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On October 15, 2010 my little lammy, Bunny, transitioned to the next phase of his life. I miss him more than I can say.
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24 Oct 2010
I just lost the love and light of my life. I found Bunny in a ditch when he was a baby. He was wild and didn't trust anyone. I had to wrap him up in a towel just to hold him and pet the top of his head while he growled. It was so cute. After a couple of weeks of that he was mine and gave me so much love every day. He never learned to trust many other people but let me do anything I wanted. I had him for fifteen years and I'm trying really hard to remember that I'm lucky to have had him that long instead of wishing I could have him longer.
He was so beautiful and unique in every way. He was all white, long hair and a short tail like a bunny rabbit. That's why I named him Bunny. He was so intelligent and our relationship was on a spiritual level. We read each others minds all the time, he slept by my pillow, knew when I was sad, gave me purr therapy. He came to me in a time in my life that was very hard and he lifted me up. Everything that he did delighted me and I thought that he was the one thing that life gave me that was special and beautiful. And I felt that way about him every day of my life.
I come to India for a few months every year to study yoga and I always worry about him so much when I'm gone. My parents take care of him while I'm gone and Bunny is OK with that because they cater to his every whim. They always treated him like royalty because they know what he means to me and he has also brought much joy and wonder to their lives as well.
This time I planned to stay in India for five months to study yoga and some day I would like to teach it. I call my house every day to check on everyone and make sure everyone is OK. A few days after I arrived I called and my mom told me that Bunny was sick and in the hospital. He had come into their room dragging his hind legs and meowing in a strange way. They knew that something really bad had happened and took him to the emergency room. He had a blood clot and was in the hospital for two days. Those were the most horrible days. I called him to talk to him on the phone and he would lift his head up when he heard my voice. He was on blood thinners to dissolve the blood clot and morphine for the pain. On the third day I was going to skype with him with the help of my mom and sister but unfortunately he didn't make it. He had another blood clot that went to his heart and he died. I didn't want Bunny to suffer but it was so horrible to get that news and my mom was just hysterical because she loved Bunny and she knew how it would hurt me to lose him.
I am so sad and miss him so much. And most of all I feel terrible that I wasn't there for him when he needed me. I wish that I had gone straight home to be with him. It's a very long flight from India to the US and expensive and I was hoping that he would make it. Anyway, I just hate that I wasn't with him and feel like I let him down. I'm trying not to be depressed and feeling sorry for myself.
I still have nearly five months left and I really just want to go home but at the same time I'm afraid to go home because he won't be there and I just can't imagine that. He loved water especially running water and so I got him a big fountain to drink out of and he loved it. I just can't imagine him not there drinking out of this fountain. It will be so lonely without him and I don't want another animal. When I got him I wasn't looking for a pet. He was a gift, a blessing.
Everyone tells me that he was lucky to have been loved so much but it is hard and painful. I know that everything is impermanent in this life and we have to learn about loss and all that. It's just hard and I wanted to tell about Bunny and how much he means to me.
Someone here gave me the Tibetan Book of the Dead and I have been reading it to him everyday and will do so for the 49 days. It helps a little. I'm also reading the Tibetan Book of Living and Dying and I really like it.
Anyway, thank you thank you for reading this and I will continue to post and read the stories of others. Bunny deserves the highest and to be in the highest place. I love him so much.
Here is a picture of him in the hospital. I will upload another picture they took of him when I called and was talking to him and you can see he lifted his head up. I also uploaded a picture I took of him when I came back from India last time. He loved everything new and different. I was unpacking my stuff and spread out and Indian wall hanging and he jumped up on it to lay down on it.
I am sorry I know I am feeling really sorry for myself it's just that I need to share this with people that understand and I wish I could be stronger and Bunny could be proud of me. I am really glad to have this site to post on. I feel better and a little lighter just getting this out and sharing it. Thank you all so much.
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