to write for daddy and Auntie Jeanne while I am in the hospital. Daddy really tries, but just doesn't remember household "chores" like a mommy does. And Auntie Jeanne? Well, she can, but it's not in her Top Ten list of things to do.

You know, Trevor, that I am still scared of everything I have heard and read, but YOU (and your brothers) are my inspiration. You showed me how to accept just about everything you could (tolerate) and when you got to your breaking point, that's when you let us all know of your extremem displeasure. I don't think you disliked so many things, I feel that you were frightened. When humans are frightened, many times we try to hide behind a false bravato or get quite angry and lash out. We aren't nearly as direct as God's animals are. Young children are the only other human group that I can think of that are as direct with their feelings, etc.

Now, if you could do me a favor and work with St. Anthony to help me find your little baggie of your fur, I would really be grateful! I sleep on your pillow every night. It is just beautiful and I am right next to your beautiful name: TREVOR! Of course, I still have your picture and Rudy's tucked safely in my arms, but they end up in the wildest of places by morning! I wonder if you ever laugh at that during the night? I hope so.

My mind is not as sharp these days because I have so many things I am trying to sort out and remember. I think I have forgotten to thank some of the most marvelous people who have stopped by to say hello. I ask their forgiveness. I do really love every message. So does Trevor.

Trevor, I hope you have a day filled with great fun and adventure. Find out what is hiding behind all those clouds! And know that I love you with all my heart and soul, every minute, every second and so do a LOT of others!


Posted by: moon_beam Aug 10 2012, 10:03 AM

Hi, Bobbie, thank you so very much for sharing with us how you're doing, and your beautiful love letter ot your beloved Trevor. I can so relate to what you share with us: "When humans are frightened, many times we try to hide behind a false bravato or get quite angry and lash out. We aren't nearly as direct as God's animals are." Our precious companions know how to keep things simple and straight to the point.

I hope today is treating you kindly, my friend, and all of your family. Please know you are in my thoughts and prayers, and that I always look forward to sharing how things are going with you and your treasured memories of your beloved Trevor.

Peace and blessings,

Posted by: Gretta's Mom Aug 10 2012, 02:22 PM

Hi Trevor (and your mommie)

We CAN do it - yes we CAN. You and little Benji showed us how to live an love in situations much worse than the one we may be facing now. Gretta, too, going out every day during the cold Minnesota winter to try to find enough food to keep herself alive. And almost starving to death and being on the death list and then POOF! along comes a wonderful lady, rescues her, nurses her back to health, and then she chose me - like you chose Bobbie.

It teaches us to "get up just one more time" or as the old song says "Hold on, just a little while longer, Everythign is gonna be all right."

We've got God to protect us and you guys to love and be loved by. We'll be all right - even though we can't QUITE see the path right now.

I love you Trevor - and I'm SO happy I could get you pillow made in time for your mom when she really needs it.

You're a champ, little guy. YOu're a champ.

Aunt jeanne

Posted by: LoveMyMickey Aug 10 2012, 05:51 PM

Hi Sweet Trevor! wub.gif

I agree with your Aunt Jeanne, "Everything is gonna' be alright!" How do I know? Well, maybe just maybe, a little butterfly told me. smile.gif

My thoughts and daily prayers are with your mommy, aunt Jeanne, and your whole family.

I Love You All! wub.gif wub.gif wub.gif

Auntie LoveMyMickey XOXOXO

Posted by: My Doxie and Me Aug 10 2012, 06:55 PM

Posted by: Bobbie Aug 11 2012, 10:33 AM

Good Morning, my Trevor!

It happened again, didn't it? Our friend found our theme and picture and now everyone can share in it! You know, that little duckling also represents YOU and all you overcame and tried over and over again, just so that you could have a good life with us. I must remember that and put it forefront in my mind. You, truly, are my sunshine! I can look at your pictures, and your special pillow from Auntie Jeanne, and the rest of the world and it's problems melt away into silence.

I should tell you about "your" pillow. Auntie Jeanne took two 18 inch squares from that old blue blanket you'd lie on. She found a special embroidery place that stiched an outline of a great big heart with YOUR NAME in the middle of the heart! Then she put blue gingham ruffles all around the pillow, no it's not too feminine at all. And stuffed it with pillow stuffing to just the right firmness. I sleep on or with it next to me every night and feel even that much closer to you.

I hope we get another gift soon - a poem! They are so soothing to my soul and racing mind. (I want to read and know all I can about my cancer, but then I do and get incredibly frightened.) The poems are like bits of magic that bring me around to peace and tranquility, especially since I have a knight in shining armor protecting us!

Yes, Trevor, God sent you to me for specific reasons and I thank Him every day. I miss you terribly and always will, but it is getting easier to talk to you and think of you with a smile on my face now. happy.gif YOU are my hero!


Posted by: moon_beam Aug 11 2012, 12:14 PM

Hi, Bobbie, thank you so much for sharing with us how you're doing and your beautiful love letter to your beloved Trevor. I am sooo happy when you share with us: "Yes, Trevor, God sent you to me for specific reasons and I thank Him every day. I miss you terribly and always will, but it is getting easier to talk to you and think of you with a smile on my face now." I know your beloved Trevor is SOOOOOO HAPPY for you, his Forever Mom, and is smiling along with you as you talk to him and share your treasured memories with him.

Some people think that to smile again means they are being disloyal to their beloved companions - - that they will forget their beloved companions. But this is not the case. Being able to smile again doesn't mean that there won't be times when you share a special memory that there won't be a mist come to your eyes and sadness to your heart - - even years later in your continued earthly journey. It DOES mean that your heart can once again embrace the warmth of the eternal love you and your beloved Trevor share -- and enjoy it - - which can only bring a smile to your heart and face. And this is what your beloved Trevor wants for you, my friend. And I am sooo happy for you that you are now able to do this in your adjustment journey.

I hope today is treating you kindly, my friend, and all of your family. Please know you are in my thoughts and prayers, and that I always look forward to sharing how things are going with you and your treasured memories of your beloved Trevor.

Peace and blessings,

Posted by: LoveMyMickey Aug 11 2012, 06:48 PM

Hi There Sweet Trevor!!!!! wub.gif

Auntie LoveMyMickey signing in to say goodnight and that I love you!.....The pillow your Aunt Jeanne made for your mommy sounds so beautiful. That was so sweet of her to make it. I know it is a comfort to her and helps her feel close to you, especially at this time.

Now Mr. Trevor, you, Mickey, and Gretta be good little Angels and I will stop by again soon.

I love you Trevor and your mommy!!! wub.gif wub.gif wub.gif


Posted by: My Doxie and Me Aug 12 2012, 10:24 AM

A poem i would like to share...More would be welocme;to help a special friend intime of need...

From Poems Junction

A Trevor's Dream <Slightly Modified>To my Friends Needs...

When you allow angels to be part of your life, Miracels truly happen."
A loving angel came to me in my Dreams.
He showed me life's not always what it seems,
And brought me to a place where sweet dreams might Be...
He gave to me a gift that i now give...

To others so they might find their lost Sisters and Brothers...
As he whispers,"Take my paw i will lead you through
all of your pain that might be placed upon you in my time of need....
So this flight of dreams shines so bright we stand in are own Sorrow...
Close your eyes and open up your heart,
For then this flight of dreams so sweet can start
He brought me through the Darkness to the light,
Where Bright Colours wrapped around me with such Delight....<Angels Wings>
A patchwork quilt of true Beauty whithout seams,
Speak so loud Trevors Name i Truly Believe....
Each colour is a rainbow full of Dreams that we would Be...
<Miss Gretta I knew you had a beautiful heart even without Sight...Gretta Speaks through many it seems I can hear you;>

He led me through a hallway of pure sound,
With Doors flung open widely all around.
And from each room angels songs would play.
I wish with all my heart that i could stay,

As we drifted in the fragrance of the breeze,
To savor all of the flowers and the Angel Tree;s.
We tasted all of life that we could see,
As we felt it flow as one in Harmony.....

Then my Angel turns His eyes to me and Said,
Your the Keeper of my words for only you can speak in my time of need....
I will Dream of love and light, These Dreams
will lead you through the night...
As i;am the Keeper of these Dream, It's true,
For i offer all my Dreams to each of you, For a friend will speak intime when she sees..
The true beauty that shine even when words may be of pain...The very last thing i would
say to a friend that wishes;.. stay as Angels call my Name....
May all loving sweetness visit you each night
And fill your soul with love and Warmth and Light.

Mr. Trevor i can hear your friends voice Thank you....

Posted by: Gretta's Mom Aug 12 2012, 04:37 PM

I love you, too, Trevor. Thanks for helping your mom so much. Please keep doing that every day. I'll be away for a while but gretta and mickey and your brothers will be with you.

Aunt Jeannie

Posted by: Bobbie Aug 12 2012, 09:53 PM

Dearest Trevor,

Poof! Another beautiful poem from our friend! We are so blessed to have him, aren't we? And we will never take them for granted because each comes at just the right time with just the right message (help).

Tonight, I need your help, my love bug. I need your courage to face whatever is coming my way. I need your patience dealing with others who just don't seem to "get it". I need your fortitude to continue forward, marching headlong into a fray, the likes of which I have never seen. I need your acceptance of what is and what might be. I need your trust, just like what you had when you first met your daddy and me, that things will all turn out for the best. I need your gentleness to soothe my fears and nerves AND to pass that along to others, again like you did to me. Finally, I need your ability to LOVE, like no other, ever in my life before. So many reasons not to love shove themselves right in my face, just like you had. And yet, you continued to love and love and love until the very end and then your love transformed into an eternal, forever love. Me? I put up a fuss or have a pity party or get in a huff. Not at all helpful in the least!

Trevor, I know about the Purpose- Driven Life. YOU are the Purpose-Driven Dog who I was lucky enough to ask for and then demand, without even knowing what a great gift I was getting! That really is the best gift of all!!! Now, if only I could find your bit of hair to touch and draw strength from. It's got to be here somewhere! I'll bet Birney told you where to hide it that mommy would never find it.

Have a most wonder-filled night amongst the stars and the moons, with the saints and the angels. Every one of them loves you to pieces!


Posted by: Bobbie Aug 14 2012, 11:46 AM

Dear, dear Trevor,

This morning I wrote you a beautiful love note and just as I was posting it, something happened with my computer and all was lost! I am so sorry. I will try to re-say what I wrote, but cannot do that right now.

Just continue to know that I love you with all my heart and soul, forever and ever and ever. You are the best "thing" that ever happened to me, right up there with meeting and marrying your daddy.

Have a great day in Heaven, with all of your friends and family, new and old.


Posted by: LoveMyMickey Aug 14 2012, 06:31 PM

I Still Love You, Trevor
I Love You Now,
And I Will Love You,
Forever. wub.gif

Auntie LoveMyMickey XOXO

Posted by: Bobbie Aug 15 2012, 09:34 PM

Dear Trevor, the love of my life,

How could I possibly not love you for even one second??? IMPOSSIBLE!!!


Posted by: Gretta's Mom Aug 16 2012, 06:45 AM

Mr Trevor

Could you help me with something? Tell your mommie how sorry I am that I was so short with her on the phone last night. And .... please ask Gretta to send down some of heer infinite patience and understanding - her mom REALLY needs it.

Thanks, nephew

Auntie Jeannie

Posted by: Bobbie Aug 16 2012, 09:05 PM

Hello my sweet, sweet boy!

I have missed you all day today and wished very hard that I could be with you. But I know in my heart of hearts that I must wait until our times are right. You are the sunshile of my life and that is why I'll always love you! You had that effect on only special persons, too. Those that don't have the perfect qualitites to love and accept totally had no idea what greatness lay right underneath your surface. Only by relieving your pain and removing all things scarey did your incredible love, patience and acceptance shine forth. And we were the lucky recipients of that - every day. And, Even though we knew it, I was still shocked at the finality of it's earthly end.

Oh, Trevor, you are such a dream come true! I WILL love you forever and a day. I look forward to every day that I can at least think of you and remember so many wonderful things. Thank you.

Have a restful night, OK? How's about a little slumber party with Gretta and Mickey and Hermy, Silas and any other pals you'd like?


Posted by: My Doxie and Me Aug 16 2012, 09:53 PM

Wishing Well this photo represents Hope and thoughts of Well Being

When are strength starts to fade and Hope falls by are side we look within are
Hearts to find are love that are friends have given us with Memories that let us Heal...
Hold your Trevors words that only you can Hear for he speaks only to you as i know
what you have writen that may be lost comes from the Heart and can always be found
Your friend will Guide you intime of need as you walk by his side he smiles for a friend..
His Teachings will be your Guide in your Own journey as Strength and Hope Become
Sunshine for your friend smiles down on you...

As i sit at my window and the sun will dance with the waters as shadows rain from the trees
A song bird stands on my window sill and begins to sing a beautiful song as i watch this little fellow
He sings with all he has..I wonder what he is trying to say as a thought comes to mind in time...

I move with the stars before the Night becomes Morning Light i walk to my Friends special Tree
Where i kneel and Words are spoken i say my peace as i lay my friend to sleep... I stand and bring
Gifts to life that surrounds me The Squirrels must be fed so the Bird feeder can bring great songs of Hope...

Bobbie you have your own Song bird this one Sings as all can hear and has so much love and concern for your well being
Open your window look close and listen let the love fill your Heart for this Song bird only Sing for you...

Your Doxie friend...

Posted by: Gretta's Mom Aug 17 2012, 06:57 AM

Hi Trevor and Bobbie

Just sticking my toe back in a little to say I Love You to my sister and nephew.

XOXO Auntie Jeannie

Posted by: Bobbie Aug 17 2012, 02:57 PM

Dear, Dear Trevor, my love!

It keeps happening! The mini-miracles shower us with love and hope! What better combination is there?

The gift-poem is very powerful and peace filled at the same time. And I love birdie songs!!! You didn't know this, Trevor, but I grew up with canaries and even had two of my own when I first moved out here. I wallowed in their singing, especially when the vacuum cleaner was running or I was talking on the phone! Many times I couldn't hear the person on the other end of the phone as the singing was so intense. I'd call them back.

Trevor, it's because of your ongoing love and patience that I think Auntie Jeannie wrote to you. You have always been incredibly trustworthy and never went back on your "word". Only in the beginning, when mommy didn't have a clue what was going on inside of you, did you have to be firm and even to-the-point with me (including trying to bite me and giving me the most hateful looks I'd ever seen from a dog). Again, once we figured out what was really going on, everything made sense and life settled into a loving, caring, trusting pattern. Wasn't it so nice then?

Trevor, I must try harder to learn your Life Lessons as they will help me immensely in the hospital and with my recovery. Believe me, I'm going to have them posted everywhere I look, including in my room where OTHERS can see them and read them! Our kitchen is starting to look like, hmmmm, I don't know what, because I have taped up so many wonderful sayings and phrases about good doggies and even a couple about not-very-good people. I do this because I have such a tiny short-term memory (problem). You know: out-of-sight-out-of-mind (in more ways than one). I should put your Lessons at my bedside so when I cannot sleep at night and the boogie-man thoughts come creeping by, I can hold tightly to your list and read,read, read them over and over again! I'm going to put them there right now!

I LOVE YOU, TREVOR! with everything I have now and all that I will have in the future (except a bit less colon) wub.gif

Posted by: Gretta's Mom Aug 18 2012, 06:45 AM

Your mom's right. I don't have words right now, only tears. But I just couldn't let so many days go by without telling you how muchh I love you. (And your mom and dad).

Auntie Jeannie

Posted by: Bobbie Aug 18 2012, 08:58 PM

My darling Trevor,

Mommy was always there for you down here on earth and I thank you forever for always being there for me up in Heaven!!!!!!


Posted by: Gretta's Mom Aug 19 2012, 06:59 AM

Hi Trevor-dog

I love you - your little face brightens every day. Thanks for working so hard for your mommie.

Gretta and Rufus's mom

Posted by: My Doxie and Me Aug 19 2012, 04:48 PM

To a Beautiful heart as words are weaved i wonder why they do not speak more but i thank you...

The Love you have for jen pours from your heart and shapes words that bring meaning and feeling to life
Life that once was and still continues now into Eternity...Thank you Seems your Catholic school girl ways
can speak in Harmony after all;)

One other has spoken words from the heart<Lee Jay> so i thank you both...Now for that Song Bird;)

It seems two Hearts walk the same path one with Great vocal concerns about all and a very special friend as i recall
Grettas mom sings the loudest for her friends...As how i have become to know Gretta as i write...My path started with
Lee jay touching words of Understanding as a hand picks me up from my own Grief I thank you so much i was truly lost...

Then i hear Songs of great will and power for this friend would not go untold and i listen very close and Gretta touched my heart
as all the love was given to My Hero the great Mr. Rufus as i find myself telling a story as i see from within my Heart as i just may
bring peace. My friend has taught me to look close at a singlle moment intime and bring meaning so much could be lost as i share this
with LS and Friends yes i have found dear caring friends on this site and i have strength once more to tell stories of the Great Warriors
that walk....And i smile for my friend sits by my side;)

I find myself running from my own grief as i have spoken for a friend that walks by my side in the shadows of the light
as snow falls without my friend as my shadow stands alone.... So easy to miss the meaning of words when there not
your own... So i ask others to see through your friends eyes and what they see in a day with a special friend in a park in a ...

So Bobbie i would like to say this i wish i had a song bird that will sing to me hold my thoughts and give me strength as we take flight...
so i might speak again Jeanne your heart may pale in comparison to your Voice as sometimes a friend just needs you to listen in a difficult time...

This is the line i may have crossed i just wish to sit with my friend and watch the sun set so a storie can be told that will
not steal my breath...

Bobbie and my dear friend Trevor i wish i had more words sometimes you need to open your Heart...
Can you Hear the Song Birds this one only sings for you.

Posted by: Bobbie Aug 20 2012, 09:19 AM

Dear Trevor,

WE have been invited to listen to our very own Song Bird by a very special friend! Let's do it! Even though Fall is approaching and many birdies are taking flight to warmer places, I really admire those that say behind and brave cold, hunger, lack of water and or shelter. They keep hopping around, ever so hopeful and just sure that their next meal is just around the corner. Actually, I tell as many as I can to go to Mr. Ralph's house - he has many, many feeders for all the animals and, warm running water in the winter and plenty of shelter for all.

I didn't write this weekend as I was very busy, thus extremely tired. But I am glad that I could visit Uncle Mark because he is so very sick. I showed him that he and I are together on the same bracelet that a good friend sent to me and he was amazed! I tried to give it to him, but he's a guy......... Then, Olivia and Ben......Miss Tornado and little hugger bugger! Grandchildren are wonderful!

I hope you had a great weekend with all your friends! You make them so easily and they are friends forever. Gretta (a relative), Hermy, Mickey, Silas, Tucker, Gino, Gina. Peanut, Muppie......the list goes on and on. I wish you could, once again, teach me how to do that. I used to be very good at that, but everything got taken from mommy with very little, if anything, returned. I ran out........ except for the real friends on LS. Sharing my current illness challenge has brought some of them back, but most are filled with words only. Nothing behind the cliche phrases. Can't even get a religious man to meet with me! Is that a great lesson of it's own? I never thought of it that way, until just now. O, Trevor, you are one clever boy! Of course, you always were. Even in your worst hours you knew how to get to mommy and tell her what was going on.

I love you, my Trevor Forever! I just can't say it enough. But I get many times during each day and try to take advantage of as many as possible. You do know that when I tell Dreamer and Kelley that I love them, you are included in that LOVE, too.

Have a beautiful day, honey. I will check in with you later today, OK?


Posted by: Gretta's Mom Aug 21 2012, 06:22 AM

Hi Trevor-forever

I love you ... forever. Words are few but thoughts and prayers are many. Have a heavenly day! And ..... send down some rays to your mom, OK?

Aunt Jeannie

Posted by: Bobbie Aug 21 2012, 08:56 PM

Dearest Trevor,

I miss you so badly right now that I don't know quite what to do. Should I cry? That won't bring you back. Should I scream? Wake the neighbors and scare daddy. I try to bring a picture of you to mind, but only get snippets of your incredibly soft, soft hair, so curly and so clean. I cannot see your face, but can get a glimpse of your paw - always in my hand. We held onto each other through thick and thin. The two people we knew we could trust were each other. that's it.

Trevor, I have to have a test tomorrow afternoon that will tell the doctor (and me) if there is more cancer in my body than we thought. It is a long and arduous (physically challenging) test and I am nowhere near certain that the results will be negative. Not too much, in my body, has been positive lately and I have no reason to think this will be, either. Mommy is scared, really scared. And, right now, YOU are the only place I can go to feel safe at all. I don't know how to explain it to other people, but I know deep in my heart that you understand completely for you have been in the same spot. That is why I can share all of this with you - even at the expense of others not understanding why or how. It just is. I just wish to God that I could find your little bundle of hair so that I could touch it briefly and gather strength from you. Even my locket is all tangled up and has to go to a jewelry store to be fixed, so I have NO part of you right with me all the time. I must sound like a huge cry baby, even a scaredy cat, especially for my age. But, again, It just is. I can ask you to send me some courage and love, but you already do that all the time. And I don't feel I should ask for more yet. I know there will be times down the road when I will need you and all your friends and brothers (& cousin) to send strength, courage, fortitude, etc. down this way.

For now, my sweet, sweet boy, just know that I love you with every fiber of my being, every beat of my heart and every breath that I take. Listen to the Bird's song tonight, for me, while I try to sleep. Then you can sing it to me in the morning. What I wouldn't give to be able to hug you one more time, my precious one. But, again, not if it meant you would be in even one second's worth of pain. Let mommy take that pain right now, that sorrow that pierces her heart. For I know that, one day, we will be together forever and ever. What joy that will be! For you and me and daddy and all your brothers and cousins and friends......................................


Posted by: LoveMyMickey Aug 22 2012, 12:01 PM

Hi Sweet Trevor, wub.gif

I want to say I still love you and I'm remembering you and Mickey today, the 22nd.

Here is an Angel of Peace, Love, and Understanding I want you and I to send your mommy. We're sending lots of prayers too.

Love you all!


Posted by: Gretta's Mom Aug 22 2012, 02:29 PM

Hello Trevor Forever

Have your mom show you the picture of the Bobbie protectors (that's you mom's name, in case you didn't know). We will all make it through this dark place and again come into the light. You are the promise.

Aunt Jeanne

Posted by: Bobbie Aug 22 2012, 08:15 PM

Dearest Trevor,

Please thank Auntie LoveMyMickey for the beautiful angel of Love. She will definitely help. And thank Auntie Jeannie for her bobbie Protectors.

Right now I know exactly how you felt when left alone or when waking up during the night in pain before waking me up. I'm so sorry that you ever had to go through that. Please forgive your mom, OK?


Posted by: Gretta's Mom Aug 23 2012, 06:46 AM

Hi Trevor

Time to get your Musketeer suit on and start slinging your sword around! The big sadness has hit your mom and WE'RE not going to let it get her, are we? Whoosh - atta boy, cut that sadness in tiny pieces. Whoa ... look at all those heavenly doggies and bunnies and all kinds of other animals up there with you who suddently have swords ... oh ... and look at those Boxers with those boxing gloves on their paws. We're marching, Animal Army, we're marching!

XOXO Aunt Jeannie and Rufus XOXO

Posted by: moon_beam Aug 23 2012, 03:36 PM

Hi, Bobbie, stopping by to say hello and to get caught up on all your beautiful love letters to your beloved Trevor. I am wondering how your test went yesterday and if you have the results back. I am so sorry, Bobbie, that you are having to go through this medical crisis. Please know you are frequently in my thoughts and prayers every day, my friend, and that I am here for you, with you, and beside you through every step of your journey - - offering my support along with your beloved Trevor.

I hope today is treating you kindly, and that you will have a very peaceful evening blessed with your beloved Trevor's sweet Living Spirit to comfort you. Thank you for sharing your beloved Trevor with us, Bobbie.

Peace and blessings,

Posted by: Bobbie Aug 23 2012, 08:38 PM

My dearest Trevor,

Mommy is so very tired (and incredibly sad) tonight. But NEVER too tired to love you completely and miss you like crazy. You are the BEST!


Posted by: Gretta's Mom Aug 24 2012, 06:40 AM

Aw, Trevor - get out your pink tongue and furry ears and wipe up your mom's tears. Please!

Thanks baby,

Your Aunt Jeanne

Posted by: Bobbie Aug 24 2012, 08:37 AM

Good Morning, Trevor!

Today is a better day, honey. The sun is shining and the A/C is on! I slept pretty well, too. THANKS for all your kisses and your LIFE LESSONS! Without them I would be lost right now.

Have a GREAT day in Heaven and say HI! to St. Francis, OK?


Posted by: LoveMyMickey Aug 24 2012, 06:39 PM

Hi Sweet Trevor,

Just stopping by to send some love to you and your mommy.... wub.gif wub.gif wub.gif


Posted by: My Doxie and Me Aug 24 2012, 06:46 PM

Hi Bobbie and Mr. Trevor my thoughts have been with you and wishing well.

i have come across a few poems Flowers in mind Thinking of you Bobbie
and always Mr.Trevor

I Miss Your Presence <Poem from Only Buddy>Modified

I miss your presence around me

With so many people i feel alone

I miss your touch, the touch of a beautiful Heart

I miss every moment when you hold me tight and Whisper in my ear,

I miss when i hold you in the night so you can see the stars so bright

I am like a flower without sun

I drink the water that brings life

I am the morning lights that kiss your hand,

I ....

A Precious Poem for a Precious Person<Poem from Only Buddy>Modified

Now that i am missing you

I can write you letters...

telling you how much i feel for you

Now that i am missing you,

Every letter detail in life

Reminds me of you as you would do

Now that i am missing you,

I watch the sun set with hearts as one

Knowing you will see my love for you

Now that i am missing you,

I can dream with Tears that brings Night lights,

Now that i am missing you,

I can look forward to my Trevor all day

I paint a picture so all can see my friend that waits for me.

I will see the flowers dance in the breeze with sun light that pass by me,

I will be the pedals that touch the waters as i Kiss your hand

I will forever miss you my friend...

This Flower kisses the water so life can Heal intime of need to watch over the ones without speech...

Forgive me for my thoughts Bobbie what a Beautiful Heart Mr. Trevor has given to you...The reflection in the picture
Inprints it's beauty of time for a friend as true beauty shines from within how lucky is Mr.Trevor as such a Beautiful Heart
That Honors him...As Morning light shines with a friend As he Kisses your Hand for he will watch over you as each passing
day brings strength so you can heal.

Posted by: Bobbie Aug 26 2012, 05:08 PM

Hello my sweet, sweet boy,

I'll write a lot more later, but for now have a question that I know you will have a right answer for me. Here it goes: "When do I get to cry for myself? Or is that being far too selfish?"

Let me know whenever you want to my love! You know you are my hero!


Posted by: Gretta's Mom Aug 27 2012, 10:28 AM


I channeled my answer through Aunt Jeannie (not always the MOST reliable conduit but any port in a storm). You get to cry for yourself ANY TIME, ALL THE TIME - and please start it NOW. I can feel all the tears damming up in your heart and I don't want them to drown you when the dam breaks. Hear me?

I love you, mommy. Always have, always will.

Your boy,


Posted by: My Doxie and Me Aug 27 2012, 06:08 PM

Hi Bobbie your Doxie Friend....

Poem Not Written by myself someone with true talent.. Modified;

On The Wings of Hope <Butterfly Poems and Release Reading>

As ancient Legend goes;

If anyone desires a wish to come true,
they must capture a butterfly and whisper
that a wish to come true.

Since a butterfly makes no sound,
They can't tell a wish to anyone but the Great Spirit.

Althought this legend implies that we should keep our wishes silent
There are some wishes that need to be expressed for all to see.

To those that have been touched by Illness we are but Angels Wings beneath your feet...
We wish the caregivers strength and tranquility, and thank them for the gift of Love that holds are Hearts
So we may be...To walk with are friends on a Beach with waters that seem to wash passed are feet;

We wish the survivors a long and happy life,
and thank them for showing us how to fight with courage and determination
A will to fight as are friends sit by are side they tell stories of a Beautiful Human that Sings in the Morning light..

We wish those in battle fighting for life sending Energy and Hope and great strength of Angels might..
as all thank them for showing us true bravery in a time where we Kneel with Angels that whisper words of
great Delight when wings brush the ground to hide are Fallen Light...

And finally, we wish for waters that splash are feet as we stand in the sands of time that bring are friends back as light will shine how much love
that we have captured for all to see that have touched are hearts and as we look back we see are own foot prints in the sands of time.. as are friends
shines down in Memorie we Honor the fallen with great words of life...

Posted by: LoveMyMickey Aug 27 2012, 06:15 PM

My Dear Mommy,

Here is a little poem for you that Auntie LoveMyMickey found:

In Time of Sadness

As the rain falls
So do my tears.
My heart is full of sadness.
As the rain drops, may my tears find
Their way to the sea,
And let this sadness
Pass from me.
Blessed be.


Your Trevor Forever wub.gif

Posted by: Bobbie Aug 27 2012, 09:30 PM

Dear Trevor,

I am truly blessed beyond what I deserve! First, you were in my daily life, teaching me all sorts of lessons about unconditional love and devotion. When we sent you to the Lord, so that you wouldn't have any more pain, you gave to me, over time, some of the most wonderful friends in my life! And I've only met one of them (I would hope so, she's my sister!). The others that have stayed by my side, through thick and thin are three miracles and their dogs (past and present).

Thank you for helping me ask the question. And God bless each of you who gave me the perfect answer(s)!

Going to sleep for the night, my LOVE! Yes, Trevor, you ARE the BEST!


Posted by: Gretta's Mom Aug 28 2012, 06:47 AM

Yay, Trevor. Yay Bobbie, Yay for true friends with caring, loving hearts - just like you, Trevor, baby.

Posted by: Bobbie Aug 28 2012, 08:47 PM

Dearest Trevor and your dear, dear friends,

Mom has not had a good day at all. She has to see the doctor all of a sudden, tomorrow and is very scared about what the news is going to be.

Despite all that, I love you more than ever, Trevor! You showed me true courage and resiliancy (sp) and I MUST remember that tomorrow at the doctor's. Actually I prefer vets, but they won't take my insurance! laugh.gif

I love and am deeply indebted to you friends - you know who you are.


Posted by: Gretta's Mom Aug 29 2012, 08:03 AM

Dear Mr Trevor

Got another assignment for you .... go find a big, friendly lion by the name of the "Cowardly Lion." He's a guy who got his courage and strngth back while on earth here. he has a magic helmet that can send strength and courage to people and animals here on earth. (Hekmet is a hat.) It looks like an upside-down bowl and has two springy things coming out of the top that look like horns (like those things on the goats you see up there in the Perfect World). On the ends of those springy horns are two little red balls. These are the thing the Cowardly Lion uses to send strength and courage to earth here. Ask Mr Lion to send as much courage and strength to you mo as he can because she REALLY needs it today. I know it's a big job, but I'll set up a message for Mr lion to look for you.

Thank you so much for all you've done for your mom just by being you. Your love for her is the most important thing that's giving her strength right now.

Thank you Mr. Always-There and Always-Loving Trevor.

Your Aunt Jeanne

Posted by: LoveMyMickey Aug 29 2012, 11:51 AM

Aunt Jeanne...Thank you! I found the "Cowardly Lion"!....It took awhile and I really needed courage to wake him up, but all is well.

My Dear Sweet Mommy.....The Cowardly Lion is sending you all the courage and strength that he can find. Best of all Cowardly Lion gave me a medal to send to you for all the courage and strength you have shown during this sad time.

I LOVE YOU MOMMY and I know we will never ever forget each other. wub.gif wub.gif wub.gif

Your Little Son,

Posted by: My Doxie and Me Aug 29 2012, 06:31 PM

Sending Strength and Hope for a friend...

As you release this Butterfly in Honor of me,
Know that i;m with you and will always be.

Hold a hand, say a prayer,
close your eyes and see me there.

Although you may feel a bit Torn apart,
please know that i'll be forever in your heart.

Now fly away butterfly as high as you can go,
I'm right there with you more then you know.

By Jill Haley

Posted by: Bobbie Aug 29 2012, 08:39 PM

Oh Trevor!

Mommy is simply overwhelmed at the love flowing our direction and the amazing intensity of it all! I am at a loss for words to adequately say THANK YOU, so I just sit and drink it all in, over and over again, each word at a time!

Mommy's news today was not good at all. It makes me sad, scared, mad and determined all at the same time. I know you know how that feels. Mommy has a cancer inside of her and it is in more places than the doctors first thought. Now, mommy has to take lots of medicines for 3 months before she can have her operation and then she will need more medicines afterwards. The odds are lousy (kind of like yours were), but daddy and I are determined to fight this health battle together with you and all our amazing friends here at LS and every one of YOUR friends in Heaven, and WIN!!!!!!!

Meanwhile, I will never stop telling your story, singing your praises and teaching your Life Lessons. Now I know why God kept us apart until it was the "right" time! You were/are my teacher and example to follow and I'd best get a move on and do just that!

Please give my LOVE to every one of your firends, buddies and relatives in Heaven. As I say a humble Thank You to their people here on earth!

I LOVE YOU ALL!!! wub.gif


Posted by: My Doxie and Me Aug 29 2012, 10:03 PM

Posted by: Gretta's Mom Aug 30 2012, 06:45 PM


I'm not sure exactly what this is but it sure looks like a weapon to use against your mom's evil disease. Thank you for all you bring to the world, Mr Trevor-Forever.

Aunt Jeannie

Posted by: Bobbie Aug 30 2012, 10:41 PM

Hello, Sweetheart!

I hope you had a really good day today. Actually I hope that for you every day! And why not? First, you are in the Perfect World and second, you certainly deserve even better things after all you suffered here on earth. And you were a happy dog, even as the end drew near and that become an almost impossible task. Even in your pain and fright you exuded a confidence that, between you and me, we'd get the job done right (e.g. getting down those awful stairs in the morning). THAT is when I began to truly understand what patience is all about, and am in the midst of forgetting that lesson when dealing with he huge medical institution I have stuck myself in, in hopes of receiving the best treatment(s).

Mommy cried a lot today, for the first time in a long time. I was crying for me and also wishing I had your soft fur next to me to ease the neuropathy pain. I know exactly what my limits are in reaching out to you (BTW - thanks for the white butterfly today!) so I did content myself with remembering what a comforting experience it always was when I would touch and caress your fur.

Waiting is frustrating, reading is terrifying, not being able to reach my doctor is awful and I'm not used to any of that, so I grab your Life Lessons and try to remember specific examples of why each one is a Life Lesson. It's not hard to do. Having your collage in the living room where I spend most of my day, is a tremendous help, too. I can see you when you were happy and content which brings a measure of peace to my heart.

You know, Trevor, your mommy is a mess right now. I don't know what the "right" things (that will help me) are and I worry that my grief (although temporary) will hurt my chances. But I hold you in front of me as the shining example of what CAN be done when love is involved. And I get so much courage from your friends' mommies and daddys. Did you see the Knight and all that protective armour? I'm going to have to put that on from time to time to be even half as tough as you are! Thank you Mr. Doxie! And the poems from Mr. Doxie and LoveMyMickey are so soothing! I'm going to owe a lot back when I recover!

Well, mommy is really tired so I'm going to say Good Night, my love! Have beautiful dreams and so will I!


Posted by: Gretta's Mom Aug 31 2012, 11:04 AM


You little Angel you! You just keep on giving and giving and giving. How can we ever thank you enough?

Aunt jeannie

Posted by: My Doxie and Me Aug 31 2012, 05:56 PM

A Knight will guide you without fear for he will charge into battle with shield in air to protect the ones close to his heart
so Beautiful life might be with a butterfly that sets us free...Knights have many meanings and will rush to
your side to save the ones that bring life as he gives his own for the Beauty that heal and set him free....
When the morning light breaks and this Knight stands alone he will kneel and pray for the innocents that lead him
so others my is rear that you will see such power fall to there knees and yet it may...

Bobbie you have touched my Heart i feel sadden and wish great strength... at the same time you may have
others to save...This knight will kneel by your side and watch over you in times as his wings will
Brush the ground that Grace your feet....

Please be well Bobbie

A song-Enya Aniron (Extended)HD
Beautiful journey in the Tree's
that sing a great song of times
once would be with paw prints
that line Eternity as Frost cover
the Glass that Seperates me
from the cold that i share
with a friend that dance
in the winters that past
Has risen i must kneel
for a Knight that has given
her life so i might see....

My broken words shatter with
each breath i take i wish you well
Bobbie Mr.Trevor Thank you

Posted by: Bobbie Aug 31 2012, 08:00 PM

Oh my sweet, sweet Trevor!

I don't even know the number of Fridays that have passed since we had to physically part. All I know is that it is too many, far too many. And I miss you with all my heart (still shredded) and soul (still crushed). How could I not? I think you were a forerunner of what life was going to bring my way, in some regards. Because I'd never done for you all the things I did and you are my first little boy that I have no regrets about what I did for you. I have learned so many lessons and yet I am still the tiny novice trying to find my way through the forest of a life gone haywire. As long as you are my goal, I will be able to continue on. Of course, I will never be without a Cocker Spaniel at my side - you know that!

My sweet Treasure, thank you for touching others' lives as they touch mine. I have been blessed with many new human and animal friends on this site - some of whom are better friends than those in my own day-to-day life! I think that's because we all have something in common: returning the love and soaking it up from the creature of God's that blessed our lives (and continue to do so on another plane). WE have an appreciation for the short amount of time we must compress our love and devotion in to and, you know, we all feel, at some point, like we kind of failed. But we also have the amazing love and Spirit of our best friends to keep us company 24/7/365! And all you wonderful Spirits love all of us now!!!! Another miracle!

Mommy had a horrible day again. But it is ending in a much better way - a way that has given me some measure of peace. That is priceless.

Thank you, my LS friends (you know who you are by now!). To steal a quote, "LIVESTRONG!"


Posted by: Gretta's Mom Sep 1 2012, 09:35 AM

Bobbie, Trevor

All we can say over and over and over again is WE LOVE YOU!!!

Gretta, Rufie, and their mom

Posted by: Bobbie Sep 1 2012, 04:54 PM

Dear sweet boy,

Well, mommy did what she said she was going to do. Oh! But first we need to welcome Miss Gretta and Auntie Jeanne to their new "home". I think they will like it here. I know I do and I think you do, too, honey.
This morning, first thing, I took every notebook, guide book, printed article, cards from friends, any and everything related to the Big C and stuffed it in a drawer in my breakfront. Then I slept, on and off all day. It was a cloudy day so that helped. Daddy donated platelets and then got himself a couple pairs of good shoes and he came home and slept! I think it is the right decision since nothing more can be done until Thursday when we meet the new doctor......

And I think back how I kept taking you to those butchers in Manchester. I am so very, very sorry and hope that you have or will forgive me. Only Dr. Sorrells was good to you. THAT is another Lesson I've learned. Just because an awful vet's office can do something that most others' won't is NO excuse to continue to allow them to torture your best friends!!!!!! And, true to your nature, you never indicated a problem until the very last time when I should have raised holy hell with them for what they did to you and the pain and terror they inflicted on you. At he time all I wanted to do was get you out of there, away from there and back to where you would feel safe. You were even afraid to walk, poor baby! Where was my mind?

Yes, mommy made some amazing mistakes with you and each of your brothers. Hindsight is 20/20. I wish I didn't have such a good memory of those events. And the only way I can make it up to you all is to try and be the best I can to Dreamer and Kelley. Animals are amazing! Their capacity to forgive is unparalleled. We humans don't even come close. So, thank you Crocker, Birney, Kelly, Jasper, Rudy and Trevor for your unconditional love and forgiveness. I cannot wait to see you all together and all so healthy and happy. Spot and Squirt are in there, too!

If you don't mind, Trevor, mommy is going to go downstairs and play some ball with Kelley and Dreamer. (Dreamer is just too fast and always gets the ball first. Gonna have to find TWO balls!)


Posted by: LoveMyMickey Sep 1 2012, 05:34 PM

Hi Trevor,

Mickey has been rounding up some Perfect World friends to help you and your mommy fight the fear and sadness of this old illness. These are just a few because there are millions.


I LOVE YOU TREVOR-FOREVER!!!! wub.gif wub.gif wub.gif

Auntie LoveMyMickey

Posted by: LoveMyMickey Sep 1 2012, 05:39 PM

Hi Trevor,

These were kind of slow. Let's hope their fight is better than that! rolleyes.gif

Posted by: Bobbie Sep 1 2012, 09:17 PM

Dear Auntie LoveMyMickey,

YOU ARE TOO MUCH!!!!! My mommy laughed and laughed until I thought she was going to have an accident in the house!!!! You are such a perfect friend for mommy (and a great Auntie, too!). You know when to make her happy and when to make her feel loved and she tells me that she sees butterflies all over the place now (especially since she is looking for them)!

You are right about my mom, too. WE all are going to win this fight 'cause we have each other: One for all and All for one! (I don't think it has to stop at Three MusketeerDogs either - the more the better!)

Thank you, Auntie LoveMyMickey, for bringing some joy to my mom. I saw a real smile for the first time in quite awhile! I LOVE YOU!!!!! wub.gif

Love and kisses, (I wasn't much on hugs, that hurt my neck) ************
Trevor, your nephew wub.gif

Posted by: Gretta's Mom Sep 2 2012, 08:51 AM

Hi Trevor baby

Thank you and your mom for finding Gretta and me in our new home. I didn't watch those fighters in action but they must have been hilarious - made you mom smile and REAL smile - first in a long time. Rufus and me are tight behind them ... with our teeth bared. (Well, I guess I'd better try to scare it with my fake growling, since my teeth wouldn't sscare ANYONE!).

Thank you for sending all those love and strength rays down to your mom. And thanks to the ever growing group of Musket-dogs and Musketeers - especiall Mickey, Doxie and Moonbeam - who are able, like you , to touch and comfort your mommie's heart.

You're sure a miracle dog, my Forever Man.


Aunt Jeannie

Posted by: moon_beam Sep 2 2012, 11:08 AM

Hi, Bobbie, stopping by to say hello and to bask in the joy of your beautiful love letters to your beloved Trevor. And - - to smile at our forum friend LoveMyMickey's wonderful responses to you. How very clever you are, LoveMyMickey, with all the wonderful pictures.

I hope today is treating you, Stan, Dreamer, and Kelley kindly, my friend, and that you will have a very peaceful evening blessed with your beloved Trevor's sweet Living Spirit to comfort you. Please know you are in my thoughts and prayers, Bobbie, and that I look forward to sharing your news and your treasured memories of your beloved Trevor.

Peace and blessings,

Posted by: LoveMyMickey Sep 2 2012, 01:05 PM

Hi Trevor!!!

I want to thank you and your mommy, Gretta and her mommy, and our wonderful friend moon_beam, for bringing a smile to my face this afternoon. I laughed because you all laughed....I try to bring a little humor into our lives during these trying times.

Now, Trevor, you and all your Perfect World friends keep on fighting! mad.gif smile.gif

I LOVE YOU, TREVOR-FOREVER!!!! wub.gif wub.gif wub.gif

Auntie LoveMyMickey

Posted by: Bobbie Sep 2 2012, 08:53 PM

And I LOVE every one of you! Each of you has helped my mommy in many ways and I am very thankful to you all. Us animals here in Heaven are gathering around to help, not only my mom, but any and everybody that needs help - ever!

Gotta go to sleep now. All this excitement makes me really tired! wink.gif

I LOVE YOU ALL! wub.gif

Dearest Trevor and Most Special Friends,

Today was my second complete day of vacation from THE illness or anything connected to it. Gee, it was nice. Going for Day #3 tomorrow! Happy Holidays!

And, Trevor, you know I would never take a holiday from loving you!


Posted by: Bobbie Sep 3 2012, 04:31 AM

Dear Trevor,

I need your courage and strength right now. Haven't slept tonight - sick and low blood sugars.

Thoughts and memories of YOU keep me going! I LOVE you my little hunky-bunky.


Posted by: LoveMyMickey Sep 3 2012, 12:43 PM

My Dear Sweet Mommy,

I am so sorry you were sick and couldn't sleep. I am sending you an Angel of Peace. I hope it makes you feel better. I know you love me, mommy, but I LOVE YOU MORE if that's possible!!!! wub.gif wub.gif wub.gif

Your Little Boy, Trevor-Forever..XOXOXO

Posted by: Bobbie Sep 3 2012, 08:59 PM

Thank you so much, my sweet Mr. Trevor!

Today was kind of a long day, but I am somewhat recovered now.

I'm going to take ONE more vacation day from the Big C - tomorrow! So I will have time to catch up with you and all our friends!

Have a peace-filled night, my love!


PS: LoveMyMickey is always there, isn't she?? wub.gif wub.gif

Posted by: Bobbie Sep 4 2012, 05:51 AM

Trevor -

You are my sunshine! My only sunshine! You make me happy when skies are gray! You really know, dear, How much I love you! Please take all my sunshine today!!

Oh, honey, how I love and miss you!

And, once again, to those who love Mr. Trevor and get me in the deal........................THANK YOU and BLESS YOU!!!!!


Posted by: Gretta's Mom Sep 4 2012, 11:05 AM

Trevor, you miracle boy

You ARE the sunshine! Thank God for sending you and only you to your mommie just at the time when she would really need you and your life lessons. You've strengthened her soul a million times over.

Thank you, you wonderful dog.

Aunt Jeannie

Posted by: My Doxie and Me Sep 4 2012, 05:15 PM


<Butterfly poems and Release Readings>

You have given me with which to fly
Now i Breath in deep and spread thou wings
as we lift off from the silken petals into
The winds where the Butterflies glide.

My words...

With each flight we take we carry a special friend with Angels might that hold are friends intime of need
For are Wings will spread as we look within where good begins with open Arms as Angels lift are friends
are Heart will guide us to the ones we love...That will wake by are side only to find each
Heart that beats for the love of ones that hide are pain as we take are friends paw
and wish them well as we help them cross over as we Kneel with are heads held high
speak words to let them know they are safe as we Embrasse with great
joy as light begins to take the one that holds are Heart...

This space i could not write i do not wish to cross that line...

Bobbie and My friend Mr. Trevor i wish you well today in this journey.

Who am i... just someone that found the light after a friend looks up
and i speak for the one that i hold in my arms...
I truley wish for Silence as Joy for a new friend Needs my Help
or should i say i need for my Friend to Guide me to help others
so i can speak and take a momment to easy your pain...

Now a journey is not complete until you tell a story of your freinds
i Hear they like to chase as they bring joy to others as your heart
race for the one that you hold close to yours...

I look forward to Mr.Trevors friends seems your Heart holds much love
for the ones that can not speak i will kneel only for the few....

My Heart felt words i wish for a moment of peace so you may breath;
Is why i write to find..

As you ask for a Poem i try and find my friend..

Your Doxie Friend Be well Bobbie...

Posted by: Bobbie Sep 4 2012, 10:06 PM

Oh, how I LOVE butterflys!!! Ever since my friends told me who and what they are, I see them every time I go outside now.

What a delight to be visited by so many friends!! dogs, cats, bunnies, roosters, hamsters, all God's creatures.

My love for Trevor and his brothers grows daily. So does my love for ALL animals. They are so silent in their suffering. We MUST be their voices all the time!

Trevor, thank you for sending courage rays to Kelley. He's doing much better - still has a long way to go.

Mommy talked to a cancer survivor-mentor tonight. I have a real angel to talk with any time. She knows what is coming up for me - she has already been through it and SURVIVED!!!!! laugh.gif I learned a lot of good information tonight and can start working on it tomorrow.

For tonight, I LOVE YOU Trevor!!!! always and forever! wub.gif I love you, my friends, also because you keep me going..........

Good Night all!!


Posted by: LoveMyMickey Sep 5 2012, 05:59 PM

My Dear Sweet Trevor,

This is for your Mommy. Let us be in constant prayer for her. We all love you and your mommy so very much..... wub.gif wub.gif wub.gif

XOXOXO Auntie LoveMyMickey XOXOXO

Posted by: Bobbie Sep 5 2012, 08:34 PM


for the prayers and the thoughts and all the butterflies!!! I saw another white one today and I smiled. And there is not a whole lot to smile about today and most likely tomorrow. You always know how to make me feel good and special. And you love Trevor, too!

LOVE YOU, wub.gif

Dearest Trevor,

I will miss you forever! Well, that's not really true because one day we will be together. That will be Happy Days Are Here Again! Mommy is very nervous tonight because tomorrow is the beginning of reality for her once again. Yikes! But I will have you with me, right next to my heart, so how bad can it really be? I'll tell you tomorrow. dry.gif

Have a wonderful night, my love!


Posted by: Gretta's Mom Sep 7 2012, 06:25 AM

Hi Trevor Forever

Thank you for visiting the Good Father up there in the Perfect World and asking Him to send a break and some blessings to your mom yesterday. She's got a long way to go - just like you did - but with you, her animal pack and all the people who are praying for her, she will overcome!

Thanks for sending rays of all kinds whenever we need them, Mr Fluffy.

Auntie Jeannie (and Rufie)

Posted by: Bobbie Sep 7 2012, 06:32 PM

I LOVE YOU, my sweet and precious Trevor....with all my heart and soul....forever and ever!

XOmommyXO wub.gif

Posted by: LoveMyMickey Sep 7 2012, 06:40 PM

My Dear Sweet Trevor,

Take good care of your mommy, which I know you will. We're all praying for her...I love you both!!!! wub.gif wub.gif wub.gif

Auntie LoveMyMickey XOXOXO

Posted by: Gretta's Mom Sep 8 2012, 06:58 AM

Hi Trevor, you little dude!

We love having you (no, more than that , we NEED having you) in our Musket pack. Words are few but you can understand what's in our hearts.

Love, Aunt Jeannie

Posted by: LoveMyMickey Sep 8 2012, 11:49 AM

My Dear Sweet Mommy,

Cousin Gretta gave me some Strength Rays to give to you. She gave her mommy some. I hope they make you feel strong and help you conquer anything and everything.....I LOVE YOU SO MUCH, DEAR MOMMY!!!! wub.gif wub.gif wub.gif

XOXOXO Your Son, Forever-Trevor XOXOXO

Posted by: Bobbie Sep 9 2012, 11:02 PM

Thank you my Trevor,

For the beautiful Strength Rays you shared with me. I'm going to need them very soon. And I'm going to need every single memory of you because, Tuesday is the Starting Date (or should I say Round) with Mr. C.

I am so blessed with the many, loyal friends here on LS. Their poetry, pictures, encouragement and LOVE surrounds me like a comfortable balnket, keeping me from the cold, cold outside. One more day to act 'normal" and then never again! But knowing I have you and Gretta and Mickey and the Doxies and Moon_beam and LoveMyMickey and Jeanne tomention a few, give me YOUR courage to face the days that come.


Posted by: Bobbie Sep 10 2012, 10:38 AM

Good Morning my sweet Trevor!

It had to be you. You asked the Good Father to send a nice day mommy's way, didn't you? I have windows open, hear the birds singing and cannot wait to go outside and see a butterfly! Thank you, honey!

There was a beautiful memorial ceremony at the Humane Society yesterday. Andrew arranged for it and it was the first one ever! The day was perfect and there were about 30 people there. The speakers were OK for a first time and you know that I will give Andrew all of my suggestions for next year! We were encouraged to bring a flower for each pet that we wanted remembered and so mommy brought a dozen roses and was still TWO flowers short! I am so glad that I could make it. We didn't bring pictures of everyone because we would have filled one complete table of our own! Your picture is still in my wallet (and everywhere else in the house). Afterwards, did you see daddy and me come by and clean up the graves? They weren't bad, mostly fast-growing weedies. We sat on the bench for a few minutes and then went back home. It was a good day, but I missed you so much. The ache is a bit different now - not stabbingly painful, but painful none the less. It is more like a true ache and emptiness that mommy knows will never be filled until we are together again. It's not the resolution that comes with plenty of time passing. That takes years - just ask your brothers. I still ache as much for Rudy.

Well, sweetness, I'm going to try and get some last minute work done at home. Tomorrow I get the port in and then Thursday is THE day. Going to need lots of Love and Courage Rays that day.

I LOVE YOU, MY TREVOR! wub.gif wub.gif

Posted by: Gretta's Mom Sep 10 2012, 02:07 PM

Hello Trevor Forever

Thank you for asking the Big Father to send a wonderful day your mommie's way. She SO needs and deserves it. Thank you for coming into her life and being the one and only dog she needed right at that exact time. You are truly a miracle dog. I count it a true blessing that I got to meet you in person - and I have your picture (the most beautiful picture even taken of a dog) standing up in my buffet where Rufus and I can always see it.

I love you, Trevor. eespecially for all you did, are doing and will do for your mommy.

Auntie Jeannie

Posted by: Bobbie Sep 10 2012, 09:11 PM

Dear Trevor,

Today I know exactly what you must have felt like many times before you and I met. I feel very scared, totally misunderstood, don't know what is going on, judged by another's standards and completely alone in this mess. I am ever so grateful that God brought us together so that I could offer you some measusre of comfort and total love before you moved onto Heaven.

I miss you like crazy and often ask myself, "What would Trevor do in a similar situation?" only humans don't come rushing towards other humans unconditionally. I know that sounds harsh, but most people did not understand how I could love you so much and be so dedicated to you 24/7. They just knew there had to be an ulterior motive. Well, they were wrong - totally.

Trevor, I'm, once again, going to need your guidance tomorrow. You know exactly what I mean. You are always with me and for that I am eternally grateful!


Posted by: moon_beam Sep 11 2012, 10:48 AM

Hi, Bobbie, once again thank you so much for sharing your treasured love letters to your beloved Trevor with us. I do firmly believe that God blesses us with His precious companions to be His ambassadors of comfort, encouragement, and hope when other people around us just don't "get it."

I know today is another step forward in your journey. I hope you know you are NOT alone, Bobbie - - you and your beloved Trevor do have many friends standing with you who are here for you through every step of your journey. I hope today will be kind to you, and that you will have a very peaceful evening comforted by your beloved Trevor's sweet Living Spirit. Please know you are in my thoughts and prayers, Bobbie, and that I look forward to knowing how you're doing and to sharing your treasured memories of your beloved Trevor.

Peace and blessings,

Posted by: Bobbie Sep 12 2012, 08:59 PM

Hi Honey Bun!

I hope you had a wonder-filled day today. There are always so many new friends to make aren't there?

Tomorrow I have my first BIG treatment, but I have to take a class first so that I know what I am doing.

Can I borrow some of your SILENT COURAGE????? Thanks!


Posted by: Gretta's Mom Sep 13 2012, 06:40 AM

HI Trevor

You are a MIRACLE dog! Just be being, you've given your mom the courage to do something terrifying with the calmness and serenity you always had through your awful troubles. Please help me learn to do this, too.

I love you, doggie.

Auntie Jeannie

Posted by: LoveMyMickey Sep 13 2012, 06:21 PM

My Dear Sweet Mommy,

Heaven is echoing with all the animals praying for you. I wish you could hear them, maybe you can in your heart. I LOVE YOU, MOMMY! wub.gif wub.gif wub.gif

Your Loving Son,
Trevor - Forever who will always be by your side.

Posted by: Bobbie Sep 13 2012, 09:25 PM

Thank you so much my Trevor love!

I heard all the creatures praying for me and encouraging me in my heart. I really did. And please thank Auntie LoveMyMickey for sending your message to me. She is the BEST!

And mommy made it through her first Chemo Day!!!!!! It was tough, but I hear the rest are much easier. Your daddy was a champ, too!

Talk to you (and everyone) tomorrow!


Posted by: My Doxie and Me Sep 14 2012, 05:43 PM

Bobbie your strength comes from the kindness of your Heart the care you give to all brings sunshine
in time of need my words they come in a thought that will touch the hearts of the ones that care grief is my chains that keeps me here at the same time it frees me each thought that comes
to mind hurts me...seems pain becomes my friend these days so i kneel.

To a special friend what do i say when I am unable to take the hurt away.Well i like to listen to the one
that writes with chalk; i do wish you well i am with out flight my words for you comes without..When i
have lost Jen seems i take the time to see Each cloud that moves across the sky the sun that dance
with the Trees this carrys over to understand others intime of need you have great strength you just
need to set it free...Do not give up on your friends sometimes your friends need you to hold them up...

New Beginnings_A Flight in the Sun

That first step into the sunshine of life
begins with the opening of the family cocoon.
The catepillar becomes a butterfly
spreading her wings into the world

What she is today is but a tiny mirror
of the transformation that is yet to come.
For with time,Love,humor and warmth
She is an everchanging masterpiece.

Using the instincts that each of us have
to find the good in each other
to be a caring friend to listen and share
to laugh and cry with the ones that light shine

With loving support of family and friends.
she takes flight down an unknown road towards the future,
like the rising of the sun in the east
Each day filled with new beginnings

Finding excitement and challenge at each new turn.
Her flight through life filled with many happy Mr. Trevor
moments With memories to put in her book of life
As the sun moves along that steady are path across the sky

When the sun at last begins to set in the west
and her flight nears its end, she can look back along her path
and know that she has been everything she can be
and has done her very best.

Poem by linda dietz<Modified>

Bobbie you may ask to much of me the ground i walk will not hold my own wieght as it crumbles beneath my feet
what i do know you have more strength and kindness within your heart for others will carry you in time
for your friends that speak they follow i know who the leader is i just needed to her your voice; and i thank you.

Do not forget that i am the man that sits at this bench waiting for my friend without sight....

Seems i cannot raise my shield today;...

My next post will bring smile i promise;)

Posted by: My Doxie and Me Sep 15 2012, 06:02 PM

Forgive me for my words of passed seems my strength was less then..The path that you walk is without knowing
Bobbie i thank Mr.Trevor for this he gives you sight walk in his paw prints he has left a trial for you to follow what
a special friend that lights your way when the moon falls and we are left alone until morning light brings peace.

Now Put down your chalk; tell me about the little girl that walks behind the Ducklings in the morning light..

Your heart is pure as the ones that you hold in your arms only you hide so much from the ones that
sit by your side and i see your strength seems you carry a shield aswell to protect the ones you love.

A Poem by Joff


In a land of plenty i was born,
That was when i began to consume.
At first,the amount was very small,
But my hunger increased as i grew,

My eyes seen only what was for me,
Not caring for others,never thinking deep,
In time all things came within me,
But never enough, i could not sleep,

Something was missing, my search began,
So too my strange dreams i couldn;t ignore
I dream i was flying through the air,
And didn't need to consume any more,
As my thoughts of a friend bring me to my knee;s
And the sun light brings me peace to speak with my....J,..

With new eyes I have seen the brightest lights that set me free.'
From my new body burst the new me,
I lifted my wings and flew Free,

I looked down below as each pass of my wings sets me free,
This precious world the Beauty that few can see,
as the Beautiful Duckling runs to take flight he seeks
others to hold him when Angels sings so he might
fly free as this runway is as long as need be.

My Hidden Pain. Now i promised smile today let's begin;

Posted by: My Doxie and Me Sep 15 2012, 06:16 PM

When ever ineed and time seems to slip by each finger,
That grasps the light that brings hope and delight,
What shall you do i will bring light to show you,

Plant a Doixe seed deep within your Heart so others will see
A friend that brings morning light and gives me peace
As this seed will watch over the sun that shines with a beautiful face.

Posted by: My Doxie and Me Sep 15 2012, 06:22 PM

Every doxie owner knows this face Dachshunds demand
they tell a story so you might understand; This one is so true <So Stubborn>
Like a tug of war at times;

Posted by: My Doxie and Me Sep 15 2012, 06:30 PM

Upon entering a little country store,a stranger noticed a sign on the door that reads"Danger Beware of Dog"
Inside he noticed a Harmless Dachshund asleep on the floor beside the cash register.

He asked the store manager,"Is this the dog folks are supposed to beware of??
Why in the world would you post that sign...

Because the manager replied,"Before i posted that sign,People kept tripping over him....wink.gif
This was from a Doxie site something i came across

Posted by: My Doxie and Me Sep 15 2012, 06:37 PM


"We are having a special sale for a limited time only"

"Buy 1 Get 1 Free Delicious Doxie Crunchy Cookies"

"Please in a Orderly fashion walk to are Service Desk"

"As we have Someone standing buy to assist you"

Thank you and have a Nice Day'

Wait For It....

Posted by: My Doxie and Me Sep 15 2012, 06:58 PM

To my friend that holds the world against her shield i am just a peasant that Kneels in your presence
And wish for the Flight of Butterfly that each wing that spreads brings beautiful colors to
lift us all to the Heavens as we take breath find the ones that lead us to are friends
As they wait by Heavens Gate to Kiss each tear from are face.

Posted by: My Doxie and Me Sep 17 2012, 10:49 AM


Posted by: Bobbie Sep 17 2012, 09:58 PM

Dearest Trevor,

Mommy is BACK from the unyielding grip of chemotherapy. I have such a tremendous appreciation and, yes, immese anger towards those that failed you, appreciation for all that you suffered SILENTLY until you could no more. Next time (?) don't be so darn brave. Mommy will always be here/there for you.

And have you seen all the mesages and beautiful pictures from My Doxie and Me? WOW! Maybe I should stay off the site more often? NAH!! So many people now love YOU and are so good to me, that I could never do such a thing to them. I am only off this site when I am not feeling well physically. And that's a promise!!!!!!!

Oh, Trevor! You are the delight of my life always and forever. moon_beam was right again. Although I still miss you with a shredded heart and crushed soul, the stinging, searing, torturous pain has changed - just a bit - to a comfort that I did not think existed anywhere. Don't get me wrong. I miss you with everything I have, had or will have. I want to hug and kiss you over and over and over again. But now I know I must wait my time.....which most likely will be sooner than later. But, no matter! Our love flows freely back and forth all the time!

Have a peace-filled night with all your friends and the newbies that arrive every second!


Posted by: LoveMyMickey Sep 18 2012, 06:04 PM

Hello Sweet Trevor....Auntie LoveMyMickey checking in and sending your mommy a poem I found:

I Care

Iím sending this to let you know
I think of you each day,
And pray for your recovery,
Hoping soon youíll be okay.

Youíre going through a lot right now;
Youíre treatments can be trying;
Remember while you do them
Itís your problem youíre defying.

Hold on to your positive attitude,
And when things get hard to bear,
Know that I am here for you;
Remember that I care.

And when youíre well and flourishing,
Look back and realize,
You learned what you were made of;
Thatís a reward that satisfies!

I believe in you; You can do it!

Love you both!!! wub.gif wub.gif wub.gif


Posted by: Bobbie Sep 20 2012, 07:22 PM

Hello my darling!

I love you, Trevor............................................and always will!

Your tired momma,
XOmommyXO wub.gif

Posted by: moon_beam Sep 21 2012, 09:52 AM

Hi, Bobbie, stopping by to say hello and to bask in the warmth of your beautiful love letters to your beloved Trevor. I know your sister Jeanne is arriving this weekend to be with you, and I wish her safe and happy trails. I hope today is treating you kindly, and that you will have a very peaceful evening blessed with your beloved Trevor's sweet Living Spirit to comfort you. Please know you, Stan, and your precious Dreamer and Kelley are in my thoughts and prayers, and that I always look forward to sharing your news and your treasured memories of your beloved Trevor.

Peace and blessings,

Posted by: Bobbie Sep 21 2012, 09:41 PM

Dear LoveMyMickey, moon_beam and My Doxie and Me,

First, let me thank each of you for your unconditional support and understanding and I try to figure out this chemotherapy and side effects stuff. It sounds easy enough, but it isn't. For example, today my tongue has become very sensitive to anything even remotely carbonated or "rough" in texture. Don't know if that is just today for from now on.

I look forward to and relish in the loving thoughts that each of you send me. I feel honored that you would continue to do so when you don't always receive a reply or a thank you. Please know that every single word is very precious to me and is one of the best parts of my beating this monster. If you don't feel like writing, I understand and will print an reread your previous messages and memorize the images you send. I don't know what I have ever done to deserve such friendship, but I am eternally grateful and don't waste one word of the messages. Trevor loves them, too.

May God (or your Hgher Power) bless you for what you have given me and I hope will continue to bless me with. I truly have never had three more devoted and true friends than you.

To: Mr. Trevor,
And don't forget that if it wasn't for YOU in my life, I would never know these amazing individuals and they would never have known of YOU!

I LOVE YOU ALL! wub.gif wub.gif

Posted by: LoveMyMickey Sep 22 2012, 12:51 PM

Oh Bobbie, no thanks or replies are necessary. I know you don't feel well. I'm just glad we can be here for you. You have been a good friend to me and my Mickey....I hope and pray that chemo doesn't make you so sick and does the job it's supposed to do.....I pray every day for you, Bobbie, to get well and also for your family....God Bless You!

Loads of love coming your way... wub.gif wub.gif wub.gif


Hello my little Trevor, I'm especially remembering you and Mickey today, the 22nd. I still see butterflies and I saw a buff colored one the other day and I thought of you, Trevor........Keep sending those love rays to your mommy and all the encouragement you can find.

Loads of love coming your way too. wub.gif wub.gif wub.gif

Auntie LoveMyMickey

Posted by: My Doxie and Me Sep 22 2012, 08:26 PM

Bobbie i have found words for others that helps me lift this grief i carry and you have sparked a light so i might see
the path i walk in search of my friends... the many i have come across brings hope as i draw strength from all
I would never speak and i would never write and yet it seems...What a blessing LS is for my thoughts remain here it's where
Beautiful People come to Kneel for there friends;...

forgive me as words of past seems iam in the dark searching for my friend, when you could never ask enough of what thoughts might be<Spark>...
i prefer silence and yet i cannot keep silent;

Poem by Quiet Poetry
Author Unknown
So much to take from these words
it's as if all your friends are speaking; Beautiful...

The Willow Tree

Alone Willow Tree stands tall in a field
only a breath away from the forest of Pine Trees.
There she sits in her quiet and grace
As she listens to the chorus of their promise of glory.

She stands in awe of their strength and majesty
Nearly heading their music,"Come now and join me"
But the willow Tree knows she will never reach their heights
Nor grow in their beauty of near perfect symmetry.

Tears begin to fall as the willow Tree weeps
her limbs twisting in pain as her leaves touch the ground
but with that touch she reaches the land and feels the strength
of both the earth and the flowers that surround

They begin to serenade the Willow Tree in their own gentle way
a song filled with the aroma of life's simple truths
although she may never stand as tall within the forest of Pines
her own strength can be found within the life of her roots

Roots which are simply planted within earths loving hands
never ceasing to search for life's sustenance
allowing her to endure through the cold winter months
then awaken once again with the new hope of spring
to feel life born again and the wonder of renewing

Their shy choir sings filled with words of inspiration
imploring her to realize that although a majestic Pine Tree
is something she will never be, the acceptance of her own beauty
will be the truth to set us free

The willow Tree listened to the songs of the Earth's truth
feelings the nourishment of her own worth flow quietly through her limbs
and in her solitude she begins to gracefully shimmer and sway
embrace her own uniqueness in her dance with the winds

In searching for my friends forgivness i found a beautiful heart so happens Trevor was leading;
I send you a Knight for he will watch over you be well my Willow Tree...

Posted by: Bobbie Sep 23 2012, 07:53 AM

Oh my Trevor (and all your brothers and friends);

Mr. My Doxie has written the perfect words describing how mommy is feeling right now. Thank you for reaching him and telling him!

Mommy loves and misses each and every one of you because you brought such joy and surprise and wonder and fun to my life, at the perfect times. You kissed me with your love and taught me lessons that, many times, took a long time for me to learn. Crocker is my gentle soul - so sensitive and so loving with such a short time together. Birney, well the best way to describe you is one word and that is "Sarah". You know her. You brought such delight and micshief to my every day and you just could not wait until mommy and daddy left the house............Poor Kelly became your cohort in crime, only following your lead and your bribery of letting him eat the crayons he loved. Kelly was my first rescue and gave me 10 additional years of devotion love. Kelly is the only one who would eat ice cube after ice cube until his core temperature would drop and mommy would have to wrap him in lankets and heating pads to warm him up. What a great time to hug and snuggle with him. Birney, you legacy wll live on one day beyond forever! Little Jasper came to us with fatal illnesses that we did not know of, but got to spend 3 weeks on soft floors, air conditioning, even softer beds and had his own toys. Jasper, I will love you forever. Then Came Rudy! What a joy! What fun! What a lover! The only dog I've know that barked every time he pooped!!! As if to tell the world how proud he was of his accomplishment! I let you down, too, Rudy, at the end. But learned a huge life and end-of-life lesson. I hope you have forgiven me.
Then, Trevor..........................................................................

Mommy is scared, confused, sad, mixed up and a thousand emotions rolled into one - a little girl raised Catholic with all the "shoulds" to become a saint. I still love my faith and my God, in a new and gentler way, but those shoulds keep popping up when I really don't need them now. Dear Lord, help me to learn my God-given value and then I ca be filled with YOU!

Thank you, everyone, for reading this and tolerating my confusion. I LOVE YOU ALL!!!!

XOBobbieXO wub.gif

Posted by: Bobbie Sep 23 2012, 09:15 PM

Dearest Trevor, Rudy, Jasper, Birney, Kelly, Crocker, Spot & Squirt,

I love you all so very much and miss you with all that I am. Mommy needs some help/advice so she doesn't keep feeling so sad every single evening.

I know you all have great words of wisdom. Could you send some my way?

Oh! How I love you all!!!!!!

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Posted by: moon_beam Sep 24 2012, 10:19 AM

Hi, Bobbie, thank you so very much for sharing with us how you're doing and your always beautiful love letters to your beloved Trevor and each of your companions. When we are experiencing a crisis we are very emotionally, physically, and spiritually vulnerable. There is a difference between the faith in our heart and man-made faith expectations. Hold fast to the faith in your heart, Bobbie. I promise you it is what is in your heart that God looks at - - for He knows you - -He fashioned you - - and He loves you.

I hope today is treating you kindly, my friend, and that you will have a very peaceful evening blessed with your beloved Trevor's sweet Living Spirit to comfort you. Please know you, Stan, and your precious Dreamer and Kelley are in my thoughts and prayers, and that I always look forward to sharing your news and your treasured memories of your beloved Trevor and companions.

Peace and blessings,

Posted by: Bobbie Sep 24 2012, 11:41 AM

Thank you, so very much, moon_beam for your kind and gentle words. You are right - during times of crises one's heart and soul can become so very sensitive and uncertain. Thankfully, I have such good friends (like you) on this site to help guide me - each in their own totally wonderful way!

Dear Trevor,

The days of seeing butterflies are just about done for this year. The weather is getting colder and staying colder, so I hope they are all winging their way South to warmth and sunshine. We'll have to ask LoveMyMickey what takes their place in the other months.

You mom has been so up and down these past couple weeks. One thing I have been neglecting is you. And for that I deeply apologize. If there is anyone in this universe who can understand about the confusion, questions, pain, just wanting to feel better, searching for comfort and that comfort eluding you for so long....................that is YOU! I just don't want to add to the pain you've already had to suffer here on earth. But, I guess, in Heaven, the pain is instantly taken care of, so you are able to feel the love, joy, friendship, comfort and serenity all the time. And for that I will always be grateful.

Trevor, you continue to touch my heart in ways that I have never imagined before. I loved every one of my boys with everything I had, but YOU have somehow intensified the Love-bond between human and animal so that I will never look at it or feel it the "same ole way" again. I do love Dreamer and Kelley so much, but even that is different than our love. I am eternally grateful to God for bringing you into our lives. Oh, yes, the pain was excrutiating for all of us at times, but the LOVE was indescribable (sp). Some nights I just wallow in the memories of that love. And I'll bet you didn't even realize what an effect you had because it came so naturally to you.

Thank you, my Trevor, for being you and showing me how to be me! YOU ARE THE BEST!!!


Posted by: Bobbie Sep 25 2012, 09:49 PM

thank you, Trevor! THANK you, Trevor!! THANK YOU, Trevor!!!! THANK YOU, TREVOR!!!!!

I found your lock of hair today!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! It wasn't in a baggie after all, but a really special place that I had forgotten about. But I FOUND IT and I TOUCHED YOU!!!!!!!

I LOVE YOU SO MUCH I COULD BURST!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! wub.gif wub.gif wub.gif

XOXOMommyXOXO wub.gif

Posted by: LoveMyMickey Sep 26 2012, 12:02 PM

Hi Sweet Little Trevor,

THANK YOU so much for guiding your mommy to the place where she hid your lock of hair. It is a great comfort to her. I have some of Mickey's in a locket, plus another bunch I have gathered. I kiss the hair and pretend it's his little head. We mommys love our angel babies so much.

About the butterflies, I talked about them and the birds in the other forum.......Take good care of your mommy, Trevor, and also you, Gretta, Mickey, and all the others stay out of mischief, or do you get into mischief in heaven? I guess that would be heavenly mischief. smile.gif

Love and Prayers coming your way, wub.gif


Posted by: LoveMyMickey Sep 27 2012, 06:37 PM

Dear Sweet Trevor,

I've been thinking about your mommy today and praying for her as she gets her medicine. Keep sending her your love and encouragement to help her get well.

I love you all! wub.gif

Auntie LoveMyMickey

Posted by: moon_beam Sep 28 2012, 10:08 AM

Hi, Bobbie, stopping by to let you know you are in my thoughts and prayers. I am SO ECSTATIC to share your news that you found your beloved Trevor's hair - - how so very WONDERFUL!!! I know you will TREASURE this - - as the woman who searched her house for the two coins she had lost and found them. I am SOOOOOO HAPPY for you!!!

I hope today is treating you kindly, my friend, and that you will have a very peaceful evening blessed with your beloved Trevor's sweet Living Spirit to comfort you. Please know you, Stan, and your precious Dreamer and Kelley are in my thoughts and prayers, and that I always look forward to sharing your news and your treasured memories of your beloved Trevor and companions.

Peace and blessings,

Posted by: Bobbie Sep 28 2012, 08:19 PM

Dearest Trevor,

Just stopping by to say that MOMMY LOVES YOU WITH ALL HER HEART AND SOUL!!

Have a wonderful night filled with beautiful dreams!


Posted by: Bobbie Sep 29 2012, 08:59 PM

Good Evening, Mr. Hunky Bunky!

Mommy has been sleeping the past two days after her Chemo. Thank you for keeping watch over her. You have always been the A #1 lover of mommy and I know that will never change.

I love you, my honey and will say Good Night until tomorrow.


Posted by: LoveMyMickey Sep 30 2012, 06:05 PM

My Dear Sweet Mommy, wub.gif

I love you with all my heart and soul, always have and always will. You are the best mommy a little doggie could ever have. I want to thank you for all your love and care for me while I was on earth with you. You had so much patience with me. I'm sorry my earthly body had to leave you, but it was my time and God's will. But you know I am always with you.

Mommy. I want you to get plenty of rest so you can get well. I am sending you an Angel to help encourage you through your healing journey.

I LOVE YOU, MY MOMMY wub.gif wub.gif wub.gif


Posted by: Bobbie Sep 30 2012, 09:30 PM

My Dearest, Darling Trevor,

You certainly have a guardian angel with Auntie LoveMyMickey! Thank you for your beautiful message and even prettier angel. Each one gives me new hope and happiness.

I just cannot get over how much I still miss you, honey. Not one picture of you or any of the messages I wrote and hung on the walls have moved in over 14 months! And I don't know if they ever will. I've heard it said that life if for the living. But I think that all depends on one's definition of "living". You and Gretta and Mickey and Jenna and all the others are still LIVING SPIRITS who are with us every single day and who can teach us so many things. It's so comforting, that everywhere I look there is a picture or a reminder of you. It should be no other way.

Maybe I'll ask Auntie LoveMyMickey is she will help me post a coupld "happy" pictures of you and not just your "gorgeous" one. How about that/

Meanwhile, have a good night's rest and I really look forward to writing to you tomorrow!


Posted by: Bobbie Oct 1 2012, 09:26 AM


I am missing you RIGHT NOW - again and again! Thank you for helping me find your bit of hair. I still wear my locket, but this will now be with Birney's and Rudy's bits of hair. All so soft and loving!

Talk to you later!


Posted by: LoveMyMickey Oct 3 2012, 05:40 PM

Hello Sweet Little Trevor,

Just dropping by to say hi and I hope your mommy is doing okay today....I would love to help her post some happy pictures of you here.
Have a cozy night and I'll check back soon.

I LOVE YOU!!! wub.gif wub.gif wub.gif

Auntie LoveMyMickey

Posted by: LoveMyMickey Oct 4 2012, 06:13 PM

Hi Sweet Trevor,

Just stopping by again tonight to say hi and I hope your mommy is doing okay......I got the butterflies today and I will fix them tomorrow if it doesn't rain. They are really pretty........Have a good night and you, Mickey, Gretta, and all your friends keep having fun until we all meet in that perfect world.

I LOVE YOU, TREVOR - FOREVER! wub.gif wub.gif wub.gif

Auntie LoveMyMickey

Posted by: Bobbie Oct 5 2012, 12:25 PM

Dear Trevor,

I'm sorry that I haven't written in a couple days. Mommy is very sad right now and could really use a Trevor cuddle. I'm going to close my eyes and remember all those wonderful mornings....................................


Posted by: Bobbie Oct 7 2012, 08:07 PM

My dear, dear Trevor,

Oh, honey, I miss you so much and all the comfort you brought ME even though you were suffering every day and many days I did not know it. If only I could wrap my arms around your soft, warm, loving body to bring myself the courage and strength I need right now - it would be a miracle. I haven't cried this hard in quite awhile and soon the sobs will follow. You were ALWAYS good-intentioned, not matter what you did or how exasperated we got. YOU WERE ALWAYS PERFECT, TREVOR AND DON'T YOU FORGET THAT!!!

Mommy just wishes she could be a lot more like you, following your Life's Lessons which I must review ASAP. Please forgive me for crying and being so sad, but I read that's what cancer can do to you all on its own. And THANK YOU for being with me every second of every minute of every day and night. Without knowing that and having your picture to grasp onto, I don't know what I would do. But I will keep mving forward, just as you did, knowing that I am loved by you and many others.

Time to go be sick for awhile. Please don't worry, though. Mommy will be OK.


Posted by: Bobbie Oct 8 2012, 09:33 PM

Hi Baby Dog!

Mommy is doing better today. Thank you for all the love you sent my direction. You are still just so incredible, Trevor! I love you more now than ever!

Have a peace-filled night and please help the Orioles win!


Posted by: missingmygranny Oct 9 2012, 01:43 PM

sad.gif So sorry for the loss of your Trevor and I love your many posts to him. Sending you hugs and prayers that the grief eases in your heart.

Posted by: Bobbie Oct 10 2012, 11:54 PM

Dearest, darling, wonderful Trevor,

Well, your mommy is at quite a low spot right now. I know I should not complain to you, who suffered far more than I can ever imagine and did so with a grace that few, if any, humans have. Mommy woke up tired today, but stayed up and got many things done in the office. Then she went downstairs for the day, to rest some more. At noon she got ready for Ms. Cathy to pick her up and go visiting at Ms. Cathy and Mr. Bill's house. I had a wonderful time there and was surprised how quickly the time passed. Soon it was time to come home. So I did. I ate a little dnack and immediately got a tummy ache, so lay down on the floor. Daddy came home and graciously made supper. I wasn't hungry for spaghetti, so had cold Burger King sandwich and fries.
Aunti Jeanne left for Bible study and the "fun" began. Kelley started acting really hungry and anxious and stole a napkin off my TV tray. I got angry, which is exactly what I should NOT have done and tethered Kelley right next to my chair. Well, he didn't know what was going on - how could he? I hadn't tld him or taught him anything at this point. So, I decided to give Dreamer and Kelley a french fry. Stupid, stupid, stupid me. Dreamer took his and the Kelley lunged for his and bit my left index finger which hurt, but also started bleeding like a stuck pig because of the anti coagulants I am on. Well, I lost it and did everything I could possibly do WRONG! I terrorized Kelley by losing my temper, throwing my food into the sink and grabbing the nearest towel to wrap my gushing finger. There was blood all over the floor and I just kep screaming at poor Kelley. Stan got the leash off him, and Stan and I took off for the hospital.
I ended up with six stitches in that finger and feeling just awful for Kelley, knowing that I had done so many terrible things to further traumatize an already fearful and abused dog. I cried because I was so sorry for what I'd done and promised to make amends as soon as we got home and to make it my first priority to find the proper training and desensitization/socialization for Kelley ASAP. And I mean it. Just because I cannot contribute all the training time and attention doesn't mean others cannot. And that starts NOW. I have a couple emails already sent and the phone calls will start on Friday, before I get sick from the 5-FU chemo on Saturday.
Trevor, I am going to learn from my huge mistake and post your Life Lessons everywhere in the house, so thart I have no excuse for not following them. I am going to need yours and all your friends' help in pulling this off as Kelley is a very abused dog and needs to learn how to trust humans to give him the food he needs and even, sometimes just wants AND that objects that are important to him will be respected and replaced with other things close to the objects he wants. He won't have to steal off of tables or frantically grab anything that falls to the floor. It will become no big deal to us and him.

I have to stop this for now as my finger is really hurting and I need to get to sleep.

THANK YOU, TREVOR, for listening to your foolish mommy and encouraging her in the right direction.


Posted by: moon_beam Oct 12 2012, 02:01 PM

Hi, Bobbie, thank you so much for sharing with us how you're doing. I am so sorry for everything you are going through. Please know your precious Dreamer and Kelley both know you are NOT abusive to them - - they know you are not feeling well and do not have the strength to cope with their needs. Although it seems to you that you were yelling at Kelley, in reality you were yelling at the world for the circumstances you are enduring. Your precious Kelley and Dreamer just happen to be the ones within hearing vicinity. Nothing in your world is right at the moment so please do not put such high expectations on yourself.

However, I hope today is treating you more kindly, my friend. Please know you are in my thoughts and prayers, and that I always look forward to sharing how you're doing and your beautiful love letters to your beloved Trevor.

Peace and blessings,

Posted by: Bobbie Oct 13 2012, 04:07 AM

Thank you so much, moon_beam. I love you!

Trevor's mom

Posted by: Bobbie Oct 13 2012, 04:09 AM

Dearest Trevor,

You know that I love you with all my heart. Now, can you help me show Kelley (especially) and Dreamer that as well?

Thanks, honey! You're the BEST!!!!!!!


Posted by: LoveMyMickey Oct 13 2012, 12:51 PM

Listen to me, Kelley and Dreamer, our with all her heart...Be good to her, she is having a rough time right now...Love, your brother, Trevor. wub.gif

Posted by: Bobbie Oct 14 2012, 08:21 PM

Thank you, Trevor!

Today is mommy's birthday and the bestest gift in the whole universe is knowing that you are happy, in NO pain, can see and hear and run and jump and all those things you weren't able to do while you lived with mommy and daddy. I miss you like crazy and wish, every day, that I could give you one more hug, but then I know your pain would return and that's no good at all.

What more can I say to you, Trevor, other than I love you with all my heart and soul and mind and body? Will that be enough to keep you company at times? I wish there were more I could do, but everything will have to come from the heart now for awhile.


Posted by: Gretta's Mom Oct 15 2012, 11:25 AM


You're a miracle dog not only here on earth but also in heaven. The love and strength you pour out to your mom is inexhaustible - despite the horrible treatment you had at the beginning of your earthly like. You two are a lesson that love never fails, never diminishes, and always, ALWAYS heals. Thank you Trevie, boy.

Aunt Jeannie

Posted by: Bobbie Oct 15 2012, 08:49 PM

You know, Trevor, Auntie Jeanne is right. LOVE NEVER FAILS!

Love may wax and wane. It may change in appearance, but it never, ever changes forever. And it only changes for GOOD. My love for you, although I say it has not changed at all - it really has. It has become a deeper, more mature, stronger and steadier love than I ever thought I could experience. And YOU made that possible because every second that we were together, you loved me so deeply, so acceptingly and so freely that I could do nothing, but return the same to you. Only, at times, I still feel like you didn't receive enough and I don't know if I will ever get over that. Only you and I will know if and when that happens.
Do you know that someone else has practiced your Life Lessons and done a magnificent job? He is my nephew, Mark. Mark, himself, is dying of kidney cancer and, despite our totally loving actions, we must watch him suffer so many indignities and pain that my heart cries out for him, too. So, when you know the time is right, Trevor, please stop by and snuggle with his heart. It is a good heart and you will love him, too.
My sweetness, my heart is in some agony right now as I just so desperately want you with me as I walk this unforgiving journey towards a future I know nothing about. Although we are all walking this way, only some of us (and our loving creatures) KNOW it. And still so many fight it in the wrong way. YOU fought long, hard and bravely to be with mommy and daddy every day. And that has to be my fight, too. To LIVE each and every day for you, your brothers in Heaven and your brothers on earth (Dreamer and Kelley). I WILL do this and I will do this at least half as well as you did, Trevor!


Posted by: Bobbie Oct 17 2012, 03:27 AM

I can say no more, my Trevor love! My heart is in shambles at the moment and NO ONE except you can put the pieces back together. My incredible spirit dog is needed now more than ever. I think that you and I have crossed a threshold of some sort. I feel as though we relate on a totally different plane at times. Oh, honey, I miss you with every fiber of my being just as I always have, but there come times when I feel a maturing love connection between us that does not need any words. Maybe one: "Trevor".

I am lost in some sort of fatigue, fear, failure and resignation. No person can rescue me from this, this time. I must do it myself, with your help and guidance. I need my ever-so-special love dog to be near and with me, especially now. i do not want any human to try and console me right now. Those that know you and love us both will understand and respect, but always be ready for the next signal

Trevor, these hours and days move forward, even when we want them to stand still. How do you handle that in Heaven? How could you handle that on earth? There is so much more for me to say, but Kelley is telling me that somebody just pooped in the bedroom again, so I must attend to chores at four o'clock in the morning.


Posted by: Bobbie Oct 17 2012, 08:34 PM are my everything


Posted by: Bobbie Oct 18 2012, 04:32 PM

Oh Trevor.....mommy needs your protection now more than ever - just for a few hours, OK?

Thank you, my darling boy. My sweetness and my joy!


Posted by: Gretta's Mom Oct 19 2012, 02:09 PM


Thank you for BEING! I love you.

Auntie Jeannie

Posted by: Bobbie Oct 19 2012, 09:25 PM

Only one word, other than God, makes any sense:


I love you!

Posted by: Gretta's Mom Oct 20 2012, 07:25 AM


Aunt Jeannie is going back home now. Please take extra care of mommie - and Daddy - and Grandpa. Thank you for being - you.

Love forever

Autie jeannie

Posted by: Bobbie Oct 20 2012, 07:25 PM


you will stay with me forever, right? not that I doubt you - I am having my own doubts right now.


Posted by: Gretta's Mom Oct 21 2012, 12:01 PM

Of course I will, mommie!!! You stuck with me through my life on earth - you gave me the true, undying love that made it possible to live. You devoted your entire life to trying to give me the best, most painfree, happiest life I could ever have had. And you did. Even when It looked like I was suffering - and I was - I was hapy inside knowing that my mommie loved me SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO much. Now I get my change to love you back when YOU are in trouble. That's waht friends, pals and true soulmates are for.

Mommie, I wil NEVER, EVER stop loving you or being right there at your side. Remember - when you trip unexpectedly - just a little - it's me under your feet!

You're the brightest star in the heavens and THE BEST mommie on earth. The second best isn't even CLOSE!!

My faith in you and your faith in me NEVER falters. We just have down, dcary, uncertain days. I know all about that - so do you. WE'LL NEVER BE APART, MOMMIE.

Your baby boy, Trevor!!

Posted by: Bobbie Oct 22 2012, 07:12 PM

Dearest Trevor,

The days are not easy and the nights are becoming impossible. Tomorrow mommy has to have emergency dental surgery to remove one tooth that is causing pain to every tooth on the left side of my face! And I'm on blood thinners, so that should be interesting. But this guy is a very good dental surgeon so I'm not worried as long as I get enough pain medicine!

How are you, my baby? So much of my attention right now is on Cousin Mark, who will be joining you quite soon. You will remember him when you see him because he was sooooooo gentle to you when he met you.

I'm going to be begging for more words from Jenna's daddy as they are so soothing for me and too many fires are raging almost out of control at the same time.


Posted by: Gretta's Mom Oct 24 2012, 09:45 AM

Hi mommy

How I wish I could be there right under your loving hand and hear your gentle voice calming my heart. I know that now you have the Grandpa to take care of too. What a lot you have on your beautiful shoulders. Gretta just whistered in my ear to remember that you can call her mom any time - even in the middle of the night. She's one of our "pack", too.

Meantime, mommie, all the doggies and kitties and other animals I can round up are praying around the clock for you. YOu're the best mommie in the universe. Please don't forget that either. Nobody else could have accepted me for who I was - and I know I was in miserable shape when you met me - and nursed me back to the best health I could have and stood and lay by me when I hurt and most of all - UNDERSTOOD and LOVED me constantly and unconditionally. I knew that all the time Mommie, even when I hurt too bad to show you. Remember - yours were the only arms and hands and voice that could let me go to sleep at night.

I love you mommie. And I'll get a little party ready for Uncle Mark.

Your baby,


Posted by: Bobbie Oct 24 2012, 10:23 AM

thank you so much, Trevor!

That's what it's all about.

Will try to write more tonight.


Posted by: Bobbie Oct 24 2012, 06:51 PM


Posted by: Bobbie Oct 25 2012, 04:31 PM

Hi Honey!

Mommy is doing better today. Thanks for sending me your courage, a whole Lion's worth at that!

Chemo was worse today, but is my last one until the next decision is made in the next couple weeks.

Do you think My Doxie and me would repeat his essay on looking out the window for Jenna (and maybe adding you in there somewhere)? I hope I'm not imposing - it just means so much to me.


Posted by: Gretta's Mom Oct 25 2012, 07:02 PM


Even though I am in the Perfect World, it hurts my heart to see you in so much pain and suffering. Truly we are both parts of the same soul. We got some pretty big, strong, fast animals up here so whenever you need courage, just say the word and They'll be right there. (I was scared of them when i first got her - before I realized what "Perfect World" meant.

Mommie, when you feel a little touch on your cheek or hand or arm or foot ... it's me. I got special permission to give you lots of messages because you need them so much right now. I remember all the comforting stroking you gave me when I was in such pain I didn't know what to do and could hardly even breathe. Only your hand, the hand of my true mommie, could make me feel better. Thank you so much, Mommie. Now I get to do it for you, OK?

Your darling,

Trevor Forever

Posted by: Bobbie Oct 28 2012, 08:50 PM

Dear, dear Trevor,

I hope all your little doggies keep you safe and snug from this hurricane we're going to have! I'll check on you ASAP.

Meanwhile, have a great time in Heaven with all the floor mops and the bigger guys, too! (OK, Shane?)


Posted by: Bobbie Oct 29 2012, 10:56 PM

My precious Trevor,

Mommy loves you more than ever and has a very good friend who still misses his Jenna as much as the first day she got to the Perfect World. Would you mind stopping by and visiting her for awhile? We know that SHE knows all is well, but her daddy needs some extra reminders and that is what our job is all about. Right?

Thank you my sweetness and my love!


Posted by: Bobbie Oct 30 2012, 08:51 PM

Oh my darling Trevor,

I simply don't know what I would do without YOU and all your brothers and friends that carry me along each day, especially when I don't realize it.

Is this the journey that is going to reunite us? Or is that still to come? Mommy isn't sure right now and is very tired. I can only imagine how tired you were by the end of each painful, exhausting day. Why is it that we truly apreciate our best friends once they have gone to the Perfect World? Thank you for being my best friend and trusting me all the time.


Posted by: Gretta's Mom Oct 31 2012, 06:30 AM

Bobbie and Trevor

I'm praying it isn't = I'm selfish.

Auntie Jeannie

Posted by: LoveMyMickey Nov 1 2012, 06:06 PM

Hello My Sweet Trevor,

You take good care of your mommy. I want to send her a picture of the butterflies in the snow this winter.......I hope you, Gretta, and Mickey have seen the butterflies waving their wings toward heaven.

We all love you and your mommy! wub.gif wub.gif wub.gif

Auntie LoveMyMickey

Posted by: My Doxie and Me Nov 2 2012, 06:20 PM

As i Look through a Window for a Friend

Once upon a time a little Yellow Duckling follows a friend as they walk in the sun that shines into the hearts of morning lights
with a shadow cast from behind the running yellow streak that tries to fly to glide above the soft spoken words of life as
family holds are love with memories of the fallen with tears that run with the rivers of are Hearts we kneel to say prayers
As to gain sight we catch a glimps that runs by we extend are love that fills us with Joy

In the distance i see a spec of light a shadow that runs behind with Hope of summer winds that stand by are side as
friends of past bring great wisdom to the ones in the future speak words from the heart to restore are loved ones
to hold them closer we have sight that can heal the present and the future for we choose to kneel for a friend
that brings all of us closer...

A small spec of light pass by with a yellow streak with shadow behind a window has been given as i gain sight
i see yellow streaks that runs through the warm summer light as we walk with are friends are heart fills with Joy
as a little girl runs with such delight she follows her heart as a friend tries to gain flight for a moment there feet
leave this earth as bright meadows of shining flowers begin to speak we part as they fly away...

As this little girl soar through the air with arms wide by her side the sun is bright the skys are clear we smile for this
moment intime that hold are tears as this little yellow duckling if just brief gains flight with a friends shadow that follow a
Lifes Heart Beat a path she will lead for all of time as she opens her arms wide and runs to find a friend that brings
a smile as she close her eyes and Dreams of Hope....

Emily Dickinson-Hope is the thing...

Hope is the thing with feathers
That perches in the soul,
And sings the tune without the words,
And never stops at all,

And sweetest in the gale is heard;
And sore must be the storm
That could abash the little bird
That kept so many warm.

I've heard it in the chillest land,
And on the strangest sea;
Yet,Never,in extremity,
It asked a crumb of me.

To all of your family and friends to Trevor as he opens a window so others may see
the little yellow streak that tries to fly with shadows behind that bring memories
Trevor you have touched the heart of a angel as she close her eyes with arms wide open
and dreams...

Posted by: Bobbie Nov 2 2012, 08:09 PM

Oh, Trevor.....

I am so humbled by the words of My Doxie, actually brought to tears and at the same time, they do bring a whisper of Hope.
How did he know that Dreamer tested positive for Heartworm tonight after being negative for a year?
How did he know about the Dreams of the little girl and "her" duckling when she was just 6 years old?
But he did know that YOU are the one that knows all these things and the right way to Open The Door/Window to Hope.

Oh God, Trevor, I love you and I miss you and I feel so badly about Dreamer. Please silently lick the tears from my face and continue helping me, Jenna's daddy and Gretta's mommy.


Posted by: Bobbie Nov 3 2012, 08:28 PM

Dearest Trevor,

How did you do it day after day? Would you mind sending me your secret because I could really use it right now.

Thank you my love bucket!


Posted by: Gretta's Mom Nov 3 2012, 08:57 PM


You send something to your Auntie Bobbie, too, OK?

Thanks Baby-Face

Posted by: Gretta's Mom Nov 5 2012, 07:32 AM

Trevor, Trevor, miracle forever.
Please keep you eye and your heart on your mom. Send her a message to SLOW DOWN AND REST!! Thanks, Muffin.
Your Aunt Jeannie

Posted by: Bobbie Nov 6 2012, 09:48 PM

Hello My Trevor, my one and only!

My Doxie sure keeps up with us doesn't he? His words help so very much. I'm still here, loving you all the time, I've not been feeling well the past couple days and have to rest up for Uncle Mark's military service and burial on Friday. You should go find him and teach him the ways of the Perfect World. You will really like each other!

That's it for now, my love. Mommy is nauseated and has to go to bed, but not before telling you.......


Posted by: Gretta's Mom Nov 10 2012, 02:04 PM

Hi Trevor-Forever

Thank you for being on your job of comforting your mommie 24/7. Sometimes she needs you for a pillow, sometimees for a hug, and sometimes just to lie beside her and share some warmth. You are her strenth and courage. There is some good news - news that will become good far into the future and only after your mommie goes through hades on earth. But my little doggie, whose picture is framed in my house, she WILL make it and there WILL be a day when we all will celebrate - all in our places wiwth sunshiny faces.

I love you, miracle dog

Your auntie Jeannie

Posted by: Bobbie Nov 10 2012, 09:36 PM

Oh, Trevor!

The whole world loves you and I hope you know why. You come as close to the perfect dog as any dog I've known ever will. Thanks for being willing to snuggle with me, even when that comes through Dreamer or Kelley. I know it is YOU influencing them and I like it.

Mommy is going to get more nasty medicine on Monday and then be sick for 3 days. Then do it all over again in two weeks. But that should be all until at least after all the human Holidays are over. Then comes the BIG SICK!! But we'll worry about that after the holidays, right?

Please just keep on being the wonder-dog you are and don't stop (unless you need a nap). I love you with all my heart and soul, even more than when I first met you and gave you hot dogs and cheese.


Posted by: Gretta's Mom Nov 11 2012, 08:53 AM

Hi Trevor and mommie

Just wanted to let you guys know that I carry both of you deep in my heart - all the time.

Auntie Jeannie

Posted by: Bobbie Nov 11 2012, 11:39 AM

Hi Gretta's & Rufie's mom!

Now you know why you have so much HEARTburn! HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!

Posted by: LoveMyMickey Nov 11 2012, 06:15 PM


Hi Sweet Little Trevor,

I haven't forgotten you either and I still love you. You watch over your mommy, sending all your love and encouragement. The real butterflies are gone, but I saw two Robins today, a sign of a beautiful new beginning.

XOXO Loads of LOVE to Trevor-Forever and his mommy XOXO wub.gif wub.gif wub.gif

Auntie LoveMyMickey

Posted by: Bobbie Nov 11 2012, 08:46 PM

I told you, Trevor, the whole world (or at least the important parts) love you a whole LOT! not just mommy, but so many others!

Have a good, restful night, my darling, and I will, too beccause I will have your picture right next to me and will be thinking of you and dreaming of you (I hope).


Posted by: Gretta's Mom Nov 12 2012, 08:48 AM

Your mommie's right - the whole significant world loves you. Don't ever forget that little Miracle Man!

Auntie Jeannie wub.gif wub.gif wub.gif

Posted by: Bobbie Nov 12 2012, 08:45 PM

Well, Trevor,

Mommy did it again!!! This time was pretty good. One more after this and we're done for awhile. This time I promise!


Posted by: LoveMyMickey Nov 13 2012, 01:07 PM

Hi Sweet Trevor,

I just know you helped your mommy and I thank you! You are so very SPECIAL! wub.gif

XOXO Auntie LoveMyMickey XOXO

Posted by: Bobbie Nov 14 2012, 05:07 PM

Oh Trevor, mommy loves you so very much. and always will.

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Posted by: LoveMyMickey Nov 14 2012, 07:45 PM

Sweet Trevor, wub.gif

I still love you so very much. Always take care of your mommy.

Auntie LoveMyMickey

Posted by: Bobbie Nov 18 2012, 07:50 PM

Oh, my precious little Trevor,

I wonder how many days you truly felt like nothing? that no one really noticed your needs? that you felt totally alone in this world and that, in the end, you would die alone? that you were only good for what you could do at the present moment?

I'm so thankful to God Almighty, that He saw fit to put you and I together for those last 26 months, so that we both could feel loved, useful, happy, noticed and that our needs ( as polar as north and south) were simultaeously met. We also have incredible friends (few, but faithful) that understand where we have been and where we are going. I just wish my words were as beautiful as theirs.

I so wish you did not have to suffer and be so misunderstood, even by some that were close to you. But life happened and it continues to happen. Let us make the best of it by allowing me to remember you and take from you, your examples and your realities.


Posted by: Bobbie Nov 19 2012, 09:02 PM

Dear, dear Trevor,

You ARE my one and only "damaged goods" Cocker Spaniel and that is why I love you most of all. You didn't "accept" your role, you simply lived life as best you could and many times we had a ball!!!!!

THANK YOU my Spirit Boy - my strength when things get rough.


Posted by: Bobbie Nov 21 2012, 09:24 AM

Oh Trevor!

How could I have waited so long to write to you? You know I think of you constantly and love you all the time! Even in these confusing and chaotic times at our house, YOU are first on my mind, then comes everyone else.

There is a new Floor-Mop that has made it to Heaven. Her name is Mitzi and her companion and family miss her terribly. Please find her and take good care of her. She's little so don't look up too hight for her, OK?


Posted by: LoveMyMickey Nov 21 2012, 01:21 PM

Hi Sweet Trevor, wub.gif

I'm stopping by to wish you and your mommy a Happy Thanksgiving and to remind you that I love you both....Keep the Prayer Pack going for Dreamer to get well. Have a Happy Thanksgiving with all your angel friends and don't chase the turkeys. smile.gif

XOXOXO Auntie LoveMyMickey XOXOXO

Posted by: Bobbie Nov 21 2012, 08:27 PM

OK, Auntie LoveMyMickey, we'll leave the turkeys alone. But it is so much fun to hear then squak! This might mean extra stuff at Christmas you know!

I love you sooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo much Auntie LMM!!!!! wub.gif

Mickey is great fun here, too! wub.gif

Trevor wub.gif wub.gif

Posted by: Bobbie Nov 22 2012, 06:45 PM

Oh Trevor, how I miss you so! You are the ONLY one who truly "gets it' and understands.


Posted by: LoveMyMickey Nov 22 2012, 07:06 PM

Oh Mr. Trevor, I love you sooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo much too!. wub.gif ...I heard that you were a good boy today and did not chase the turkeys. I hope Mickey and Gretta were good too....See ya' later....

XOXOXO Auntie LoveMyMickey XOXOXO

Posted by: Bobbie Nov 23 2012, 09:35 PM

Mr. Trevor,

You know that I love you more than anyone could love another of God's creatures! You are an angel sent by God to show me things I am just now learning about.

I love you before. I love you now. I love you forever!


Posted by: Gretta's Mom Nov 24 2012, 08:27 AM


Thank you for coming to earth and enduring all you had to endure in order to find your way to your true mom - your soul-mate. Send her an extra special smile today, OK?

Auntie Jeannie

Posted by: LoveMyMickey Nov 24 2012, 02:30 PM

Hi Sweet Boy Trevor, wub.gif

How is my little Trevor today? Are you, Gretta, Mickey, and all your friends staying out of trouble? But I don't think there is any trouble in your Perfect World.

Trevor, I think of you when I look out my kitchen window and see the magic butterflies in the flower garden by Mickey and Annie. The sun shines so bright on the orange one that it hurts my eyes. That one is special for your mommy, because she is your shining light.

I'll always love you, my little friend. wub.gif wub.gif wub.gif

XOXOXO Auntie LoveMyMickey XOXOXO

Posted by: Bobbie Nov 24 2012, 06:46 PM

Oh my Trevor!

To see how much you are loved by people who never got to meet you is a true testament to your total goodness. Bask in it, my honey, because you truly earned every bit of it.

Thank you Jeanne and LoveMyMickey and Jenna's daddy for loving Trevor (and therefore in a small way, me, too). One day I KNOW we will all be together in a nice place, talking and laughing and sharing stories while our dear companions (ALL of them) play and have so much fun, too! May that time never end! (it's so nice to know who your true friends are).

Good Night, Trevor boy. Mommy loves you with more love than ever!

XOmommyXO wub.gif

Posted by: Gretta's Mom Nov 25 2012, 07:59 AM

Good morning Trevor

How are you little guy? Every day I look at your picture and it's the perfect picture ever taken of a dog. I can feel you spirit every time I look into those beautiful eyes I can see a little bit of your precious soul. Can you sing (in doggie) the old song, "Everything's gonna be alright" to your mom? See if you can get a cousin-chorus and sing nice an loud so she can hear you and believe it. Only YOU, Mr Trevor-Forever, can send this straight to her heart.

Thank you Beautiful Trevor.

Auntie Jeannie

Posted by: LoveMyMickey Nov 25 2012, 06:31 PM

Dear Sweet Mommy, wub.gif

Aunt Jeanne wanted me to round up cousins and everybody to sing and shout you this song. I found my friend Mickey who likes his picture taken and here he is singing. Believe me the others are there too. Can't you just hear them? All for you mommy.......I love you mommy and I always will and will stay by your side.

Your son....Trevor - Forever
wub.gif Mickey's pic wouldn't work. rolleyes.gif It worked, see below. smile.gif

Posted by: LoveMyMickey Nov 25 2012, 07:02 PM

Mickey singing:

Posted by: Gretta's Mom Nov 26 2012, 07:45 AM

Oh Mickey

A picture of you singing!! Wow! Your mom's amazing! I know Rufie and I heard the chorus singing -

Hold on (clap, clap - oops, for dogs stomp, stomp) just a little while longer
Hold on (stomp, stomp) just a little while longer
Hold on (stomp, stomp) just a little while longer
Everything is gonna be alright,
Everything is gonna be alright.

Thank you Doggie Choir

Auntie Jeannie

Posted by: Gretta's Mom Nov 26 2012, 07:48 AM

Hey Trevor-Forever

One million thanks for organizing the Heavenly Dog Choir!!

We heard you singing - hope you mom did too.

How 'bout that picture of Mickey singing!

You guys gotta get a Heavenly Agent (do they have those up there?)

We love you Trevor - for everything you've done and been and for everything you're gonna do and be!

Auntie Jeannie

Posted by: Bobbie Nov 26 2012, 04:25 PM

Dear, Dear Trevor,

Your mommy loves and thanks you so very much! Your choir is beautiful and real music to my ears!


Posted by: LoveMyMickey Nov 26 2012, 06:40 PM

Dear Mommy, wub.gif

I found some more singers for you. They are really loud......They are singing an early Christmas song...
I love my mommy and my Aunt Jeanne and everybody.

Trevor - Forever

Posted by: Bobbie Nov 26 2012, 09:15 PM

Trevor's mommy wants to thank:

Trevor, Gretta, Mickey, Jenna, Hermy, Rudy, Jasper, Kelly, Birney and Crocker and Spot & Squirt AND all these new friends and choir members for making me feel so loved. All your mommies and daddies do the same for me.

I am truly blessed!


Posted by: Gretta's Mom Nov 27 2012, 07:53 AM


The Heavenly Doggie Choir sounded SOOOOO good! How 'bout staying together and doing some more songs? I can send you a playlist but for today you can all just howl on cue (except Spot and Squirt and Hermy the bunny). Spot and Squirt can be the extreme soprano and Hermie's nose can wiggle the time!

It really helped your mom!!!!!

You go guy!

Auntie Jeannie
Gretta's mom

Posted by: Gretta's Mom Nov 29 2012, 07:26 AM

Hi Trevor-dog

Creep up and sleep by your mom. She's tired and sick from chemo and I know she'll wlecome your warmth and love. For a while, she'll be feeling better as she get s 6-8 week 'rest' from chemo. You were and always will be a miracle dog. Please say hi to Gretta and Mickey.

Auntie jeannie

Posted by: Bobbie Nov 29 2012, 04:42 PM

Hello, my love!

Mommy is still here. Doing better today, seeing all the good stuff coming your way.

I LOVE YOU, MY PRECIOUS TREVOR!!!!! wub.gif wub.gif wub.gif

Posted by: My Doxie and Me Nov 30 2012, 02:33 AM

Forgive me for the interruption Bobbie What Beautiful friends you have as they carry beautiful thoughts
I would like to say your words came through crystal clear and i thank you for giving me the opportunity
as this catholic School girl grips the tiny piece of chalk in her hands; she makes me smile as she tells
a story that gives great hope to all that she touches with pure kindness within her heart as she helps so
many as i stand silent you bring Hope to all you touch...Now is this runway long enough for flight wink.gif

Posted by: moon_beam Nov 30 2012, 03:10 PM

Hi, Bobbie, stopping by to say hello and to bask in the warmth of your and your beloved Trevor's forever love bond. I hope today is treating you, Stan, and your precious Dreamer and Kelley kindly. I hope your precious Dreamer is doing okay with his heartworm treatments. Please know you are in my thoughts and prayers, Bobbie, and that I always look forward to knowing how you're doing and to sharing your treasured memories of and heart-filled loved letters to your beloved Trevor.

Peace and blessings,

Posted by: Bobbie Nov 30 2012, 10:18 PM

THANK YOU so much, My Doxie and moon_beam!

First, Jenna's daddy: how kind and thoughtful you truly are (even if you don't think so) for sending me that picture of the little girl! And, OH YES, You betcha! The runway is just PERFECT for flight!!!! Flights of fancy, flights of imagination, flights up to the clouds and back, flights to wherever we want to be. Our hearts and minds and souls truly have no limits on the amount of loving flight we have to give, not only to our own, but to others that we fall in love with anonymously at first.

I can just see Trevor, egging everyone of his brothers, cousins, friends, etc. into going for a flight! To where?? Who cares? Let's just go!! Up - Up - And Away!! (to quote Santa). Oh, Jenna's daddy, once again, you have helped me to feel so much happier tonight, when thinking of my Trevor (I cried today when I was telling someone about him - how could I not?) and (selfishly) myself. How I wish I could be the actual little girl in the picture, but it's better this way, to imagine what she is feeling (if I were her) and remembering my own young feelings of joy and endless possibilities.

Jenna's daddy, you also carry me, so many, many times, when you don't even realize it. Do you think I only read your posts (and others) just once? Silly person, that's what those "normal" folks out there must do. Not me. Se I have an excuse now, too. It's called Chemo Brain! And it's real and I forget everything! Sometimes frustrating, but mostly entertaining and an excellent excuse at times. There, I just gave myself away. HELP, TREVOR!!!!!

And, please trust me when I say that, while you may feel silent, when your words do come forth, the are incredibly powerful and right on the mark! Who could ask for more? Except to have your soul and heart begin to heal, just ever so slightly. Let me assure you, this is not in any form abandoning Jenna or your memories/love and being unfaithful to her. Remember, she knows everything now: about you and your new companion and your old days and she loves every second of it all!!!! That's what she gets to do in the Perfect World, that we have to wait and strive for, each in our own way and time. You are still very early in "the journey", but I KNOW that you will make it every step of the way and Jenna already is so proud of you!

Rest a bit easier tonight, knowing Jenna is right there with you, ALWAYS, and so is your new love (forgot the name, sorry - chemo brain). Let them lick you to slumber tonight!

AND, OF COURSE, MY MOON_BEAM! Patiently waiting as always. Thank you for your reassuring thoughts and words. The chemo is finished for about 6 weeks, but I'm not sure when the surgery will occur after that. It's a tough road, but TREVOR is my mentor in all of this.
THANK YOU, moon_beam, for yours and everyone else's love. I wouldn't be where I am without it!


Posted by: Gretta's Mom Dec 2 2012, 08:45 AM

HI Trevor-Forever

Thank you for being the gentle pillar of strength for you mommie. When the rest of us don't know what to say or do, your beautiful spirit comes through every time and gives her the stroke on the head that she needs - just like she did for you when you were on earth here. Only you know her true heart - because you two are really the same being. Now you are living where you are healthy and happy and can help your mom who is here on earth and suffering. Your picture is THE most beautiful picture of a dog that I have ever seen. I walk by it every day and marvel. Only a beautiful wonderful person like your mom would have such a beautiful, perfect dog as her soul-mate. Thank you for coming to earth and searching throughout it, going through some truly he((ish times, to find her. Thank you for being the one and only thing she can cling to when her tears run like a river.

I love you Trevor. Just like I love your mommie.

Auntie jeannie

Posted by: LoveMyMickey Dec 3 2012, 07:15 PM

My Dear Sweet Trevor,

Nothing fancy today, just three simple words, "I LOVE YOU!"..........Continue to comfort your mommy, I know you will. We all love her too.

Auntie LoveMyMickey wub.gif wub.gif wub.gif

Posted by: Gretta's Mom Dec 4 2012, 07:29 AM

Hi Trevor

I heard a rumor - your mom's coming to see you today ..... she's always there in her heart - you can feel it!!


Auntie Jeannie

Posted by: LoveMyMickey Dec 4 2012, 12:49 PM

Hi Sweet Trevor,

My goodness, Trevor, your auntie Jeanne scared me with that first line.....

I know your mommy has missed visiting you and your brothers......Until later, remember we all love you all. wub.gif wub.gif wub.gif

XOXO Auntie LoveMyMickey XOXO

Posted by: Gretta's Mom Dec 5 2012, 07:34 AM

On my goodness Trevor!

I didn't mean to scare our Mickey-Musketeer with my message yesterday! I meant she was coming to see where all her animals are sleeping together on earth - I mean, we know you are all in heaven, but you know what I mean.

Every day I ask you guys to do the same thing, and every day it is sorely needed: send some love and strength rays down to your mom today. And tip your bro Kelly off that he'd have a whole lot calmer life if he just didn't do this "I get to chew up everything smallish in this house" thing/

We all love you, Trevor-Forever.

Auntie Jeannie

Posted by: Gretta's Mom Dec 6 2012, 07:46 AM

Hi Trevor-baby

It seems that I ask you for something every day. You're a miracle dog and in the Perfect World so I know you can do it. This time PLEASE get the troops together and think your most peaceful thoughts and send all that peaceful spirit down to your mom's house. Please enter every person's heart and give them the peace that you were sent to earth to spread.

I love you Trevor-forever!

Auntie Jeannie

Posted by: Bobbie Dec 6 2012, 04:22 PM

Hi Honey Bunch!

Believe me, Trevor, when I say that conditions in mommy's life right now are such that it would be nice to be with you now - to enjoy good health, peace and love with everyone. Oh, no one should worry that I might "do something" - not me. But there are times when being with you, your brothers, cousins and all your friends would be a blast!!!!

I love you, Trevor, and I always will. I keep your picture all over the place to remind me of your strength and courage.


Posted by: moon_beam Dec 7 2012, 12:17 PM

Hi, Bobbie, just stopping by to say hello and to rest awhile in the warmth of your and your beloved Trevor's forever love. I hope the days are treating you, Stan, and your precious Dreamer and Kelley kindly. I'm wondering how your precious Dreamer is doing with his heartworm treatments. I hope by now the worst of the treatments are coming to an end, and that the remainder of his treatments will be more tolerable.

Thank you so very much for sharing your beloved Trevor with us, Bobbie. Please know you, Stan, your precious Dreamer and Kelley, and all your family are in my thoughts and prayers, and that I always look forward to sharing with you how you're doing, and your treasured memories of and heart-filled love letters to your beloved Trevor.

Peace and blessings,

Posted by: LoveMyMickey Dec 7 2012, 06:55 PM

Dear Sweet Loving Mommy,

I am sending you the Angel of Peace and Rest again. Take her hand in yours and don't let go until you feel her peace and rest and my love.

Your Son,

Trevor-Forever wub.gif wub.gif wub.gif

Posted by: Gretta's Mom Dec 9 2012, 07:18 AM

Oh Trevor-forever

what a beautiful angel Love My Mickey sent you and your mom! Can you see the beautiful angel hovering over your mom and keeping her peaceful? I can.

It's VERY snowy here = first time this year. Your cousin Rufus reallly likes it. I'll have to go to a big people store and get him a sweater. probably have to shop in the teenage section!

Remember - we love you - but not half as much as you love us - you mommie especially.

Auntie Jeannie

Posted by: Gretta's Mom Dec 11 2012, 09:14 PM

Good evening, Mr Trevor-Forever

Thank you so much for getting the Musketeers together and directing your mom to a very smart and helpful lady that can help her and Uncle Stan's sad hearts. Nothing will ever equal your love, but this lady can help a little and that's all we earhtlings can do.

Keep warm, my lovely doggie.

Auntie Jeannie

Posted by: Bobbie Dec 11 2012, 10:16 PM

My dearest, darling Trevor,

Mommy hasn't been on this site in quite awhile and feels terrible about that and, yet at the same time, I know that YOU know I love you more than ever before. I must get to the cemetery tomorrow with the Christmas decorations and just to sit and be with you and your brothers. Have you seen grandmom and grandpop recently? I know they still miss you, too.

My precious furball, you mean the world to me in so many ways. I absolutely love Dreamer and Kelley (he's slowing getting calmer), but YOU are my hero and my role model. And I will do exactly as you did (or as best I can) to take things one day at a time and always look towards the one(s) who love you. No one else matters and we can shut the negative, selfish world out while just loving each other.

I wish I could find better words to express how I LOVE YOU! Please accept these tiny human words for a huge, huge feeling.


Posted by: Gretta's Mom Dec 12 2012, 07:49 AM


What a beautiful letter from your mom. You two are truly part of the same amazing being. Both of you ... be calm and warm today. I love you both.

Auntie Jeannie.

Posted by: Bobbie Dec 13 2012, 10:38 PM

Dearest Trevor,

I am so sorry that I didn't make it to the cemetery today like I told you I would. I was worried about my dad and felt like I was running out of time. But I WILL BE THERE with new surprises all around!

Trevor, I just wish I could hold onto you and smell you one more time and gather, from you, courage and strength to endure..............Please teach me how.

I love you beyond measure, with a love that runs deep and strong every day, no, every minute of every day for the rest of my life. And it beats me why I am afraid to cross to the Perfect World, Heaven, when I know I will be with you (and your brothers) again. Let's just hope that is still a ways off, OK honey?

Have a peace-filled night surrounded by all your family and friends.


Posted by: Bobbie Dec 14 2012, 07:45 PM

Darling Trevor,

Do you see all the beautiful, simple decorations at the cemetery? I think they are just perfect this year. I am sorry about your rosary. Obviously people with leaf blowers came through and paid no attention to any of you or your brothers' graves - things were everywhere. But I have another for you and will bring it with me tomorrow when daddy and I bring out the stockings.

Another day to love you, Mr. Trevor. I have been granted another day to love you and, oh, what a blessing that is!!!!

Now, go find Jenna and Jake and all your other buddies (far too numerous to remember their names) and have a GREAT Friday night!

XO mommy XO

Posted by: Bobbie Dec 16 2012, 08:55 PM

Hello my darling Trevor!

We're still working on the stockings. Mommy got sick this afternoon so we had to put all projects on hold for today. But we still have time!

Trevor, sweet, loving are the soul that flutters softly in me and the love that brings me to tears so often. You are my everything. Thank you.

Have a good night, honey!


Posted by: Gretta's Mom Dec 17 2012, 06:52 AM

Hi dearest Trevor

Thank you for being the gentlest, most loving soul in the universe. Your mommie needs you SO much right now. People around her here on this earth are afraid to talk to her about what really scares her - crossing over to the Perfect World. I'm guilty of that, too. Please help me, Gentle One, to find the courage if and when she needs me for this.

I see your picture every day ... I reminds me that there IS a perfect dog in a perfect world. And we were lucky enough to have you live with us for a while on earth.

God bless you Trevor.

Auntie Jeannie

Posted by: Bobbie Dec 17 2012, 08:58 PM

My dear sweetness,

Oh, how I miss your gentleness and the acceptance of your awful illnesses. I NEED to learn from you, how to do the same because I am not doing a very good job at all. Each day I mess up by getting frustrated and letting that frustration come out in the form of harsh words, impatience, having a smart mouth and just "giving in" instead of making myself stay strong, as you did, even to the very end when you needed so much medication for your pain. And even then you taught me lessons that I am just now discovering. You were/are wise beyond your years and far smarter than I will ever hope to be. As long as I have you next to my heart, though, I will never lose.

Trevor, human words continue to fail me as I think and try to tell others how much we loved each other and truly understood each other. I really wish I could have relieved your pacing and pacing around and around our house. But that was part of one illness and there was nthing we could do to stop it, but I so wished I could have and given you some peace.

Honey, I love you beyond words, beyond measure into the infinity - forever. Please know that you will NEVER be forgotten as long as there are butterflies on this earth!


Posted by: Gretta's Mom Dec 17 2012, 09:11 PM

Hi darling Trevor

You are a saint that sheds light and love on everybody who knows you or even knows about you. Only the strongest love in the universe could shine through your mom's letters to you. YOu're a blessing in my life, Little One.

Auntie Jeannie

Posted by: LoveMyMickey Dec 18 2012, 12:35 PM

My Sweet Trevor,

I know the Good Lord had a purpose when He sent you to your mommy. It is to comfort and love her during her trying times. You are doing a great job. Keep up the good work and "everything's gonna' be alright"....I love you and your mommy!!!! wub.gif wub.gif wub.gif

XOXO Auntie LoveMyMickey XOXO

Posted by: Bobbie Dec 19 2012, 11:25 AM

Oh, Trevor!

How could I love you more than I already do?? Tomorrow will have the answer. Meanwhile, I can't, so I won't (and I mean that in a GOOD way!)


Posted by: Bobbie Dec 20 2012, 06:37 PM

Good evening my sweetheart!

Well, mommy solved a huge burden today. Well , I didn't solve it, the Lord did, but I feel so much better. Did you like seeing Andrew at the cemetery yesterday? He's such a good person and he will watch over you and your brothters when I am in the hospital.

BTW - a beautiful doggie named WINNIE passed over into Heaven just a few days ago. Will you find her and bring her into your muttly crew? I knew you would and she will have a great time!

Tonight, for once I am not as sad and I so want to share that with you. THANK YOU for being the amazing, teacher-dog that you were for me. One day, soon, I will have to re=post your Life Lessons and write down everything else that you taught me about living and coping.


Posted by: Bobbie Dec 22 2012, 12:19 AM

Trevor, I LOVE you and I miss you incredibly. You are the BEST and always will be.


Posted by: Bobbie Dec 22 2012, 10:24 PM

No one has ever loved me as Trevor loved me. No one.....ever. That is a once-in-a-lifetime gift that I shall treasure forever.

Thank you for your love, Trevor. I am alive because of it and, perhaps I will even stay alive because of it. Who knows?

You are the most precious being in my life. You taught me so much and yet I find it difficult to follow, when you did it perfectly.

I love you, Trevor and I always will.


Posted by: Gretta's Mom Dec 24 2012, 12:07 PM

Channeled message from Trevor:


Please don't worry. It's not your time yet. The Big Man said so.

Your Trevie Boy

Posted by: Bobbie Dec 25 2012, 12:03 AM



Posted by: Gretta's Mom Dec 25 2012, 07:45 AM

Merry Christmas to you!
Merry Christmas to you!
Merry Christmas, dear Trevor,
Merry Christmas to you!

Auntie jeannie

Posted by: Gretta's Mom Dec 27 2012, 03:58 PM

Hi Mom

I hear you got another very encouraging message from a people vet today. HOORAY!!! Our band played a howling and dancing tune. It was fun. Smile just a little bit for me, mommie, OK?


Posted by: Bobbie Dec 27 2012, 10:15 PM

Dearest Trevor!

You betcha I did and I KNOW that you played a part in it, too! I love you my precious, darling, sweet boy!


Posted by: Gretta's Mom Dec 28 2012, 09:42 PM

Hi guy .... Get everybody together and dance and sing and bark and howl!!

Mom had some good news today again - she got a lady to come to her house to take care of Grandpa. To help him with everything he has to do, to take him places, to make him do exercises to make his arm strong again. AND ... the nest thing is ....your mom gets to be FREE to do whatever she wants to do!!

She says it's like a huge mountain has been lifted off her shoulders. She sounded SO good tonight when we talked on the phone - almost an hour - laughing and laughing - just like the old times.

Thank you SO much for asking the Big Man to help your mom.

Auntie Jeannie

Posted by: LoveMyMickey Dec 29 2012, 07:23 PM

My Dear Sweet Trevor!!!! wub.gif

You are the best, helping your mommy with two very important things!....I tell Mickey every day to ask his Guardian Angels and the Good Lord to help your mommy too. I know Gretta is in on it too, plus all your friends......Dance, howl, bark, and sing.....I LOVE YOU, TREVOR-FOREVER, Auntie LoveMyMickey... wub.gif

Posted by: Bobbie Dec 31 2012, 03:56 PM

Happy New Year, my Precious Trevor!

I will never get used to saying those words to just a picture or a grave site. Not until we are together again, in Heaven, will they be so much fun to say (and bark)!

I love you! I love you! I love you!


PS: And HAPPY NEW YEAR to every single one of Trevor's friends and relatives, animal and human!

Posted by: Gretta's Mom Jan 1 2013, 10:42 AM

Oh Trevor,

You have the most wonderful mommie that ever lived. That's cuz you are the most wonderful dog that ever lived (so is every other animal to the person they chose as their soul-mate). I look at your amazing picture every day. It's right next to the one of Pushba, the cow I sponsor. (Yup, it's true)

Please stay close to the Big Man and keep putting in little good words for you mommie - everything is GOING to be OK!! How could it not be with all the beautiful beings giving their love and energy to it.

Thank you for coming into my life, Dear Trevor-Forever

Your Auntie Jeannie

Posted by: Bobbie Jan 2 2013, 01:52 PM

Dear Trevor, the love of my life

Today is the second day in the New Year and I haven't been out to see you yet. Maybe when my dad takes his nap. Oh, how much I love you and wish we could have shared the holidays together (you being perfectly well, of course), but then we weren't home that much anyway, so it worked out that I got to take you every place we went!

I love you, my precious teacher. I think I am going to practice one lesson each day or so instead of all 8 at once. Too much for this pea brain right now.

Please have a most wonderful day with your friends and family in Heaven. I never stop thinking of you!


Posted by: Bobbie Jan 4 2013, 12:00 PM

Good Morning, Trevor boy!

You are the bravest and sweetest little doggie that ever lived on this earth and is now enjoying your just rewards in Heaven! I stopped by the other day and was just shocked at the amount of leaves that were covering only our graves! That spot must be a leaf magnet because every time I go there, winter or summer, the leaves (or ants) are all over the place. Your Grandmom and Grandpop brought you a beautiful bouquet of long-lasting poinsettias and they look so nice next to your headstone. I'm going to leave the crosses up for a long while, but probably take down the winter decors before I go into the hospital because I know no one will get out there to straighten things up.

I miss you my little friend. You are the apple of my eye, even thought, at the time, it seemed like a lot of work, but now I would gladly do it, except that you would be sick and in pain again and I NEVER want that to happen again.

So, have a fun-filled day with your friends and family doing whatever you want whenever you want (if that is allowed).


Posted by: Gretta's Mom Jan 4 2013, 09:26 PM

Hi you precious baby boy

Your picture is in my dining room and I look at it 20 times a day and remember how much I love you and how many miracles you worked for your mommie. If only you hadn't had to suffer so much. You made it, Big Boy. You made it over, into the Perfect World where there IS no pain. Congratulations, you miracle dog, you.

Auntie Jeannie

Posted by: Bobbie Jan 5 2013, 06:54 PM

Hi Trevor!

Just one question of the day: How did I ever make it before you came into my life?

I know one of the answers is: Rudy, Jasper, Birney, Kelly and Crocker, each in their own special ways. But I don't know the rest of the answer. Would you mind sharing that secret with me or am I not ready yet?


Posted by: Gretta's Mom Jan 6 2013, 01:13 PM


Do you remember Bingo, Nicky and Bozo? They were opening your heart to us animals. Dogs have been at your side all your life. I am SO proud to have been among them. And you have been at our sides and in our hearts all your life, too. There is a line of doggies yet to come. We know who they are but we aren't allowed to tell. You just have to believe!


Posted by: Bobbie Jan 8 2013, 07:46 AM

Hi Trevor!

You have such a perfect memory. And wisdom!

Mommy REALLY loves and misses you today. Please send some butterflies to someone (in a warm place) that could use them today.


Posted by: Bobbie Jan 9 2013, 07:12 PM

Dearest Trevor,

You and God did it again!!!!!! You are so darn good to me, even from another world (which is far better than this one I might add). Got my appt. with Efron exactly when I wanted it!

Thank you, my sweet boy, for being in such good graces with the Almighty!


Posted by: Bobbie Jan 10 2013, 10:47 AM

Hi Trevor!

Do you ever stop to take a rest? You and God did it AGAIN! Finding Dr. Moss was a real miracle for daddy. Now he's going to get home P.T., O.T. and skilled nursing assessments!

Thank you my humky bunky! And thank you, Lord, for your goodness, even when I don't feel it. I know it is there!

Oh, and Trevor, can you stop by and say Hi! to Hermy's mommy and Jake's Grandpa for me? Thanks so much! And check in on My Doxie and Me to make sure things are OK.


PS: HI Gretta, Jake, Hermy, Jenna,Mickey, Peanut, Noah and all the precious animals whose names have been obliterated today by Mr. Chemo Brain!!!!!! One day I will tell you about Mr. Dorway Brain! XOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXO

Posted by: Bobbie Jan 11 2013, 01:55 PM

My dear, dear, sweet boy,

Mommy wants to take a couple minutes to THANK you for every miinute you spent on this earth in my life. It was like no other time and there will be no other time like it. Your physical needs were so great that I often wonder who I was doing the "favor" of keeping you around. But YOU knew. We had some very good times walking and your chewing on those marrow bones. You LOVED it when daddy came home! Our snugglinig in the morning means everything to me and always will. Trevor, you are and were the BEST. I don't know how else to say it except check in with my heart any time you want and you will know exactly what I am saying. Soon it will be 18 months since we physically parted. Please know that, if I am preoccupied on that day, I will NEVER forget you. I still have a memory candle to light for you.

My eyes still leak and my breath still catches as I remember you and want to be with you so badly. And yet, these same memories bring comfort and reassurance to me that I WAS a good mommy, even though I still feel like a complete failure and would do so many things differently. I cannot live in the past like that, however, because you and all my boys are teaching me that only the PRESENT matters. Is it any wonder that PRESENT=GIFT? You are my greatest animal gift and I will thank the Lord every day for that. Your picture will always be with me, no matter where I am. And that's not to say I don't love my "new" boys: Dreamer and Kelley. I do sooooooooooooooo much because of you and your brothers opening that door for me.

Have a wonderful "day" in Heaven. I know you make others up there smile, as well as many of us here on earth!


Posted by: My Doxie and Me Jan 11 2013, 09:14 PM

Dear Bobbie thank you for your support and your kind words as Trevor teaches you well;..I'am sure your kindness extends far beyond
and into the lifes of many..As i listen you seem to care for all as you sit and listen to the Song birds on the window sill.. I hear

the many songs that you sing within your kind words holds all of are friends...Please be well as your journey of next i wish
and i will..The most powerful Healing comes from Kindness as you have touched my Heart with your words..As i sit and
Dissect,recreate each Paw print to find the flaw in my Care..When each step i find peace for a friend as i keep searching
for my own pain follows me..

I have a picture that i would post in the light of lose loved ones..I will hold for my own as i wish to be positive and bring truth
not of my own image of we can become distant from are own pain...As we look into the window of life after a beautiful
friend has passed there teachings on to us with whispers we carry for all of time...To the Innocence that are friends bring...
As a picture appears in mind of the purest heart we sit with are friends...With Childs play We see the world through there eyes...

Be well Bobbie Please;....

Posted by: Gretta's Mom Jan 12 2013, 07:33 PM


Auntie Jeannie loves you!

Posted by: My Doxie and Me Jan 13 2013, 06:25 PM

The Poetry Of Innocence....<Reverie Sanctuary>TMPG-...

I hope you don't lose the innocence,
That easy contagious smile upon your face,
That simple faith held within your heart,
A gentle understanding, Not frayed by too
many so-called insights...

I pray you stay unharmed from the cold,and,...
The stormy weather that comes to visit from time to time,
That tries to make this life, Something you wish to leave behind,..

I hope your innocence stays,
Never to run astray,
But always within reach,
Whenever it is,
You are ready for a mend.

I hope you will let the innocence affect you,
Keep you Grounded,
Remind you of that little young care-free child inside,
Whose hopeful countenance is going to be,
The life line for a heart that sees nothing else,
But the deepest apathy, cringing at its side.

I pray that your innocence holds your hand,
Even when the circumstance is pulling you down,
And when you feel as if no one is around,
Let it stand by your side;....
A shadow of an unstained truth.
A reminder of your truest calling.

I know you will grow older
But i want you to be wiser,
I know you will recall the times when,
Your innocence camouflages as the soft baby's blanket,
Sheltering you,
From the bitter taste of crashed hope,
And broken heart,
Soothes you,holds the pieces,
So you won't break apart....

But when the fight is heavy in you,
It may get pushed aside,
Cursed as an unwanted blind spot,
Often willed to die a slow,
Premature demise.

I don't want you to forget,
That the innocence of the long gone youth,
Further enhanced by time and experience,
Can be all that you need, to change your thoughts,
about this life, and will you then,
Make it whole again....

To my Dear friend Boobie and Mr. Trevor with great Honor i speak your name as i follow within time
i hear tales of Heart felt words that leave trails of love so you might find the innocence as you may
be reunited with a true friend that sings within a window sill as she still looks for you each and every day...

Think;)as my words you will find within my friend i wish you well this day as you know i kneel and pray....With magic Butterflies;..

Posted by: LoveMyMickey Jan 15 2013, 07:50 PM

My Dear Sweet Trevor, wub.gif

Just stopping by to say hi and that I love you and your mommy. I will never forget you both as long as I live. Don't forget to send your mommy loads of butterflies this spring and summer. They make her happy.

I hope you, Mickey, Gretta, and all the gang are having fun in your heavenly home. And let's not forget Jake. I just bet he is a fun and playful boy.

I love you and your mommy. wub.gif

Auntie LoveMyMickey

Posted by: Gretta's Mom Jan 17 2013, 08:10 AM

HI sweet boy,

Please keep a very special watch on your mommie. All of our tears - Mickey's, mine, your dad's, your granpa's, Rufus's, Kelly's, Dreamer's, hundred of your mommie's dear friends here on earth are for her. I know these are healing diamonds in the Perfect World. Please go ask the Beautiful Man to help your mommie through this.

I love you.

Your aunt jeannie

Posted by: Gretta's Mom Jan 18 2013, 06:58 AM

Hi Trevor-forever

Ya'all did it again!!! You go Musketeers!

Thanks. I love you.

Auntie jeannie

Posted by: LoveMyMickey Jan 18 2013, 07:02 PM

Sending love to Trevor-Forever!!!

Auntie LoveMyMickey

Posted by: Bobbie Jan 24 2013, 12:57 AM

Hi Trevor!

Well, mommy knows when she is going into the hospital. It will be in about one week. YOU WILL NEVER BE ALONE! Auntie Jeanne, Auntie LoveMyMickey, Uncle Jake's Grandpa and Uncle My Doxie and Me and others like Auntie moon_beam will all be checking up on you and letting you know how mommy is doing.

So, look for me in the hospital next week and I already have your picture ready to come with me.


Posted by: Jake'sGrandpa Jan 24 2013, 06:57 AM

Good luck in the hospital, Bobbie. Trevor will be with you and I will pray for you. Love ya.

Posted by: LoveMyMickey Jan 24 2013, 07:22 PM

My Dear Bobbie,

You and Trevor, also Aunt Jeanne, will never be alone. We all are here for you. My thoughts and prayers are always with you for your operation to be successful and for a complete healing......Loads of Love and ((((HUGS)))) wub.gif

My Little Trevor - Forever,

You will never be alone. We will all be here for you. I love you, little one. wub.gif

Auntie LoveMyMickey

Posted by: My Doxie and Me Jan 25 2013, 10:16 PM

My friend Bobbie always wishing you well as for the invitation i must decline i'am afriad if i let the pain go i will lose my best friend..
as i speak to offer others some comfort i heal myself as i write i find caring words for your health as you hold the hands of children as
you guide them towards the light with your help a lost soul look for a friend as he see's the true light you have given to so
many i speak of innocence it's easy to see where i draw my faith from...Like i said an Angle has many forms it's the true kind Heart as
we look through that bring us light so we can Breath as are friends pass within are self...As we Blame ourself as we stand by ourself
and ask why.....

My friend brings the true beauty within me as i would cover it with leafs...As i run my Hand through the grass that brings Memories
to life a simple dog no...It's taking responsibility for life as we act with a kind heart we find that are friends teach us much more
then we could ever imagine..So i ask who is the teacher and who is the student as my friend teaches me i have to give way and speak..
to let others know it is time... only i have to be the one to let go...I was fine until i found a friend.. now Heart broken with words..
that break as i look back i see a friend that walks with me so proud we fill the night sky within i speak it is time...My Freundin..

And i walk out alone so broken.. Simple dog... until you read the words in the eyes of a true friend as you hold life as you speak for life..
To this day i'am still broken and wish to separate and unable to move past until i find what i'am looking for,So i keep searching..
As i kneel and Pray within my own whispers..Please Forgive me...

Bobbie these words should have never been posted seems you bring out the best of the lost souls that wonder why...
It seems i have gone on to long about myself as i have promised a picture of a Angel Flower that looks from a window
Sill waiting to see the true gift that has been given to us as we must understand every word before they pass in are
Hearts as we hold there speech as we say goodbye as worlds shatter and we leave with silence and Memories..
With broken Heart we try and speak for the ones that sit silent waiting for are Angels Wings...So we can Breath..
And say we Believe....

If i could ask one thing so my friend could see my broken words..I truly miss you my friend... As my own i hold within my Heart
that breaks with each word i speak....

Bobbie sorry for my broken words and thank you for the letters.. you bring sunshine to my days..Wish you well...

Posted by: LoveMyMickey Jan 28 2013, 12:59 PM

My Dear Sweet Trevor, wub.gif

I promised your mommy I would write to you every day as long as I am able. So here I am. This is mommy's big day and we all are praying that she will be okay. You keep your "prayer paws pack" going up in your Perfect World, Okay?

I hope others will write to you while your mommy is away. It will make her very happy when she is able to read here.....Trevor, I love you and your mommy. wub.gif

Auntie LoveMyMickey

Here is an Angel for your mommy......

Posted by: LoveMyMickey Jan 28 2013, 08:00 PM

Dear Trevor,

I'm so sorry, I got your mommy's day wrong. I'll still write to you every day though.

Love from Auntie LoveMyMickey... wub.gif

Posted by: Gretta's Mom Jan 29 2013, 12:37 PM

Hi Little Guy our Trevor-Forever.

Our little band of Musketeers is together and is surrounding each other with love and strength.

Rufus makes a "funny noise" when he wants to go out. Maybe let's get the animal component of the musketeers together and do a 24-hour "funny noise" (it's really a gentle, comforting noise) vigil all day and night on Feb 1, OK?

The people comtingent will be doing it along with you. That way both heaven and earth will hum with the sould of your mommie's name.

Thanks beautiful.

Auntie Jeannei

Posted by: Bobbie Jan 30 2013, 08:00 AM

Hello my darling Trevor!

Mommy has to go in the hospital a couple days early - for some tests to make sure her heart is up to the rigors of the surgery on Friday. My sweetness, I will be just fine because your Spirit and those of so many others, in Heaven and on earth go with me. Of course, I am taking your pcture with me!

To My Doxie: you will always be my very special and true friend. I understand every word you write and even those you don't say. I will be here to listen at ALL times, but may not be able to respond for awhile - at least on the site. But in my heart I will be sending you messages of all watch out! You may need to duck from time to time so you don't get smacked in the head (I'm a poor aim.). You, Jenna and yourthoughts and feelings are so very important to me. PMs are OK, too. Thank you for the encouragement.

Now I must go and get ready for the Johns.........Hopkins.

I love you ALL!!!!!!


Posted by: LoveMyMickey Jan 30 2013, 06:43 PM




TREVOR! wub.gif

Auntie LoveMyMickey

Posted by: LoveMyMickey Feb 1 2013, 07:39 PM

Dear Sweet Trevor,

Thinking of your mommy and you today
and sending a butterfly of love.

Auntie LoveMyMickey

Posted by: My Doxie and Me Feb 1 2013, 09:58 PM

Bobbie i would like to send you an Angel of your Innocence that prays for your safe return...

With all the children you have helped along the way with so many speak your name i can assure you
Bobbie your Heart is made of Gold as your Doctors will see this and tell you..You will be fine for your friends
are waiting for you..Hold your Innocence when know one else is around as you see a reflection of
your childhood looking with you walking by you holding your strength Like a Blanket that keeps you safe...

Posted by: Jake'sGrandpa Feb 2 2013, 09:02 AM

Bobbie, I hope that you are doing well and feeling OK. Here are some flowers for you.

Posted by: LoveMyMickey Feb 2 2013, 06:30 PM

Dear Sweet Trevor,

Aren't those flowers beautiful!!!!!

Trevor, keep sending those healing and love rays to your mommy. You have been doing good.....You are a sweet boy!!!

XOXO Auntie LoveMyMickey XOXO wub.gif wub.gif wub.gif

Posted by: Gretta's Mom Feb 2 2013, 08:57 PM

Hi Trevor-Forever

My goodness, LMM and MDandM have sent some very beautiful pictures to your mom! Thanks to them - they care. And you know how few of that kind of caring people there are down here in this earth.

A HUG thank you for helping to organize the prayer-hum yesterday.


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Your mom, your dad and I are sending millions of love rays back to you and to all our beloved Musketeer dogs.

I Love you, Trevor Forever.

Auntie Jeannie

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