I've Lost My Little Nikki, Is there an afterlife? Options

[LuckyNono]

I noticed that some members had joined 1995. May I ask you if you don't mind, does the pain ever go away even just a little bit? I lost my baby LuckyNono April 7 and since then, it seems like nothing matters anymore. My husband had to beg me to eat. The most painful thing is I missed looking at her pretty face every morning. She's the first one that I say good morning to. It seems like the most logical thing for me now is to be with my baby. I know I have my other dog Ferguson but I am thinking that he will be loved even when I am gone. Does this make sense? To wish that I will be with my baby by not eating or taking meds?