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Posted by: Tom's Dad May 28 2016, 10:33 AM

Dear LS friends,

It is with a heavy heart and deep sadness that I must tell you I had to help my baby girl Theresa transition to the Rainbow Bridge to be with Angel Tom. It was the hardest decision I have ever had to make. But Dr. Mills assured me I was doing the right thing. For those of you that may not have read about her illness, it is here:

http://lightning-strike.com/forum/index.php?showtopic=7409 and her journey with us here: http://lightning-strike.com/forum/index.php?showtopic=6896

Dr. Mills said the tumor had pretty much consumed her entire tongue, that it would continue to grow and she would never get better or even stabilize. We had our final goodbyes in the room while Dr. Mills went to get what was needed. She did something that she had not done in weeks. She reached up with both paws to my chest to "hug" me and touch my nose. In her eyes I could see she was saying "It's OK daddy, I know it's my time" I told her she was going to be with Angel Tom now. Now she is Angel Theresa.

Se went peacefully and gently on the thick fleece blanket they provided. I have cried, but also tried to keep it together for her sake. The uncontrollable sobbing will come later I'm sure They will call me when her ashes are ready. I never got to do that for Tom or properly say goodbye to him.

I made a video of her just under 2 years ago enjoying the sunshine on the balcony. This is how I want to remember her. Here is the link because I unfortunately I don't know how to embed it.

https://youtu.be/QZglV7hanvM



Warm summer sun,
Shine kindly here,
Warm southern wind,
Blow softly here.
Green sod above,
Lie light, lie light.
Good night, dear heart,
Good night, good night.

Mark Twain at his daughter's funeral. I thought it appropriate for my baby girl.

Before the appointment she went out to the balcony all on her own and enjoyed the sunbeams for several minutes one last time. I'm sorry if this post seems a bit "ham handed" but I'm still in shock, and this is the first time I have ever had to make this kind of decision. Thank you all for reading.

Posted by: moon_beam May 28 2016, 12:28 PM

My dear friend, Tracy, please permit me to offer you my deepest and sincerest sympathies in the physical loss of your beloved princess Theresa. As you know so well, losing a beloved companion is never easy regardless of the circumstances or how long we are blessed with the privilege of their company. Euthanasia is the last gift of love we can give to our companions at great sacrifice to ourselves so that they can be restored to their former youthfulness in the company of the angels.

My heart is aching with yours, my friend, and tears are in my eyes as I'm writing to you sharing in your deepest sorrow. Indeed, our companions know when it is their "time" to transition from this earthly realm, and your precious baby girl was doing everything in her power to try to make it easy for YOU - - for she knows how much your heart was breaking at the prospects of losing her precious physical presence. The "last hours, days, minutes" will be with you but am comforted in sharing your news that you will try to focus on the many good memories you have of her when she was in her "prime" of good health - - for this is how she wants you to remember her.

I know your beloved sweet girl is with your beloved Sir Thomas - - he was at the gates of the Rainbow Bridge to greet her and welcome her into eternal joy. She had no fear for she heard his voice calling to her leading the way for her.

I'm so very glad Dr. Mills was with you for this very difficult time in your life, my friend. It may take several days for them to get your beloved girl's remains back, but yes - - they should call you when they are ready to be picked up.

As I say to others who are beginning their grief adjustment journey, so I share with you - - I know so very well from first hand experience that when our hearts are entrenched in deep grief there are no adequate words in any language that can soothe the searing pain of sorrow. Still I hope the words I share with you will offer you some measure of comfort, support, encouragement, and hope as you and your precious Tang travel your grief journeys.

The blessing in your sorrow is knowing that the love bond you and your beloved Theresa share is eternal - - it is not restricted to the physical laws of time and space. And now along with your beloved Sir Thomas' sweet Living Spirit, your beloved princess Theresa's sweet Living Spirit will always be a part of your heart and memories - - she will always be a heartbeat close to you.

Tracy, thank you so very, very much for honoring us in sharing your beloved princess Theresa with us. I hope you and your precious Tang will have a peaceful day and evening together blessed with your beloved princess Theresa's and Sir Thomas' sweet Living Spirits to comfort you. Please know you and your precious Tang are in my thoughts and prayers, and please let us know how you're doing.

Peace and blessings,
moon_beam

Posted by: MannaPaws May 28 2016, 02:12 PM

Dear Tom’s Dad (Tracy),

I want to offer you my heartfelt sympathies to the loss of your precious, sweet girl Theresa. I just read your words and watched the video of Theresa basking in the sunlight 2 years ago. My heart is moved beyond what words can describe. The poem by Mark Twain is a beautiful poem and describes this loss so well. I am grieving with you, and my tears haven’t stopped, as I continue to write these condolences to you and to your precious Tang.

I know this is the hardest thing you’ve ever had to do this side of Heaven. I believe that Theresa was trying to make it as easy as possible for you, for she knew how you were struggling in making the right choice, and how you didn’t want to lose her. What you shared about her reaching up to your chest to hug you with her paws and to touch your nose was so poignant and touching. There's no doubt to me that she was telling you it was time, and that she loved you in this life and would continue to love you beyond this life. It’s as you said, you could see it in her eyes, and she was saying, “It’s OK daddy, I know it’s my time”.

I can relate to what moon_beam said and agree completely: “Euthanasia is the last gift of love we can give to our companions at great sacrifice to ourselves so that they can be restored to their former youthfulness in the company of the angels.” Precious Theresa went peacefully, and you were there to help her over the Rainbow Bridge, and Tom was waiting on the other side. I love that she is now Angel Theresa. And like Tom, she is now restored to her former youthfulness.

You were such a loving father to Theresa, and she was blessed to have you and still have you as her Forever Dad. She was clean from your bathing her last night, and she also enjoyed sunbeams on the balcony this morning. You made her feel loved and comfortable, and you did everything you could for her. And I know that she was grateful to you and loved you with all her heart.

Once again, I am so sorry for the physical loss of your beautiful girl Theresa. Please know you and Tang will be in my thoughts and prayers as you grieve through this loss.

Warmest regards,
MannaPaws

Posted by: LittleGirl'sMommy May 28 2016, 03:07 PM

Dear Tom and Theresa's Dad,

So very sorry to hear of the physical loss of your precious Theresa!

She lived a lucky earthly journey with you, that is for sure. I watched that delightful video of her basking and bathing in the sunshine on the balcony, relishing her amazing life.

Angel Theresa and Angel Tom are fully reunited---and yet still right there with you. This is absolutely precious: She reached up with both paws to my chest to "hug" me and touch my nose. In her eyes I could see she was saying "It's OK daddy, I know it's my time" I told her she was going to be with Angel Tom now. Now she is Angel Theresa.


Sending you prayers of peace,

Kathy

Posted by: Tom's Dad May 28 2016, 03:26 PM

moon_beam and MannaPaws:

I thank you both for your kind words and condolences. Reading your responses has allowed my own tears to flow more freely.

While Dr. Mills and Katrina (the vet tech who was teary eyed herself) were of great comfort, so too were the ladies up front Christina and Cindy. I told Cindy I was especially thankful to her as she was the one who introduced us to Tang when I brought Theresa in to get on a plan and get her first check up. I commented that I felt bad making her wait so long as I was dealing with all of Tom's health issues, and the irony in that I got her as company for him; and now she would be all alone. If not for her (Cindy) I would have been coming home to an empty apartment.

Tang has been very comforting and I have seen him looking around for his sister. I explained that she has had to go to join Tom at the Rainbow bridge. I told him it's just you and me now little man.

https://youtu.be/gWA8QpqFlIQ

It's heartbreaking that I had to let her go on this holiday weekend (and only a week after Tang's anniversary) But appropriate that's it's a holiday of honoring and remembrance. I lost Tom 2 1/2 weeks before Christmas of 2010. So now I will have 2 holidays that will be touched with sadness.

We will go on, but it will be difficult with a Theresa sized hole in our hearts and souls. But as the saying goes, she's not really gone as long as we remember her. Paraphrasing Dr. McCoy's words at the death of Spock. And Admiral Krik's: Of all the souls I have encountered in my travels....hers was the most...human.

I want to thank you both again for your kindness and heartfelt words of condolence. Blessings.

TT...and T Gone (from her earthly journey) but never forgotten.

Posted by: Tom's Dad May 28 2016, 05:06 PM

QUOTE (LittleGirl'sMommy @ May 28 2016, 04:07 PM)

Dear Tom and Theresa's Dad,

So very sorry to hear of the physical loss of your precious Theresa!

She lived a lucky earthly journey with you, that is for sure. I watched that delightful video of her basking and bathing in the sunshine on the balcony, relishing her amazing life.

Angel Theresa and Angel Tom are fully reunited---and yet still right there with you. This is absolutely precious: She reached up with both paws to my chest to "hug" me and touch my nose. In her eyes I could see she was saying "It's OK daddy, I know it's my time" I told her she was going to be with Angel Tom now. Now she is Angel Theresa.


Sending you prayers of peace,

Kathy

Posted by: moon_beam May 29 2016, 09:56 AM

Hi, Tracy, thank you so very much for sharing with us how you and your precious little Tang are doing. Your reference to Capt. Kirk's euology for Spock is so touching. I completely and totally share your sentiments about our precious companions.

I know from first hand experience with my precious Noah searching for his big adopted kitty brother Eli when he did not come back home from his final trip to the vet (only a week later in ashes). He grieved deeply for his big brother and it broke my heart to see him in such pain. I know you will do everything in your power to comfort your precious Tang's grieving heart, for in comforting him you will also be comforted.

I hope today is treating you and your precious Tang kindly, and that you both will have a peaceful evening blessed with your beloved princess Theresa's and Sir Thomas' sweet Living Spirits to comfort you. Please know you and your precious Tang are in my thoughts and prayers, and please let us know how you're doing.

Peace and blessings,
moon_beam

Posted by: Tom's Dad May 29 2016, 11:25 AM

Hello moon_beam.

Thank you for checking in on us and your kind words of support. At about 9:15 this morning I had an odd feeling and was compelled to look at the clock on the wall. I realized it had been just about 24 hours since my baby girl went to be with Angel Tom

Last night I had what may have been my first "sign" from her. I was re-arranging my work pants and shirts I mostly hang to dry after laundry to get them to dry more evenly in the bedroom. No sooner had I walked out into the hall I heard a loud thump. I went back in to see plastic box containing yarn/string and other things for crafting on the floor opened. It had belonged to my then GF and has sat unmoved (by even a centimeter) on the top shelf of the closet since she left in 2004 Also sometimes, when it's very very quiet, I hear a high pitched meow that is/was unmistakably hers.

Tang has been even more affectionate (even for him) today cuddling more on the couch with me and kneading my chest. We are struggling toward our new normal. Thank goodness I am off tomorrow for the holiday. Thank you again for your thoughts and prayers. Blessings.

TT and TT

Posted by: moon_beam May 29 2016, 12:32 PM

Hi, Tracy, thank you so much for sharing with us how you and your precious little Tang are doing. I am comforted in sharing your news of visits from your beloved princess Theresa, and Sir Thomas. There is no doubt she, and Sir Thomas, are letting you know they are well and forever with you and Tang. I know this is also comforting for you and your precious boy.

Again, my friend, I hope today is treating you and your precious Tang kindly, and that you both will have a peaceful evening blessed with your beloved princess Theresa's and Sir Thomas' sweet Living Spirits to comfort you. Please know you and your precious Tang are in my thoughts and prayers, and please let us know how you're doing.

Peace and blessings,
moon_beam

Posted by: Tom's Dad May 29 2016, 02:22 PM

Hi moon_beam.

Thanks for checking on us again. Something that's bothering me is I have not cried all day. I cried more before I had the make the decision than now. She was my baby girl, I loved her. So why can't I cry for her? Is it because I had control of the situation? Because she didn't just get ripped from my life like Tom did?

I just don't know. I am certainly feeling depressed. But instead of sleeping a lot like I usually do, I'm finding it hard to sleep. At this rate, I won't have to have a "work face" and that bothers me. Was I really that bad a dad to her? Questions, but no answers right now.

Posted by: moon_beam May 29 2016, 02:48 PM

Hi, Tracy, thought I would check in one more time before shutting down this technical whiz machine. Please let me try to reassure you that what you are feeling is very normal deep grief - - insomnia, a "shutting down" of emotions, etc. Grief affects each of us differently, and certainly you are still in shock from everything your beloved princess Theresa and you went through in a short period of time from the moment you received the first news of her illness to yesterday's event of easing your beloved girl's transition home to the angels - - and now enduring the adjustment journey of her physical absence. Your inability to cry right now is NOT a reflection of you being a "bad dad" to your beloved girl. In NO WAY would your beloved Theresa ever think of you as being a "bad dad". And in NO WAY would any of us here think of you as being a "bad dad" to your beloved girl, or Tang, or your beloved Sir Thomas - - or ANY precious soul blessed to be in your care either in your home or in the community.

So please don't measure your grief by the amount of tears you cry, my friend. The ability, or inability, to cry is NOT a measure of the love bond you and your beloved princess Theresa share.

Please know you and your precious Tang are in my thoughts and prayers that you both will have a peaceful evening blessed with your beloved princess Theresa's and Sir Thomas' sweet Living Spirits to comfort you. And please let us know how you're doing.

Peace and blessings,
moon_beam

Posted by: Tom's Dad May 29 2016, 04:15 PM

Thank you moon_beam for your kind words of support. As I said in the other post, comparing my responses now to when I lost Tom probably isn't fair. He was ripped from me with little warning (I don't say no warning because it was there, I just couldn't see it at the time)

It was a shocking discovery after working a full day and no time off after. I suppose this situation is the exact opposite. I had the warning and I was allowed to say goodbye t her properly. I also have time off after. But I think the real reason for this "shut down" is simple:

I know in my head and heart it was the right thing to do for her, and everybody from Dr. Mills, the Banfield personnel, you and MannaPaws agrees. But I still have to process and try to reconcile this. I stood there in that room and ordered her execution. Like I said, I know it was the right decision for her all considered. But a part of me can't escape feeling like some kind of war criminal

I appreciate your support though and I will get through this somehow. But there will be a deep emotional scar for as long as I live.

Posted by: MannaPaws May 29 2016, 05:31 PM

Hello Tom’s Dad,

I just read all of the posts on here, and wanted to address what you said about not being able to cry all day, and trying to figure out why you didn’t cry for Theresa as you did for Tom. You said you felt it was the right thing to do to have Theresa euthanized, but that a part of you feels like you ordered her execution. I do think you’re processing all your thoughts and feelings, and that is all normal and healthy, including even feeling guilt and wondering if you were a bad dad to her. Not being able to sleep is all part of the depression you’re feeling as well, and the inability to cry is also part and parcel of some guilt you "may be feeling.

Since you are processing your feelings, trying to determine exactly what is going on, perhaps you may want to try this. Get a piece of paper, or use your computer, and make 2 columns. In one column, write down the reasons you think you should have held on to Theresa and, in the other column, list the reasons you felt you wanted her to be euthanized. Then compare the 2 columns. In another post, you mentioned you’re not one for journaling, but this is just a list to make in order to narrow down exactly why you’re feeling the way you are this time around.

Here’s one more thing to consider before you make that list. Theresa was suffering greatly from the tumor in her mouth, and it was spreading and causing her inordinate pain, difficulty eating and cleaning herself. Seeing her go through this, and knowing she wouldn’t get better and actually get much worse as time went by, you did a very loving thing. You spared her from further pain, as well as anxiety and confusion as to what was happening to her. Unlike humans, our precious fur companions don’t understand why they are suffering, and that can be all the more traumatic for them.

I so love your eulogy by Captain Kirk to Spock, that you carried over to Theresa’s: “Of all the souls I have encountered in my travels....hers was the most...human.” The Wrath of Khan was one of my favorites, although I love all the Star Trek movies, series and beyond.

One more thing I’d like to add before logging off is something you may already know, but it’s good to remind oneself of, especially after such a traumatic event such as losing your precious Theresa. Pamper, pamper and then pamper yourself some more. Curl up with Tang with one of your favorite movies tonight or tomorrow, and get out the snacks for both you and for your precious boy. Anything else you can think of to do that will make you and Tang happy, do so.

Other than that, I want to wish you a peaceful evening, and possibly experience more visitations from Theresa, such as when the box with the yarn fell down in your closet, and you heard high-pitched meows. And who knows, maybe Tom will be accompanying her, soon, to let you know that they are experiencing the time of their lives on the other side of the Rainbow Bridge.

Blessings,
MannaPaws

Posted by: LoveMyMickey May 29 2016, 05:59 PM

Hi Tracy, I read here last night, but I just couldn't find the right words through the tears. But you know how I feel, we have been here five years and I have kept up with your little fur family. I am so sorry for your loss of Princess Theresa. I saw the video and she was so pretty and what an unusual marking on her head. Your poem suited her very well.

About not being able to cry, with my last two doggies I didn't cry much at first. I guess it was kind of a shock although I had been expecting their death. But later on I grieved and cried like crazy. And I still do.

Tracy give yourself time to grieve, get rest, give all your attention to little Tang before getting a new furbaby. Just a thought. You take care and get plenty of rest and give Lt.Tang a special belly rub for me.

Again both my hubby and I are sorry for your losing little Theresa. He loves animals so much.

My thoughts and prayers are with you.....God Bless....

May you find peace.

LMM

Posted by: Tom's Dad May 29 2016, 06:13 PM

Hello LMM.

Thank you for your heartfelt words of support. Ironically, the only times the tears do come is when I read these wonderful responses.

Trust me, no other fur kids will get in the way of my spending quality time with Lt. Tang. It will be a first for us both now that I think of it. I will also be saving some money for when Angels Theresa and Tom see fit to bring another waif our way.

Our thanks to you and hubby for your compassionate condolences in this difficult time for us. Peace and Blessings.

TT and TT

Posted by: moon_beam May 30 2016, 10:30 AM

Hi, Tracy, thank you so much for sharing with us how you're doing. Please let me try to reassure you that what you are feeling is very normal when you share with us "I stood there in that room and ordered her execution. Like I said, I know it was the right decision for her all considered. But a part of me can't escape feeling like some kind of war criminal." I, too, felt that way after making the decision for my beloved canine companion Samson. I had made the decision before for two previous beloved companions without experiencing the "murderer" emotion, but with my beloved Samson I did - - even though it was perfectly clear beyond all shadow of a doubt that his physical body was rapidly failing and he was in much discomfort. This grief journey is fraught with all kinds of emotions and thoughts that can haunt our minds and hearts when we are so emotionally vulnerable. Although we intellectually know that we have done the right thing for our beloved companion, our hearts take time to catch up with the reality of the circumstances.

So as our forum friends MannaPaws and LoveMyMickey have shared with you, so I also encourage you to just take time for you and your precious little Tang to pamper yourselves and each other as much as you can through this grief adjustment journey. And I hope that in time you will find a peace in your heart that will help you to know beyond all shadow of a doubt that you are NOT a "war criminal."

I hope today is treating you and your precious Tang kindly, my friend, and that you both will have a peaceful evening blessed with your beloved princess Theresa's and Sir Thomas' sweet Living Spirits to comfort you. Please know you and your precious Tang are in my thoughts and prayers, and please let us know how you're doing.

Peace and blessings,
moon_beam

Posted by: Tom's Dad May 30 2016, 03:31 PM

Hello moon_beam.

Thank you for your kind and insightful advice about how I'm feeling about letting my Theresa go. Do you ever get past it? Or is it something we have to incorporate it into our being and try to reconcile it? To use another Trek reference, perhaps it's like when Kirk was split into 2 beings and the "good" half realized that without his "evil" half he couldn't make the hard choices.

Sometimes I guess we just have to let the "dark" part of us step up for the greater good. It's going to be a long time before I'm truly OK with the decision I had to make - if ever. It's the first time I have ever had to do something like this.

I will try to take all of your advice and just try to give myself time and space to try to heal. I appreciate you checking in on us as well as your thoughts and prayers. Peace and Blessing.

TT and TT

Posted by: Tom's Dad May 31 2016, 07:24 AM

QUOTE (MannaPaws @ May 29 2016, 06:31 PM)

Posted by: moon_beam May 31 2016, 11:50 AM

Hi, Tracy, thank you so much for sharing with us how you're doing. Unfortunately there are no "easy answers" to the questions that arise in our hearts when we are grieving. You ask the universal questions that are a part of our responsibility as guardians of our beloved companions when it comes to the "hard choices: "Do you ever get past it? Or is it something we have to incorporate it into our being and try to reconcile it? To use another Trek reference, perhaps it's like when Kirk was split into 2 beings and the "good" half realized that without his "evil" half he couldn't make the hard choices."

Making the decision to assist our companions from this earthly realm is not meant to be an easy decision, my friend. But it is a decision that comes from the deepest and truest most unselfish love we have for them when we so desperately want them to continue to physically stay with us. We put THEIR needs first ahead of ours - - as Kirk used to say to Spock about being "human" - - "sometimes the needs of the one outweigh the needs of the many" - - or us as guardians of our beloved companion. So yes, from first hand experience I can tell you this experience of making the "hard choice" for your beloved princess Theresa you will eventually be able to reconcile it and find a peace in your heart when your heart can finally "catch up" with the knowledge in your mind that you KNOW you did the right thing for her. You will never "forget" this event, my friend - - but hopefully in time as you remember your beloved Theresa and recall those "final moments" you will be able to focus on her final gift of love to you in her physical body when she put her paws up to you and looked at you and clearly said to you "It's okay, Daddy - - it's my time." She loves you for this sacrifice you have made wanting to keep her physically with you for she is now restored to her former youthfulness in the company of Sir Thomas and all the other beloved companions who are in heaven's Perfect Garden. Both she and your beloved Sir Thomas are patiently waiting for your appropriate time to join them in eternal joy. But for now, my friend, you, and your precious Tang, are honored to her sole, and soul, heirs to her eternal love. And now as with your beloved Sir Thomas, you will find a way to honor your beloved princess Theresa as you and your precious Tang continue your earthly journey.

I hope today is treating you and your precious Tang kindly, my friend, and that you both will have a peaceful evening blessed with your beloved princess Theresa's and Sir Thomas' sweet Living Spirits to comfort you. Please know you and your precious Tang are in my thoughts and prayers, and please let us know how you're doing.

Peace and blessings,
moon_beam

Posted by: Tom's Dad May 31 2016, 12:10 PM

Hello moon_beam.

Thank you so much for your kind and compassionate response to my universal questions. I know that neither you or anyone else really has any answers to them. I guess I just still need to "put pen to paper" as it were on here - to ask them aloud to see if it would help reconcile this dreaded and difficult choice.

I know I did the right thing and it helped she finally gave me the sign that it was OK. Because she sure raised heck in the cab ride meowing louder than I have ever heard (except when I took her in for the ear and resp infections) Especially since she hadn't meowed more than a croak in a while. But when the decision was reached and Dr. Mills went to get what was needed, she calmed down and almost had an aura of peaceful light about her. That's when she 'hugged' me and touched her nose to mine. I know I'm rehashing, but it helps me to cope.

I will always treasure the 9 plus years we had together. If nothing else, me, Tang and the community waifs have a new guardian angel in the heavens to help Sir Thomas. I thank you again for you support and kindness. Peace and Blessings

TT and TT

Posted by: moon_beam Jun 1 2016, 10:34 AM

Hi, Tracy, thank you so much for sharing with us how you and your precious prince Tang are doing. Indeed, in asking the questions that haunt our heart and mind when we are grieving the physical loss of a beloved companion is a part of this grief adjustment journey. Hopefully in sharing our experiences with you will help you in some way in your grief journey. And it's perfectly okay to "rehash" events as they happened for this does help our hearts to eventually find some peace with the overwhelming task of re-inventing our lives when a beloved companion is no longer physically with us. Please know we are here for you for as long and as often as you need us to share with us whatever is in your heart and on your mind - - whatever you feel comfortable sharing with us.

I hope today is treating you and your precious Tang kindly, my friend, and that you both will have a peaceful evening blessed with your beloved princess Theresa's and Sir Thomas' sweet Living Spirits to comfort you. Please know you and your precious Tang are in my thoughts and prayers, and please let us know how you're doing.

Peace and blessings,
moon_beam

Posted by: Tom's Dad Jun 1 2016, 10:56 AM

Hello moon_beam.

Thanks for the kind words as always. I think I may be grieving in ways I'd not thought about. Trouble sleeping - always been a light twitchy sleeper but its worse now. Body aches and pains, and general exhaustion. It's good to know there are other like you and my LS friends that know what its like to turn to. One day at a time. Thanks for checking on us and your thoughts and prayers. Blessings.

TT and TT

Posted by: moon_beam Jun 2 2016, 01:12 PM

Hi, Tracy, thank you so much for sharing with us how you and your precious prince Tang are doing. There are so many things involved with the grief process, my friend, and what you are experiencing is very normal as you share with us "I think I may be grieving in ways I'd not thought about. Trouble sleeping - always been a light twitchy sleeper but its worse now. Body aches and pains, and general exhaustion." Grieving is both physical and emotional, and it takes a LOT of energy to grieve. This is why it is so important that you take especially good care of yourself, my friend, as your immune system is more compromised now and your energy levels are limited. Your precious prince Tang needs you, my friend, and your beloved princess Theresa and Sir Thomas also want you to be well.

I hope today is treating you and your precious prince Tang kindly, my friend, and that you both will have a peaceful evening blessed with your beloved princess Theresa's and Sir Thomas' sweet Living Spirits to comfort you. Please know you and your precious Tang are in my thoughts and prayers, and please let us know how you're doing.

Peace and blessings,
moon_beam

Posted by: Tom's Dad Jun 2 2016, 01:17 PM

Hi moon_beam.

Thank you, as always for your heartfelt words of support. I am endeavoring to take it as easy as my daily schedule and demands allow. It all still feels unreal somehow. Tang is being a great comfort. He's even taken to swatting at my feet as I pass by him again

Thank you again for checking on us as well as your thoughts and prayers. Blessings.

TT and TT

PS: Got the sympathy card from Banfield tonight which was deeply touching. Still no tears though

Posted by: moon_beam Jun 3 2016, 10:17 AM

Hi, Tracy, thank you so much for sharing with us how you and your precious prince Tang are doing. I'm so glad you received a sympathy card from Banfield - - I presume your local veterinary care provider. I know it is said a lot in grief literature that the tears we cry are in direct proportion to the relationship we share with our beloved companion. But no two people have the same emotional temperament, so this "universal statement" can make people who don't cry - - for whatever reason - - feel "abnormal" or as though they really didn't have a close bond with their beloved companion to begin with. So I encourage you to not measure your grief by your ability to cry - - or not cry, my friend. There is no "wrong" way to grieve, my friend. You are grieving for your beloved girl in your OWN way, and that is the RIGHT way for YOU.

It sounds like you are still in a bit of shock from everything that has happened with your beloved princess Theresa as you share with us "It all still feels unreal somehow." This is a survival mechanism that is allowing your mind, and heart, to adjust to the physical absence of your beloved girl in your own way. It's a natural part of the grief journey, my friend, so please know what you are feeling is very normal deep grief.

I hope today is treating you and your precious prince Tang kindly, my friend, and that you both will have a peaceful evening blessed with your beloved princess Theresa's and Sir Thomas' sweet Living Spirits to comfort you. Please know you and your precious Tang are in my thoughts and prayers, and please let us know how you're doing.

Peace and blessings,
moon_beam

Posted by: Tom's Dad Jun 3 2016, 10:39 AM

Hello moon_beam

Thank you, as always, for your kind and comforting support. What is bothering me about not crying is that I cried buckets for Tom - for days even weeks. Oh, I cried some for Theresa when we got the DX, evenings walking home from the bus stop fearing the worst, and of course when the decision was made . Not to mention during the procedure.

I can't help but feel this is one more way I'm short changing Theresa. In retrospect, it seems like she was always the "second banana" for attention. I don't know if I'll ever be able to reconcile this, or if I even deserve to. She deserved better. In the end, it's something I'm just going to have to deal with one way or another.

Thank you for checking on us as well as your continued thoughts and prayers. Blessings.

TT and TT

Posted by: Tom's Dad Jun 4 2016, 09:57 AM

It's been one week today since you had to cross the Rainbow Bridge baby girl. We miss you

https://youtu.be/c-5bMO4nMuk

Posted by: moon_beam Jun 4 2016, 11:40 AM

Hi, Tracy, thank you so much for sharing with us you, your precious prince Tang's, and your beloved princess Theresa's one week angel-versary. I absolutely thoroughly enjoy John Denver's music, and the tribute of his song to your princess Theresa is beautiful.

I hope today is treating you and your precious prince Tang kindly, my friend, and that you both will have a peaceful evening blessed with your beloved princess Theresa's and Sir Thomas' sweet Living Spirits to comfort you. Please know you and your precious Tang are in my thoughts and prayers, and please let us know how you're doing.

Peace and blessings,
moon_beam

Posted by: Tom's Dad Jun 4 2016, 03:50 PM

Hello moon_beam.

I had a dream during my nap today that I don't know what to think of. Theresa had returned. Not "restored" to perfect health, but as she was on that final week and day. If she is trying to tell me she is doing OK, why not appear to me fully restored? The only difference between the dream and "real life" is she was purring loudly and kissing and and nuzzling my face.

I thank you for checking in on us and your thoughtful prayers. Peace and Blessings.

TT and TT

Posted by: moon_beam Jun 5 2016, 11:46 AM

Hi, Tracy, thank you so much for sharing with us how you and your precious prince Tang are doing. When we are grieving our dreams can be very conflicted. If I may try to offer you some comfort, and maybe some insight about your dream: It sounds to me like her loud purring and kissing and nuzzling your face is her sweet Living Spirit trying to reassure you that she IS well and restored to her former youthfulness, and is eternally blessed to have you for her Forever Dad. The conflict in your dream - - it seems to me - - is that you are still grieving her physical absence remembering how she was the last week and moment of her physical life. This "conflict" in dreams is perfectly normal, my friend. It's your mind's way of processing the events as they happened, and finding a peace in your heart, and mind, that your beloved Theresa is healed in the company of the angels. It is your mind's, and heart's, way of trying to reconcile your feelings of being a "murderer." If nothing more, I truly believe your beloved Theresa is trying to comfort you and reassure you that you did the right thing for her.

Of course I have no "proof" to offer you for these thoughts, except first hand experience knowing that when our hearts and minds are entrenched in deep grief our dreams sometimes are attempts to reconcile the deep sorrow and the many emotions we have during our grief journey.

I hope today is treating you and your precious prince Tang kindly, my friend, and that you both will have a peaceful evening blessed with your beloved princess Theresa's and Sir Thomas' sweet Living Spirits to comfort you. Please know you and your precious Tang are in my thoughts and prayers, and please let us know how you're doing.

Peace and blessings,
moon_beam

Posted by: Tom's Dad Jun 5 2016, 03:16 PM

Hello moon_beam.

Thank you for your comforting and kind words. I was thinking along the same lines. Although I am trying to move away from considering myself a "murderer" I've been looking for other signs but don't see them like did with Tom. But then, Theresa was always more subtle than Tom. So, perhaps I'm just not seeing them. Like I'm looking for butterflies and ignoring when a "lesser" insect makes their presence known (Ladybugs seem to be the thing lately) I guess I need to be more open.

I guess I was looking for some corroboration of what my dream may have meant and it looks like you had the same line of thought. I just hope it's true. There is still an imbalance around here that's hard to deal with. I still find clumps of her matted fur that she either chewed off or fell off. Silly as it may sound I don't throw them away. I put them on the plate with Tom's clay paw print.

I appreciate your usual compassion, thoughts and prayers. Blessing to you and Noah

TT and TT

Posted by: moon_beam Jun 6 2016, 10:13 AM

Hi, Tracy, thank you so much for sharing with us how you and your precious prince Tang are doing. I so do understand from first hand grieving experiences how "unsettled" and "out of balance" life is during the grief adjustment journey, particularly during the deep grief. As you so well know from your experiences this grief journey cannot be reconciled in a minute, an hour, ad day, a week, or a month - - it is a process of one day at a time with some days being easier than others.

I'm so smiling at the ladybugs perhaps being your beloved Theresa's way of letting you know she is with you - - not wishing to compete with your beloved Sir Thomas' butterflies. And I soooo relate to your saving your beloved Theresa's fur you are finding. I also have saved fur from my beloved companions, and am saving the fur shed by my precious Noah. I have several plastic baggies of fur each one belonging to each of my companions.

I hope today is treating you and your precious prince Tang kindly, my friend, and that you both will have a peaceful evening blessed with your beloved princess Theresa's and Sir Thomas' sweet Living Spirits to comfort you. Please know you and your precious Tang are in my thoughts and prayers, and please let us know how you're doing.

Peace and blessings,
moon_beam

Posted by: Tom's Dad Jun 6 2016, 11:10 AM

Hello moon_beam.

Thank you, as always for your kind words of support. I will try to be more "open" to signs from my precious girl going forward. Ladybugs, dive bombing carpenter bees and all

I got the call from the vet today that her ashes are ready to be picked up. I would think that would make this all feel more "real" but sadly it doesn't I did dream about her again yesterday during my nap though. I don't remember if she was "restored" or not. But I was glad to have the dream just the same.

I'm glad to know it's not just me when it comes to saving her fur. I just can't bear to throw it away.

I appreciate you checking in on us as well as your thoughts and prayers. Blessings.

TT and TT

Posted by: moon_beam Jun 7 2016, 12:13 PM

Hi, Tracy, thank you so much for sharing with us how you and your precious prince Tang are doing. Indeed, getting our beloved companion's ashes back is a two sided coin: on the one side it can be comforting to have them back home where they belong while the other side is yet another reminder they are no longer with us in the physical form our hearts and arms long for. Just let yourself feel the way you're feeling, my friend - - in whatever way that is, and please know we are here for you to try to offer you some measure of comfort, support, and encouragement to the best of our ability.

I hope today is treating you and your precious prince Tang kindly, my friend, and that you both will have a peaceful evening blessed with your beloved princess Theresa's and Sir Thomas' sweet Living Spirits to comfort you. Please know you and your precious Tang are in my thoughts and prayers, and please let us know how you're doing.

Peace and blessings,
moon_beam

Posted by: Tom's Dad Jun 7 2016, 12:27 PM

Hello moon_beam.

Thank you for your comforting words and support. On the bus ride home yesterday I was thinking about going in to get her ashes this coming Saturday when I'm off. That's when the tears began to flow freely. Being as I was on the bus, I tried to keep as quiet as possible. But it was cathartic in a way.

I keep trying to compare my grief reaction to when Tom passed, and I shouldn't. With Theresa I had closure. I was able to say a proper goodbye and let her go with peace and dignity. I had none of that with Tom and I think that's where a lot of my issues stemmed from at the time.

I appreciate you checking on us as well as your thoughts and prayers. Blessings to you and Noah.

TT and TT

Posted by: moon_beam Jun 8 2016, 11:42 AM

Hi, Tracy, thank you so much for sharing with us how you and your precious prince Tang are doing. Indeed, it is sometimes when we least expect it that our grief finds a way to be expressed. So it doesn't surprise me that your tears began to flow freely while you were thinking about getting your beloved Theresa's ashes this Saturday. I'm glad you're trying to reconcile the comparison between your grieving for your beloved princess Theresa and Sir Thomas. This also is normal when you have experienced previous physical losses - - but there really can't be any comparisons made because relationships are different, circumstances are different, we are at a different place in our own lives, etc.. Your beloved Theresa and Sir Thomas are two different companions with totally different circumstances, etc.. Just continue to take one day at a time, my friend.

I hope today is treating you and your precious prince Tang kindly, my friend, and that you both will have a peaceful evening blessed with your beloved princess Theresa's and Sir Thomas' sweet Living Spirits to comfort you. Please know you and your precious Tang are in my thoughts and prayers, and please let us know how you're doing.

Peace and blessings,
moon_beam

Posted by: Tom's Dad Jun 11 2016, 10:53 AM

Well, it's been 2 weeks today since I had to say goodbye to my precious little girl and let her cross the Rainbow Bridge to be with her big brother Sir Thomas.

Today I went to pick up her ashes from Banfield Pet Hospital. I was concerned about what to get to keep them in, but they came sealed in a very nice glossy wooden hope chest type box. I may still shop around for an urn though. It also came with a nice Certificate of Passing and a grief booklet.

I thought this would give me a feeling of finality and closure, but it really hasn't

Posted by: moon_beam Jun 11 2016, 12:21 PM

Hi, Tracy, thank you so much for sharing with us how you and your precious prince Tang are doing. No, getting our beloved companion's ashes back is not "closure" - - it is just another "first without" step forward in our grief adjustment journey. "Closure" was "coined" during the 1970's/1980's by clinical professionals when hospice was first introduced into this country as one of the "5 grief steps". Since then clinical professionals now recognize that the terms they labeled with the grief journey misrepesent the "real world" grief process - - including the misperception that "closure" is ever achieved during the grieving process. "Closure" implies that someone is able to put an experience "behind" them - - to "close the books" on an unpleasant event. But EVERY event in our lives leaves an imprint in our memories, and sometimes on our hearts - - and losing the physical presence of your beloved princess Theresa truly will leave an indelible imprint in your memories of her and on your heart. So, no - - there will be no "closure" - - no putting the many cherished memories of your beloved Theresa in your heart "behind" you - - nor I'm very sure would you ever want to.

The good news, though, is that you do have your beloved princess Theresa back home with you - - although not in the physical form your heart and arms long for her to be. I hope in time you will be able to find a peace and comfort in your heart having her home again with you and her brother Tang.

I hope today is treating you and your precious prince Tang kindly, my friend, and that you both will have a peaceful evening blessed with your beloved princess Theresa's and Sir Thomas' sweet Living Spirits to comfort you. Please know you and your precious Tang are in my thoughts and prayers, and please let us know how you're doing.

Peace and blessings,
moon_beam

Posted by: Tom's Dad Jun 14 2016, 07:07 AM

I've been thinking about that fateful day when I had to let Theresa go. I keep thinking. Did I really have to? When she reached up and hugged me, touched her nose to mine and I thought she was saying goodbye. Was she really pleading with me not to do this? Saying she wasn't ready?

I am thinking this because instead of butterflies (like when Tom passed) I'm getting dive bombed by more "bothersome" insects - inside with no way of them getting in that I can see. I had one hit my eye and disappear just this morning in the bathroom at work before my shift. And after I shooed it away, it was nowhere to be found - like a kind of phantom.

I can't help but thinking this is her way of telling me she's restless - that it wasn't yet her time

Posted by: moon_beam Jun 14 2016, 12:06 PM

Hi, Tracy, thank you so much for sharing with us how you're doing. Please let me try to reassure you that what you are feeling is a very normal part of this grief journey - - the questioning "what ifs, if onlys, whys" that haunt and torture our hearts and minds when we are emotionally vulnerable. From what you shared with us, my friend, there is little doubt that you did the absolutley RIGHT THING for your beloved girl. Even Dr. Mills reassured you that her medical condition would not get better. As you described to us in your posts, the tumor had grown so large that she could no longer close her mouth nor was she able to eat - - not even the soft foods you tried to give her by syringe. So the options were: one, to have a feeding tube inserted that would have been miserable for her and which has its own problems to deal with, or two - - watch her slowly starve. I'm sure you totally agree that neither of these options would have been satisfactory for your beloved princess Theresa. There is no doubt in my mind that your beloved Theresa was telling you that she understood that her time had come to transition from this earthly realm, my friend, and hopefully in time you will be able to find a peace in your heart and mind as well. And there is no doubt in my mind that she is happy and at peace with your beloved Sir Thomas in heaven's perfect garden. Don't put too much emphasis on the dive bombing bugs as being sent from your beloved Theresa. She only brought joy into your life during her earthly journey, and she continues to want you to be happy - - not upset, or threatened by bugs.

I hope today is treating you and your precious prince Tang kindly, my friend, and that you both will have a peaceful evening blessed with your beloved princess Theresa's and Sir Thomas' sweet Living Spirits to comfort you. Please know you and your precious Tang are in my thoughts and prayers, and please let us know how you're doing.

Peace and blessings,
moon_beam

Posted by: Tom's Dad Jun 14 2016, 12:17 PM

Hello moon_beam.

Thank you for the kind words and trying to help keep things in perspective. It's just so hard looking at that box with her ashes each day knowing she's never coming back like she was. I keep looking for signs, and perhaps "miss" the ones right in front of me - such as the one LoveMyMickey shared in my other thread. Blessings.

TT and TT

Posted by: LoveMyMickey Jun 14 2016, 05:00 PM

Hi Tracy....I just wanted to let you know what I found about the insects:

Showing Up As an Insect or Animal.

Your loved one in Heaven is now pure energy… They are able to channel their energy into an insect or animal, for a brief period of time to bring you a sign that their spirit lives on.
They may appear to you in this way as a butterfly, dove, rabbit, dragonfly, or any other number of insects or animals… When this happens, the animal or insect will usually do something that is out of character that catches your attention. They may land on your hand, come into your home, or appear closely, right in front of you as if they are communicating.
This is a common type of communication from spirit. If something like this happens to you, trust that your loved one is with you, and letting you know that they are okay, and that you are not alone.


I thought that was interesting and maybe help you to feel better about the insects......Not too long after Mickey passed a huge Dragonfly looked like he was going to attack me and we never see them around here. I worried about it at first but later found out it was a good sign.

I never did see the white cat again.

I pray that you have peace and blessings....God Bless

LMM

Posted by: Tom's Dad Jun 14 2016, 06:01 PM

Hi LMM

Thank you for this. It really makes me feel better about what I have been experiencing. You probably won't see that white cat again either if what you, and now me, suspect is true. It was Angel Theresa sending me a sign through you (via Angel Mickey I have a feeling) That she is indeed OK and with her big brother Angel Sir Thomas

Peace and Blessings to you, hubby, your waifs, and of course Angel Mickey.

TT and TT

Posted by: moon_beam Jun 15 2016, 01:21 PM

Hi, Tracy, thank you so much for sharing with us how you and your precious prince Tang are doing. I'm sooooo glad our forum friend LoveMyMickey was able to find information on how our beloved companion's Spirit can communicate with us in various forms - - such as insects - - and am ever sooooo glad this has provided you some comfort. I know your beloved princess Theresa is trying to let you know she is indeed well and happy with her brother Sir Thomas and friend Mickey.

I hope today is treating you and your precious Tang kindly, and that you and your precious boy will have a peaceful evening blessed with your beloved Theresa's and Sir Thomas' sweet Living Spirits to comfort you. Please know you and your precious Tang are in my thoughts and prayers, and please let us know how you're doing.

Peace and blessings,
moon_beam

Posted by: Tom's Dad Jun 25 2016, 01:40 PM

Hello my precious little girl.

It's been 4 weeks today and in 3 days a month since you journeyed across the bridge to be with your big brother Sir Thomas. I've gotten the messages from the little bugs you send my way. But today you really stepped your game up. Coming down grassy/flowery back path on the property on my way home from the grocery, I saw it: The biggest most beautiful white butterfly ever

Me and your little brother Tang are thinking about you always. Say a prayer for his dental issues to if you can. We love you baby girl.

Daddy and Tang.

Posted by: moon_beam Jun 26 2016, 09:46 AM

Hi, Tracy, thank you so much for sharing with us your beautiful letter to your beloved princess Theresa. How your heart must have soared when you saw that white butterfly. There is no doubt that your beloved Theresa, and Sir Thomas, sent you that butterfly to reassure you that their sweet Living Spirits are always with you.

I hope today is treating you and your precious Tang kindly, and that you and your precious boy will have a peaceful evening blessed with your beloved Theresa's and Sir Thomas' sweet Living Spirits to comfort you. Please know you and your precious Tang are in my thoughts and prayers, and please let us know how you're doing.

Peace and blessings,
moon_beam

Posted by: Tom's Dad Jun 28 2016, 05:49 PM

Thank you for your kind words moon_beam. It's been a whole month today. It feels like so much longer

Posted by: moon_beam Jun 29 2016, 09:33 AM

Hi, Tracy, thank you so much for sharing with us how you and your precious Tang are doing. I do know from first hand experience how painful the angel-versaries are, particularly when the physical loss is still so very recent - - the first hour, first day, first week, first month - - and all the angel-versaries forward. No matter how much time passes we will always miss our beloved companions who are now with the angels, but we are comforted in knowing their sweet Living Spirits are always with us - - they are always a hearbeat close to us.

I hope today is treating you and your precious Tang kindly, and that you and your precious boy will have a peaceful evening blessed with your beloved Theresa's and Sir Thomas' sweet Living Spirits to comfort you. Please know you and your precious Tang are in my thoughts and prayers, and please let us know how you're doing.

Peace and blessings,
moon_beam

Posted by: MannaPaws Jul 4 2016, 02:11 PM

Hello Tom's Dad,

It's been a while since I've been able to come onto this forum, due to some physical issues, but I'm feeling much better and decided to check in.

My eyes are filled with tears as I read your beautiful letter to your precious Theresa. I'm tearing up with joy because of what you described about seeing the biggest, most beautiful butterfly ever, some days ago. I think that was Theresa's way of showing she is thinking of you and letting you know how much she loves you.

You wrote this letter over a week ago, so I hope things are going relatively well for you and Tang. You also asked that Theresa say a prayer for Tang's dental issues, so I hope he is feeling better, or that that has been resolved.

Wishing you and Tang a very happy 4th of July.

Blessings,
MannaPaws

Posted by: Tom's Dad Jul 4 2016, 04:32 PM

Hello MannaPaws

I'm sorry to hear you were not feeling well, but glad to hear you are better. Tang and I are doing our best to find our way in the "new normal". He misses her as much as I do (he's always been a big hearted boy)

I have not seen any more butterflies since that day, but that one was enough. I know I will see more when the time is right. I will post more about Tang's dental issues in his own thread. But suffice it to say he came through it all surprisingly well. I guess some prayers to get answered after all. Thanks for stopping by and your kind words.

Happy 4th and peace and blessings to you as well.


TT and TT

Posted by: Tom's Dad Jul 30 2016, 03:35 PM

Hello my sweet Theresa.

Two days ago it was exactly two months since you crossed the Rainbow Bridge to be with your big brother Tom and all the other companions others on here have lost. It seems like so much longer. I saw the big yellow butterfly you sent this week while waiting for my bus home. You are getting better at that sweetheart Perhaps Tom has been giving you pointers.

Tang and I miss you terribly. I hope there are plenty of treats and eternal sunbeams for you to bask in as you so loved here on earth. Love always,

Daddy and Tang

https://youtu.be/MqYdzCenWMg

Posted by: moon_beam Jul 31 2016, 10:52 AM

Hi, Tracy, thank you so much for sharing with us your beloved princess Theresa's and your 2-month angel-versary, and the wonderful video. I promise you that when it is your appropriate time you will be reunited with your beloved Theresa, Sir Thomas, and all your beloved companions in heaven's perfect garden - - for they will be eagerly greeting you as your cross the Bridge to join them in eternal joy. But for now you still have a purpose here in this earthly realm taking care of your precious prince Tang and the community waifs comforted in knowing that your beloved Theresa's and Sir Thomas' sweet Living Spirits are always a heartbeat close to you.

I hope today is treating you and your precious Tang kindly, and that you and your precious boy will have a peaceful evening blessed with your beloved Theresa's and Sir Thomas' sweet Living Spirits to comfort you. Please know you and your precious Tang are in my thoughts and prayers, and please let us know how you're doing.

Peace and blessings,
moon_beam

Posted by: Tom's Dad Aug 27 2016, 05:47 PM

Well Princess Theresa,

Tomorrow will mark 3 months since I had to make the most difficult decision of my (and your) life sending you on your way over the Rainbow Bridge Every morning at work before my shift I go out to the outside lounge and look up at the sunny skies and feel the warmth of the sunbeams and think oh how you would have loved this summer my dear. You always loved the heat. I hope it's like that all the time up there. The past 2 days I saw the biggest most beautiful Monarch Butterflies Thank you and to your brother Sir Thomas. We miss you.

Love Dad and Tang.

https://youtu.be/fahr069-fzE

Posted by: moon_beam Aug 28 2016, 11:00 AM

Hi, Tracy, thank you so much for sharing with us your and your beloved princess Theresa's 3 month angel-versary. The video is a beautiful tribute to the eternal love bond you and your beloved Theresa share. I promise you, my friend, that she is enjoying all the pleasures of warm sunbeams in heaven's perfect garden while she patiently waits for your appropriate time to join her and your beloved Sir Thomas in eteranal joy. For now, though, both of your beloved companions send you butterflies - - and other forms of communication - - to let you know they are forever with you - - they are always and forever a heartbeat close to you.

I hope today is treating you and your precious Tang kindly, and that you and your precious boy will have a peaceful evening blessed with your beloved Theresa's and Sir Thomas' sweet Living Spirits to comfort you. Please know you and your precious Tang are in my thoughts and prayers, and please let us know how you're doing.

Peace and blessings,
moon_beam

Posted by: Tom's Dad Oct 30 2016, 02:55 PM

I was going to post this Saturday, but the forum had been down since Friday. It was 5 months ago (5/28/2016) Princess Theresa I had to help you cross the Rainbow Bridge. I miss you and will always love you. Run free with your big brother Tom.

Posted by: moon_beam Oct 31 2016, 10:55 AM

HI, Tracy, thank you for sharing your and your beloved princess Theresa's 5 month angel-versary. Our companions give us their unconditional love during their earthly journey, and in their passing from this earthly realm they show us that love is eternal - - it is not restricted to the physical laws of time and space. How blessed your beloved Theresa is to have you for her Forever Dad, and you are blessed to be her sole, and soul, heir to her eternal love.

I hope today is treating you and your precious Tang kindly, and that you and your precious boy will have a peaceful evening blessed with your beloved Theresa's and Sir Thomas' sweet Living Spirits to comfort you. Please know you and your precious Tang are in my thoughts and prayers, and please let us know how you're doing.

Peace and blessings,
moon_beam

Posted by: Tom's Dad Nov 27 2016, 05:49 PM

Hello my dearest Princess Theresa. Tomorrow will be 6 months to the day I had to let you go be with your brother Thomas over the Rainbow Bridge. (I jumped the gun last month) This is our first holiday season without you in 9 years I had to turn on the big space heater the other night as the chilly air approaches and I thought of you and how you loved that little one. It's too cold these days to go outside each morning to commune with you and your brother before I start work. But I hold you both close to my heart and soul always. Be good up there baby girl. Love Daddy and Tang

Posted by: moon_beam Nov 28 2016, 12:47 PM

Hi, Tracy, thank you so much for sharing with us your and your beloved princess Theresa's 6 month angel-versary. During the deep grief there are so many "first withouts" to endure through that we can feel as though our hearts are breaking anew with each one. As you know all too well¸ my friend, this grief adjustment journey is never easy because each relationship we have with each of our beloved companions is uniquely individual. The good news is that your beloved Theresa's sweet Living Spirit is always and forever a part of your heart and memories - - she is always and forever a heartbeat close to you - - as you are to her. Nothing in heaven or on earth can ever sever the eternal bond of love.

I hope today is treating you and your precious Tang kindly, and that you and your precious boy will have a peaceful evening blessed with your beloved Theresa's and Sir Thomas' sweet Living Spirits to comfort you. Please know you and your precious Tang are in my thoughts and prayers, and please let us know how you're doing.

Peace and blessings,
moon_beam

Posted by: Tom's Dad Mar 5 2017, 04:44 PM

Hello my sweet Princess Theresa.

I have been thinking about you a lot lately. This month would have marked 10 years for us together. I remember when I saw you in that bottom left case in the PetSmart looking so scared and lonely.

I'm so very glad I adopted you and that we had just over 9 years together. But I would have liked to have had many more

Your little brother Tang and I miss you terribly. You and Thomas be good up at the bridge; I hope you have many treats and things to chase. Send us some butterflies when you can now that spring is returning.

Love,

Daddy and Tang.

PS: Tom is still my picture in here, but you are now the "star" on my Facebook page.

Posted by: Tom's Dad Mar 27 2017, 03:41 PM

Hello my sweet Princess Theresa.

Tomorrow will mark 10 months since I had to help you transition to the Rainbow Bridge to be with your big brother Sir Thomas. This is how I always want to remember you baby. Love,

Dad and Tang

Posted by: moon_beam Mar 28 2017, 12:01 PM

Hi, Tracy, thank you so much for sharing with us your and your beloved princess Theresa's 10 month angel-versary and this wonderful picture of your beloved girl. Indeed, this is the best way to remember your beloved girl basking in the sunbeams she enjoyed so much. I hope you can hear her soft voice saying to you "thank you, Daddy, for everything you did for me during my earthly journey with you - - and please know that I love you always."

I hope today is treating you and your precious prince Tang kindly, and that you and your precious boy will have a peaceful evening blessed with your beloved Theresa's and Sir Thomas' sweet Living Spirits to comfort you. Please know you and your precious Tang are in my thoughts and prayers, and please let us know how you're doing.

Peace and blessings,
moon_beam

Posted by: Tom's Dad May 28 2017, 05:41 PM

Well my Princess Theresa.

Today it's been one year to the day that I had to let you cross the Rainbow Bridge to be with your big brother Tom

I have seen the many butterflies you and Tom no doubt have sent my way. I also know in my heart that you sent my girlfriend Anne my way just as Tom sent me Tang.

Your little brother and I miss you terribly. Be good at the bridge rolling in the eternal sunshine with plenty of treats. We love you.


Daddy and Tang.

Posted by: moon_beam May 30 2017, 11:54 AM

Hi, Tracy, thank you so much for sharing your and your beloved princess Theresa's one year angel-versary with us. Our beloved companions are forever imprinted on our hearts, and rest assured that you are always a part of your beloved Theresa's heart, too.

I hope today is treating you, your precious prince Tang, and Anne kindly, and that each of you will have a peaceful evening blessed with your beloved Theresa's and Sir Thomas' sweet Living Spirits to comfort you. Please know you and your precious Tang are in my thoughts and prayers, and please let us know how you're doing.

Peace and blessings,
moon_beam

Posted by: Tom's Dad Jun 1 2018, 06:56 PM

My dearest Princess Theresa

This past holiday weekend (05/28/2018) marked the 2nd angelversary of you joining your beloved brother Sir Thomas at the Rainbow Bridge

I didn't forget about you sweetie, quite the contrary. You were foremost on my mind and in my heart (albeit heavy) I did notice the butterflies you sent my way too. Bee good up there baby girl.

Love,

Daddy and your earthbound brother Tang.

Posted by: moon_beam Jun 2 2018, 12:28 PM

Hi, Tracy, thank you so much for sharing with us your and your beloved Theresa's second angel-versary. I know so very well how heavy your heart feels. Just because we continue on with our earthly journey does not mean that we no longer carry the joy, and sorrow, of our loved ones who are no longer physically with us.

I hope today is treating you, your precious prince Tang, and Anne kindly, my friend, and that each of you will have peaceful moments blessed with your beloved Theresa's and Sir Thomas' sweet Living Spirits to comfort you. Please know you, your precious Tang, and Anne are in my thoughts and prayers, and please let us know how you're doing.

Peace and blessings,
moon_beam

Posted by: Tom's Dad Aug 31 2018, 05:48 PM

Hello my sweet Princess Theresa.

It's been just over 2 years ago that I had to help you cross the Rainbow Bridge Me and Tang sure do miss you and I wish you could have known Miss Anne. You would have like her baby girl.

We all keep you in our hearts. Be good up there. Love,

Daddy, Tang and Miss Anne

Posted by: moon_beam Sep 1 2018, 04:25 PM

Hi, Tracy, thank you so much for sharing your sweet love letter to your beloved Princess Theresa. I know how much your heart aches missing your precious little girl and Sir Thomas. It's an ache that never goes away because we know a better part of ourselves is now with our beloved companions as they wait patiently for our appropriate time to join them in eternal joy. The good news is that you have many precious memories of your beloved Theresa which nothing in heaven or on earth can ever take away from you. These memories are treasured gifts our companions give to us each and every day during their earthly journey with us so that we will have them forever in our hearts and memories - - so that they will always and forever be a heartbeat close to us.

Tracy, I hope today is treating you, your precious prince Tang, and Anne kindly, and that each of you will have peaceful moments blessed with your beloved Theresa's and Sir Thomas' sweet Living Spirits to comfort you. Please know you, your precious Tang, and Anne are in my thoughts and prayers, and please let us know how you're doing.

Peace and blessings,
moon_beam

Posted by: Tom's Dad May 26 2019, 05:50 PM

My sweet baby girl,

Yesterday marked three years since we had to say goodbye when you ended your earthly journey to be with your big brother Tom. Tang and I still miss you so much

Be good at the Rainbow Bridge princess.

Love,

Daddy