I Miss My Beautiful Baby

Well it has been 3 months and 1 week for my beautiful baby Sable. It feels like yesterday that I had to say goodby. I miss her terribly every day. I am always thinking of her no matter what I am doing. I have n't written in a bit because it is to hard. I still carry around your collar and still haven't moved your things. I still have all the cards I received out. I have finally finished a photo album of you (3 of them), it takes a while because I am usually crying while I am doing it.

I can't believe that you are gone. I talk to you everyday and hope you are happy where you are. I still can't think about you or look at your pictures without crying. I don't know if I ever will, but I know that you are safe and have no pain where you are and that is what I want for you to be living without pain. You were such a wonderful baby you deserve to not suffer.

I think about the day when we will meet again. I just want to hug you and kiss that beautiful face. In my mind and in my heart we are always together. Nothing will every take your place, your all I want. I love and miss you. Both Daddy and Johnny miss you too.

Love
Mommy

Lost My Best Friend

MY BELOVED SABLE
I am new this forum and I am having problems dealing with the loss of my rottweiler.
I had to put my beautiful 13 year old rottweiler Sable down last week. She was great but about 10 days ago was having problems getting up. We took her to the vet and walked her with a towel under her belly but her back paw were curving in, she had nerve issues. The vet thought possibly a slipped disc so we gave her a steroid shot and some muscle relaxers and inflamation pills. He said keep an eye on her until the medicine was gone. She started to look like she was moving a little better but still had to be belly walked especially when she had to go outside to the bathroom. Her eating and drinking and personality was fine. On last Wednesday night she took a turn for the worst and really couldn't get up at all. I took her back to the vet in the morning we were going to try another steroid shot. But when we tried to get her up this time, she couldn't stand at all on either the back or the front. We had to put her on a stretcher. The vet said that she had almost no nerve feeling in her hind legs and could see that in her eyes she was distressed. To be kind to her and her quality of life this was no way for my special baby to live. It would not be fair for her if she could not get up or down or be able to walk outside to go to the bathroom.
I made the toughest decision ever and that was to put her down. I stayed with the whole time. It happened way to fast. My 13 years with her gone and a few hours. I know that it was the right thing to do, she was 13 years but I am sick about it and don't know how to go on. I thought that maybe someone else could give me some insight and what they think. Also hoping that others that have done this before will say something to me that may help.
I am so alone and don't know how to go on without her. I am keeping all of things the same for now, I am not ready to let go.
Please help!