Trying To Cope

Put down my best friend and constant companion "Bailey" on 9/18/16. She had lymphoma which had gone from liver to sinus cavity and was bleeding from nose. Although the cancer had spread she was only in mild distress and "I" made the decision to have her euthanized. Since then I cannot get the look of her loving and trusting eyes out of my head and I can't forgive myself for having her put down. It's been almost 3 weeks and it's still unbearable. She was the sweetest, kindest animal I have ever known and the complete emptiness I feel will not go away and I am devastated by this. I never thought I would feel this bad about anything in my life and am hoping by posting this it will ease the pain. I love and miss you Bailey. You were my best friend, my heart and the best of me. I would give everything to have you back. Forgive me.