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Posted by: lynette May 25 2009, 09:44 AM

It's been seven weeks since we had to send Hunny to meet Lily. I still miss her so very much. Most of the day is fine, but every once in a while it's just like being hit by a tidal wave. Just a sudden wash of pain and sorrow for both Hunny and Lily. I can't believe it's been 11 months since Lily had to leave. I wish I could see them again. I have them both on a pet memorial site too, but I find it hard to go there since Hunny left. It's such an empty feeling without them, even though we have four other dogs. It's not the same. I wish they could have lived a lot longer. I sure hope these pups live to a ripe old age.

Just having a blue morning I guess.

Posted by: havana May 25 2009, 01:27 PM

Hello, I'm very sorry for your two losses and wish you the best to you and your family and most of all to your sweet babys up in Heaven, God Bless you all. Hugs, Jorge wub.gif

Posted by: lynette May 25 2009, 01:45 PM

Thank you so much.

Posted by: Trulie May 25 2009, 06:52 PM

I am so sorry for your loss. It has been just over a month since I lost Pepper and I have good days and bad days, sometimes I find I just feel like crying and other times in the day I feel o.k. Today I was feeling sad as she used to love to be outside in the nice weather. I can't imagine losing two dogs so close together. My dog was only 6 1/2 when she died. I will be getting new puppy on June 13/09. I hope too that the new pup will live to a ripe old age. It is sad to lose them at a young age. My thoughts are with you.

Posted by: Hslesgirl May 25 2009, 07:00 PM

It's been 5 weeks since my boy went to Heaven and I, too, have good days and bad days. yesterday was a bad one and I cried alot. Today is a bit better. I agree, it's twice as bad to lose them when they're young. My boy was only 7 when he left me. I have started searching for a new puppy and I am looking for a breeder who focus's on health and longevity as well as temperament. I miss my boy, but I also miss having a dog in the house. Does anyone else feel torn between wanting another and feeling that it's disrepctful to the one I'm grieving for to get another so soon? This emotional tug-of-war with myself is also causing me a lot of sleepless nights. I'll say a prayer for you and wish everyone on this site peace.

Carol

Posted by: Jess May 25 2009, 08:23 PM

QUOTE (Hslesgirl @ May 25 2009, 08:00 PM) *
It's been 5 weeks since my boy went to Heaven and I, too, have good days and bad days. yesterday was a bad one and I cried alot. Today is a bit better. I agree, it's twice as bad to lose them when they're young. My boy was only 7 when he left me. I have started searching for a new puppy and I am looking for a breeder who focus's on health and longevity as well as temperament. I miss my boy, but I also miss having a dog in the house. Does anyone else feel torn between wanting another and feeling that it's disrepctful to the one I'm grieving for to get another so soon? This emotional tug-of-war with myself is also causing me a lot of sleepless nights. I'll say a prayer for you and wish everyone on this site peace.

Carol

Carol, I am feeling the same emotional tug-of-war that you describe. At first I couldn't bear the thought of a new cat. Now I'm starting to think a kitten would cheer me up. It will be nice to have a new pet, but at the same time, I feel like I will never love another the way I loved Sydney, so I will never experience quite the same joy that she brought to my life. That makes me very sad.

Posted by: Hslesgirl May 25 2009, 09:38 PM

QUOTE (Jess @ May 25 2009, 09:23 PM) *
Carol, I am feeling the same emotional tug-of-war that you describe. At first I couldn't bear the thought of a new cat. Now I'm starting to think a kitten would cheer me up. It will be nice to have a new pet, but at the same time, I feel like I will never love another the way I loved Sydney, so I will never experience quite the same joy that she brought to my life. That makes me very sad.


Thank you very much for your response. You'd be surprised how many people I know who wouldn't give getting another a second thought! I just keep wondering if I rush into it would I ever love the new puppy like I did Austin or worse yet, constantly compare it to Austin. That wouldn't be fair to the puppy.

Posted by: jasonsmom May 25 2009, 09:56 PM

Hsles - You might compare personalities, but I don't think you would think one was better than the other, or anything like that. We got a new cat when one of the two died (reluctantly, but the other cat drove this decision) but it's a NEW animal, not a replacement for the previous one. Maybe you saved it. In any case, you will give it a good home. It will not replace your previous pet, but if you loved your previous pet (obviously) that loss leaves a gap. Give your love to a new pet, you are not disrespecting the previous animal in any way. In fact, it is a sign of respect, in that the previous animal was a very important part of your life. Give another animal a loving home.

Posted by: Trulie May 26 2009, 01:02 AM

I was torn about getting a new puppy but I too miss having a dog in the house. I miss Pepper like crazy and no other dog can replace her and at times I am torn but I still have so much love to give and there is a puppy that needs a home and somone to love her. No dog can replace Pepper I feel I am meeting a new friend, I also think is it possible that I can love another dog as much as Pepper, but I had dogs before Pepper that died and I thought the same thing when they died and I loved Pepper so much. I find all the dogs had their own personality and I loved them all for their uniqueness. I had a dream last night of Pepper the first I have had since she died and it felt so real that she was here that I missed her alot today. There are going to be good days and bad days for sure for many months to come.

Posted by: lynette May 26 2009, 09:30 AM

Thanks to everyone who replied. And I'm so sorry for your losses.

A new pet will never replace the one you lost. And you will not love them like you loved your old friend. You will love them, and you will love them just as much, but it'll be different. They all have different personalities and there are other pets out there who need someone to love and take care of them.

We adopted Izzy about ten days after we lost Lily. Maybe it was karma. Because we lost Lily June 24, and Izzy was surrended by a puppy mill breeder on that very same day. Sometimes, I like to think that Lily left so that we could give love to another needy animal. We also rescued Lily when she was 18 months, so she knew the value of a new home. We have since adopted two more since then. Hunny had the chance to know all of them. And then, just three weeks after we lost Hunny, George came into our lives. Karma again? I was walking our pups one day when I mentioned to my daughter that maybe we need a big dog to protect our beagles from the neighbours big dogs. And then just two days later George showed up at my work. We believe that some one dumped him. He's about a year old. My husband believes that Hunny sent him to watch over the pups. Nice thought, but I'm not so sure about that.

Anyway, if you loved your beloved pet so much, I'm sure you all have room in your hearts to love another. It does hurt so very much when we lose them, but I for one, would never have missed the time that I had with each and every one of them. They have a special place in my heart, and they took a huge chunk of it when they went to heaven. I miss them all so very much and some days it just hurts so much. But I feel sorry for people who have never known the love of a pet. They are missing out on so much.

When you're ready - you'll find that next special baby and you'll love them with all of your heart. Like they say it is better to have loved and lost than to never have loved at all. And I believe that it is not disrespectful to find another one. When Lily left, Hunny missed her so much. When we got Izzy, then Barney and then Casey, Hunny opened her heart to each of them even though she was sick. I think they helped her live as long as she did. Unfortunately she only had two weeks with Casey.

I am not a religious person, but I do believe in ghosts, so there must be another life after this one. And I had such a hard time when Lily left. Finally, after about six months, it popped into my head, what if she is trapped here and can't move on because I miss her so much? I couldn't bear the thought of her being trapped in between worlds. So, I think it was at that moment, that I "let" her go. I let her spirit move onto the Rainbow Bridge. I needed to believe that she was in a good place, and that she was happy and healthy and having so much fun. I didn't want her to be holding on to me. Her happiness meant so much to me. It was only then that I was able to move forward (as much as I could with Hunny being so sick). And now Hunny is with Lily and they are both together. That brings me so much peace. They belonged together. And one day I hope to see them again. But until then, I need for them to be happy and healthy. At this point, my happiness is not as important as knowing that they are together and that they are happy and whole again. I imagine them plodding and running through lush green fields and meadows. And traipsing through water filled ditches. That is what they loved to do.

Anyway, take care everyone. There are so many unfortunate cats and dogs out there who are so desperate for love. Even though they only get to stay with us for a little while, remember how good it feels to love a precious baby.

My thoughts are with each and every one of you.

Posted by: lynette Jun 2 2009, 11:38 AM

I am missing my babies so much today. I can't stop crying. I can't believe that it will be a year June 24 since we lost Lily, and ten weeks this Saturday since we let Hunny join her. I'm at work right now and all I want to do is crawl into a hole and bawl my eyes out.

I miss them so much it hurts.

Posted by: lynette Jun 15 2009, 11:35 AM

I know this is probably not what this site is for, but:

Dear Hunny and Lily.

I miss you both so very much right now. I can't believe that it will be a year June 24th Lily. I miss you as much today as I did when you left us so suddenly last year. And Hunny I miss you too. I wish I could hold you both tight and never let you go. I just feel so empty at the moment. Just having another blue moment. It doesn't take much to trigger a strong wave of emotion for you both. They just played your song on the radio Hunny. That always makes me cry.

The pups are doing fine. Sometimes, I wonder if your still with us Hunny, cos every once in a while Izzy will just look around the room, but high up. It's like she's looking at something. I hope it's you that she sees. You too Lily. I know you never had the chance to meet Izzy, but I like to think that you left so that she could have a chance at a good life, just like you had. God, I miss you both so much. I wish you could come home.

Finally looks like we're gonna get some summer. You both loved this time of year, cos we always went for walks and you two could wander around the field or just run off ahead. I miss our walks so much. Don't do that very often now. Just too difficult with four dogs. The beagles just want to sniff the ground and it takes them ages just to walk half a mile. Oh well, maybe that will change as they get older. I like to just sit on the front deck and "watch" you both walking to Nan's.

Oh well, better go now. I just wanted to let you both know how much I am missing you.

I love you both with my heart and soul. I wish I could just hold you again. Hunny, I guess it's time we buried your ashes eh? I just can't seem to let go. Lily, I mean no disrespect by not laying Hunny next to you. I wish we would have had you cremated too and then both of you could stay with me forever.

I love you both.

Love Mum.

Posted by: Sammie girl's mom Jun 15 2009, 02:25 PM

Lynette,

I wish I could just hug you and cry together. It's only been 8 days since Sammie left me and the pain is still so very raw. I haven't cried much today (which makes me feel guilty) but I have this horrible chest pain. Breathing in and out hurts. It is a rainy, gloomy old day and I wish I was home with Sammie curled up on the couch being lazy. The more I am reading and studying things I believe your babies and my Sammie can see us. I believe they will make themselvers known by either a dream, a vision, a smell or watching your other pets looking up at them. I think that is a definite sign that both of your babies are still there in spirit. It still sucks b/c I want to hug and kiss her not imagine her spirit. I think I'm getting mad now and I'm not even sure at what. I'm just mad this hurts so bad and I'm mad our babies had to leave us. I went to Barnes and Noble and bought the book "All Pets Go to Heaven" and I'm hoping to find some comfort in that. I'll let you know if it helps me. Try to do anything to keep your mind on something else. Look at me telling you to do this when I can't figure out how to do it myself. Minute by minute, day by day is all we can do. One thing I'm sure of right now.....you loved your dogs and they knew it. They were loved and cherished and loved you so much back. My friend keeps telling me that all the love Sammie gave me is worth far more than the pain I feel now that she is gone. I know that is true but wow is it devastating. I hope the next hour is better than the last for you.

Melanie

Posted by: lynette Jun 15 2009, 03:52 PM

Melanie - you are so kind. I wish the pain could go away and that they were back here with us. I know it will fade in time, but yes, I still feel guilty if I don't shed a tear when I think of them. Not that that happens very often. I know they all knew that they were loved. And the thought that they are watching over us is very comforting.

Posted by: lynette Jun 22 2009, 12:03 PM

Another blue day. Recently, I've found myself wondering if Hunny would still be alive if we hadn't put her to sleep. I miss her and Lily so much. I can't believe that it will be a year since we lost Lily. I love them both so much.

Posted by: petmum Jun 23 2009, 12:38 AM

I know just how you feel Lynette, I wonder too if my Buddy wld still be here if I hadn't had him put to sleep. We ask ourselves some strange questions indeed.
elaine

Posted by: lynette Jun 24 2009, 09:17 AM

One year today we lost our precious Lily. I can't believe it! I miss her so much.

It has been such a long year. Probably the worst of my entire life. First Lily left us so suddenly and unexpectedly, then Hunny got sick - she left us this past April. It has been such a long recovery. Losing two precious angels in less than a year I'm surprised I survived it this well. But then I guess I haven't had much choice. Life doesn't stop because I lost my babies.

Still haven't buried Hunny's ashes next to Lily. Just can't seem to bring myself to do that. There is some kind of comfort having Hunny sitting in the living room. I just wish that we would have had Lily cremated. She could be there too.

I hope that they are both happy and healthy once again. I'm so proud of the way Hunny handled her awful disease. Lily would have been proud of her too. I know Hunny missed Lily so much and maybe if Lily had still been here Hunny would have beat the cancer. Maybe, such a big dream.

I hope that they are running through the lush green fields up there, or wherever they are. I hope that aren't missing us too much. We miss them, but we need for them to be happy until we are together again.

Hunny, Lily - we miss you so much. We love you with all of our hearts and will forever. Keep having fun. Till we meet again my babies - I love you. Hugs and kisses from us all.

Love you both.

Love Mum.

Posted by: Sammie girl's mom Jun 24 2009, 10:37 AM

Lynette,

I am sending hugs your way today on the 1 year mark of losing Hunny. With all my heart I believe that Hunny and Lily are together romping around having the very best time of their lives and will see you again someday and it will be even more amazing than when they were here on Earth with you. That doesn't stop the pain or the intense sense of loss in our hearts I know but hopefully you can find comfort in that. I've read so many of your posts to other people and you really are helping others by sharing. You have a wonderful heart. May God give you peace and comfort today.
Melanie

Posted by: lynette Jun 24 2009, 11:35 AM

Thanks so much Melanie.

Posted by: lynette Jul 30 2009, 04:23 PM

To my dear babies, Hunny and Lily.

Today is my birthday and I feel lost and empty without you here to share it with me. Last year was really tough because you had already left Lily, but this year both of you are not here.

I miss you both so much. I sure hope that you are happy together - wherever you are. And I hope that you are close by and watching over all of us. I would love a visit from you sometime.

It's getting easier, but still have waves of emotion. The pups are doing well. Barney and Casey are into everything, specially Casey. Izzy is doing really well. It seems that since George showed up she's really started to come out of her shell. She listens when we call her, she plays with the others more. She is definitely a lot more relaxed now. Still has her moments, but that may never change. I know they all miss you Hunny, except George of course, he never had the honour of knowing either of you. I know they would have all loved you Lily. Hopefully, one day we will all be together again.

Carly's doing well. She's bored at home now though. I keep telling her to call her friends, but she says she can't be bothered. She's reading lots and doing puzzles.

Dad's good too.

Anyway, just needed to write this down. I miss you both so much and I will always love you with every beat of my heart.

Love always.

Mum.

Posted by: Jess Jul 30 2009, 08:17 PM

Happy Birthday, Lynette. I'm sure your babies are smiling down at you today and sending you lots of love on your special day.

Posted by: Dusty Moonrise Jul 30 2009, 08:42 PM

QUOTE (lynette @ May 25 2009, 09:44 AM) *
It's been seven weeks since we had to send Hunny to meet Lily. I still miss her so very much. Most of the day is fine, but every once in a while it's just like being hit by a tidal wave. Just a sudden wash of pain and sorrow for both Hunny and Lily. I can't believe it's been 11 months since Lily had to leave. I wish I could see them again. I have them both on a pet memorial site too, but I find it hard to go there since Hunny left. It's such an empty feeling without them, even though we have four other dogs. It's not the same. I wish they could have lived a lot longer. I sure hope these pups live to a ripe old age.

Just having a blue morning I guess.

lynette, I, too, have had hard time today, even though it has just been a month since I had to bury the love of my life, a 3&1/2 pound chihuahua named Bitsy! Yes, it hits me just as hard! Yes, it has ben so empty! But, following advice from my favorite Veterinarian Author, James Herriot, I took in another pet shortly after Bitsy passed. Fancy, a Jack Russell Terrier, is ABSOLUTELY NOTHING like my lost little chi! But, that is exactly what I and my family needed! If I had goten another chi, I would have constantly been trying to compare it with Bitsy, a comparison which would have been on SO many levels to have been unfair!

Grieve while you must, but, please consider taking in another little friend! You can NEVER replace either Hunny or Lily, but what you CAN do is share the love you had for them with another pet who is just as deserving!

Andy


 

Posted by: petmum Jul 30 2009, 08:55 PM

beautiful words Dusty Moonrise & oh so very true.
Go Gently Lynette
elaine

Posted by: lynette Jul 31 2009, 04:18 PM

Thanks for all your kind words and birthday wishes.

It always brings tears to my eyes to read these posts.

We have four pups now. We adopted Izzy, a 4 year beagle ( a puppy mill rescue) just ten days after losing Lily. Izzy was surrended on the same day Lily flew to heaven. Sometimes, I like to believe that Lily gave up her place with us so that another baby could have the same love and affection that she was blessed with after she too was rescued from a humane society back in 2001.

Then we got Barney in November, he was just 8 weeks old, another beagle. Then just two weeks before we gave Hunny her angel wings we adopted Casey, a 6 month old beagle/cavalier cross. Hunny knew all three of them and loved each one. We had hoped that Hunny would have slipped away in her sleep, but I think she fought as long and hard as she did because of the pups. It still breaks my heart to think that we had to let her go.

And then just three weeks after Hunny left, George showed up at my workplace. I took him home because it was a Friday and I couldn't possibly leave him here all weekend. We looked for his family for about a month - no one phoned!! So now, we have George, a full blood border collie. We think he's about 1 1/2.

So, we have a full house again. My husband believes that Hunny sent George to watch over the beagles. Kinda sweet, but I'm not so sure about that.

Anyway, so we now we have two boys and two girls, three of whom nobody wanted. And they will never take the place of Hunny or Lily, but they each have their own special place in my heart.

I just hope that they live long healthy lives.

Take care everyone. And thanks again.

Lynette.

Posted by: petmum Jul 31 2009, 07:28 PM

wow lynette that's gr8 news about your new fur family.
I like to think like you that hunny left so you cld hve izzy & george well I kinda like your husbands idea bout him too.
We still miss our fur companions and always will, I'm so glad you were able to love again.
elaine

Posted by: lynette Aug 14 2009, 10:10 AM

Hi Hunny and Lily.

I am missing you both so very much today.

I have such a heavy heart today. Don't know why, just one of those days I guess.

I wish you could both come home - I could really use a hug.

Anyway, just wanted to say I love and miss you both so very, very much.

I love you babies.

Love Mum.

Posted by: tokolos Aug 14 2009, 10:45 AM

Lynette:

I'm so sorry for how you're feeling today. I'm feeling the same way; my heart is heavy to the point that I feel like someone is sitting on my chest.

It's been one week since Magnus passed, and I'm missing him terribly. What I wouldn't give to go home, pick him up and just snuggle on the chair watching nothing in particular on TV.

Posted by: trevor Aug 15 2009, 03:43 PM

QUOTE (lynette @ Aug 14 2009, 11:10 AM) *
Hi Hunny and Lily.

I am missing you both so very much today.

I have such a heavy heart today. Don't know why, just one of those days I guess.

I wish you could both come home - I could really use a hug.

Anyway, just wanted to say I love and miss you both so very, very much.

I love you babies.

Love Mum.

Lynette, sorry you were having such a rough day yesterday. Hopefully today will be better. I don't know about you but the weekends seem to be the hardest for me. Not that I don't miss Keesha a ton during the week but for some reason the weekends are really difficult. Isn't it strange how some days just hit you harder than others? You can have a few "ok" days and then all of a sudden it just hits you like a ton of bricks. Like you with Hunny and Lily I would do just about anything to be able to hug and kiss Keesha one more time...anyway take care.

Posted by: patricia Aug 17 2009, 01:22 PM

dear lynette
i hope youre doing better today. im so sorry you were having a rough day. something that we all go thru. once they leave us, our lives are never the same again are they? just know that lucy and i send you a big big bear hug from california. and i bet if you give your littles ones at home an extra squeeze, lily and hunny will feel it "upstairs".
you are not alone.
patricia

Posted by: lynette Aug 17 2009, 03:49 PM

Thanks Patricia.

I'll give them an extra big hug tonight and send a kiss "upstairs".

Thanks you so much.

Posted by: patricia Aug 17 2009, 05:43 PM

QUOTE (lynette @ Aug 17 2009, 01:47 PM) *
Thank you Patricia.

The tears fell as I read your comforting words.

Thank you so very much.

Lynette.


dear dear lynette

i only say it because its the truth. it is so easy for us to stay behind and lay guilt on ourselves. lets honor their life by remembering how wonderful they were during our lifetime. they are born into this earth without one mean, angry bone in their body and they leave us the same way. if they were capable of having these emotions as we are, then they would be human... but lily and hunny would not want this for you. they would want you to release the heavy heavy burden you carry. they would want you know how much they will always love you and how much you mean to them. you gave them a beautiful life lynette. thats the part we all need to hold on to. how sad that we so quickly forget the happy moments with our loved ones and only choose to hold on to those horrible last moments. by doing so we do not honor them. i know how easy that is as i do it too. one moment at a time lynette. start chipping away at this horrible guilt that you carry. you dont deserve it and i know we can be our own worst enemy. you are such a wonderful person and i want you to know that. the comforting words that you have shared with everyone here have helped me tremendously in my own recovery. let your words be a comfort to you. if you say them believe in them for yourself too. lily and hunny would want you to be happy again as happy as when they were by your side. you are the only person that can release that guilt. its ok to miss them and grieve for them. i still grieve for my very first pet that i had when i was 6 but dont let the anger and guilt torment you. you are an amazing and loving individual. i can tell.
you are not alone i am and we are here to hold your hand. i want you to be happy again. and so does lily and hunny....
big big hug!
patricia

Posted by: lynette Aug 18 2009, 09:38 AM

Thanks Patricia.


Today I said goodbye to my old friend
I pray some day we get to meet again
under one more clear blue sky
up there where the eagles fly

And we'll go walking in the sunshine
with a big smile on our face
race the river to the ocean
go splashing in the waves
and I'll wrap my arms around you
we'll be together once again
and I'll tell you how much I've missed you
my old friend

Yeah, I know you're up there looking down
on that rainbow bridge we talked about
there's a place for me and you
sonewhere up there behind the moon

And we'll go walking in the sunshine
with a big smile on our face
race the river to the ocean
go splashing in the waves
and I'll wrap my arms around you
we'll be together once again
and I'll tell you how much I've missed you
my old friend.

This is a Johnny Reid song - I just love it. Apparently this is what he wrote about this song -

"This song was written the day I had to say goodbye to "My Old Friend" Wallace. I was given 7 minutes to relive 14 years, this proved to be impossible, as I watched and felt him go to sleep for the last time, I held him in my arms. I continued to hold him and tell him how much he meant to me. I drove home alone and with a broken heart went straight to my music room and wrote this song.

His love and friendship will live forever in my heart. His song is not a song of sadness but a song of celebration for the life and all the time we spent together."


Hunny and Lily -and all my other babies up there at the Rainbow Bridge - this song is for you too! I love you all with all my heart and soul. And I hope we'll get to walk together again in the sunshine.

Love you babies.

Love Mum

Posted by: patricia Aug 18 2009, 07:23 PM

so tough to read but so beautiful. i cant wait for that day! i imagine a sea of our furry friends and as we call out their names they run and jump in our arms to never part again. i cant imagine a happier day.
thank you lynette!!!
patricia

Posted by: lynette Aug 19 2009, 12:47 PM

Dear Hunny and Lily.

I hope you guys are having lots of fun up there.

I miss you both so much.

Today is Barney's birthday. He turns one today. It's gonna be sad not to have you both here with us today. I know you'll be here in spirit though. I know there will be lots of birthdays when I get there.

We baked him a cake - a doggy recipe of course. He'll be excited. I know you'd be so proud of him Hunny.

Casey's is just a couple weeks away too.

I gave Izzy a great big hug and kiss yesterday and asked her to pass it on to you when she sees you again. She often looks up at the ceiling like she's looking at someone. I like to believe she's looking at you Hunny and you too Lily. I know you never met Izzy, Lil. I think you two would have gotten along so well.

Anyway, just wanted to say I love you and I miss you. And that I'll be thinking of you later when we give Barney his birthday cake.

Love you both.

Love forever, Mum

xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Posted by: honey's dad Aug 19 2009, 11:28 PM

lynette, thanks for the pleasant read, happy bithday Barney and Casey, stay well all , Scott

Posted by: chele Aug 22 2009, 05:49 AM

Happy (belated) Birthday Barney! I hope you enjoyed your cake and helped ease your Moms pain.


Posted by: lynette Aug 25 2009, 11:27 AM

It's been 14 months since Lily left and almost 5 months for Hunny. I stopped exercising about a week before we sent Hunny to Lily. I haven't been able to get back into it. I just don't have the desire to. I just don't seem to really care about much these days. I love my babies of course, more than anything, but I dunno life just isn't the same. I used to go for long walks with Hunny and Lily. I haven't done that since Lily left.

How do I get back to "normal"? How do I get back the desire to take care of myself? How do I get back the desire to care about other stuff? I'm assuming this is all part of the grieving process or maybe I just don't want to anymore. Life certainly has changed since losing Hunny and Lily. So many things just dont' seem as important as before. I hate coming to work.

It's been such a cold wet summer this year, maybe it's just that. Maybe because I haven't been able to spend much time outdoors that I still feel - depressed. Maybe I just need help.

I don't know what to do. I had thought about not coming here anymore. I love reading others stories and trying to help them through their loss and pain, but sometimes it just drags up my pain too much. And sometimes I think it's just slowing down my own healing. But I just can't seem to stay away from here. I guess maybe I still need this. I'm just so sad as I write this.

I'm just thinking out loud I guess.

Hunny and Lily - I miss and love you so much.

Posted by: petmum Aug 25 2009, 11:39 PM

Dear Lynnette,
I'm glad you came on here,it's good to vent where no one will think you are strange.
I know this virtual support isn't the same as being able to talk to you directly, though it is a link that I know will help get you thru your grief.
Each of us have our own unique journeys thru grief though one of the many "universal" links is the pain we feel after our losses.
The struggle to feel "normal" whatever that is!!!!! (if anyone knows what that "normal" is PLEASE let me know!!!!!!!!!) often times is almost unbearable isn't it?
Go back to one minute, one hour, one whatever it is that gets you thru the day...slow & steady is the way to go....remember to 'breathe' out deeply, then 'breathe' in slow & long then out again..........
{{HUGS}}} to help you thru your day.
elaine xx

Posted by: patricia Aug 26 2009, 12:33 PM

[quote name='lynette' date='Aug 25 2009, 09:27 AM' post='52444']
It's been 14 months since Lily left and almost 5 months for Hunny. I stopped exercising about a week before we sent Hunny to Lily. I haven't been able to get back into it. I just don't have the desire to. I just don't seem to really care about much these days. I love my babies of course, more than anything, but I dunno life just isn't the same. I used to go for long walks with Hunny and Lily. I haven't done that since Lily left.

How do I get back to "normal"? How do I get back the desire to take care of myself? How do I get back the desire to care about other stuff? I'm assuming this is all part of the grieving process or maybe I just don't want to anymore. Life certainly has changed since losing Hunny and Lily. So many things just dont' seem as important as before. I hate coming to work.

It's been such a cold wet summer this year, maybe it's just that. Maybe because I haven't been able to spend much time outdoors that I still feel - depressed. Maybe I just need help.

I don't know what to do. I had thought about not coming here anymore. I love reading others stories and trying to help them through their loss and pain, but sometimes it just drags up my pain too much. And sometimes I think it's just slowing down my own healing. But I just can't seem to stay away from here. I guess maybe I still need this. I'm just so sad as I write this.


WOW! i can relate to everything you said here. its something i never thought i would share but i feel better knowing that im not alone. dont get me wrong. i love my lucy with all my heart and she has made my life bearable but life has changed. i just like spending time with her. i dont care about getting together with friends or taking care of myself and i hate work because im away from her. sometimes i wonder if its because im so scared of losing her too. and just like you ive considered not coming to this site anymore because it does conjure up those feelings of deep sadness that im trying to push down so much. i promised fred that i would keep doing it and i would hate for him to be disappointed… but at the same time i cant stay away because i feel so not alone here. ive wondered the same thing: is it grieving or is my life going to be like this from now on?
ive also thought we are torn in two. i know for me, i have great days when i dont think about fred and riley being gone but then i feel so bad because im afraid if i dont think about them i will forget them. its silly i know but its true. and then all of a sudden i have these great days when i think of my fred and riley and know they are happy and running and not sick anymore and then i fall. its got to be part of grieving and i keep trying to swim up to the surface. you have to too lynette. weve got to believe that better days are ahead. can i give you some advice? take it with a grain of salt. but maybe you should take time off of this site. take time for yourself and to love barney and izzy. maybe take a 10 minute walk sometime just by yourself, not with your new furkids just you. so you can be alone with your feelings. and noone to distract you. and then maybe have barney join you on the next walk and mark it as a new beginning and a new commitment with your baby. maybe go a different route, one thats only for you and your. that way your route(s) with hunny and lily are memorialized.
hang in there lynette. your not alone. we are all in this hell together. you are in my thoughts!
patricia

Posted by: lynette Aug 26 2009, 02:21 PM

Thanks Patricia.

I needed to hear that someone else had these feelings too.

Thanks for the advice.


Posted by: lynette Aug 26 2009, 03:40 PM

I completely get what you say about being afraid of losing your new baby too. I am so paranoid sometimes about Barney and Casey. They are only a year old and they get into absolutely everything. I'm terrified that they'll eat something or choke on something. I hope they outgrow this stage soon!!! I love them to death, Izzy and George too, but you're right it's not the same as it was with Hunny and Lily. Not yet anyway.

Maybe I should take time away from here, but for some reason I just can't seem to stay away. It's like a magnet - it just draws me here everyday.

I think I'll take your advice about going for a walk though. Try anyway, the mosquitoes are so bad here these days!! Maybe I'll take Barney too. Barney and Casey pull so hard it's hard taking them for walks. I guess that's why I don't do it often. Maybe one at a time will work though.

Thanks for listening. I really appreciate it. It helps knowing that someone else feels the same as I do. Life certainly has changed. And who knows what normal is, but maybe it just takes time to create a new "normal".

Thanks again.

Lynette.

Posted by: lynette Aug 31 2009, 09:55 AM

Hi Babies.

They're playing your song on the radio Hunny.

God, I miss you both so much. I hope so much that you're both happy wherever you are.

I love you guys.

Love Mum.

Posted by: lynette Sep 1 2009, 09:27 AM

Hi my babies.

I'm feeling sad again today. Uncle Tom died yesterday. I don't know if you two ever met him - Murray's dad. Bud and Lady would probably remember him. You both knew Murray pretty well. Well he died yesterday from liver cancer. When someone close dies it always drags up the memories and pain of you both leaving me.

Maybe you'll see him up there. He'd be with Princess, a little poodle. And probably with his son who died way back when. I hope he'll be happy and healthy again. We haven't heard yet whent he funeral will be, but you can guarantee that I'll be thinking of you the whole time.

I cried all the way to work again. It never seems to get any easier.

I miss you two so much. I love you both.

People reading this might think I'm crazy writing to you like this as often as I do, but whatever. Sometimes, I just need to talk to you. A lot of times I need to talk to you both.

Anyway, will write again.

Love you both with all of my heart and soul.

Love Mum.

Posted by: lynette Sep 8 2009, 09:29 AM

Hi babies.

It's Casey's birthday today - don't know what to get her. She's such a sweetie. They all are.

You wouldn't believe how far Izzy has come. It's amazing. Sure, she still has her moments, but what a difference from this time last year!! You'd be so proud of her Hunny.

George starts agility classes this Saturday. I think he'll love that. He's bored. He loves to chase the cows and goats away from the fence, but I think he'd love to get in there with them and work them.

Just wanted to say how much I miss you both and that I love you.

Carly goes back to school tomorrow. I don't think she wants to go. Summer went by so fast even though we had such awful weather this year - again. The pups will miss her too. They've loved her being home with them. They don't have to be locked up in the house all day. Oh well, what can we do?


Anyway I'll talk to you again.

Love Mum.

Posted by: patricia Sep 8 2009, 10:47 AM

big (((((((hug))))))) from lucy and myself

patricia

Posted by: lynette Sep 9 2009, 09:35 AM

Thanks.

Posted by: lynette Sep 14 2009, 09:47 AM

Hey girls.

Hope you're both enjoying yourselves up there. I miss you so very much. It seems like such a long time ago since you left.

And now you're gone aren't you Hunny? I know you still come back to check on us, but you're gone aren't you? You've moved on. Izzy no longer looks up at the ceiling anymore. When she did this I was sure she was looking at you. I think you were here keeping an eye on the pups. I guess George is doing a good job cos I haven't seen Izzy do that for a while now. I miss you so much though. You too Lily.

The pups are doing good. George went for his first day of agility training Saturday morning. Dad took him - he thinks he enjoyed himself. George was kind of scared to get in the truck though - guess he wasn't sure what was going on or if he'd be coming back. I guess George must still have some insecurities about being dumbed. Of course we would never let George go. He's here forever. Carly took Barney for a walk by himself last night and left George in the fence. He was so mad! Poor thing - he couldn't go for a walk with Barney. Isn't that cute?

He's doing a good job Hunny. I know you'll be proud of him. You too Lily. I wish you could have met them all.

George has really helped Izzy come out of her shell. She has come such a long way Hunny. Maybe that's why you left now - you can see just how well she's coming along now. She's gonna be ok. I know she'll probably always have some issues with her past, but I never thought we'd even get this far.

Anyway, I love you babies and I miss you both so much. Please come and visit me sometimes. My only wish for you both is that you're happy and healthy. I don't expect you to hang around watching over us, but a little visit once in a while would be nice. I know we'll meet again someday - and I'll read you both the letter that I sent with you Hunny.

Love you both.

With love Mum, Izzy, George, Barney and Casey.

Posted by: lynette Sep 21 2009, 11:40 AM

Hi, my darlings.

Just want to let you know how much I miss and love you both. I had a weird dream the other night about you Hunny - it was disturbing, but I can't remember it now.

I wish you both would come back for a visit. Or maybe, you do, and I just don't remember them. I miss you both so much.

Everyone is well. Barney and Casey are trouble as usual. Izzy doing well - getting younger with each day!!! And George, I think he loves his agility class. Carly and I went with Dad on Saturday. He was distracted by us, but he was also showing off.

Anyway, I love you both.

Missing you.

Love Mum.

Posted by: lynette Sep 23 2009, 11:13 AM

Hi Babies.

I woke up with you both on my mind this morning. I have such a heavy heart today. I miss you both so very much. I feel very blue today. I wish I could hold you both.

I hope you're up there having so much fun - you both certainly deserve it. But I just miss you so much.

I love you babies.

Sending hugs and kisses your way.

Love you.

Mum.

Posted by: lynette Oct 5 2009, 09:17 AM

Dear Hunny and Lily.

Hi my babies.

It seems that eight is our unlucky number. We found skinny Mamma's body yesterday at Nan's. I don't know when she left to be with you two, but I'm just so sad about this. I believe that Dumper and Lucy killed her. She must have died a horrible death. Can you tell Mamma that I'm so, so sorry? She didn't deserve that. I hate Dumper so much - I just don't trust him. He looks so evil! That's why you sent George eh Hunny? To help protect the beagles. I don't know how much George could do against him. Lucy and Dumper were at the house last night. Dumper looked like he was in stalker - prey drive. I sent him home, but I just do not trust him. He probably has a taste for killing cats now. I let George sleep in the house last night.

Fat Mamma is probably there with you too. She took off a few months ago, and has not come back yet. It's unusual for her to be gone this long. I honestly believe that skinny Mamma missed you both so much. I know she hasn't been happy since you left. You two were all she knew. I feel so bad - heartbroken that she's gone. She was such a good cat.

Did you two meet her when she got there? I hope so. I hope she's happy and whole again. We buried her next to Lily. I guess we should bury you there too eh Hunny? I don't know if I can though - not yet anyway.

I miss you all so much. It's gonna be different without Mamma now. I haven't seen Smokey for a day or so either. I hope he's ok.

Say hi to Mamma for me. To fat Mamma if she's up there too.

I love you all and I miss you all so very much.

Will write again soon.

Love Mum.

Hugs and kisses to you all.

Be happy my babies.

Posted by: lynette Oct 13 2009, 12:54 PM

Hi my dearest angels.

Just wanted to say thanks for the visit the other day. I'm sure it was you Lily. I was sitting on the sofa, and suddenly felt a warm breath on my head. I've felt this before (only cold though) back during the winter months. Just a sudden quick little breeze that blows over so out of the blue. I'm so sure it's you Lily or maybe you too now Hunny.

I miss you both so very much. I wish I could just hold you again. I wish I could snuggle up with you both. I don't see Izzy looking up at the ceiling anymore, so I'm certain that you've both moved on. I know you're still watching over us, but I don't think you're as concerned for us as you were when you both left.

They're all doing well. It's getting cold out now. We've had snow already. About six inches on Friday. The pups sure love the snow. They love digging in it. George loves his agility classes. Quite the show off I've heard. And definitely teacher's pet! He and Carly went to Nan's yesterday afternoon. Some goats were out and apparently George rounded them up and herded them back into the fence. Carly said he was just so happy, grinning from ear to ear. How cute eh? Lucy's in heat now, and she's here everyday. I think George likes the company, but she brings Dumper with her. I don't trust him.

Oh well. Just wanted to say I love you both so very much. I love all of you up there. And I'm missing you all so much.

Love you babies.

Talk to you again.

Love Mum.

Posted by: lynette Oct 21 2009, 09:09 AM

Good morning my sweet girls.

I cried all the way in to work this morning. I don't know why, but just became so upset driving in. Just one of those days I guess. I miss you both so much.

I love you both so very much.

Love Mum.

Posted by: tanbuck Oct 21 2009, 10:28 AM

Lynette, I have those days too. It's strange how it seems to come out of nowhere. I'm sorry you're having one.
-Donna

Posted by: AngelCareOne Oct 21 2009, 11:19 AM

QUOTE (lynette @ Oct 21 2009, 09:09 AM) *
Good morning my sweet girls.

I cried all the way in to work this morning. I don't know why, but just became so upset driving in. Just one of those days I guess. I miss you both so much.

I love you both so very much.

Love Mum.

{*{*{*{*{Lynette}*}*}*}*} I also still have those days. One would think I'd be over it after two years. My loss took place October 12 through October 16, 2007. I must admit it's better. First came the hysterical screaming and crying every day that did not sound human. One neighbor thought I was being attacked by a large canine or primate like a chimp or gorilla that had escaped from the zoo. Were those wounded sounds coming from me? Yes, they were. How unreal.

At the present, I simply weep practically every day. Kind of softly at times and harder other times. However, like I said, it's much better. Thank goodness for that. Right now, it's so difficult to type this to you as tears stream down my cheeks, but not for my loss at all. It's because I can truly feel your palpable pain. It hurts physically, too. Such grief, loneliness and despair can be and many times is so difficult to bear. Oh, how I empathize with you, Dear One.

Please know that all along you and your Rainbow Bridge Babies have been in my thoughts and prayers. Winging many loving Angels to soothe and gently guide you through this most difficult time in your life.

Many Comforting Hugs!!!

Always,
Dottie xoxoxox

Posted by: lynette Oct 30 2009, 03:37 PM

Thanks Dottie.

Having another one of those emotional days again. I have a cold, maybe that's why. They were playing Hunny's song on the radio a little while ago. At first I didn't recognize it, but when I did, the tears just welled up in my eyes. I have Lily's song on my mp3 player - I can never play it though. Too many painful memories.

To my precious babies, Hunny and Lily.

I sure hope you two are happy and healthy cos that's all I want for you. I miss you both so much. The pups are doing well. George has his last agility class tomorrow. Well, actually, we're signing him up for another eight weeks. He likes it. We took Barney and Casey last weekend to see if they would enjoy it. I think they might. Barney did soooooo well. You should have seen it. Hunny, you'd be so proud of him. He did the jumps so perfectly. Of course, he'll do anything for some chicken! He is such a handsome boy. Casey and Izzy are gorgeous too.

We still haven't buried your ashes Hunny. I don't know if I can. But we'd better hurry up if we are eh? Winter's not far off now. It's getting colder. The ground hasn't frozen yet, but I'm sure it will in the next month or so. I hate winter so much. They are just so long now. We had such a crappy summer this year again.

Did mama make it there safely? Is fat mama there too? She still hasn't come home. It's been a long time now - she never stays away this long. I guess one good thing is is that you are all back together again.

The cats love Izzy. You should see her. She can't go anywhere without at least a couple cats tagging along. It's so cute. And then Smokey always snuggles up with her. I don't think George much cares for the cats. He doesn't hurt them, but he'll chase them off sometimes.

I wish I could hug you both again. It's been a while since I've felt you around. Please come home again soon. I miss you so, so much.

I love you both with all my heart and soul.

Talk to you later babies.

Love Mum.

Posted by: lynette Nov 5 2009, 04:41 PM

Hi Angels.

I can't believe that it is seven months now since you had to leave us Hunny. Sometimes it seems like such a long time ago, and other times, like it was just yesterday. I miss you so much. Both of you. It is getting easier. I don't sense you around anymore though. I miss that. But I know you're in a better place where you are both fit and healthy again. And hopefully, having so much fun.

I hope one day you can forgive me for sending you to Lily Hunny. And Lily, I hope you can forgive us for not being able to save you.

I miss you both so much. My heart aches for you all the time. There is not a day goes by that I don't think of you both. I hope you know how deeply I loved - love you both.

I love you my angels with my heart and soul. I hope we get to be together again. Cos, when we do meet I'm gonna give you both the biggest hugs ever and I promise I'll never let you go again.

I love you babies.

Love Mum.

Posted by: lynette Nov 10 2009, 02:08 PM

Hi my precious Angels.

I miss you both so much. There are days when I just can't believe that you're both gone. My heart still aches so much for you both. I love you babies. Love Mum.

Posted by: lynette Nov 16 2009, 11:04 AM

Love you Angels. Missing you so much.

Love Mum.

Posted by: lynette Nov 25 2009, 10:32 AM

Hi my sweet Angels.

I miss you both so much.

Finally went to the doctor yesterday with this cough. Turns out it's bronchitis. So, now I have a pile of drugs to take. Feeling a bit better today, but am quite sore. I'm so tired of feeling run down. It's been a long year and a half since you left us Lily. And a very stressful one at that. I think it's time to start taking care of myself again don't you think? I wasn't surprised when I got sick a month ago. I've been so stressed and run down for so long now. But hopefully, now I can start feeling better. I know things will never be the same again without you both here. I wish I could turn back time, I wish I could hold you both again. I miss you so, so much.

Hunny, Lily - I love you so much. I hope you're having a great time wherever you are. I've been trying to think of something special to get for this Christmas in remembrance of you both. I have come up with nothing yet, except maybe flowers. I don't know. I guess it will come to me.

Anyway, better go. I love you both.

Love always and forever, Mum.

Posted by: Brutus Nov 26 2009, 04:31 PM

Lynette...I hope you are having a great Thanksgiving.

Hugs to you.

-Sonya-

Posted by: Brutus Nov 26 2009, 04:34 PM

Lynette...I hope you are having a great Thanksgiving and are feeling better and getting rid of that nasty bronchitis.

Hunny and Lily are with you always.
Hugs to you.

-Sonya-

Posted by: lynette Nov 26 2009, 04:39 PM

Thanks Sonya.

I am in Canada so we had our Thanksgiving last month - but thanks anyway. Hope you have a great holiday.

Lynette.

Posted by: Brutus Nov 26 2009, 04:43 PM

oops sorry...well I hope you had a great day all the same...I forget there are angels here all over the world.


Posted by: Brutus Dec 1 2009, 09:27 AM

Thinking of you Lynette,

Hugs,
Brutus' Mom

Posted by: lynette Dec 9 2009, 10:48 AM

Hi my babies.

I am missing you so much this morning.

I love you both so much.

Love you forever my precious Angels.

Posted by: lynette Dec 23 2009, 09:56 AM

Hi my precious angels.

I haven't been here for a couple weeks. Doesn't mean I don't miss you, cos I do. And this will be the first Christmas without you Hunny. The second without you Lily. It'll be hard, but I hope you'll be with us in spirit.

I don't have much to say, not much going on these days. The pups finished their agility classes on the weekend. It was fun, but it'll be nice to have a break. Of course, they all did really well.

Anyway, I just wanted to wish you both a Merry Christmas, and to let you know that I miss you both so very much and that Christmas won't be the same without you here.

I love you babies. Forever and always.

Love Mum.

Posted by: Brutus Dec 25 2009, 12:13 PM

Hi Lynette...just wanted to wish you a Merry Christmas filled with peace and happy memories of your golden angels.

Hugs,
Brutus' Mom

Posted by: lynette Jan 12 2010, 12:35 PM

Hi babies.

I know I don't come here very often anymore. You know I will never forget you. But sometimes, coming here just opens up so many painful wounds. I love to talk about you guys, but I just can't keep reliving that pain anymore. I guess that means it's time to move forward. I wish you both were still with me. I miss you so much. But I can't bring you back. I can't hug and kiss you. But one day, I sure hope we can be together again. I'll come back now and then. I often come here just to see what's going on and don't write anything.

Just know my dear angels how much I love and miss you both. I miss all of you up there. And I'll keep talking to you every night the way I have always done. I just won't come here as often.

Christmas was really quiet. I had a calendar made up for Carly. It was a gift from both of you. It turned out really good. I also, made a donation to the Winnipeg Humane Society in your memories. Of course, I had to send them a little letter about you both. It's important to me that we support other less fortunate dogs. If it wasn't for them we would never have known you Lily. And I'm so very happy that we had you in our lives. You brought us so much love and happiness. All of you have. Anyway, Christmas was quiet. Even though we have Izzy, George, Barney and Casey, it seemed strange without you both.

Anyway, the pups are doing well. Barney and Casey are bored. It's been so cold, they've been stuck in the house. Especially Casey, she loves being outside so much. They are both so beautiful. Hunny you would be proud of them. All of them. I wish you would have had the chance to meet them too Lily. I think you would have really liked Casey. She reminds me so much of you sometims. Maybe that's because she's a spaniel too. You have very different personalities, but there is just something about her that reminds me of you. She's beautiful - just like you. She wags her whole bum just like you did. She's so adorable Lily.

I sure hope this year is better than the last two have been. The last two years have certainly been really tough on all of us. Anyway, I'm gonna go now. Talk to later. Remember that I love you so much and I always will. And I will always miss you.

Love Mum.

Posted by: lynette Feb 5 2010, 11:27 AM

Hi Angels.

I am missing you both so much, I feel like crying today. I hope you're both happy and healthy wherever you are.

I wish I could hold you and kiss you again. I just miss you so much.

Everyone is doing well. Getting bored with winter though. The doodles can't wait for spring. They are so sick of being stuck indoors.

I love you babies.

Love Mum.

Posted by: janika Feb 5 2010, 11:37 AM

Thinking of you Lynette and your Angels. I'm feeling the same, just want to have cuddles and licks again. I miss them so much. I am completely pet-less now and I feel so lost , the house is so quiet and empty. Please give your babies a hug from me.

Love Jan and my Angels x

Posted by: lynette Feb 25 2010, 12:51 PM

Hi my little angels.

Just thinking of you today. I think of you all the time, but today, I don't know, just seems a little sadder. I miss you so, so much. Most of the time I do ok, but today it hurts just as much as it did when you both left me. I can't believe that it will be a year in a couple months that we let you go Hunny. And two years for you this summer Lily. God, I miss you both so much. I wish I could just hold you both. I hope you're still around, but I never feel you anymore. But it's more important that you're happy. Izzy never looks up like she's looking at you anymore. I'm glad you've moved on, but it makes me sad that I don't feel you around anymore.

Everyone is doing well. Poor Carly woke up with a fat lip this morning. I don't know how that happened, but she wasn't too impressed. Said she can't go to school like that. I convinced her to put a cold cloth on it for a while. It seemed to take the swelling down quite a bit. Maybe George or Izzy punched her while she was sleeping!!

The pups are waiting for spring. Poor Casey is so bored in the house. It's been really cold again for the past few days. Supposed to be warmer for the weekend, so they'll get to spend lots of time outside. We have no plans this weekend, so they can be outside.

Anyway, just wanted to say I love you and miss you both.

Take care my precious angels. I love you!!

Love Mum.

Posted by: lynette Mar 7 2010, 12:13 AM

Oh my God, my babies, my heart aches so much for you both.

I bet you never thought I'd show up here 11 o'clock Saturday night eh? I've just finished watching a movie. It was so, so sad. It had many happy parts, but the jist of the story was something I could relate to because I've lost you both. I wasn't going to watch it, but Carly wanted to. It was about a man who died, but kept sending letters to his wife after he was gone. It was just so very sad. I feel so lost without you both. One part, just made be bawl my eyes out. This pain is as strong as when you first left me. I feel so lost and alone. It's been almost a year, and I still can't seem to care about myself yet. I don't know if I ever will (not that I guess I ever really did), but my life just seems so out of control these days. I don't know what to do. I feel so lonely some times. Dad and I never touch anymore. God, I love you both.

I don't know why, but I've been feeling really sad this past week or so. Maybe, it's because in less than a month, Hunny, it will be a year since you had to leave. I can't seem to stop crying.

I love you angels. I miss you so much. I wish I could hold you one more time.

I love you so very much. I don't even know what to write.

I'll talk to you again soon. Love you.

Love Mum.

Posted by: lynette Mar 31 2010, 03:08 PM

Hi Angels.

Hope you are all well. I miss you so much. The pain never goes away. I still cry when I think of you.

I can't believe it will be a year this Sunday Hunny. God, I miss you and Lily - and the rest of you - so very much. Sunday will be a difficult day I think. Nan's birthday next Tuesday, so we'll probably be at Nan's Sunday afternoon for a while.

This past year has actually gone by pretty fast. I can't believe it will be two years Lily. It hurts as much as the day you both had to leave me. I wish I could hold and kiss you again. I never see you in my dreams anymore, but hopefully that means that you've both moved on and are very happy wherever you are.

The pups are doing well. Trouble as usual. No, they're good. All the snow is pretty much gone now and they're loving it. We've been taking Barney and Casey for walks. They love that. I think they feel left out because the other two are outside the fence and are free to roam pretty much wherever they want. Barney and Casey aren't allowed off the leash outside the fence. It's for their own good though. Dumper bit Izzy the other day on her back. She's a little tender there. Dumper even had a go at Barney last weekend and gramp was holding him. Good job gramp was there! Of course, Barney surrenders right away.

You'd be so proud of them now Hunny. I know I say that all the time, but you would. And Casey, I know you only had two weeks with her, but you'd love her to pieces. Lily - you'd love them all. You would've loved running around with them all the time. I think you would have outrun them though. You definitely would have tired them out! They can go for a long time, but you could go for hours eh Lily? I miss my walking partner so much.

Anyway, I just wanted to come here and say hi, cos I'm not working tomorrow. Friday is Good Friday, so no work. And like I said Sunday will be your one year anniversary. I wish you were still both here. I wish I could wrap my arms around you. Lily, Casey is so like you sometimes. She loves to lick our faces like crazy - just like you did. And Izzy is like you Hunny, she comes up and leans against you for a rub.

Anyway, better go.

I talk to you later. Love you.

Love Mum.

Posted by: Westiesam/Sharon Mar 31 2010, 06:56 PM

Hi Lynette
I hope you have a good weekend -- anniversaries are really hard. It will only be 4 months next week that we lost Sammy and I'm still counting the weeks each week. We have Good Friday off too and I'm not really looking forward to it. I used to love having days off when I had Sammy to hang around with -- now days like that are just a whole lot of emptiness. take care
Sharon

Posted by: lynette Apr 4 2010, 07:08 PM

Thanks Sharon. I love my days off too - just spending time with my babies is precious.

Hunny, Lily. - thinking of you today. I can't believe it's been a year Hunny. Seems like only yesterday. I wish I could hold you both again.

Love you my precious angels.

Love Mum.

Posted by: lynette May 4 2010, 03:49 PM

Hi Angels.

They were just playing your song on the radio Hunny. Thought of you both. I think of you both all the time, but just thought I would come and write a few words, it's been a while since I've been here.

I hope you're both doing well. I miss you so much still. Everyone is doing well. We missed agility school Saturday. I think the pups were disappointed, but there was nothing we could do. The van was working properly. Dad ordered a oouple books, he's going to train them to do some tricks. That should be interesting to see. I know they are all smart, but they are easily distracted too.

Hunny, you should see Izzy. She has come such a long way. She doesn't jump at every little thing like she used to. She still barks at dad everytime he comes close, but she's wagging her tail at the same time. She even sleeps with me sometimes! She's been acting so frisky lately, just like a little pup. It's so nice to see. Barney is still a little chicken. Casey is as adorable as ever. And George, he's outside most of time now. He doesn't come in much at all - too hot for him I guess. Plus he's so busy watching the yard.

Anyway, just wanted to say hi babies. And tell you both how much I love and miss you.

I love you. Tell mammas I love them too. And miss them.

Love Mum.

Posted by: lynette Jun 4 2010, 12:07 PM

Love you Angels.

Miss you so much.

Love forever and always, Mum.

Posted by: tahoeden Jun 4 2010, 09:10 PM

Just wanted to say that I think it's very courageous and touching that you still write to them. I talk to a picture of my dog, Kota (passed a month ago), all the time and tell her how much I love and miss her. Reading some of your past posts it sounds like you have some younger dogs? They are lucky to be with you.

Dennis

Posted by: lynette Jun 7 2010, 11:36 AM

Thanks Dennis.

Actually, I talk to them every night before I fall asleep. I've been doing this every single night since I lost Mitzy, my first dog, back in November 1980. I don't think I've missed one night! Not many people know that I do this.

Yes, I have four other dogs now. Losing Hunny and Lily was extremely painful. I've lost several dogs, but somehow, these two really hurt. But now we have four! One border collie, George, 2, two full-blood beagles, Izzy, 6, Barney, almost 2, and a beagle x spaniel, Casey, also almost two. They are my world. George, Izzy and Casey were rescues. They each have their own personalites. None of them are anything like Hunny or Lily. Casey would be the closest, I think, to Lily, and only because she is part spaniel like Lily was. I think it's some of the spaniel traits that make them similar.

We got Izzy just days after Lily died. She was rescued from a puppy mill, and had issues of her own, but she really helped Hunny and the rest of us get through the loss of Lily. Izzy was our saviour!

My heart still aches so much for Lil and Hunn, but I would say it's almost full with these four. They can be quite a handful, especially the two young ones!

I'm so very sorry you are hurting right now. Kota is with you in spirit. I know that doesn't help, but you will reach a point when you feel that your pain is keeping her from moving on to wherever it is she needs to go. And then you'll be ready to move forward. I can't tell you when that will be. It's different for each of us. I woke up about six months or so after Lily died thinking "what if I'm keeping her here, and what if she is stuck here, lonely and sad, because of me? " I couldn't bear the thought that she was trapped here, so something in me told her that we would be ok and that she should move on to where she'll be happy again and that we would see her again someday. As crazy as this seems, it did help a bit.

Anyway, thanks for writing. I wish you some peace in your healing.

Take good care.

Lynette.

Posted by: lynette Jun 21 2010, 02:49 PM

My Dearest Lily and Hunny.

I miss and love you both so very much. I can't believe it will be two years this Thursday since you left us Lily. Some days the pain is just as great as it was that day. These past two years have flown by. They haven't been the best years of my life - that's for sure. Losing you and Hunny and mammas has been really hard. I sure hope you are in a better place and hope and pray that someday we will be together again. My heart aches to hold and kiss you all. I hope that you both can forgive me one day. I know you probably already have, but I still feel so much guilt. I'm so so sorry that you had to get sick Hunny. And Lily, I feel that I just let you down. You left so suddenly we didn't even get the chance to say goodbye. Not that it's goodbye (I hope) - just so long. You were both the lights of my life. It's been really tough these past couple of years. Thank goodness for Izzy, George, Barney and Casey. I don't know what I would've done without them. But I dread the day that they have to leave too. I hope that that won't happen for a very long time.

Anyway, everyone is ok. Carly finishes school this Friday. She's excited of course. The doodles will be happy to have her home.

I think about you all every single day, but the last week or so, you've been on my mind more. I guess because of Thursday. I just miss you so much.

Well, I'm gonna go. Talk to you later.

Love you all.

Hugs and kisses to you all my precious angels.

Love Mum.

Posted by: lynette Jun 24 2010, 09:06 AM

Two years today Lily. I can't believe how fast time has flown by. I miss and love you so, so, so very much. I wish I could hold and kiss you again.

Love forever and always, Mum, Dad, Carly, Izzy, George, Barney, Casey and all the cats. Love you too Hunny and mammas.

Posted by: lynette Jul 28 2010, 04:55 PM

Hi my precious Angels.

I miss you all so very much. I tried reading some of the new posts on here today, I can't do it. They are all so sad and it just drags up my own sadness of losing you.

I wish I could turn back time. I would just love to hold and kiss you one more time. All though one more time would never be enough. I can't believe how fast time has flown by. You have left such a huge hole in my heart. I don't know if it will ever heal. Each day gets better, but it doesn't take very much to feel the hurt again.

Everyone is doing ok. George is still doing his agility classes. He's pretty good at it. You wouldn't believe how far Izzy has come. Hunny you would be so proud of her! She no longer bolts. She is such a sweetheart. And Barney, you'd love him to pieces. I know you didn't have much time to get to know Casey, but she is just the most adorable thing ever. I wish you could have had more time with her Hunny. And Lily, I wish you could have met all of them - you'd have loved them all.

Carly is well. She's doing some babysitting these days, making herself a little money.

Smokey is still around. Chirper too. Gingie took off - I haven't seen him in a while. Chirper had four kittens this year, one died, so she has three running around. Barney and Casey love them!

Anyway, better go. I love you all and I miss you so very much.

Hugs and kisses.

Love Mum.

Posted by: lynette Sep 13 2010, 12:04 PM

Hi my precious angels.

It's been a while since I've been here. I miss you so so much.

It's Carly's birthday this Wednesday. I always find birthdays to be very sad since you guys left. I think of you all the time. I wish so much that you could be here with us.

Everyone is doing well. The pups are all good. George is done with agility classes for this year. He was doing really well, but I think he was a bit fed up with it week after week. But now that it's over, I think he actually misses it. He has started chasing vehicles again. Barney and Casey just had their second birthdays.

Don't know what to get Carly for her birthday this year. She has everything! I was thinking of maybe a cook book for her from the pups. You know how much she likes to cook, but I don't know where I could find one in town. We won't be going to Winnipeg for a while I think. She wants to make her own birthday cake this year - actually a lemon merangue pie. She's in grade ten now. She's growing up so fast.

I can't believe how fast time flies. It feels like a lifetime ago that you two left us. I sure hope you're happy. You must be, I never feel you around anymore, so I'm taking that as a sign that you've moved on. I wish you'd come back for a visit, but I totally understand. I'm sure you're just so busy with your new friends. I miss you so much. My heart aches for you so much.

Anyway, just wanted to say hi. I love you. Love and miss you for all eternity. I'll find a small gift from you guys for Carly. She likes that.

Love Mum.

Posted by: lynette Sep 30 2010, 04:48 PM

Love you girls.

Miss you so much.

Love Mum. Hugs and kisses.

Posted by: moon_beam Oct 1 2010, 03:10 PM

Hi, Lynette, thank you for sharing your beautiful letter to your precious angels with us. It doesn't matter if it's the first day without them or 2 years or 10 years or 50 years -- there is always a void in our hearts letting us know that a very important part of us is missing. And no one and nothing can ever take their place in our hearts and lives while we continue our journey on this side of eternity.

How would Carly feel about a cookbook for companion animals - - homemade biscuits, etc., from the pups? Do you think she'd like that - - perhaps along with another cookbook for "human" recipes? It was just a thought as I was re-reading your post.

Lynette, thank you so much for sharing with us how things are going. Life goes on, true, but not the same way when someone very important is not physically with us. But your precious angels are forever with you, Lynette - - even when you can't "feel" them close by. Please know you are in my thoughts and prayers, and look forward to knowing how things are going for you.

Peace and blessings,
moon_beam


Posted by: lynette Oct 5 2010, 04:57 PM

Thank you for your kind words Moon Beam. I really appreciate it.

Posted by: lynette Oct 19 2010, 03:47 PM

Hi my precious angels.

I hope you're both well.

Hunny, they're playing your song on the radio. Lily, they played yours this morning. They sure tug at my heart strings. I miss you both so very much. I miss you everyday babies. I wish I could hold and kiss you again.

I love you angels.

Talk to you later. Love you forever.

Posted by: moon_beam Oct 20 2010, 04:51 PM

Hi, Lynette, just stopping by to say "hello" and to let you know you are in my thoughts and prayers. May you always feel the presence of your precious babies close to you. And may you also feel the comforting encouragement of each of us with you, too.

Peace and blessings,
moon_beam

Posted by: lynette Nov 18 2010, 11:26 AM

Hey Angels.

Missing you all so very much. Love and miss you babies.

Love you.

Love forever and always, Mum.

Posted by: lynette Dec 16 2010, 11:32 AM

Hi my precious Angels.

Just wanted to wish you all a happy Christmas and that I sure wish you were here with us.

I miss and love you so much.

Hugs and kisses.

Love Mum, Dad, Carly, Izzy, George, Barny, Casey, Smokey and the cats.

Posted by: moon_beam Dec 17 2010, 04:22 PM

Hi, Lynette, it never matters how much time passes without the physical presence of our beloved companions with us, does it? They are forever with us in our hearts - - they are forever a part of us. As much as Lily and all of your precious companions are enjoying being with the angels, there is still a part of them that they are yearning for as well - - and that part is you, Lynette, when it is your appropriate time to join them in eternal joy. Hold fast to your wonderful memories, Lynette, as I know you are, for they help to bridge this time of physical separation.

Please know you are in my thoughts and prayers, Lynette, and will look forward to knowing how you're doing when possible.

Peace and blessings,
moon_beam

Posted by: lynette Feb 3 2011, 12:46 PM

Hi my precious Angels.

It's been a while since I've been here. Hope you are all well. Things are fine here, missing you all so very much of course. Carly is well, fighting a cold for the last few weeks though. She's at home today, or rather at Nan's. No school, it's exam week and she only had two, Tuesday and yesterday. All the pups are well. I think they're bored though. Especially poor Casey, she loves being outside so much and it's just been way too cold. George has been staying out quite a bit, but he comes in every night. They are all gonna have a bath tomorrow.

Not much to write about. Weather's been cold and we've actually had quite a bit of snow in the last couple weeks. No storms though. I can't wait for spring - winter is just too long. Couldn't get out of the drive this morning. We had strong winds yesterday and and it blew in a bit at the end of the driveway. Wasn't much, but I had to turn right and it's such a sharp turn - couldn't go too fast to plow through it. So, Carly got out and cleared the snow. It's warm today - zero! Just yesterday it was -16 and the day before - 20 something. The weather's been up and down all winter - strange.

We haven't really done anything since I last wrote here. Christmas has come and gone - nothing exciting there. Just another day. Carly loved the necklace that you gave her. She's got a part time job. She does a bit of babysitting now and then and she's been doing some catering with the neighbour in town. She likes it and it gives her some spending money. She enjoys spending!!!

Izzy got a new collar for Christmas. She was so excited - it was so cute. She's come such a long way Hunny - you'd be so proud of her. And I think the new collar was just another step forward. Casey loves the toys she got too, and believe it or not she hasn't destroyed them yet!!! With all the toys Barney loves a couple of gloves that I crocheted. He spends ages playing fetch with them. I think George misses his agility classes.

Oh well, that's it. Like I said not much been happening here.

Just needed to tell you all how much I love and miss you. And of course, wish I could hold you again.

I love you babies. Talk to you later.

Love Mum.

Posted by: moon_beam Feb 3 2011, 05:58 PM

Hi, Lynette, stopping by to say "hello" and to share your love letter to your precious babies. And thank you for sharing with us how things are going for you. I, too, will be glad with winter's end. Please know you are in my thoughts and prayers, Lynette, and will look forward to keeping in touch with you.

Peace and blessings,
moon_beam

Posted by: lynette Mar 29 2011, 12:18 PM

Hi my darling Angels.

I know it's been a while since I've written on here, but I think about you all the time. You know I miss you all so very much.

Well, I can't believe it'll be two years next Monday since you left us Hunny. It feels like yesterday. The pain is still so unbelievable at times.

Not much to write about. Waiting for winter to be over already. It's been a very long one!

Everyone is well. The pups are doing great. We started taking them for walks last week - now that the weather has finally warmed up a bit. I had to dig out a couple of huge snow drifts a couple weeks ago. They were only a foot or so lower than the top of the fence and Barney was just hopping over! He's such a little monkey!!

Casey can't wait for the snow to be gone I think. She's waiting for the bugs and the birds to come back. She's going stir crazy in the house. You know how she loves to be outside.

Izzy continues to amaze me. She gets stronger every day. Remember how she was when we got her? She was so scared of everything and everyone - now she's just loving life. She still has her moments but she has changed so much. George has been spending lots of time at nan's. The goats were kidding and he just loves the goats. Agility starts up in a week but dad hasn't said if he's putting George back in or not. I would love to get Carly training him to herd.

Carly is good. It's spring break this week. I'm taking the rest of the week off. I think tomorrow we will go to Winnipeg, watch a movie and probably get her hair cut. I don't know what else. Baba bought her a kitchenaid stand mixer. Not sure if it's for her birthday or not, but if it is it'll be a long wait for her. She's excited of course. She's been looking at these since our mixer blew up a couple months ago. But of course, I'm sure Baba will be wanting lots of baking done now!

I'm so eager for spring to be here. I planted some tomato plants on Sunday. Carly is at nan's today and they are supposed to be starting some flower seeds. Just hope it warms up soon and that this snow doesn't drag on for another two months. We have so much snow this year. It's been years since we've had this much. Maybe that means that the weather will return to normal, instead of all this cold wet stuff we've been getting for the past three years. It would be so nice to have a normal hot summer for a change. Mind you the way it's melting now is probably a good thing. The slower it goes the less likely there will be severe flooding.

Well, guess I'll go for now.

I love you babies. I miss you all so very much.

Talk to you again.

Love always and forever, Mum.

Posted by: moon_beam Mar 29 2011, 04:47 PM

Hi, Lynette, thank you so much for sharing your heartfelt letter to your precious Angels with us. Isn't it amazing how time goes by, sometimes we think it's standing still or perhaps going by so quickly - - and yet when we stop to take measure of the passing days we measure them by our "Angelversaries"- - the treasures of our hearts.

I truly hope and pray that you are spared any flooding as your snow melt continues. I live in Virginia, but I have friends who live in the New England region and have been very aware of how they have struggled through the winter blizzards, and now how some areas - - including the mid- and Northwest States are facing severe flooding.

Lynette, thank you so much for sharing with us how you're doing. Please know you are in my thoughts and prayers, and look forward to knowing how you're doing whenever possible.

Peace and blessings,
moon_beam


Posted by: lynette Apr 4 2011, 10:01 AM


Thank you so much Moon Beam. It's so nice to hear your comforting words.

Today is Hunny's two year Angelversary. It's a difficult day that's for sure. I just can't believe how fast time has gone by. I miss her as much as the last time I saw her. And to think that it will be Lily's three year this June. I just hope that they are both happy wherever they are.

Hunny - Lily I miss you both so very much. Mammas - you too. I love you all so much. I will never stop loving you all.

Moon Beam - as far as the snow - we've been lucky compared to those out on the east coast and even south of us in North Dakota. Unfortunately all that snow from North Dakota heads our way in the spring. Both I guess you could say the weather seems to have been cooperating with a slow thaw - freezing out at night. So, hopefully there won't be too much damage for anybody this year. People on the east coast have sure had it bad this winter. Unreal!

I love you my precious babies. Talk to you again soon.

Love Mum, Dad, Carly, Izzy, George, Barney and Casey and the cats of course.

Posted by: moon_beam Apr 4 2011, 05:12 PM

Hi, Lynette, thank you so much for sharing your precious Hunny's two year Angelversary with us. It is amazing how quickly time passes. The good news is that the memories of our beloved companions are always forever "young" regardless of how much time passes and age is added to our years. Please know that your precious beloved companions are happy and healthy as they keep loving vigil over you from heaven's perfect garden.

I'm glad to know that you're not in any danger of winter thaw flooding, and hopefully no other type of flooding as well. I hope life is treating you kindly, Lynette, and thank you for sharing with us how you're doing. Please know you are in my thoughts and prayers, and look forward to sharing with you how things are going whenever possible.

Peace and blessings,
moon_beam

Posted by: lynette Jun 1 2011, 11:41 AM

Hi Angels.

I can't believe I haven't written on here since April 4th!!!

Hope you're all well.

Had some bad news yesterday. Poor Jessie has cancer. It's not officially confirmed yet, but I've suspected for a while. When Jeanie was over last year and she said Jessie had a lump under her arm and then she had a small growth on her nose. Well, she has big lumps on her neck so they finally took her in and Jeanie was told she has about six months. Poor, poor Jessie. I hope you guys welcome her with open arms when she leaves this world. She's such a sweatheart. She has no one else up there that she knows. She's gonna need you all so much.

Well, everyone is well. The pupperdoodles are good. We took George and Izzy to the vet Friday for their shots. Just wanted to get their shots, but had to have a complete exam to get them. Oh well, Izzy definitely had to have hers done this year. George too. $300 later. I guess Barney and Casey can wait till later in the year. They're all current anyway.

Carly is excited - only four weeks left of school. She is still hoping to go to England. Nan and Gramp haven't made any attempt to book their flights yet. I have my doubts. They're all talk!! Carly will be so mad if they don't go. She's already buying new clothes.

Well, the weather has been so crappy here. Another wet year. It's getting really bad. Gonna have to start building an ark I think. And it's been cool too - I sure wish summer would come. So tired of this crap. This is the fourth year! Dogs don't like it either, especially Casey. She loves being outdoors chasing birds and bugs. They've changed the forecast again. Sunny today, rain tomorrow and then cloudy for the rest of the week, which is better because yesterday it was rain for the rest of the week and lots of it.

Not much to write about. Things have been pretty quiet.

Anyway, I'm gonna go. I'll talk to you tonight.

I love babes and you know I miss you so much.

Love you with all my heart.

Love Mum.

Posted by: moon_beam Jun 1 2011, 02:30 PM

Hi, Lynette, thank you so very much for sharing with us your heart filled letter to your precious Angels. I am so very sorry about Jessie. Please know that your precious Angels will be there to greet her when she reaches the Bridge and will show her all around the heavenly garden. She will be surrounded by so o o many Angel friends who will help her to settle into her heavenly home.

It sounds like life is treating you kindly, Lynette. Glad to know that your fur tribe is doing well. Here in Virginia the weather has turned unseasonably hot - - temperatures in the 90's - - whereas May was unseasonably cool and wet. I hope the weather improves in your neighborhood, Lynette, for you and your fur family.

Thank you again so much for sharing with us your beautiful letter to your precious Angels, and for sharing with us how you're doing. Please know you and your fur tribe, and Jessie, are in my thoughts and prayers, and will look forward to knowing how things are going whenever possible.

Peace and blessings,
moon_beam

Posted by: lynette Jun 2 2011, 01:44 PM

Thank you so much for your comments Moon Beam.

I really enjoy reading them.

I hope life is treating you well also.

Take care.

Lynette.

Posted by: lynette Jun 24 2011, 05:47 PM

Hi my precious angels.

Lily - I can't believe today it's three years since you left us. I hope you're happy and well wherever you are. You too Hunny.

Well, sounds like Jessie will be joining you tomorrow afternoon. She's not doing very well. Poor thing. Jeanie phoned a little while ago asking when you know (when it's time to let go). Jessie is falling down, can't get up stairs very well and her belly is bloated. She's hardly eating or drinking. And she says she just lays around. Poor Jessie. Please welcome her when she gets there babies. She had no brothers or sisters, so you'll probably be the only ones she remembers, maybe Bruno.

I love you angels. And I miss you so very much. I can't help but cry for Jessie - she is such a sweet thing.

Please love her when she gets there, show her around and take good care of her.

I'll talk to you later. Love you. Mum.

Posted by: lynette Jun 24 2011, 05:49 PM

Oh yeah. Scruff and Chirper had their babies.

Posted by: lynette Jun 24 2011, 05:49 PM

Oh yeah. Scruff and Chirper had their babies.

Posted by: lynette Jun 24 2011, 11:35 PM

Hi - me again.

Just talked to Jeanie a few hours ago. Jessie is really sick. If she makes it through the night I would be very surprised. She said Jessie is pooping blood, her belly is really bloated. She ate something at least - something really small, but she at least was able to get her to swallow a pain killer. Hopefully, she kept it down, maybe it'll make her feel a bit better. Jeanie said she was outside and didn't want to come in. But Jessie is a house dog, so she didn't want to leave her outside all night. And to top things off, Derrell left her home alone with a dying dog!!! He took the kids to the lake and left her to deal with all of this! Not very nice in my opinion. I know he's had to do this before and I know how difficult it is, but to leave her alone. She can't lift Jessie. Maybe on one hand it's better, then she can grieve in piece, but still she can't lift Jessie if something happens. If Jessie won't go in - how will she get her in the house? I'm having a hard time with this. I could never be a vet, I'd bawl my eyes out everytime I'd have to put an animal to sleep. Jessie's ten and she's had a decent life. Maybe not the best, because she spent an awful lot of time alone, but it wasn't bad. She was loved and I know she knows that. Tomorrow she will get to meet up with you again. It's been a few years since you've seen each other. And she'll get to meet the rest of you. It's just so sad. Poor Jessie, she sounded so bad when Jeanie held the phone close to her. Her breathing sounds terrible, just like someone on a ventilator. Jeanie knows it's time to let her go, it's just hard to do. Honestly, though when she phoned earlier to ask when do you know it's the right time? I didn't realize things were this bad. I've been crying on and off all evening. I can't even talk on the phone without breaking up. I guess being the anniversary of losing you Lily doesn't help. I've had my suspicions for at least a year that Jessie had cancer, but still I guess you are just never ready for the final moment. Just brings back a lot of painful memories. God, I hope Barney, Casey, George and Izzy all live to be a ripe old age. I know, I know there are no paragraphs in this, I'm just writing my mind. I think it would be easier if Jessie slips away in the night. It's hard either way, but it's less stress on Jeanie if she goes while she sleeps. I'm so sad babies. Jessie is only ten, she should be living till 12 or 13. Just like you two, she was robbed of her old age. Well, at least Derrell built Jessie a little coffin. Just, how is she going to get her in it? Maybe Dad will go over tomorrow and help. I'm sure I will, but I know I'll just be a wreck. Don't think I will help matters any by crying.

Oh well, unfortunately that's life, and it sure sucks. Carly is still not home. It's 11.27 pm. She was working tonight. Catering a grad. I thought she would be home by now. I guess pretty soon. She's working again tomorrow, this time in Fisher Branch. Then she has all day Sunday at home - studying though. Cos, she has a math exam Monday morning. Then a hair appointment in the afternoon and then she flies off to England Tuesday. It felt like Saturday today. I think because we were all home. Dad finished night shift this morning and Carly was home by 11:30 after writing an exam. It's gonna be a long two weeks without her here. I hope she has lots of fun. And meets lots of family. Hopefully, she won't get bored hanging around with four old people! Brian's pretty good - he's a kid at heart. They are renting a place at the seaside for three days so that will be fun. Don't know what else they have planned for her. She wants to go to a zoo, see a castle, Stonehenge. I want her to go on the London Eye and take pictures. I think that would be so great. I wish I could go with her. It would've been fun touring England with Carly. Too bad, flights are ridiculously expensive.

Anyway, better go. Please babies, take care of Jessie when she gets there. Maybe you can come down and get her? You'll be the only ones she knows there. Maybe Bruno and Pooch - I think she remembers them. Make her feel at home.

I love you babies so so much. I wish I could hold you now. There's a song out right now, called If heaven wasn't so far away. Sings about visiting for the day. I wish that was so. I'd come visit you all the time, infact, I'd probably move in.

Love you angels. Will talk to you later.

Love for always and ever.

Mum.

Posted by: moon_beam Jun 25 2011, 04:00 PM

Hi, Lynette, thank you so much for sharing your heart filled letters to your precious Lily and angels. Please permit me to offer you, and Jeanie, my sincerest sympathies in the loss of Jessie. Losing a beloved companion is never easy regardless of how long we have been blessed with the privilege of their company. I know Jeanie is getting much support and comfort from you, and please let her know she is not alone in this very sorrowful time.

I hope life is treating you kindly, Lynette. Life here is slowing getting better. I have been dealing with new computer "issues" over the last few days. I think I would rather have a root c&%^. But please know that you are always close in my thoughts and prayers even when / if I am not able to immediately respond to your new posts.

Peace and blessings,
moon_beam

Posted by: lynette Jun 27 2011, 09:06 AM

Thanks Moonbeam.

Jessie - I hope you made it there ok and are doing well again. I hope Hunny and Lily were there to greet you. You are now part of our heavenly family. I miss you sweet little girl.

Your mum and dad laid your body to rest yesterday. The kids put toys in with you. Colby goes on his field trip today. I hope he does ok with you leaving Jessie. He sure loved you lots. Gonna be lonely without you there this summer. Maybe they'll get another pet to help them with the pain of losing you. You know it would never replace you of course.

I hope you are back to your old self again Jessie. And I hope you're having a great time. Jeanie and the kids will be fine, I'll check on them for you.

Take care Jessie.

Love you and will miss you - till we meet again sweet angel.

Love you too Hunny and Lily. Please take good care of Jessie for us.

Miss you babies.

Love always, Mum.

Posted by: moon_beam Jun 27 2011, 04:05 PM

Hi, Lynette, just stopping by to see how you're doing, and to let you know you're in my thoughts and prayers during this sorrowful time for you and your family. Jessie is now with the angels and is in very good paws with each of our beloved companions welcoming her and helping her to settle into heaven's perfect garden.

Please know you are not alone in your grief journey, Lynette. I look forward to knowing how you're doing.

Peace and blessings,
moon_beam

Posted by: lynette Aug 8 2011, 10:14 AM

Hey my precious Angels.

Hope you are all well. Miss you of course. Jessie - hope you're settling in well. Chirper, if you're there now, I hope you're good too. You're babies are doing great now. One disappeared but you still have four left. Scruffy is doing well. She's a bit skinny but doing well considering she's raising her four and your four.

Jessie, your mum has two new little babies - as you probably know. Marley and Elle. They've had them now for just over a week. They are sweet things. Gonna be very big dogs though. Colby and Danielle are loving them! I know you didn't have a big bond with them, but I think they will with these two, maybe cos they are puppies and you were a bit older when they came along. Colby and your mum were remembering you the other night and Colby got a bit upset. Poor thing.

Our pups are well. Barney's birthday next Friday. Hard to believe he's going to be three! Seems like just yesterday we brought him home to you Hunny. I miss you guys so much.

Carly's good. She had a great time in England. She met lots of family. Did quite a bit of travelling. She didn't like London much though, said it was too crowded. But she really wants to go back. And then she went up to The Pas with Dad and Jeanie, Derrell and the kids just a week after she got back. Izzy was really disgusted with her. They left on Wednesday, Dad came back Friday, but Carly didn't come back till Sunday. Izzy was really ticked off when she saw Carly wasn't with Dad.

Well, that's about it. Not much to write about. I'm on holiday next week. Not sure what I'm going to do, but just happy to have a break from work. Carly wants to paint my bedroom - maybe I'll let her do that.

Anyway, I'm gonna go. Just wanted to say hi and that I love and miss you all so very much.

Take care my babies.

Love you so very much.

Love Mum.

Posted by: moon_beam Aug 8 2011, 02:29 PM

Hi, Lynette, stopping by to check in to see how you're doing, and to thank you for sharing your heartfelt letter to your beloved angels. Sounds like life is being kind to you and your family, and for this I am very grateful.

Hope you have a great vacation - - whatever you do. Please know you are in my thoughts and prayers, and look forward to knowing how you're doing whenever possible.

Peace and blessings,
moon_beam

Posted by: lynette Sep 22 2011, 04:56 PM

Hi my precious angels.

Hope all is well with you guys. Is Chirper there with you? She disappeared a while ago and left Scruff alone to raise her babies. Poor Chirper. Scruff is doing well. She only has two babies now. The others have a new home. She took them away for a couple of days - must have taken them out hunting. That reminds me - I haven't seen Smokey in a few days either.

Everyone is well. Carly is back at school. Bored as usual! Nan and Gramp got a new dog too. Her name is Brit, a border collie. She has a job of course. She has to round up the goats. Yes, they still have Lucy and Dumper.

Aunty Jeanie has two new dogs. Don't know if I've mentioned this, probably not, it's been a little while since I was here. She has two black lab crosses. Marley and Elle. They are going to be huge. They're five months old and are already 47 lbs! That the size of George and he's three! They are cute though.

Gramp's birthday today so we're going there after work. Carly's last week - she turned 16. Time sure flies doesn't it babes? Can't believe it's been three years since you left Lily and almost 2 1/2 for you Hunny. I still miss you like it was yesterday. I sure wish I could hold you again.

Barney and Casey have had birthdays since I last wrote here. They're both three.

Well, not too much to write about. Summer's over, but we're supposed to have one last fling this weekend. It's supposed to get up to 26 - 28! Have to put the pool away. Dad emptied it yesterday.

Garden's over. Didn't do too great this year. Started out too wet and cold and then got extremely hot. We got some stuff but not the usual amount that we freeze each year. Oh well, it's better than nothing.

Anyway, time to go home. I'll talk to you again.

I love you so so so much. And I will always love and miss you.

Love Mum.

Posted by: moon_beam Sep 23 2011, 04:42 PM

Hi, lynette, thank you so much for sharing with us how you're doing and your heart-felt love letter to your beloved angels. It is always a blessing to read your letters to your beloved furkids - - to share the eternal love you share with them.

I hope you and your family have a very pleasant evening and a wonderful weekend. May every day bring you blessings to add to your blessings. Please know you and every member of your family are in my thoughts and prayers, and always look forward to knowing how you're doing.

Peace and blessings,
moon_beam

Posted by: lynette Nov 3 2011, 11:48 AM

Hi my Angels.

Lily - you were in my dreams last night. I got to hug and kiss you. You didn't stay very long though. I miss you so much baby. I hope you guys are happy wherever you are. Thanks Lily - you have no idea how happy I was to see you again and to hold and kiss you. It's been so long.

I miss you all so much.

Not much to write about. Still no snow on the ground. That's so fabulous. I hope it never snows.

I will talk to you tonight babes. I just wanted to write this down. You know how bad my memory is and I did not want to ever forget seeing you. Even when my mind goes, I'll have this memory written down. I hope you come back again and again. Bring everyone else too. I would love so much to see you all.

I love you babies.

Love forever and always. Mum.

Posted by: lynette Nov 3 2011, 11:49 AM

Oh and babies, please take care of Percy. I miss him. Tell him that Lil' Mama is missing him too. Thanks.

Posted by: lynette Nov 8 2011, 01:29 PM

Hi guys.

Hope you're all well.

Just remembered what today is - November 8th. 31 years ago today I lost the first love of my life. Yes, you Mitzy. I can't believe it's been that long. I have been feeling off and down today and it just hit me why. The brain forgets but the memory doesn't. Sorry, it took me so long to remember. I would've remembered tonight - I hope. The days are flying by so fast, everyday blurs into the next.

I want you all to remember that I will always love you. And I will miss you until we see each other again, and oh my gosh, there will be so many hugs and kisses.

Talk to you all later.

Love you forever babies.


Posted by: moon_beam Nov 8 2011, 06:06 PM

Hi, lynette, thank you so much for sharing with us how you're doing and for sharing your heart-filled love letters to your beloved companions. No matter how much time may pass during our earthly journey our beloved companions are always and forever in our hearts and memories. They are always a heartbeat close to us -- as your beloved companions are always with you.

I hope life is treating you kindly, lynette. Please know you are in my thoughts and prayers, and always look forward to knowing how you're doing whenever possible.

Peace and blessings,
moon_beam

Posted by: lynette Jan 12 2012, 01:05 PM

Hi Angels.

Hope you are all well. I know it's been a while since I was here. It's hard to come here. It's still very painful and there are just so so many other people who are hurting too.

Everyone is well. Christmas was ok - nothing special. Carly loved the gift you sent to her.

Nothing much to write about. Weather's been good, cold today though. Hardly any snow.

Well, just wanted to say I love and miss you all so much. Oh, Nan and Gramp have a couple new dogs. Not sure if I told you about Britt or not. She's a border collie Gramp got to herd the goats. She had pups and they decided to keep one. Gramp named her Spot. Original Hey? she's so cute. George doesn't much like either of them though. He's heart belongs to Lucy. Carly took the pups for a walk last week - she said Barney was scared of Spot! He's such a baby!

Anyway, gonna go - talk to you all later.

Love and miss you all so very much.

Mum.

Posted by: Snicky's Mom Jan 12 2012, 03:39 PM

Lynette, peace and blessings to you as you remember all of your beloved critters. smile.gif Jennifer in Texas

Posted by: moon_beam Jan 12 2012, 04:50 PM

Hi. lynette, thank you so very much for sharing with us how you're doing and your latest news. The holidays are very time consuming and when they are over there is usually a "let down" feeling even under the best of circumstances. Not having the physical presence of our beloved companions to share everything with can certainly intensify the feelings of "nothing special". The good news is that each and all of your beloved companions are forever with you in your heart and your memories - - they are forever a heartbeat close to you continuing to share your daily routines just as they always have and always will.

Lynette, it is always a blessing sharing your news and how you're doing, and your heart-filled love letters to your beloved companions. Please know you are in my thoughts and prayers.

Peace and blessings,
moon_beam

Posted by: lynette Mar 19 2012, 02:39 PM

Hi by precious angels.

It has been quite a while since I was here! Not much to write about. It's looking like spring might be here, but then you know how it goes - I'm sure old man winter will have to have a last say.

Everyone is well. I can't believe that April 4th will be 3 years since you had to leave Hunny and that it'll be four for you Lily in June. It still hurts like it was yesterday. And I miss you all so much. I wish I could hug you. When I hug Casey every night I send up a hug for you. I hope you get 'em!!

Papa died last month, but I'm sure you know that already. Maybe he came looking for you. I don't know that he was much of an animal lover, but I like to think that he said hi to you. There is a 40 day memorial service for him this weekend. Dad's ok - I think he was expecting it. Even though Papa wasn't really sick, other than his Parkinson's, but when he didn't bounce back from the surgery this time, I think Dad knew he wouldn't be going home. Baba was in denial for a while, but then that's normal. She seemed ok when we were there Saturday. I guess she's finally accepted it. Carly baked her a cake for her birthday last week, actually I did, but we told her Carly did it. She iced it.

Carly's good. She had her hair cut Friday - pretty short this time. I left her at the hair dressers while I went to work - after we had discussed what she was getting done. When I got back they announced that they had decided to go shorter!! It looks good though.

Well, supposed I should go. I will talk to you all tonight.

I love you babies. I miss you.

Sending you giant hugs and kisses.

Love forever and ever - Mum.

Posted by: moon_beam Mar 19 2012, 03:31 PM

Hi, lynette, thank you so much for sharing with us how you're doing and your beautiful love letter to your beloved companions. It is always a blessing sharing your news and your treasured memories.

Please permit me to offer you my sympathies in the physical loss of your Papa. Even when we know our loved ones are no longer suffering and enduring through the physical challenges there is still the physical and emotional adjustment to go through of not having their physical presence with us.

Lynette, I hope life is treating you and your family kindly. Please know you are in my thoughts and prayers, and that I always look forward to knowing how you're doing.

Peace and blessings,
moon_beam

Posted by: lynette Mar 19 2012, 04:56 PM

Moon Beam

Thank you so much for your reply. I do so love reading your responses. I too hope life is treating you well.

Take care.

Lynette.

Posted by: lynette Apr 4 2012, 08:31 AM

Hi Angels.

Hunny - I can't believe it's been three years today since we had to let you go and be with Lily. My heart still aches for you both so much. I wish I could hold you again.

Anyway, just wanted to come here and say hi. It's pretty busy at work, so wanted to do this in case I forgot later.

I love you and miss you so very much.

Talk to you later babies.

Love forever, Mum.

Posted by: moon_beam Apr 4 2012, 03:43 PM

Hi, lynette, thank you so much for sharing with us how you're doing, and for sharing your and your beloved Honey's angel-versary with us. Our angel-versaries are reminders that someone very special to us is no longer physically present with us - - yet they live on in our hearts and memories. It doesn't matter how much time goes by for they are forever a heartbeat close to us.

I hope today is treating you and your family kindly, lynette. Thank you again so much for sharing your and your beloved Hunny's eternal love journey with us - - and all your beloved companions. Please know you are in my thoughts and prayers, lynette, and always look forward to knowing how you're doing.

Peace and blessings,
moon_beam

Posted by: lynette Jun 20 2012, 12:06 PM

Hi my Angels.

Hope you are all well. It's been quite a while since I've been here. Although there really is not much to write about.

Carly only has a few more days left of school. I think she's finished next Tuesday. Can you believe she only has a year left!!! Pretty scary. She can't decide what she wants to do after - nursing or law.

Everyone is well. I just wanted to write because Sunday is four years since you left us Lily. Sometimes it feels like yesterday. It still hurts like crazy. I wish I could hold you again. All of you. I miss you so much Lily. I'm so sorry too baby, I hope you can forgive me one day. I love you so very much.

It's Izzy birthday coming up next month. She's come so far since we first got her. Remember, Hunny, how she was so scared of everything and everyone. She's not anymore. Yeah, she has her moments, but they are few and far between. She's settled right in. She's such a princess!

Anyway, just wanted to let you know how much I love and miss you all. And I will be thinking about you this Sunday for sure Lily. God, I miss you so much.

Love you babies.

Love forever and always, Mum.

Posted by: lynette Jun 27 2012, 09:04 AM

Hi my angels.

Is Buffy there with you? Lucy attacked her last night and she was injured pretty good. And we can't find her this morning. I'm so upset. I know you guys didn't know her, but she is the sweetest little thing ever. If she's not there, please watch over her and keep her safe and guide her home.

Thanks babies.

I hope you're all well. I love and miss you all so much.

Love Mum.

Posted by: lynette Jun 27 2012, 01:53 PM

Hi babies.

Well Carly found Buffy. She was in the dog house in the back. She's getting around, so hopefully she'll survive this. I feel so sad though. It's really tough. Carly just phoned to say she went under the deck. I just hope she's not going under there to die. Apparently she was going to try to jump the fence, but Carly told her no so she went under the deck. Poor Buffy.

Buffy - I'm so so sorry. Please do not die. We love you. I wish I could take away your pain. Buffy please drink and eat something. Please don't die, please.

Will you guys watch over her and help her heal? Please keep her safe. Carly said she was lying on the deck with her earlier, there was blood. Not sure how much though. But she must be not too too bad if she's moving around right?

Anyway, please keep an eye on her. I don't want to lose her. She's such a sweet thing. We've been through enough these past four years, I don't want to lose another baby.

Love you all.

Love Mum.

Posted by: moon_beam Jun 27 2012, 03:20 PM

Hi, lynette, thank you so much for sharing with us how you're doing, and for letting us know about Buffy. The angel-versaries always bring our beloved companions to the forefront of our thoughts as we hold them closely to us in our hearts and memories. No matter how much time continues with our earthly journey, our beloved companions are forever with us.

I hope your precious Buffy will be okay. I am so glad to know she is home where she will receive tender loving care to help her heal from her confrontation with Lucy. Please let us know how things go.

I hope today is treating you and your family kindly, lynette. Thank you again so much for sharing your and your beloved Lily's angel-versary with us - - and all your beloved companions. Please know you are in my thoughts and prayers, lynette, and always look forward to knowing how you're doing.

Peace and blessings,
moon_beam

Posted by: lynette Jun 27 2012, 03:24 PM

Thank you Moon Beam.

Posted by: lynette Jun 29 2012, 10:06 PM

June 29, 2012

My dear sweet Buffy.

We said goodbye today. I miss you already. I'm so, so very sorry you had to leave. I love you sweetie. You were such a strong girl. I know you tried your best to stay with us and your kittens, but it was just too much. I watched you draw your last breath and I told you how much I love you and that you're such a good girl and so strong.

I know you tried, very hard to stay with us and I wish I could have taken away your suffering, but you're in a better place now angel and with extremely good company. I hope you like the lily Carly buried with you.

Angels, please take care of her and love her.

I love you Buffy.

Love forever and always Mum, Dad, Carly and the rest of the gang.

Posted by: lynette Jun 30 2012, 08:53 AM

Hi Buffy.

My sweet sweet angel.

I'm so sorry baby. I wish I could roll back time and make none of this happen. I saw a glimmer of hope in your eyes and thought you might pull through. It seemed like you knew we were there. Maybe you were just wishing for us to end your suffering. I wish you didn't have to suffer - I'm so so sorry Buffy. I think you wanted to get better, you could have crawled off into the bush, but you chose to stay and fight. I'm so proud of you. I'm just so sorry that this happened.

You were - are - such a beautiful little girl and I will always think of you and miss you. I will love for all eternity. I think you'll love Mammas. And Buffy, could you take care of Perci? He left us way too soon last year and we don't even know why.

Buffy, I love you and please forgive me. I wanted you to stay. I know you couldn't and I'm so sorry I put you through the last three days. I'm glad I was there for you at the end though. I hope you know I was with you.

Rest in peace my precious little angel.

I love you so much.

Love Mum.

Posted by: lynette Jul 11 2012, 08:54 AM

I love you all babies. And I miss you so very much.

Love Mum.

Posted by: lynette Jun 24 2013, 12:46 PM

My dearest Angels.

I can't believe it's been almost a year since I wrote here!

And I can't believe it's been five years since you left us Lily. I miss you as much as I did that first day. I love you so much. I miss all of you. And a year since you left us Buffy. The cats are all doing well.

Everyone is well. Carly just graduated high school Saturday. She's off to University in September. That's gonna be tough.

Jessie - two years since you left too. Time sure does fly. Your family are well. I guess you've met Marley? She disappeared - my guess is she's up there with all of you. I hope you're all having a grand old time there.

Things have been busy here - with Carly finishing high school this year. Lots of preparations and such with that. Honestly, I'm glad it's over. Expensive too, but what the heck she'll only graduate high school once right? She's happy to be done. But I don't know that it's sunk it yet that she'll be leaving us in September to live in Winnipeg. She was supposed to live with Baba, but Baba is sick now. So, she's gonna be living with Aunty Donna and Uncle Roger. Baba has cancer. We don't know what the prognosis is yet. She finds out Wednesday. It's gall bladder cancer, so not looking so good. But we have to keep hoping right? Even if she battles it for years, Carly will stay with Aunty Donna. She will have enough on her plate without having to take care of and worry about Baba.

Carly wants to be a lawyer. Can you believe our little girl is all grown up. She looked beautiful in her dress on Saturday. I hope you were looking down on her.

Anyway, I'm gonna go. I just wanted to write on here today and let the world know how much I miss you Lily. All of you. I will talk to you tonight my babies.

Love forever and ever. Mum.

Posted by: moon_beam Jun 24 2013, 03:08 PM

Hi, lynette, thank you so very much sharing with us how you're doing, and sharing with us your many wonderful memories of your beloved companions. Yes, you are so right when you share with us that time does fly by. But it doesn't matter how much time continues during our earthly journey - - or the many things we get involved in with our daily lives -- our hearts are always filled with our beloved companions. Nothing in heaven or on earth can ever diminish the eternal love we share with them.

I hope today is treating you and your family kindly, lynette. Thank you again so much for sharing your beloved companions with us . Please know you are in my thoughts and prayers, lynette, and always look forward to knowing how you're doing.

Peace and blessings,
moon_beam

Posted by: lynette Oct 24 2013, 04:46 PM

Hi my babies.

Hope you are all well. Everyone here is good. Carly is living in Winnipeg. I think she's finally adjusted to life down there. It was a bit tough for the first few weeks. I think she likes University, except math. She loves Sociology. She is talking about taking criminology next semester on top on sociology.

Well, Baba didn't make. I don't know if she came to see you guys or not. But Baba died June 28th. She never even had a chance to meet with the oncologist - she had a stroke and a heart attack and was gone in two days. Pretty shocking. It all happened so fast. 6 1/2 weeks from the time she went to the doctor to when she passed away. Dad has been going to Winnipeg every other week to help clean out her house. They finally have it done, so it should be going up for sale anytime.

Not much to write about. Things have been busy with Carly moving to Winnipeg and Baba's dying. Summer certainly flew by this year. We've had snow already - not much and didn't last, but I guess that crap is gonna be here soon. I so hate winter.

Doodles are good. We have more cats as usual. Buttons took off. She was pregnant when she left. Something must have happened because she has never left before. I haven't seen Scruff in a long time either. But she always took off for weeks on end. She left her kittens here. Mama is the only one left. She and Smokey are looking after all the kittens I guess.

Work has been busy, starting to slow down now. I think it's gonna be a long winter though.

Anyway, I know I haven't written much, but like I said, nothing much to write about, besides I talk to you all everynight.

I just want you to know how much I love and miss you all.

Love you forever and ever, love Mum.

Posted by: moon_beam Oct 27 2013, 10:53 AM

Hi, lynette, thank you so much for sharing with us how you're doing. It sounds like you have had quite a few losses of loved ones since June. Please permit me to offer you my sincerest sympathies. It doesn't matter the life form of our loved ones - - the adjustment to their physical absence is never easy.

It is always a blessing sharing your news, lynette, and your heartfelt love letters to your beloved companions. I can relate to your feelings about winter - - I am already looking forward to spring.

I hope today is treating you and your family kindly, lynette. Thank you again so much for sharing your beloved companions with us . Please know you are in my thoughts and prayers, lynette, and always look forward to knowing how you're doing.

Peace and blessings,
moon_beam

Posted by: lynette Nov 21 2013, 12:45 PM

George - I'm so sorry. I wish I had been there for you. Why were you chasing a truck. God, this sucks. I miss you baby. Love you. You'll meet up with Hunny and Lily. Love you.

Posted by: moon_beam Nov 21 2013, 01:45 PM

Hi, Lynette, please permit me to offer you my sincerest sympathies in the physical loss of your beloved George. You have endured many losses of beloved companions, and I know the physical loss of your beloved George is so very painful - - so very tragic. It doesn't matter how they precede us to the angels - - the grief adjustment journey is painful.

Please know you are in my thoughts and prayers, Lynette, and please let us know how you're doing.

Peace and blessings,
moon_beam

Posted by: lynette Nov 25 2013, 12:17 PM

Hi George.

God I miss you so much. At least you came to see me this morning. Well I think it was you. Me, Carly and Nan were standing int he kitchen when someone said there's George. I looked and you were running down the drive. I said that's not George. They said yes it is. The left side of your mane was black not white like it should be, but you had on your red collar. When I went outside you ran up and gave me a big hug. So, I want to believe it was you. But why was your mane not white all around? Is it cos that'st he side you were hit?

This is so painful George. Carly took it really hard. Of course she hadn't seen you since last Sunday. Why were you on the road? Did you slip cos I cut your nails the night before? What happened? Why did you leave us? Carly didn't want to go back to school yesterday. I made her promise to keep working hard at school. She only has two weeks left and I don't want her throwing everything a way because of you. I told her the others will be ok. But George - life sucks so much. I'm glad you came to see me though - if that really was you.

I hope you have met up with Hunny and Lily and the others. I think Jessie might be the only one you know, maybe Marley. You are in good company there. I hope you found a big herd of goats to chase around after.

You have left such a huge hole in my heart Georgie. Izzy and Casey were crying. Barney has been really quiet - he's not sure how to react I think. I wish you could come back George. I miss you so much.

Love you George. Please come see me again.

I will love you forever and ever my boy.

Love Mum.

Posted by: lynette Nov 26 2013, 10:57 AM

Hi George.

I am missing you so much. My heart hurts so badly. I hope you're happy where you are and I hope you have lots of goats to chase around. Izzy is missing you like crazy. I think she feels that she has to do your job now. I told her you are still doing it. I sure hope you are - even though we can't see or hear you.

It is so hard without you my boy. God it hurts George. I wish you could come home. Why didn't I make you go in the house that day? Why didn't I leave later like I said I was going to? Why did I cut your nails? I'm such a terrible mum. If I'd done these things George you would still be with us. How are we gonna go on without you? I miss your great big hugs and your punches every day Georgie.

I love you so much.

Love Mum.

Posted by: lynette Nov 26 2013, 10:58 AM

Life sucks without you George. I miss you so much.

Love you baby.

Posted by: lynette Nov 28 2013, 09:33 AM

A week today George. Missing you like crazy. I love you boy.

Love Mum.

Posted by: lynette Nov 28 2013, 10:29 AM

Hi George.

I feel physically sick today boy. It has been such a long week. We all still miss you so very much. I especially miss the big hugs you always gave me when I came home and the big kiss. I love you so much Georgie. I can't believe you're gone. The doodles still cry for you. I wish you could come home. I wish I could be there with you. It has been a really difficult week Georgie. I wish I was dead. I love you so much baby boy.

I hope you're happy with all our other angels. You are now an angel George. God this hurts so much.

Love you for all eternity Georgie.

Love Mum.

Posted by: Brutus Nov 28 2013, 10:31 AM

Lynette, I am so sorry for your loss of George. I don't come here as much as I used to and am saddened and shocked to hear about George...many hugs and thoughts coming your way. sad.gif

Posted by: lynette Nov 28 2013, 10:36 AM

Thanks Brutus.

I am really having a hard time with this. This time last week you left us. And you were all alone. At least the pups were in the house when it happened, but I wish I could've been there to hold you when you left us. Love you Georgie. Mum.

Posted by: moon_beam Nov 28 2013, 01:05 PM

Hi, Lynette, thank you so much for sharing with us how you're doing. I can so feel your heartbreak in missing your beloved George, and so very, very sorry that the transition from his earthly life was so tragic. Please know you are in my thoughts and prayers, Lynette, that eventually you will be able to find peace in your heart, and feel the warmth of your beloved George's eternal love for you. I also hope and pray that you will feel your beloved George's sweet Living Spirit comforting you, and that you will always find comfort, support, encouragement, and hope here with those who truly do understand what you are going through.

Peace and blessings,
moon_beam

Posted by: lynette Nov 29 2013, 12:55 PM

Hi my darling Angels.

How are you all today? Hi Georgie. How are you? I'm missing you so much boy. I wish you could come home. I love you so much guys - all of you. I can't believe it's been a week already George.

Love you. MUM.

Posted by: lynette Dec 2 2013, 10:11 AM

Hi Angels.

Saw you this morning George. I hope it was you coming to me and not just me thinking of you. God I miss you so much. I love you - all of you.

Love Mum.

Posted by: moon_beam Dec 2 2013, 12:39 PM

Hi, lynette, thank you so much for sharing your heart-filled love letters to your beloved George and all your beloved companions with us. I can feel the pain in your heart with the tragic physical loss of your beloved George. I know right now all your heart wants is to have your beloved George back home with you on this side of eternity - - still, I hope and pray in time you will be able to find a peace in your heart knowing that your beloved George is with his family in heaven's perfect garden, that each of them are keeping a loving vigil over you as you continue your earthly journey, and will be eagerly greeting you at your appropriate time to join them in eternal joy, and that as your heart finds this peace the deep sorrow you are now experiencing will ease.

I hope today is treating you kindly, lynette, and that you will have a peaceful evening blessed with your beloved George's, and all of your beloved companions', sweet Living Spirits to comfort you. Please know you are in my thoughts and prayers, lynette, and please let us know how you're doing.

Peace and blessings,
moon_beam

Posted by: lynette Dec 2 2013, 03:21 PM


Thank you Moon Beam.

Part of the reason I keep coming back here is to hear from you. You have made things so much more bearable. I appreciate every word you write. You write so beautifully. Thank you for all your kind words over the years.

Posted by: moon_beam Dec 3 2013, 12:52 PM

Hi, lynette, thank you so much for sharing with us how you're doing. I know all too well from first hand experience how devastating it is to lose the precious physical presence of a beloved companion, and how incredibly painful it is to have the added the burden of not having anyone who is physically and geographically close to me understand - - or care to understand - - how I am feeling.

This wonderful forum is truly a lifeline of comfort, support, encouragement, and hope for each of us. It is truly an honor, a privilege, and a blessing for me to be a part of this wonderful refuge at a time when our hearts are breaking from the most painful experience we will know on this side of eternity - - the physical loss of our beloved companions. If my life's experiences can be a source of comfort to you, lynette, then my experiences will not have been in vain.

I hope today is treating you kindly, lynette, and that you will have a peaceful evening blessed with your beloved George's, and all of your beloved companions', sweet Living Spirits to comfort you. Please know you are in my thoughts and prayers, lynette, and please let us know how you're doing.

Peace and blessings,
moon_beam

Posted by: lynette Dec 4 2013, 02:12 PM

Love you babies. Missing you.

Love Mum.

Posted by: lynette Dec 5 2013, 10:45 AM

Hi Angels.

Hi Georgie. Can't believe it's been two weeks now that you left us. The pain is still so unbearable. I miss you so much Georgie. It's weird not having you around especially now that the weather has turned ugly. You'd be in every night now and probably most of the evening. I love you so much. I ordered you a tag yesterday. One for you and the doodles. It's part of their Christmas present. I know you're not here with us anymore, but I wanted to get you one just to keep in the house. It is a blue heart with Love you Forever engraved on it.

Carly is officially done classses for this year. She has an exam tomorrow and then one on the 17th and that's it. She's itching to go Christmas shopping. She has quite a few presents to buy this year. Mostly for people who have been kind enough to drive her to and from Winnipeg and then a couple who have driven her to school and back. She's excited to be home. She was so upset with losing you especially since she hadn't seen you since that Sunday before.

Well, better get back to work.

Love you all and miss you all.

Love Mum.

Posted by: lynette Dec 11 2013, 12:21 PM

Hi Angels.

How are you all doing? Busy chasing goats and sheet George? I hope you are happy there, I really do. It is so hard without you here. It'll be three weeks tomorrow but it feels so much longer. Haven't seen you recently. Please come see me and tell the others to. I love you all so very much it hurts.

I have a meeting tonight and tomorrow. So Carly will be home with the pups tonight. Watch over them and keep them safe will you? Dad will be home at midnight too.

I love you babies. And I miss you. Christmas is not going to the same without you Georgie.

I love you.

Love forever and ever Mum.

Posted by: moon_beam Dec 11 2013, 01:34 PM

Hi, lynette, thank you so much for sharing with us how you're doing. The tag you ordered for your beloved George sounds so very lovely, and I know you will enjoy having it close to you.

I know the holidays are not going to be quite so festive this year because of the sorrow in your heart. I hope you will be able to find the time you need to release your sorrow for your beloved George - - even if you must do it privately. And please know we are here for you, lynette.

I hope today is treating you kindly, lynette, and that you will have a peaceful evening blessed with your beloved George's, and all of your beloved companions', sweet Living Spirits to comfort you. Please know you are in my thoughts and prayers, lynette, and please let us know how you're doing.

Peace and blessings,
moon_beam

Posted by: lynette Dec 19 2013, 11:25 AM

Morning my precious Angels.

Feeling a bit blue today. I wish so much that you could all come home for Christmas. George it is so quiet without you now. I miss you so much. Your tag came in the other day. I'm gonna hang up in the living room right next to your picture.

I love you babies. And I miss you so very much.

Love you forever and ever.

Love Mum.

Posted by: lynette Jan 3 2014, 12:59 PM

Morning Angels.

Hope you are all doing well and having fun where you are.

Missing you all like crazy.

Everyone here is well. The doodles are okay. Carly is not exciting about going back to University tomorrow though. After having a month off it's not gonna be easy.

It was hard without you George. We miss you so much. All of you, but the pain of losing you George is still so very fresh. I can't believe it's been six weeks already. Time is flying by. Wish you could all come home.

Love you babies. Love you forever and ever.

Love Mum.

Posted by: moon_beam Jan 3 2014, 03:02 PM

Hi, lynette, thank you so much for sharing with us how you're doing. The holidays are extremely difficult when our hearts are grieving for our beloved companions who are with the angels. And it doesn't seem possible how time continues to march forward giving little acknowledgement to the emptiness in our hearts. But each of us are here to share the minutes, hours, days, weeks, months, years that mark the milestones and angel-versaries of our beloved companions who are with the angels. We are here for you, lynette.

I hope today is treating you kindly, lynette, and that you will have a peaceful evening blessed with your beloved George's, and all of your beloved companions', sweet Living Spirits to comfort you. Please know you are in my thoughts and prayers, lynette, and please let us know how you're doing.

Peace and blessings,
moon_beam

Posted by: lynette Jan 13 2014, 03:15 PM

Love you guys.

Miss you so very much.

Love Mum.

Posted by: lynette May 16 2014, 03:11 PM

Hi my darlings.

It's been a while since I've been here. I think of each one of you every single day. I can't believe it's gonna be six months George. It still hurts. I don't see you anymore though. I hope that means you are really happy where you are and that you're just too busy to visit us. I'm sure you're chasing goats and sheep all day long! I wish we had taken you to herding classes. You would've loved that so much.

Spring is here - finally. It was a really long hard winter. Time now to find some rocks and finish up your grave site. Sorry about the ugly trees on your grave, but the stones were hard to find when we buried you. I miss you so much Georgie. It seems like a very long time ago that you left us. I hope you've met up with Hunny and Lily and all of the others. I know you'd love them as much as I do.

I can't believe that it's been five years now since you had to leave us Hunny. And it'll be six for you next month Lily. Time certainly does fly by. I miss all of you so much.

Carly is done University - done in April actually. She says she's not going back in the fall. I would like her to at least go to college, but I don't think she will. I don't want her hanging around here though - there is nothing here for her. And she'll never meet anyone here. I don't want her to end up a hermit like Unc!

Not much to write about really. The cats are having kittens now. Not that we need anymore. As cute as they are - we have too many as it is.

Everyone is doing well. Missing you all of course. Dad bought himself a quad a month ago. So he's happy with his new toy. Carly is actually finally starting to take an interest in getting her drivers licence. About time!!!

Snow is almost all gone. It is a late spring this year. We had so much snow this winter and it was so cold. George you would have been in the house all winter. And I know how much you would've hated that! Not that it was a good thing that you were gone, cos it definitely was not. I would give anything to have you back here with us. I took Izzy for her rabies shot yesterday. She loves going for rides in the van. Didn't think much of the vets though. She was well behaved of course. Had to carry her into the vets!

It's a long weekend this weekend. Victoria Day. So happy to have Monday off. The weather is supposed to be decent this weekend. A chance of rain Monday though. Maybe we'll have a bonfire this weekend. The first one this year.

Anyway that's about it. I love you all. And I miss you all so very much. Please come visit me. I would love to see you all.

Love forever and ever - Mum.

Posted by: lynette May 26 2014, 10:37 AM

Hi Babes.

Just writing today cos Grey has joined you guys. Some idiot hit her - probably that psychotic cow next door. Probably diliberately hit her. I'm so sorry Grey. You were (are) such a little sweetie. And you had babies didn't you? Where'd you hide them? I sure hope it wasn't me. I didn't see you this morning and I didn't see you on the road. I certainly didn't feel like I ran over anything. If I did - I'm so very sorry, but I'm positive it wasn't me. Pretty damn sure it was her. She is such an evil person. Grey you'll be ok where you are now. You'll make lots of friends there - and you have plenty of relatives there. Remember Champ? She's there I'm sure. We're gonna miss you little girl. We'll have to bury you tonight when I get home.

Love you all forever and ever.

Love Mum.

Posted by: joyo May 27 2014, 08:19 PM

QUOTE (lynette @ May 25 2009, 09:44 AM) *
It's been seven weeks since we had to send Hunny to meet Lily. I still miss her so very much. Most of the day is fine, but every once in a while it's just like being hit by a tidal wave. Just a sudden wash of pain and sorrow for both Hunny and Lily. I can't believe it's been 11 months since Lily had to leave. I wish I could see them again. I have them both on a pet memorial site too, but I find it hard to go there since Hunny left. It's such an empty feeling without them, even though we have four other dogs. It's not the same. I wish they could have lived a lot longer. I sure hope these pups live to a ripe old age.

Just having a blue morning I guess.



I understand, because I will always have a hole in my heart for my Anna. It's okay to feel blue and cry. Don't worry what others think. it's your heart and your love and your loss..... and it can be very, very deep. this is a wonderful place to express your feelings.

Posted by: lynette Jun 2 2014, 12:07 PM

Hi my precious angels.

Grey - we found your kittens - or rather they found us. I guess they got hungry and started crying. Poor little things. We are doing our best to bottle feed them. I think they're doing ok. Five of them right? Gonzalez keeps checking in on them. I think when they're a bit bigger he will take care of them.

God I miss all of you so much today. Wish so much that I could hold you. Love you all so much.

Love for ever and ever. Mum.

Posted by: lynette Jun 11 2014, 09:04 AM

Morning my precious Angels.

Missing you all so very much this morning. Grey - Jewel didn't make it as I'm sure you already know. Poor little thing - she tried. I don't know what happened. She was eating fine up until a few days ago, then she stopped drinking milk. Last night we took her in, tried to warm her up - she was so cold. I forced a bit of milk into her. She meowed and seemed to like cuddling. But at bed time, she couldn't stand or sit, just laid there. I knew she wouldn't make it through the night. I think she must have died not long after I put her to bed. I let her sleep with Brain. She's been taking care of them. I don't know what happened to her kittens though. The other four are doing great, starting to eat wet food now. They don't even want the bottle anymore. Just so sad that Jewel couldn't make it. She was just so cute. Dad and Carly are going to lay her to rest next to you Grey. Grey I don't know if it was something I did that she didn't survive - I hope not. I wanted her to. I kissed and told her I loved her as I put her to bed last night. I hope she knew she was loved. Jewel - I love you and I hope you'll be happy there with your mum.

Life is so cruel. Coming to work, just past Gulays, there was a little bambi dead on the side of the road. Don't feel much like working today.

Anyway on a happier note. Carly got her driver's licence. She's not too excited about it though. She will be once she realizes how much independence she'll have.


I miss you all so much. I wish I could hold you all. I love you.

Forever and ever my babies.

Love Mum.

Posted by: moon_beam Jun 11 2014, 12:43 PM

Hi, lynette, thank you so much for sharing with us how you're doing. I am so sorry in your loss of your beloved Jewel. Knowing your heart for all of the precious souls who are blessed to be in your loving care I'm very certain whatever happened with Jewel is not a negative reflection on your care for her. Still, "knowing" this doesn't stop the ache in our hearts when our beloved companions must physically leave us.

It seems like today is one filled with sadness for you, and I'm so very sorry. I wish there were some words I could share with you that could help take at least some of the sorrow from your heart. Still I hope and pray that somehow this day will be kind to you, and that you will have a peaceful evening blessed with each of your beloved companions' sweet Living Spirits to comfort you. Please know you are in my thoughts and prayers, lynette, and that I always look forward to knowing how you're doing.

Peace and blessings,
moon_beam

Posted by: lynette Jun 11 2014, 02:29 PM

Thank you Moon Beam.

I always look forward to your posts.

Posted by: lynette Jun 24 2014, 10:11 AM

Hi my precious angels.

6 years today Lily. Can't believe that I made it through that time. Seems like only yesterday you left us. I miss you so very much. I love you with everything that I am. Just wanted to post I love you on this anniversary of your death. God I miss you so much. It still hurts so badly. I love all of you and miss you all so much.

Love forever and ever.

Mum.

Posted by: moon_beam Jun 24 2014, 10:33 AM

Hi, lynette, thank you so much for sharing with us how you're doing, and your and your beloved Lily's 6-year angel-versary. I can so understand how you're feeling when you share with us: "Can't believe that I made it through that time. Seems like only yesterday you left us. I miss you so very much. I love you with everything that I am." No matter how much time passes after our beloved companions join the angels, our hearts are always joined to theirs - - for eternal love is not restricted to the physical laws of time and space.

I hope today is being kind to you, lynette, and that you will have a peaceful evening blessed with your beloved Lily's, and each of your beloved companions', sweet Living Spirit to comfort you. Please know you are in my thoughts and prayers, lynette, and that I always look forward to knowing how you're doing.

Peace and blessings,
moon_beam

Posted by: lynette Jul 18 2014, 09:08 AM

July 16, 2014 - Bozo.

So sorry Bozo. You are in the best company now. You remember George? I hope you two will be friends now.

Hey guys, take care of Bozo will ya? I know you never knew him - just you George (and I know you didn't care for him here) but please make him feel welcome there. He's a good pup just a bit aggressive. Maybe now he's there with you he won't be so aggressive. It just breaks my heart that this had to happen Bozo. I know your dad loved you very much.

Love all you guys and missing you so much.

Love forever and ever, Mum.

Posted by: moon_beam Jul 21 2014, 11:14 AM

Hi, lynette, please permit me to offer you my sincerest sympathies in the physical loss of your beloved Bozo. I know your heart is aching with this yet another physical loss to adjust to. I hope you will be able to find peace in your heart that your beloved Bozo is now among his fellow family members and all the other residents of the garden enjoying perfect peace and harmony - - for in heaven there is only complete happiness.

I hope today is being kind to you, lynette, and that you will have a peaceful evening blessed with each of your beloved companions' sweet Living Spirits to comfort you. Please know you are in my thoughts and prayers, lynette, and that I always look forward to knowing how you're doing.

Peace and blessings,
moon_beam

Posted by: lynette Aug 7 2014, 09:22 AM

Hi my precious angels.

Not much to write about, just thought I'd stop by and say I love you all. And that I miss you all so very much. Hi George, still herding those goats and sheep? I miss you so much. Miss your punches and your hugs. Seems like such a long time ago you left us. I hope your happy there. I know you're in good company.

Everyone is doing ok. Summer finally showed up. It's been hot and muggy. A little cooler this morning though. It rained early this morning and on the way to work. Supposed to be nice again today. No sun yet though. Barney doesn't much like this heat and humidity. He's finding it a bit tough. He was throwing up the other day - we figure because he'd been outside for pretty much two solid days and it was too much for him. Doesn't seem to be much shade in the back yard anymore. We were siding the house so we were all out all day. I think we are gonna have to plant some more trees. There are a couple that died over winter. But then the sun is so high in the sky that it's hard to find good shade. And you know Barney, he won't jump in the pool!

We had two dogs at our place last week. Thankfully we found their owners the next morning and they went home. One was a St. Bernard and the other a golden retreiver. The St. Bernard was BIG! I've never been up close to one before. He was very definitely a gentle giant. The golden reminded me of you Jessie. Then last night Kevin's dog showed up in our yard. I guess she must have followed Kevin. Anyway, they stopped in and picked her up. She was a cutie too. We should start a rescue shelter eh pups? I would love to do that, but wouldn't even have a clue how to go about that. Plus we don't have the room. If we had a big shed I could see that working.

Anyway, better go. I'm at work - not that I'm busy.

I love you all so much babes. Talk to you tonight.

Love for ever and ever. Love Mum.

Posted by: lynette Aug 11 2014, 08:38 AM

Good morning my Precious Angels.

I had to come here this morning - just have to say thank you Hunny, Lily and Bruno for visiting me in my dreams yesterday morning. At least I hope that is what is was and not just a dream. At first I thought it was a dream, but this is the first time (that I remember) that I have dreamt of you. I saw you once Lily, but you were far away. This time I got to hug you Lily. I can't remember if I hugged you or not Hunny. I hope so. I was so happy to see you, but as happy as I was, it was sad also. I hope you come back again soon. Thank you Bruno for bringing them. You all looked really good.

I hope you come back again soon and that ALL of you come. You know I miss you all so very much.

I love you all.

Will talk again later. Love forever and ever Mum.

Posted by: lynette Aug 22 2014, 11:59 AM

Hi Angels.

I'm sorry Lily. Was thinking how I never held you after you left. I am so, so sorry. I miss you so much my little girl. Thank you for visiting me last week. I hope one day you can forgive me.

I love you all my precious angels. Please come visit me again.

love you all. Love forever and ever - Mum.

Posted by: moon_beam Aug 23 2014, 12:25 PM

Hi, lynette, thank you so much for sharing with us how you're doing, and your beautiful love letters to your beloved companions. I'm so glad you are having visits with your beloved companions. Even though the visits are brief, they let you know that your beloved companions are always close to you even though they cannot be physically with you.

As always, I hope today, and every day, is being kind to you, lynette, and that you will have a peaceful evening blessed with each of your beloved companions' sweet Living Spirits to comfort you. Please know you are in my thoughts and prayers, lynette, and that I always look forward to knowing how you're doing.

Peace and blessings,
moon_beam

Posted by: lynette Sep 24 2014, 10:06 AM

Good morning Angels.

Missing you so much this morning. Wish I could hug and kiss you all.

Everyone is well. Doodles are well. We still need to find homes for your babies Grey. They are such cuties. Prince and Earl are so snuggly.

Anyway, better go. Will talk to you all tonight. Just wanted to say I missed you all.

Love for ever and ever. Mum.

Posted by: moon_beam Sep 25 2014, 11:36 AM

Hi, lynette, thank you so much for sharing with us how you're doing, and your wonderful love letter to your beloved angels. Even though your beloved companions are no longer physically with you, your voice is still a sweet sound to them lifting upward to their heavenly home - - for they continue to listen intently to every word you say as they did during their earthly journey.

I hope today is treating you kindly, lynette, and that you will have a peaceful evening blessed with your beloved angels' sweet Living Spirits to comfort you. Please know you are in my thoughts and prayers, and always look forward to knowing how you're doing.

Peace and blessings,
moon_beam

Posted by: lynette Sep 29 2014, 11:56 AM

Hi George.

Missing you so much today. I love you boy. I wish you could be here with us. I dreamt about you the other night, just for a very brief second. You were running with other border collies. It looked like you were having fun. I sure hope you are happy and having tons of fun wherever you are. I hope you have heards of goats to round up every day. We all miss you so much Georgie. I can't believe how time has flown.

Miss all of you. I hope you're all happy and well wherever you are and that you are all together. I wish so much that I could hold and hug each and every one of you again. I love you all with everything I am.

I'll talk to you tonight. Love forever and ever Mum.

Posted by: lynette Oct 20 2014, 09:48 AM

Morning my angels.

I've been thinking a lot about you lately George. I don't know if it's cos it'll be a year next month that you left us. Just thinking about that day breaks my heart in two all over again. I miss you so much. I miss your giant hugs, your goofy smile and of course your punches. I can't believe how time has flown. Almost a whole year Georgie without your love and hugs.

The doodles are doing well. I don't think they are looking forward to winter though, to being stuck in the house all day. We've been lucky with the weather (sort of). No snow yet, it's actually been pretty good. We've had so much rain this year, but the last couple weeks have been mostly nice. I know they miss you. They still sing. Yesterday we took Izzy for a ride in the van. She went and sat in the back where you always did. I don't know if she could still smell you there or not. Usually she bounces all around the van, but not yesterday. She just sat in the back for a while. Poor Izzy, she's been having problems jumping up on the bed for the past couple weeks. Not sure if she just needs her nails cut or if old age is starting to catch up with her. I have to cut their nails. Will have to do that tonight. But you know how that is right George? Have to chase them around the house to catch them! And then the struggling begins. And they know they feel better after and they know they'll get a treat, yet they put up such a fuss!! I am going to buy Izzy some steps so that she can get on the bed by herself, instead of being picked up each time (although I really think she likes that). Hopefully, she'll actually use them.

Well, this is gonna be a long day I think. It's only quarter to ten. Not much happening at work. Carly and I are still talking about going on a cruise. Haven't quite decided where or when though. Sure could use a break from this dump though.

Anyway, better say goodbye and pretend that I'm doing something here. I love you all.

I miss you. Love, hugs and kisses to each and every one of you. Talk to you tonight.

Love you angels.

Love forever and ever. Mum.

Posted by: lynette Oct 28 2014, 12:46 PM

Morning my darlings.

Well this is a sad day. One of Canada's soldiers was killed last week in Ottawa. I don't know why his death is affecting me as much as it is. He was only 24 years old, young and good-looking with a 5-year-old son. And two dogs! Perhaps that is why it is upsetting me so much. I know he leaves behind a young son, but they posted photos of his two dogs waiting for him to come home and that just totally broke my heart. Today is Nathan Cirillo's funeral. I'm watching it online. His death was such a waste. He was shot in the back so he never had a chance. Some people are just sick! Of course the coward that killed him was killed that day too so he will never pay for his sins. I see his face in my mind every time I close my eyes and all I can think of his - I hope his dogs will be well taken care of. Rest in peace Nathan. You are a hero - not just because you were a soldier, but because you were a dog lover and no doubt a great father. How do you say goodbye?

This is an emotional time anyway. Friday will be 21 years since you left us Jane. And then Saturday is Hunny and Lily's birthday. Time has flown much too quickly. I certainly wish I could turn back time and hug you all again. I miss you so very much. And then of course, it'll be a year November 21st that you left us George. I never knew I could hurt so much.

Snowing here today. That doesn't help my mood. At least it's only supposed to be like this today. Sun is supposed to shine again tomorrow. It is so dark and gloomy today though - very depressing. Wish I could be at home today. Not much happening at work either so it's gonna be a long day.

I think all I want to do is go cry.

I love you all so much. I miss you more than anything. I'll talk to you all later.

Love for ever and ever - Mum.




Posted by: lynette Nov 19 2014, 03:40 PM

George - why did you have to go???

I love and miss you so much.

Love Mum.

Posted by: lynette Nov 21 2014, 09:45 AM

Hi my precious George.

I can't believe today it's been a year since you left us so suddenly. I miss you so, so much my baby boy. We all miss you. We all love you. Not a day goes by that I don't think of you. I miss your goofy smile, your punches and your kisses. I miss you my little borgle. And I wish so much that I could have you here again with me so that I can hug and kiss you.

I will be thinking of you all day Georgie boy.

I love you so much. Love you forever and ever George. Talk to you tonight sweetie.

Love Mum.

Posted by: lynette Dec 2 2014, 11:41 AM

Hi my angels.

Carly just phoned to tell me that Earl is walking funny. She said he has a big lump on one of his back legs. I hope he's gonna be ok. I don't know what he could've done. He was in the house last night - I'm sure he was ok. I never notice anything. And when I put them outside I'm pretty sure he didn't land on anything. I feel so bad though - what if it was my fault. It's so cold out right now. If he can't feel his leg - he could freeze. Why does stuff have to happen. These poor kittens have been through enough in their short life.

I hope you guys are all well. I miss you all so much.

Love you. Talk to you later.

Mum.

Posted by: lynette Dec 2 2014, 11:50 AM

Oh I hope it's nothing serious with Earl. He's such a sweetie. Carly's gonna bring him in after Dad leaves for work and give him some TLC.

You know babes - sometimes life just sucks.

I love you all.

Posted by: lynette Dec 11 2014, 05:25 PM

Love you guys.

Love forever and ever - Mum

Posted by: lynette Dec 22 2014, 11:12 AM

Morning my precious Angels.

Hope you're all well and happy and having the time of your lives. You know we all miss you here very much and that we love you beyond anything in this world. I just wanted to tell you all Happy Christmas. And that we will miss having you here with us so very much. And that we will be thinking of you.

Everyone is well. I have a bit of a cold - nice eh - in time for Christmas. Carly started a job December 1st. I think she's enjoying it. She has a lot of training to do and a couple of exams to pass before she can actually do anything. I am hoping so hard that she passes her exam next month. Of course she's going into it thinking she won't because most people don't pass the first time (so she's been told). I've told her to study hard and pass it on the first try. I think if she passes on the first try she will be so proud of herself. But she seems to have an interest in insurance so hopefully it'll go well for her. I certainly hope so. Just need her now to pass her road test and she can drive herself to work. She has to go to Eriksdale one day a week, a bit of pain, but hey, anything for our kid right? She deserves the chance. She can go for her test in March so not too bad. Only problem is having to rely on nan or gramp to drive her every two weeks. She's only working three days a week till she gets her certificate. Two days in Fisher Branch and one in Eriksdale.

Dad's busy working. He had to work through the weekend so that he can have Christmas Day and Boxing Day off. Oh well, the overtime is good money.

The pups are good. They are so looking forward to Christmas. They've been snooping under the tree!! I guess they can smell the treats there.

Well only two more sleeps then Santa will come. I'm excited for some time off. Can't wait. I;m working today and tomorrow and I have Christmas Eve off. So time is dragging today. It's not busy here either.

Anyway, better go and pretend I'm busy!!! At least I get to leave at four today, to go pick up Carly.

I love you all and I miss you so much.

Will talk to you all tonight.

Talk to you later my precious angels. I love you.

Love forever and ever - Mum.

Posted by: lynette Jan 6 2015, 05:21 PM

My dearest Angels.

Just want to let you know how much I am missing you today - especially you George. I know it's only been just over a year, but it is still so very fresh. I miss you all so very much and I wish you could come home to me. I would love to wrap my arms around you and kiss you all.

The days are so short now, dark to and from work. And cold! Man has it been cold! I'm getting too old for this. It's crazy why we would live in such a brutal climate.

Christmas was ok. You should have seen how crazy the doodles were on Christmas morning! Especially Barney. They couldn't wait to open their presents any longer. They had been checking under the tree for weeks!

Carly writes her insurance exam on Monday. I am hoping so hard that she passes it on the first try. She's been told that not many pass it the first time. I sure hope she does though. I think she'll be so proud of herself. Once she's done that she has a five day course in Winnipeg for the autopac stuff. And then I think she gets a raise once she has all that. So I am hoping she can pass the first time.

Anyway gonna go. Time to go home. I'll talk to you all later.

I love you. And miss you.

Love for ever and ever Mum.

Posted by: lynette Feb 27 2015, 05:09 PM

Hello my precious Angels.

Just writing to say I miss you.

I think of you all each and every day. And will do for the rest of my life.

Not much to write about. Carly passed her exam, although not on the first try. The second time. So next month she goes to Winnipeg to do the MPI stuff. She's working full-time now. Just wishing she would do her road test so that she can drive herself to and from work. I don't know why she is procrastinating on that. I'm getting kinda tired of driving to Eriksdale three days a week now. But I will do it as long as I need to.

Weather is still cold. Although there are warm days in between the cold. Sure wish it would start warming up. At least we haven't had crazy amounts of snow like they have out east and in the States.

Thank goodness it's Friday. Not that it has been a particularly long week, just slow at work right now so not too much to do.

Jessie - it's Danielle's birthday on Monday. I'm sure you remember. Not sure if they are doing anything for family - haven't heard anything yet. I know she's having her friends over tomorrow.

Hopefully Smokie is home tonight. Haven't seen him in a few days. I'm getting worried.

Anyway, better go. Talk to you all tonight. Oh yeah, everyone is well.

I love you forever and ever.

Love Mum.

Posted by: lynette Mar 12 2015, 12:15 PM

Hi my darlings.

Hope you are all well. We're all good.

Smokey came home - or more likely came out of hiding. I don't think he ever goes too far.

Well, Grey - one of your babies went to a new home on Tuesday. Earl moved in with a guy I work with. I felt (still feel) so bad cos he looked at me as if to say "why are you giving me away - don't you want me anymore?". I know he's better off where he is now. He's gonna be a house cat and totally spoiled. He's got a new mum and dad and a human brother and sister. They're all young. I know he'll be happy there. But I miss him. He was such a big snuggler. And you should have seen the other cats wondering around looking for him - even Smokey. I write this with tears in my eyes. I miss him so much. He is such a sweetie. I'm sure he misses us all too. He slept with Rob the first night and then with Rob and his wife last night (in between them) - so he's made himself at home.

I have to change the subject - cos now I'm crying. Carly is in Winnipeg next week doing her MPI training. We're taking her down Sunday (Baba's birthday). Not sure if we will be meeting up with Uncle Don and the family too, but we will be with Aunty Donna, cos Carly is staying there. We'll probably pick up a cake to remember Baba on her birthday.

The doodles are all good. Barney won't let me cut his nails and they are so long. One is curling and I'm sure it's bothering him. Gonna have to try again this weekend - might have to get Dad to hold him. I don't know why he is being such a baby - he's usually the easiest one to do.

The weather seems to have finally warmed up. It's been melting like crazy. We didn't have too much snow this winter. So, if it stays on the plus side for another couple weeks it'll be all gone - sooner maybe. The dogs are happy cos they can stay out longer now and it's light till about 7:30 at night now. Hoping to start going for walks too.

Oh well - time to go. Just wanted to let you know about Earl Grey. Hoping to find homes for the other three as well.

Love and miss you all forever and ever.

Love Mum.

Posted by: lynette Mar 23 2015, 10:24 AM

Morning babes.

I was just googling where we used to live in Dry Sandford and realized that who ever lives there now has done some changes in the yard. I hope they didn't disturb your graves Mitzy and Billy. That is so heartbreaking to think that your resting places have been disturbed. I know I'm nowhere near there now to watch over them, but god I hope they didn't move you. I miss you so much. I will always love you. I know you're not there - just your bodies, but still it's painful. I know it's been over 34 years - still hurts and I still miss you so much.

Just had to come here and say this.

Love you both with everything I am.

Love Lyn.

Posted by: lynette Mar 24 2015, 03:41 PM

Hey angels.

Grey - just got an update on Earl. He's doing well, fitting in with his new family. Sounds like he's being spoiled too. He gets canned food morning and night. He has the run of the house, sleeps with his dad. He's got two young kids to play with and he has a yard all to himself. Rob says he's happy now and getting used to it all. I'm so glad. I was feeling bad for letting him go especially after the look he gave me when I handed him over to Rob. But I know it's the best for him. He'll have a long life with them. Now, if only I could find homes for the others!

Love you all.

Mum.

Posted by: lynette Apr 20 2015, 08:55 AM

Morning my precious Angels.

So, I know you've heard. Little Willy is there with you guys. I don't know if he is with you or with his own family there. Poor little guy died last Thursday (April 16th). Despite our differences with his parents it was still so very heartbreaking too learn that he passed away. He was only 6 1/2 - the same age as Barney and Casey. I know he was diagnosed with Addison's disease when he was young and I don't know if that played a factor here. But it still is very upsetting. If you see him, take care of him. He is just a little guy.

How are you all anyway. George, your birthday is this Friday. You'd be seven. God, I miss you. All of you. If I'd been home that day, would I have been able to save you? Why were you on the road Georgie? I miss you so much. I miss all of you. Willy's death just opened up old wounds too.

Anyway, I have to change the subject, I'm crying here.

Carly and I were looking at vehicles on Saturday. She wants a Dodge Journey so we went to Gimli to take a look. Test drove two - I did anyway. She really likes them. I do too actually. Very nice ride. So now she's bound and determined to buy one. We'll see. She still has to get her road test passed.

So, it snowed last night. Lovely eh? It is supposed to be spring. We had beautiful weather last week. Windy everyday though. Very windy. Still windy but now it's cold and snowy again. The weather is always just so crazy. I didn't take the dogs for a walk last night cos it was so cold and extremely windy. Went for a nap instead!!! I don't know if we'll go tonight either. It's gonna have to warm up a lot by then.

I'm feeling really stressed again. This vehicle stuff with Carly makes me stressed. Anything with money stresses me out. I wish life was easy. I wish I could afford anything whenever I wanted and never have to worry about money. Of course, I wish you were all here with me too.

Better go. I'm at work - supposed to be working!

I love you all and I miss you so much.

Love you all forever and ever.

Mum.


Posted by: lynette Apr 20 2015, 08:55 AM

Morning my precious Angels.

So, I know you've heard. Little Willy is there with you guys. I don't know if he is with you or with his own family there. Poor little guy died last Thursday (April 16th). Despite our differences with his parents it was still so very heartbreaking too learn that he passed away. He was only 6 1/2 - the same age as Barney and Casey. I know he was diagnosed with Addison's disease when he was young and I don't know if that played a factor here. But it still is very upsetting. If you see him, take care of him. He is just a little guy.

How are you all anyway. George, your birthday is this Friday. You'd be seven. God, I miss you. All of you. If I'd been home that day, would I have been able to save you? Why were you on the road Georgie? I miss you so much. I miss all of you. Willy's death just opened up old wounds too.

Anyway, I have to change the subject, I'm crying here.

Carly and I were looking at vehicles on Saturday. She wants a Dodge Journey so we went to Gimli to take a look. Test drove two - I did anyway. She really likes them. I do too actually. Very nice ride. So now she's bound and determined to buy one. We'll see. She still has to get her road test passed.

So, it snowed last night. Lovely eh? It is supposed to be spring. We had beautiful weather last week. Windy everyday though. Very windy. Still windy but now it's cold and snowy again. The weather is always just so crazy. I didn't take the dogs for a walk last night cos it was so cold and extremely windy. Went for a nap instead!!! I don't know if we'll go tonight either. It's gonna have to warm up a lot by then.

I'm feeling really stressed again. This vehicle stuff with Carly makes me stressed. Anything with money stresses me out. I wish life was easy. I wish I could afford anything whenever I wanted and never have to worry about money. Of course, I wish you were all here with me too.

Better go. I'm at work - supposed to be working!

I love you all and I miss you so much.

Love you all forever and ever.

Mum.


Posted by: lynette May 25 2015, 01:37 PM

Hey guys.

God I miss you all so very much.

Duchess went into labour last night Grey. Poor thing - I don't think she knew what was going on. She was having them on the deck so I moved her into the dog house with an old towel. She had one hanging out of her last night. She'd had three when I checked on her this morning. All of them were dead. Not sure why because I know the one last night was alive. Not sure if she killed them or if they just died. Probably the best though as much as I hate to say that. They looked like Prince - too much inbreeding!! Plus we won't have to find a home for them. Terrible thing to say I know. She still looked huge so I'm sure she has more to come. Guess I'll see when I get home. Duchess is just a baby herself - just a year old. Hopefully she comes through this ok. I'm surprised Brain didn't come and help her. Brain and Rupert are hiding in the greenhouse. Not sure why.

Everyone is well. It was so hot over the weekend. A lot different than last weekend that's for sure. It was 30 degrees this weekend, last was just below zero. Crazy weather!!

Well Carly has another driving lesson tonight after work. She has her road test tomorrow. I so hope she passes this time. She'll be so upset if she doesn't. So will I. You know I'd do anything for her, but picking her up everyday after work is kind of a pain. So, I will be so glad when she can drive herself to and from work. I think she's nervous about driving alone. Not that I blame her, but she's gotta do it sometime right? So, can you all wish her good luck for tomorrow?

We put the pool up yesterday. Would've been nice to have been able to do it last weekend. Cos we sure would've used it this weekend.

Anyway, better go (at work).

I love you all and I miss you.

Love forever and ever, Mum.

Posted by: lynette May 26 2015, 04:57 PM

Hi Angels.

How are ya all?

I'm in a crappy mood. Carly failed her driving test - again! The guy told her she was a dangerous driver even though her score was a pass. Doesn't make sense. She took a couple driving lessons and did exactly what the instructor told her to do. She went out with him last night and she did good and this idiot told her she failed. And that she was dangerous. That makes me so mad. You're damned if you do and damed if you don't. I think they make the rules up as they go. Now we have to wait another month before she can do it again. I am so friggin disgusted!

Sorry babes, just needed to vent.

Well, Duchess ended up having five kittens. Four of them were dead. I know the first one was born alive, but yesterday morning when I checked on her, she'd had three and all were dead. When I got home last night I ended up pulling out one (a breach) and then she had another a while later, again breach. This one was alive but she wasn't interested in it at all. We put it on another cat that has kittens. So, not sure if she accepted it or not. I couldn't just leave it there to die. I figured it might have a chance if the other cat accepts it. But Duchess wasn't at all interested. I wonder if it has something to do with the fact that she was bottle fed when she was a baby. Doesn't have that maternal instinct - I dunno. I washed her off - she was a mess. But she was up and walking around last night.

What a long day! I've been anxious all day - about her test. And then she tells me she failed. Will she ever pass?

Finally 5 o'clock. Gonna go now.

Love you all. Thanks for listening babes.

Love for ever and ever. Mum.

Posted by: lynette May 27 2015, 10:37 AM

Hi Babes.

I'm feeling really blue this morning. Missing you all so very much. Wish I could hold you tightly and kiss your soft heads.

So, found out why Carly failed her test. She didn't stop in the right places at the stop signs. So much for driving lessons. He obviously doesn't know what he's talking about. And then she had to listen to gramp bitch and complain all the way to work this morning. He has such a great knack of making someone feel so useless and worthless. I know, he did it to me all the time I was growing up. I hope she passes next time, that way she won't have to listen to his condensending crap.

Looks like the other cat took Duchess' kitten. I went to check on them last night but she had moved them. Found them though. And the little guy was still alive and she'd cleaned him up.

Not too much to talk about today. Really dead here at work. It is gonna be a looooooooooooooonnnnnnnnnnng day!! A very long day. There is hardly anyone here as well. So very quiet. I'm so bored already. There is so much I could be doing at home. It's cooler today so it would be a good day to work in the yard.

I wish I could be there with you. Sometimes life just sucks. Sometimes I just wish I could get off this merry-go-round they call life, cos it sure isn't much fun.

Anyway, I'm gonna go now. I will talk to you all later.

Love you forever and ever my precious angels. I miss you so much.

Love Mum.

Posted by: C-J May 27 2015, 05:19 PM

QUOTE (lynette @ May 25 2009, 10:44 AM) *
It's been seven weeks since we had to send Hunny to meet Lily. I still miss her so very much. Most of the day is fine, but every once in a while it's just like being hit by a tidal wave. Just a sudden wash of pain and sorrow for both Hunny and Lily. I can't believe it's been 11 months since Lily had to leave. I wish I could see them again. I have them both on a pet memorial site too, but I find it hard to go there since Hunny left. It's such an empty feeling without them, even though we have four other dogs. It's not the same. I wish they could have lived a lot longer. I sure hope these pups live to a ripe old age.

Just having a blue morning I guess.


Posted by: moon_beam May 28 2015, 11:14 AM

Hi, lynette, thank you for sharing with us how you're doing. I'm so sorry Carly failed her driving test. I remember going through a similar scenario when I applied for my first driver's license here in Virginia many eons of years ago. There was a publicized push to keep drivers under 21 years of age off the road, so every written test I took I always somehow managed to "fail." Then when I did "pass" the written test I was informed that I needed to get my eyes examined - - another delay in giving me my license. Like Carly, I needed my license so that I could drive myself to work when my classes were done at school - - part of the work program through my Senior year. The eye exam proved I had accurate vision - - no more excuses for the State to deny me my license. I will keep Carly in my thoughts and prayers that she will pass the exam this next time.

I'm so sorry that Duchess had a difficult delivery with her kittens. There can be several reasons why the kittens did not survive, particularly with her being a young mom and breach deliveries. So glad the other mom has taken Duchess' surviving kitten as her own, and hope the little one will survive.

I can understand how you feel when you share with us "Sometimes I just wish I could get off this merry-go-round they call life, cos it sure isn't much fun." This earthly journey can be a challenge even under the best of circumstances sometimes. Sometimes it can be a challenge to see the blessings and positives in our lives when our hearts are longing to be elsewhere. Please know we are here for you to share with you what is in your heart - - whatever you feel comfortable sharing with us.

I hope today is treating you kindly, lynette, and that you wil have peaceful evenings blessed with your beloved companions' sweet Living Spirits to comfort you. Please know you are in my thoughts and prayes, lynette, and that I look forward to knowing how you're doing.

Peace and blessings,
moon_beam

Posted by: lynette Jun 17 2015, 03:07 PM

Hi Angels.

Just dropping by to say hello. Thinking of you all, tears running down my cheeks. Thinking of you Bud and Lady. I hope some day you'll forgive me. I love you and I miss you so much.

Love forever and ever, Mum. Wish so much that I could hug you right now.

Posted by: lynette Jun 24 2015, 08:04 AM

Hi Angels.

Hi Lily. I can't believe today it's been seven years since you left us. I miss you so very much - as much as the day we lost you. I hope you're happy wherever you are - I hope you're all happy. I love you so much and I can't wait to see you again. I wish I could hold you Lily. Love you forever and ever. Mum.

Posted by: lynette Jul 2 2015, 01:59 PM

Hi my Angels.

I love and miss you all with everything I am, but I hate coming here to write sometimes. Gramp found a dead cat in his garage this morning. Carly says it sounds like Prince. I hope not. He was one of the kittens we bottle fed last year. But I know Smokey has been trying his hardest to chase him off. But why he was at Gramp's is beyond me. He knew to stay away from there. Unless Lucy dragged him there. I hope it's not him. It hasn't been confirmed, but I didn't see him this morning. I've been trying to remember the last time I did see him. I don't know if it was yesterday or not. I can't remember. I am so terrible! I saw Duchess - she was sleeping on the van. I hope it wasn't Prince. I know he's been fighting with Smokey an awful lot, but I don't want to lose him. If it's him, you'll take good care of him right? He can be a real git sometimes, but he's very loving. You know there is just too many of you there now!!

I had to take Casey back to the vets today. Took here there Tuesday because she was dragging her bum all the time. She needed some glands drained - badly. I thought she was ok, till last night she started dragging again. When I looked she had a rash on her underside and was swollen and inflamed. So, I brought her to work with me in hopes that I could get her into the vet. Fortunately they were able to look at her just after nine. So, she's on some kind of allergy medication with some kind of mild steroid in it, plus they gave her a pain killer. They mentioned back in the spring when I took her in for her eye that she may be allergic to something. So, it's starting to look like maybe she is. Hopefully, only seasonal allergies. She is such a good girl. She was so well-behaved here today and at the vets. She's quite the social butterfly. She has to meet everyone. Took her home at lunch time though - it's too long of a day for her. And too stressful. The vet thinks we need to change her diet. She needs to eat hypoallergenic food and only treats that we know what's in them. No more store bought treats for her. She didn't like the dog food either! That's gonna take a while to change I think - if ever! Probably might have to try other brands also. Even Barney didn't care for it and he eats almost anything.

Anyway, better get back to work - not that I have anything to do. It's unbelievably quiet here these days.

I love you all and I miss you. Prince, if that's you - I'm so sorry. I love you and I will miss you bud.

Love Mum.

Posted by: lynette Jul 20 2015, 11:43 AM

Hey Angels.

Just thinking of you guys.

I guess that was Prince. Hope you're happy there with your Mum and sister Prince. I don't understand why you were at Gramps.

So, we've switched dog food for all of them. Casey is still dragging her bum now and then - don't know why. Maybe she's just itchy. So, they've been eating this fish and sweet potato food for about two weeks now. I've definitely noticed that their coats are a lot softer and they don't seem to be shedding as much. They all seem to have more energy. This food is quite a bit more expensive than what they've been eating all these years, but they don't eat as much. We've cut back on the treats too. They still get, but we've been trying to stay away from beef and chicken. Funny how chicken is so high on the list of allergens! Casey still doesn't like that hypoallergenic food I got from the vet. But she eats the other stuff ok.

Everyone is good. Just wanted to let you know I was thinking of you.

I love you angels. And I miss you.

Love forever and ever, Mum.

Posted by: lynette Aug 24 2015, 02:50 PM

Hey Sweeties.

Just missing you.

Took the van in an hour ago to get a tire fixed, cos it had a slow leak. The guy showed me a piece of wire that was in it. And I started thinking about you George. Started thinking how when we did the siding on the back of the house that we needed to find all the nails because you liked to sleep there and I didn't want you getting hurt. And then the tears welled up in my eyes, because you never come to see me. Or do you? And I just don't remember? I miss you so much George and I'm sorry about what happened and that I wasn't there for you when you left us. Please don't be mad at me. I love you and I miss you so, so much. I'd love to see you again - all of you. I wish I could hold you again. I never feel you around me either. Izzy never looks up at the ceiling anymore. Are you all gone now? If you are, I hope that means you're happy. I hope you're with family members who have passed, like my nan, or baba and papa and our two other kids that we never got to meet here on earth.

Anyway, change the subject. The doodles are doing well. They've all lost some weight. They're looking good. Barney's back to jumping on the bed again. He quit for a while because he was so rolly polly. Still eating the new food. Barney just turned seven last Wednesday. Casey's is in a couple weeks. How time flies. They all miss you George. I'm not sure how much they remember you Hunny. I'm sure Izzy does, but the other two - they were only six months when you left us. They still like to sing. Not the same without you though. They love their daily walks. I don't know what we're gonna do when it gets cold though - and when it's dark by 4. They won't like that.

Carly still loves her new Jeep. I keep calling it a van - just to bug her. She has a training course next month. Just a day one. She bought tickets to a Don Williams concert for my birthday, so we have that to go to the night before her birthday. Can you believe our girl is gonna be 20 next month Lily? How time has flown. We have a photo of you and her on the living room wall. You were both so young, maybe four or so. You both looked so happy together. Brought tears to my eyes. Oh how it would be nice to turn back time.

I miss you all so much. Please come visit me some time. Probably will make me sad, but I'd love to see you all - all of you. Been thinking about you too, Bud and Lady. It's been such a long time. I hope you are all so happy wherever you are.

Anyway, I'll talk to you later.

Love you. Forever and ever.

Mum.


Posted by: Monique Aug 24 2015, 08:00 PM

thank you so much for checking on me. it helps tremendously. i'm doing better. it's a process and i have so many hauntings to process and i miss madelynne so much. there was so much good and love in her, that all perished with the sick part of her brain. i have to believe she is happy, loved and safe, free from all the earthly shackles.

i spent some time reading your precious notes to your peeps. i wish there was some magic sign by which you could be assured that love never dies- it just takes on a different form and you have to be ready to receive it. i have no doubt all your precious children are with you and pray they give you signs they are there.

Posted by: lynette Aug 25 2015, 08:41 AM

Thanks Monique for your kind reply. Happy to hear you're feeling better.

Hey Angels.

Have you seen Smokie? I haven't seen him in almost two weeks. I hope he's ok. He doesn't usually disappear for this long. I hope he's not there with you. I know he can be a pain, but I don't want anything bad to happen to him. He's been fighting with Bugger and Twinkle Toes. He's getting old so maybe the other two chased him off. Hope not.

Talk to you later ok babes.

Love you. Mum.

Posted by: lynette Aug 27 2015, 03:33 PM

Hi Angels.

Still haven't seen Smokie. I hope he's not there with you. I hope he's just hiding in the yard somewhere. He's been with us so long, I hate to lose him. I know he's been a git lately, but still love him.

I heard yesterday that there are a few more of you wherever you are. I'm so sorry kitties. But you are in a good place now. You'll be safe for all eternity. I'm so sorry that this had to happen though.

Hey babies. I'm feeling a little blue this afternoon. Not too sure why, but just thought I'd come here and say hi. I would like to be at home right now, snuggling with my beans. I miss you all so much. Even now, after all this time, I still long to hold you all.

I can't believe August is almost over. It'll soon be winter - ugh - hate winter so much.

This day is sooooooooooo long. I wish it was over already.

Oh well, find something to do for another hour and a half. Thank goodness it's Friday tomorrow! At least the weather's supposed to be nice this weekend. Not like last weekend where it rained all weekend and was really cold. Summer's over though, you can feel it in the air. It doesn't matter how warm the temperature gets, there is that crispness in the air now. The days are shorter. It's dark in the mornings. I hate this - summer should be so much longer in this country.

I'm tired today, maybe why that's why I'm feeling the way I am.

Anyway, talk to you all later.

Love you.

Forever and ever - Mum.

Posted by: Monique Aug 27 2015, 03:51 PM

gosh, how unsettling about smokie. i wish he would just come home...

sorry you are feeling blue and tired today. i understand this cycling and having up and down days. winters are hard for me, too. i dread the shorter days even more than the cold. the darkness in the morning and early sundowns make me feel even more isolated than normal. i used to love the cold, as well as rainy, overcast days. after i lived in the south 5 years, that all changed. i still struggle with the humidity of the summers, but all in all have become a fair weather gal.

i hope you feel better soon and that smokie shows up soon!

Posted by: lynette Sep 3 2015, 09:07 AM

Hi Angels.

Still no Smokie. Is he there with you? I hope not. I wish he would come home. I would feel better knowing where he is. I haven't seen Raccoon eyes the last couple days either. I don't know what is with Ruby. She and Raccoon eyes were all lovey-dovey a couple weeks ago, then Ruby started beating her up. Probably chased her away. I don't know why. Raccoon eyes has a baby still to look after. But Ruby is looking after all the kittens. Very weird.

Casey birthday next Tuesday. I can't believe Barney and Casey are seven already. And Izzy eleven. How time flies! We miss you all. George - oh how my heart aches for you. I wish you could home for Casey's birthday. I wish you could come home!

Anyway, talk to you all later. Gotta go.

Love forever and ever. Mum.

Posted by: lynette Sep 5 2015, 02:31 PM

Missing you my darlings. Smokie still hasn't come home. If he's there with you - take care of him and let him know how much we love him.

Love Mum.

Posted by: lynette Sep 13 2015, 01:10 PM

National Pet Memorial Day.

Missing you all so much.

Posted by: Monique Sep 13 2015, 06:59 PM

((((((((((((((hugs))))))))))))))))

Posted by: lynette Oct 16 2015, 10:26 AM

Hi Angels.

Just writing to let you know how much I miss you all and how much I love you. I love you babies and I miss you all so very much.

Love forever and ever, Mum.

Posted by: lynette Oct 19 2015, 01:58 PM

Missing you babies. Wish you could come home.

I love you.

Posted by: Monique Oct 21 2015, 10:31 AM

hi lynette,

just visiting, thinking of you. hope you are doing ok.

xoxo

Posted by: lynette Oct 21 2015, 09:42 PM

Thanks for checking in on me Monique.

Not doing so well this evening. I have six kittens that seem to have lost their mother. They're about 3 weeks or so I figure. When I checked on them Sunday they seemed ok. I took them out of the box they were in. The mother was here on the weekend I'm sure. Came back from a walk with the dogs tonight and heard them crying. When I checked on them, they were all really cold. And obviously hungry. I brought them in the house and managed to warm them up. Tried to feed them, but they really weren't interested. One is not doing as well as the others. I don't know what to do with them. I can't have them in the house. I can't feed them every couple hours during the night. Talk about feeling like a big fat failure. I put them in a laundry basket full of towels and an old coat and put them in the garage. There are other cats in there. I'm hoping they'll jump in and keep them warm. But I'm hoping Duchess will step up and feed them. I'm pretty sure she still has a bit of milk. Whether she will and whether she has enough milk I don't know. If not they're doomed. Life sucks. Big time. It's gonna be cold tonight too, minus 3 celsius. Duchess is not the best mother, but I sure hope she tries. I know I bottle fed some kittens last year, Duchess was one of them. But it was summer then. They could be outside. It's cold now. Why does life have to be so hard all the time?

I miss you guys and I love you. Please watch over them tonight and keep them safe and warm - and alive. Thanks babes.

Love you.


Posted by: Monique Oct 22 2015, 05:10 AM

QUOTE (lynette @ Oct 21 2015, 09:42 PM) *
Thanks for checking in on me Monique.

Not doing so well this evening. I have six kittens that seem to have lost their mother. They're about 3 weeks or so I figure. When I checked on them Sunday they seemed ok. I took them out of the box they were in. The mother was here on the weekend I'm sure. Came back from a walk with the dogs tonight and heard them crying. When I checked on them, they were all really cold. And obviously hungry. I brought them in the house and managed to warm them up. Tried to feed them, but they really weren't interested. One is not doing as well as the others. I don't know what to do with them. I can't have them in the house. I can't feed them every couple hours during the night. Talk about feeling like a big fat failure. I put them in a laundry basket full of towels and an old coat and put them in the garage. There are other cats in there. I'm hoping they'll jump in and keep them warm. But I'm hoping Duchess will step up and feed them. I'm pretty sure she still has a bit of milk. Whether she will and whether she has enough milk I don't know. If not they're doomed. Life sucks. Big time. It's gonna be cold tonight too, minus 3 celsius. Duchess is not the best mother, but I sure hope she tries. I know I bottle fed some kittens last year, Duchess was one of them. But it was summer then. They could be outside. It's cold now. Why does life have to be so hard all the time?

I miss you guys and I love you. Please watch over them tonight and keep them safe and warm - and alive. Thanks babes.

Love you.


oh my goodness! did you put duchess with them and tried to get them to suckle? i pray they will be ok. they desperately need nourishment, even if you can only do it a few times a day... every two hours is really not necessary, but to not feed them at all ... can you leave some goat's milk for them, or kitten formula?

Posted by: lynette Oct 22 2015, 08:09 AM

Hi.

They made it through the night. But I'm pretty sure one of them is not going to make it. The mother showed up last night, but wanted nothing to do with them. So, I think it's safe to say that she has abandoned them. She's a wild one. They were warm this morning, so Duchess must've been with them. I just hope she can feed them. She wasn't around last night when I went to bed. I phoned Carly to take them out of the box and leave them on the ground in front of the window, hoping the stronger ones will find their way to Duchess. Hopefully, they'll still be okay when I get home, and I'll try feeding them again. Nature can be so cruel. Mind you probably my fault their mother left them. I took them out of the box on Sunday and she probably decided that because I'd touched them, they were no good or something.

It's going to be a long day, I'll be worrying about them all day.


Posted by: lynette Oct 22 2015, 08:37 AM

Stuck at work doing nothing when I could be at home taking care of these little guys. How cruel is life? Carly said three of them aren't looking so good, said they were cold again. I didn't touch them all this morning, just the one that I know is probably not going to make it. I'm hoping the stronger ones will find their way to Duchess and hoping she has a bit of milk to keep them going until I get home tonight. I feel so bad, so helpless.

Please angels, watch over them and keep them safe and alive till I can get home and feed them tonight.

I love you all.

Mum.

Posted by: lynette Oct 22 2015, 08:44 AM

Stupid! Stupid! I should've brought them to work with me. They could've stayed in the van and I could've gone out and fed them every few hours. Now I've sentenced them to a slow death because I wasn't thinking. I just wanna cry.

Posted by: Monique Oct 22 2015, 08:55 AM

what a horrible trial on every front! i don't believe touching them, though, causes the mother to abandon them. birds, for ex., ... you can put babies back in the nest or if the nest was destroyed or you cannot reach it, you can put the babies in a makeshift nest near where the parents and/or nest are, and the parents will come back to take care of their babies. i cannot imagine the mom would abandon them because you tried to help. but, if they are in a closed garage, where the mom can't get to them, then she may have given up.

i'm very sorry for all the heartache you are experiencing now.

(((((((((hugs))))))))))

Posted by: Monique Oct 22 2015, 09:01 AM

can carly not feed them? can she put them on a water bottle?

Posted by: lynette Oct 22 2015, 09:03 AM

Hi Monique.

They are not closed up in anyway, she can very easily access them. I put them back where she had them. Just last night though I wrapped them up in some towels. She knew they were there - she could hear them. This morning she was no where to be seen. Duchess was around though. And Ruby. I know Ruby has no milk, but maybe she'll keep them warm. My husband is setting up the heat lamp for them this morning. Should've done that last night but it was pitch black and there's no power out there. Hopefully, if they stay warm, they'll have a chance and still be alive tonight. God I hope so.

Posted by: Monique Oct 22 2015, 09:11 AM

QUOTE (lynette @ Oct 22 2015, 09:03 AM) *
Hi Monique.

They are not closed up in anyway, she can very easily access them. I put them back where she had them. Just last night though I wrapped them up in some towels. She knew they were there - she could hear them. This morning she was no where to be seen. Duchess was around though. And Ruby. I know Ruby has no milk, but maybe she'll keep them warm. My husband is setting up the heat lamp for them this morning. Should've done that last night but it was pitch black and there's no power out there. Hopefully, if they stay warm, they'll have a chance and still be alive tonight. God I hope so.


let's hope their little guardian angels are on the job. xo

Posted by: Monique Oct 22 2015, 09:20 AM

QUOTE (lynette @ Oct 22 2015, 09:03 AM) *
Hi Monique.

They are not closed up in anyway, she can very easily access them. I put them back where she had them. Just last night though I wrapped them up in some towels. She knew they were there - she could hear them. This morning she was no where to be seen. Duchess was around though. And Ruby. I know Ruby has no milk, but maybe she'll keep them warm. My husband is setting up the heat lamp for them this morning. Should've done that last night but it was pitch black and there's no power out there. Hopefully, if they stay warm, they'll have a chance and still be alive tonight. God I hope so.



also, just because the mom was not with them this morning, doesn't mean she has abandoned them. she will leave her babies for hours at a time to get food for herself. so, there is hope if you found them warm this morning...

Posted by: Monique Oct 22 2015, 09:22 AM

btw, who is carly? your daughter? could she give them a little warm water with some honey in it? it could be they are on a sugar low. this will perk them up.

Posted by: moon_beam Oct 22 2015, 09:40 AM

Hi, Lynette, stopping in to say hello and to add my support to Monique's in your efforts to help these precious kittens. I know your beloved companions are looking over them, too. Whatever happens you are doing the best you can for them, and maybe you can guide their mom into the garage so that they will be reunited and she can resume taking care of her babies. Please let us know how things go.

Peace and blessings,
moon_beam

Posted by: lynette Oct 22 2015, 09:42 AM

Carly is my daughter. She's at work all day too, so unfortunately, nobody there to help them till I get home at six. I've never tried honey - will that work?

These kittens were at death's door last night. They were left for more than a couple hours. Something happened. I know they take off for hours at a time to go hunting, but they're usually back to feed them. These cats were cold, very cold. Some of them couldn't even open their eyes. I hope she's around and I hope she goes and feeds them before it's too late. I would like to see some of them survive at least.

Posted by: lynette Oct 22 2015, 09:59 AM

Thanks Moonbeam.

I appreciate your concern and help.


Posted by: lynette Oct 22 2015, 10:32 AM

Two are gone already. My husband tried feeding them, but he said they're cold already. Hopefully, the heat lamp will warm them up.

Posted by: Monique Oct 22 2015, 11:46 AM

QUOTE (lynette @ Oct 22 2015, 10:32 AM) *
Two are gone already. My husband tried feeding them, but he said they're cold already. Hopefully, the heat lamp will warm them up.


i'm so sorry to hear! how heartbreaking.

yes, honey in warm water will help to repair sugar lows. they need to be warmed up before they can be fed.

Posted by: moon_beam Oct 22 2015, 01:22 PM

Hi, lynette, adding my deepest sympathies in the physical loss of two of the kittens. In addition to Monique's assistance here are a couple of other suggestions that might be helpful: If you don't have any honey - - or not enough for everyone - - you can substitute with clear Karo syrup (not the dark). If you have any NutriCal on hand this will also help to boost their sugar levels as well as provide other supplemental nutrients. Kittens this young are extremely vulnerable and even with professional intervention they do not always survive. So please do NOT blame yourself if these precious souls are not strong enough to survive. Please know you and the kittens are in my thoughts and prayers, and please let us know how things are going.

Peace and blessings,
moon_beam

Posted by: lynette Oct 22 2015, 04:13 PM

Well, almost time to go home and see if any of my little kitties survived. I sure hope so. Poor little things.

Posted by: lynette Oct 22 2015, 06:59 PM

So only one has survived. And he was pretty bad, didn't think he'd make it. I brought him in and tried the honey and water remedy. And then a bit of milk. Took the dogs for a walk so wrapped him up and stuck him inside my shirt against my skin. He's warmed up a lot, but now I'm wondering if he'll end up with some brain damage after being hungry for so long. I hope not poor little thing. He's trying. He's started squirming and squealing a bit. I still have him down my shirt. I can't believe the mother is still here and wants absolutely nothing to do with them. Nature sure is cruel.

Posted by: Monique Oct 22 2015, 08:09 PM

QUOTE (lynette @ Oct 22 2015, 06:59 PM) *
So only one has survived. And he was pretty bad, didn't think he'd make it. I brought him in and tried the honey and water remedy. And then a bit of milk. Took the dogs for a walk so wrapped him up and stuck him inside my shirt against my skin. He's warmed up a lot, but now I'm wondering if he'll end up with some brain damage after being hungry for so long. I hope not poor little thing. He's trying. He's started squirming and squealing a bit. I still have him down my shirt. I can't believe the mother is still here and wants absolutely nothing to do with them. Nature sure is cruel.


i am so very sorry for this massive and ongoing upset. i do firmly believe that mother nature has a selection process built in to her design. mothers of all species, except for what i have witnessed with humans, have very strong maternal instincts. for a mother cat to not tend lovingly and conscientiously to her little ones, you can rest assured there is a reason. it is well possible that they have something congenital or maybe distemper and she knows they will not survive. or, with the weather being already well below zero, this is a very unnatural time to have babies, and so by perhaps by some internal signal, she tried to spare her babies from very cruel lives trying to survive a very long and harsh winter.

i am glad you are caring for the lone survivor. he will need lots of warmth, love and care to survive. hearing and feeling your heartbeat simulates his mom's and i'm sure this is helping to stabilize him. if you have access to raw goat's milk, that would be really good for him. oh, and you may have to help him to use the bathroom- have you ever done this? rub his tummy with a warm wash cloth to stimulate him to go...

Posted by: lynette Oct 22 2015, 09:44 PM

Hi Monique.

He seems to be doing well. Moving around and squealing. The bathroom thing - don't have to worry, my dog Casey is taking care of that! He just drank a syringe full of milk. I think he wants his mamma though. Or his siblings. I'm gonna keep him in the house till he's strong enough. I know then that the others will take care of him and perhaps we will have found him a home by then anyway. He sure is a lot better than when I got home. I think he may actually survive.

Goats milk would be better? My parents have goats, but not sure if they have any that are milking. Not sure if they've started kidding yet or not. I can ask them tomorrow. For now, he's getting whole milk. I fed this to Duchess and her siblings last year and they survived.

Anyway, gotta see if I can get this little guy to sleep. He's been awake since six this evening. Been trying to come up with a name for him too.

Thanks for your concern. I hope you are doing well.

Thank you for being there for me.

Lynette

Posted by: Monique Oct 23 2015, 06:56 AM

QUOTE (lynette @ Oct 22 2015, 09:44 PM) *
Hi Monique.

He seems to be doing well. Moving around and squealing. The bathroom thing - don't have to worry, my dog Casey is taking care of that! He just drank a syringe full of milk. I think he wants his mamma though. Or his siblings. I'm gonna keep him in the house till he's strong enough. I know then that the others will take care of him and perhaps we will have found him a home by then anyway. He sure is a lot better than when I got home. I think he may actually survive.

Goats milk would be better? My parents have goats, but not sure if they have any that are milking. Not sure if they've started kidding yet or not. I can ask them tomorrow. For now, he's getting whole milk. I fed this to Duchess and her siblings last year and they survived.

Anyway, gotta see if I can get this little guy to sleep. He's been awake since six this evening. Been trying to come up with a name for him too.

Thanks for your concern. I hope you are doing well.

Thank you for being there for me.

Lynette


that is great all around news! so glad he is doing well. that's what i've heard regarding raw goat's milk,...

take care!

Posted by: moon_beam Oct 23 2015, 12:09 PM

Hi, lynette, thank you so much for sharing with us how your little survivor is doing. I know you are doing everything in your human and humane power to help this little fellow not only survive but have a long, healthy, and happy life. Please know you and this little precious soul are in my thoughts and prayers, and please let us know how things are going.

Peace and blessings,
moon_beam

Posted by: lynette Oct 23 2015, 09:10 PM

Hi.

Charlie just died in my arms. Poor thing. I really thought he might pull through. But I think his lungs filled with fluid, same with his belly. I guess he was just too far gone when I got home last night. I held him and told him I love him and he slipped away. And I cried. Tomorrow I will bury him next to Jewel (who died last year, Duchess' sister). I suppose it's for the best, but I really wanted him to pull through.

Duchess' litter are going to next week. A cousin of my husband's has found them homes. That's a good thing.

Thanks angels for watching over them. Now they are there with you. Take good care of them. Tell them I love them.

I love you all. I miss you so much.

Love forever and ever, Mum.

Posted by: lynette Oct 23 2015, 09:29 PM

Tonight I go to bed crying - again. Too much pain and sadness. I know they were only here for a short while, but still they shouldn't have had to suffer like that. I don't understand how the mother could do that now. Why not when they were born? I thought maybe something had happened to her, but she's still around. I'm not liking her very much right now. And maybe I shouldn't have tried to intervene. Poor Charlie wouldn't have suffered today if I'd left him yesterday. God, I hate this. I really thought he was a fighter. And I know he was, he just was too weak.

Tonight I'm gonna hug the pupper doodles a little tighter and tell them how much I love them - over and over again.

Good night my precious angels. Sweet dreams. I love you.

Mum.

Posted by: Monique Oct 24 2015, 06:52 AM

i am so very sorry to read this news. i really and truly believe they may have had distemper or something else that caused the mom to leave them. please don't feel ill of her. she was following nature's guidance. you may want to trap her and have her vetted (including spay and tested for distemper) so that she is free of having unwanted kittens.

xoxoxo

Posted by: moon_beam Oct 24 2015, 11:23 AM

Hi. lynette, adding my sincerest sympathies in the physical loss of your precious soul Charlie. When I was a very young girl many eons of years ago we had a female cat named Pudgy who had a large litter of kittens. At that time neither of my parents believed much in veterinary care and sadly one of her litters born in the summer died one by one within days of each other. None of them had exhibited any apparent sign of illness, but it was obvious that "something" had gone through the litter of kittens. I was truly saddened by this event - - my other siblings and parents "got over it". Pudgy really didn't have any "motherly" instincts - - but her mom Fluffy did, and there were often times when Fluffy would "scold" her daughter about her lack of attention to her kittens, and Fluffy would do her best to take care of her "grandchildren." Sometimes despite our best efforts, though, Nature understands the "consequences" of our intervention better and steps in to stop a cycle of heartbreak before it gets too advanced. However this doesn't stop our hearts from aching. So, like our forum friend Monique, I can really understand how upset you are about losing this litter of precious souls. You really did everything you could for them.

I hope today is treating you and all of your precious companions kindly, lynette, and that you will have a peaceful evening blessed with each of your beloved companions' sweet Living Spirits to comfort you. Please know you are in my thoughts and prayers, and please let us know how you're doing.

Peace and blessings,
moon_beam

Posted by: lynette Oct 24 2015, 12:50 PM

Thank you both for your thoughts and concerns. It is greatly appreciated.

I know all of this is just part of "farm life". Even though we don't actually farm, the cats are really here only to keep the mouse population down. Doesn't stop me from falling in love with them though. Unfortunately cats come and go here all the time. Sometimes, we're lucky enough to find homes for the new kittens.

I buried Charlie this morning. Next to Lily, George, Mamma, Grey and Jewel. I know he can now be happy and healthy where he is now. As much as I wanted him to survive, I know he's better off wherever he is now. There is no guarantee that we could've found him a home. And being a male, he more than likely would've been chased off when he was older.

Oh well, at least there is some good news - Duchess' four kittens will have a forever home. I'll miss them terribly, but this is the best thing for them. They'll have a long happy life for sure.

I feel okay today. I know this is what is supposed to be. I do not believe in God's will, but I know that nature is survival of the fittest. I also know that nature can be very cruel. And living out in the country this is a part of life.

Anyway, hope you both are doing well today.

Thanks. Lynette.

Posted by: lynette Oct 26 2015, 03:37 PM

Hi Babes.

Smokie - I don't know where you are, but it's time you came home. It's getting really cold out there now. You need to come home. We miss you. How can you just disappear? You've been part of our family for many years.

Love you Smokes - come home.

Mum.

Posted by: lynette Oct 30 2015, 02:31 PM

Happy birthday to you Hunny and Lily for Sunday. Wish you were here though.

Miss you all and love you.

Love forever Mum.

Posted by: lynette Nov 8 2015, 07:05 PM

My dearest Angels.

Mitzy - I can't believe it's been 35 years since you left me. You were my very first love, and I miss you still so very much. You have many for company now. I love you.

Duchess - are you there too? We haven't seen you now for what two weeks? What happened? You never really ever went anywhere. We miss you. Your babies are doing well though.

So much happened around this time of year over the years. Jane you left us right around Halloween. Hunny, Lily it was your birthday November 1st. Mitzy, today you left me 35 years ago. Coming up George, it'll be two years since you left us. God, I miss you all so much. I wish you were here with us.

Casey has been sick since yesterday afternoon. Vomiting a few times. She seems better now, thank goodness. She must've picked up the same kinda thing we all had last week. None of us was feeling well last week. Carly finally started feeling better yesterday. Course, it doesn't help that we hadn't seen the sun for eleven days. It came out yesterday. Gorgeous day today, twelve above. Pretty good for November 8th. Would be nice if it stuck around. Calling for mixed precipitation again Tuesday, Wednesday and Thursday. But then nice for the weekend. Sure hope so. This will make winter a bit shorter.

Anyway, gonna go. I love and miss you all so very much.

Love forever and ever. Mum.

Posted by: lynette Dec 9 2015, 11:50 AM

Morning my precious Angels.

I miss you all so very much. I love you. Christmas will be here soon and I wish you could all be here with us. Seems like such a very long time ago I held you each. Miss you Duchess. Where are you? You too Smokie - I can't believe you left us. After all these years.

Thinking of you all. Love you forever and ever.

Mum.

Posted by: lynette Mar 8 2016, 04:35 PM

Hi my darlings.

Just thinking about you. It's been a couple months since I was here. We have a new addition to our family as you know. Little Linus. The doodles have finally accepted him I think. It took a while, but they seem to have gotten used to him in their faces all the time. Barney is playing with him more and more. I knew Barney would love having a buddy to play with. Izzy doesn't really have much to do with him as far as I can tell, but she's "stuck" puppy sitting him when we're all away. It wasn't supposed to be that way. We had bought a playpen for him to stay in while we were away, but he figured out how to climb over that in two days! Such a little monster! So, Izzy keeps an eye on him every day. She's such a sweetheart. Maybe she babies him. We'll have to set up a camera to see what/if anything happens. Casey, I figured would have the hardest time accepting him and I was right. She will play with him for a few minutes, but she is not very patient with him at all. That's the reason I chose a male. I figured Casey would not accept a female at all.

Not much else happening. Waiting for winter to be over already, even though it was a pretty decent one. The snow has been melting this past week. Tomorrow is supposed to be below zero, but then back up above. Days are pretty long, not much happening at work yet. I have next week off. Time for a break from this place. Corporate fired Billy, so I've had to take over some of his work and of course not get paid for it! Typical of this company. Did get a raise though, bit of an insult really, but I spose it's better than nothing. Would've liked to have gotten something for the work I've already done.

Anyway, I'm gonna go. I'll talk to you all tonight.

I love you so very much and I think about you every single day. I miss you more each day.

Love you Angels.

Forever and ever.

Mum.

Posted by: LittleGirl'sMommy Mar 8 2016, 07:35 PM

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Lucky little Linus to be adopted into your home.

I loved hearing about the antics of him, Barney, Casey, and Izzy, and I'm sure your darling Angels do too.

Kathy
P.S. A video of them taken while you are away is a great idea!

Posted by: lynette Apr 4 2016, 02:48 PM

My dearest Angels.

I can't believe it's been seven years since we had to say "so long" Hunny. There is not a day goes by that I don't think of you and miss you. All of you - I miss you all so very much. Time has certainly flown by. They say time heals the pain, but it doesn't. You just live with it. What else can you do?

Your birthday too this month George.

Not much to write about, just thought I would stop by and write how much I miss you on this seven year anniversary of one of the worst days of my life. God, I miss you all so much.

I love you Angels. Will talk to you all tonight.

Bye for now.

Love Mum.

Posted by: LittleGirl'sMommy Apr 4 2016, 04:12 PM

Hugs to you, wonderful Mum Lynette!!!

Your babies all love you so much.

Posted by: lynette Apr 13 2016, 10:10 AM

My dear precious Angels.

I love you so much. I miss you.

Forever and ever, Love Mum.

Posted by: lynette Jun 24 2016, 12:46 PM

My dearest Lily.

8 years ago today you left us. My heart aches for you like it did that day. I miss you so very much. I wish I could hold you and kiss you again. I love you Lily. I will always love you. It's a sad day today. I hope you are happy - all of you. Never forget how much I love you Lilyfer.

Love forever and ever. God my heart aches so much for you.

Love Mum.

Posted by: lynette Jul 5 2016, 03:40 PM

Hey Angels.

I'm in panic mode now. Just realized that Dad installed the a/c in the living room and wondering if he hid the cable. God I hope so, cos I really don't want Linus chewing on it. Please watch over him and make sure he stays safe (hopefully, it's not too late). I won't be home for a couple hours yet.

It's Izzy's birthday today. She's 12. Can you believe she's been with us 8 years already? How time has flown by. She's doing good.

Please keep Linus safe. Thanks babes. I love you so much. And as always I miss you.

Love forever Mum.

Posted by: lynette Aug 15 2016, 12:49 PM

Hi my Angels.

Hope you're all well. I'm feeling a little blue today. Starting to notice Izzy slowing down. It saddens me so much to think that we don't have much more time left with her. She's 12 now and hopefully she'll have another couple years, god I hope so. She slipped on the stairs a couple weeks ago and hurt herself. She bounced back in a few days, but I've noticed her slowing down the past month or so. I love that little girl so much. She is so precious. I don't want to think about this, but can't seem to stop thinking about it. I know she's bound to slow down, they all do, but maybe cos I had a couple weeks off that I'm noticing this now. It was really hot when dad and I were on holidays, so I think that's why she was tired all the time. But then I have to remind myself that that is what she does anyway, when we're not home. She's doing good. Good spirits, her mind is still good. She loves to go for walks with us all the time. And she can still run. I think she has some arthritis though. Just saddens me to think - and I don't want to think. Just can't seem to get it out of my mind. I'm not ready to say goodbye to this little sweetheart. We've had to carry her up the stairs a few times, but I think she's developed a bit of a fear with them since she slipped. I love her. Please watch over and keep her with us for a few more years. I love her so much.


Everyone else is well. Linus got fixed. Still horny, but hopefully that will fade. Barney's birthday this Friday. I can't believe he and Casey are going to be eight already. Where has the time gone? Carly's 21 next month. Scary how fast time goes.

Anyway I should get back to work. Will talk to you all later. I love you so very much. Please watch over Izzy.

Love you forever and ever.

Love Mum.

Posted by: lynette Aug 15 2016, 12:58 PM

I'm absolutely terrified of losing her.

Posted by: lynette Aug 15 2016, 01:11 PM

Why can't I shake this feeling? I can't bear the thought of losing her. Other than slowing down she seems fine, but why I am even thinking about this?

Posted by: lynette Sep 15 2016, 02:31 PM

Hi my angels.

Izzy is fine. I don't know why I was panicking last time. You know how I am though. She still stumbles on the stairs once in a while, but she's okay.

Dumper is not though, or he won't be. I feel so bad for him. He bit Carly Sunday before last. She went up to the hospital, got antibiotics and a tetanus shot. But Gramp is gonna send him your way. This is the third time, I know of, that he has bitten someone. I think it's four actually. Carly's okay and she doesn't blame Dumper. Brit and Spot were growling at each other when he was there and she thinks he got confused. Either way, poor Dumper will be joining you in the next couple days. It breaks my heart. Although I don't trust him, and never have, it's not his fault he's that way. Gramp never socialized him properly when he was a pup. He put him out with the goats and that's where he had to stay. I think they could work on him, but you know how gramp is. Dumper is no longer of any use. He's about eight and they think he doesn't see too well. Poor thing. I don't trust him around our dogs, but he doesn't deserve to die. I say retire him. Maybe he could find a nice retirement home where someone would love him.

So, just a head's up, poor Dumper will be there soon. Carly said gramp was giving him 14 days. He couldn't do anything before now, because he had to wait ten days (rabies). I hope he'll be happy there with you. And hopefully, he won't be such a threat to anyone. He deserves to be happy and loved. He hasn't had much of that in his life.

Anyway, love you all. Carly's birthday today, 21 already, can you believe it?

Talk to you all later.

Love forever and ever. Mum.

Posted by: lynette Sep 20 2016, 08:26 AM

Dearest Angels.

As you know Dumper is unfortunately there with you now. At least I hope he's with you guys. He needs a lot of love. He's been neglected in that area most of his life. Poor guy. I know he's done some bad things, but hopefully, now he'll be really happy and won't hurt anyone. Please give him lots of love.

Dumper - I'm really, really sorry. No one ever wanted this to happen. You'll be happy there. You won't have to worry about your goats and you can play and have lots of fun now. I know you were never allowed to before because you had to work all the time. And you'll get lots and lots of love there Dumper. You deserve it. I know we didn't see eye to eye, Dumper, but I still loved, love you. We will meet again someday. Till then Dumper, you have a great time. I'm so, so sorry. Dumper September 17, 2016.

Love you all.

Love Mum.

Posted by: lynette Nov 21 2016, 08:52 PM

Hi my precious angels.

Hi George. I can't believe tomorrow is three years since you left us. I miss you like it was yesterday. And I still have so many regrets. I should never had clipped your nails the night before. I should've made you go in the house that morning or at least made you go inside the fence. I miss you so much George. I miss all of you guys.

How are you doing Dumper? I hope you're happy. Lucy still misses you a lot. She is such a sweetie. She is so lost without you.

I'm tired today, had a rough day. I started a new job five weeks ago. Yes, after 18 years I quit!! Hard to believe eh? It's been ok, but this morning was so very stressful and I wished I hadn't taken this job now. There is so much to learn and no one to show me anything.

But that's not why I'm here now. I wanted to say I love you and miss you George. I wish you were here. I wish I could hug and kiss you George. I miss you so very much. I miss all of you. Linus is so much like you sometimes George.

Everyone is ok. Well, sort of. Carly has been sick for over a week with the flu. Dad had it too. Izzy was sick about a month ago too. I think she overate, she was throwing up everywhere. I've never seen any of you be so sick before. Then for the past week and a half her arthritis has been seriously bothering. At least I think she has arthritis. I know she's always had issues with her front paw, but something is going on with her back left leg. I was going to take her to the vet last week, but he was in the office, so I asked him and he said to give her Aspirin. She's better, not crying in pain, but still not a hundred percent. She has another two days of Aspirin, after that we'll see what's next. She may have to go on something stronger. Poor little baby. She turned 12 this summer.

Anyway, gonna go now. Love you forever and ever babies. Talk to you tonight.

Love Mum.

Posted by: lynette Dec 16 2016, 06:53 PM

My dear Angels.

I miss you so very much today. I miss you every day but today I miss you more than usual. Linda, a new friend from work, had to say goodbye to her little baby today. Snoop was crossing the Rainbow Bridge sometime this afternoon. I never met little Snoop, but my god this hurts. Maybe it just brings up old memories and feelings or perhaps I'm just hurting because I know what Linda's going through. And such a crappy day at work today, that doesn't help. God I miss you all. She just retired and now she won't get to spend those precious moments with Snoop. He was about 15, a good long life, but still very hard.

I wish you were all here with me today. How great it would be if you could all be here for Christmas with us. That would be the best gift ever. I love you guys.

Talk to you tonight. Love you forever and ever, Mum.

Posted by: lynette Dec 25 2016, 12:15 AM

Merry Christmas Angels.

Love you all.

Love Mum.

Posted by: lynette Mar 3 2017, 02:18 PM

Hi my precious Angels.

Hope you're all well. I miss you.

Dozer - I'm so very sorry. I don't understand how Dad can just do what he did. You're in a better place. You deserve better than him. You are in very good company there.

Gonna miss you big guy. You are such a sweet heart. Love you Dozer. Will talk to you later. I didn't know you were gone till last night. I'm so sorry.

Hey guys, take care of Dozer. I know he's bigger than each of you, but he's still a young boy. I'm so mad and upset that Dad/Gramp did that.

I love you all and I miss you so very much. Every one is well. Even Izzy is doing a lot better.

Take care angels. Will talk to you all tonight.

Love forever and ever, Mum.

Posted by: lynette Apr 14 2017, 07:15 PM

Hi my precious angels.

Hope you are all well. I had a dream about Bud and Lady last night. You guys didn't look like you did when you were here, but it was so nice to see you anyway. I dreamt you were lost for a couple of months, but then I found you at a shelter and I tried very hard to convince them that you were mine. They finally let me take you home. God, I miss you. I miss all of you.

I just wanted to write this down before I forgot, not that I ever want to, but usually I don't remember my dreams.

I love you all. So very much. I'll talk to you all tonight ok babes.

Love forever and ever, Mum.

Posted by: lynette Dec 30 2017, 10:39 AM

Good morning my precious Angels.

It's been a while since I've written on here, but doesn't matter because I talk to you every night. I miss you all so much and I will love you all for all eternity.

Just wanted to stop by and write something here since it's been a while.

The pups are doing well. Izzy's getting old - poor thing. She's been on medication now for a year for her liver function. She's got a few fatty lumps and bumps. She's getting around pretty good. This time last year, I really didn't think she'd be with us much longer - she was so sick. But she's doing ok. Hopefully, we have a few more years with her here on earth. Barney and Casey are good too. Casey's sitting up on the back of the chair. She started doing that a few months ago, never ever did that before. I think it's the golden paste that they get three times a day. That stuff is what has given Izzy a new lease on life. Linus turned two at the beginning of December. He's such a sweetheart. The others won't play with him much though. Poor thing. You guys would love him. He is so much like you George. Sometimes, I think he's you reincarnated. If that's the case, then I believe you would be soooooooo very happy. Because he's smaller, he gets to do the things that you weren't always able to do, like sitting on us. He takes his food to go, just like you did. He runs like you, he chases the goats and cows away from the fence - just like you did. You'd love him George.

Carly's been sick. Just getting over a really bad cold - again. We had quite the scare end of October. I found her passed out in her room, had to call an ambulance. They think she may have had a seizure. So, she's had a CT and MRI scan - all came back normal. Just waiting to see a neurologist now. Hopefully she'll get some answers, but hoping it's nothing serious. Aunty Andrea has seizures too. She's off to a funeral today. Her buddies niece passed away before Christmas, 38 - cancer. That cancer sure sucks!!

Dad's good - he's been sick too. It's so cold here right now. We hit -35 overnight. And only a high of -28 today. Not sure if I will be taking the pups out for a walk later or not. Guess I'll see how cold it feels later.

Anyway my darling Angels, I will talk to you tonight. I love you and I miss you.

Love forever and ever, Mum.

Posted by: lynette Aug 8 2018, 08:32 AM

Hi my precious Angels.

It has been quite a long while since I've written here. Things are not good - as you know. Barney is very sick and we really don't know how much longer we have with him. His kidneys are full of tumours and his belly is filled with fluid. He's on medication and hoping so much that will help with the fluid in the belly. There is nothing we can do for the tumours now so it is just a matter of time before he meets you guys there. It is so sad. He was at the vet yesterday and he has that same look you had when you went a month before you left us Hunny. He knows of course, so do the others. He is so so tired. He can't get comfortable I guess and he's trying to sleep sitting up. I don't know how I'm going to handle losing him. He still has a good appetite but will only eat his stew and whatever treats we give him. He won't eat dry food unless I soak it in water and even then - not always. He's lost so much weight. I was going to bring him to work this morning, but changed my mind cos he's so tired, he needs to rest. He hasn't slept well since last Thursday night. My heart hurts, I'm numb from all of this. I can't understand how he got so sick so fast. A month ago he went in for a dental, to have a bad tooth removed and the vet told me he had 2 cysts on his kidneys. But she said tests showed he had protein in his urine, but not enough to put him on medication. And now just a month later he's so sick. How did this all happen so fast. She also told me he had laryngeal paralysis. I was looking for a vet to perform that surgery. I had no idea his kidneys were this bad. And now.....I'm planning his funeral. Well, trying not to think about it, but it keeps crossing my mind. Do we bury him next to Lily and George or do I have him cremated and keep him next to you Hunny? The plan had been to bury your ashes next to Lily, but I just can't bring myself to do that - even now.

I love you guys so much. I love Barney. I don't want him to leave. Praying that the medication kicks in soon so that he can at least rest and be comfortable for a while. The medication is supposed to help remove the fluid in is belly. I so hope it works soon. Otherwise I will be begging the vet to drain it manually. I know it won't buy us time or cure him, but I hope he can at least have a few more months with us and be somewhat comfortable.

I'll come back later and write again.

Love you all - please watch over Barney.

Love forever and ever - Mum.

Posted by: lynette Aug 14 2018, 08:47 AM

Hey guys.

Barney left yesterday afternoon - did he make it there ok? I miss him so much.

Barney - how ya doing Bean? Miss you so much already. But I know you're feeling better again. I'm so sorry this happened. I wanted so much to make it all go away and for you to be healthy again. I know you tried your hardest but it just wasn't to be. Don't worry about us - we'll be ok in time. We know you're back to yourself again. It was so hard to watch you these past few days. My heart is aching for you and is shattered into a million pieces. We will be together again Bean. When my time comes we will be together and we'll spend the rest of eternity together. For now play with your brothers and sisters and give them all a giant hug from us. Love you Barney. Forever and Ever. Love Mum. Will talk tonight and the rest of my life. I hope you got all the sleep you needed. I know you were so, so very tired Barney.

Posted by: moon_beam Aug 16 2018, 02:02 PM

Hi, Lynette, please permit me to offer you my sincerest sympathies in the physical loss of your beloved Barney. I know so very well from first hand experience how much your heart is aching and the void that is in your life without your beloved Barney's sweet physical presence with you. The comfort is knowing that he is now restored to his former youthfulness in the company of the angels and his family members, and is patiently waiting for your appropriate time to join him in eternal joy. When that day arrives your reunion will be as if you had never been separated. Until then you are honored to be his heir to his eternal love - - for nothing in heaven or on earth can ever sever the love bond you and your beloved Barney share.

I hope today, and every day, is treating you kindly, Lynette, and that you will have peaceful evenings blessed with the sweet Living Spirits of each of your beloved companions. Please know you are in my thoughts and prayers, and that I always look forward to knowing how you're doing.

Peace and blessings,
moon_beam

Posted by: lynette Aug 20 2018, 12:23 PM

Thank you for your very kind words Moonbeam.

It was his birthday yesterday, would've been 10. Very difficult day for all of us.

Posted by: lynette May 8 2019, 03:39 PM

Hi my darlings,

It's been a long time since I was here. I can't believe how time has flown by since you left us Barney. I miss you every single day.

Bad news - for us - good for you I guess. As you know Lucy went to be with you yesterday. Poor Lucy - such a sweet soul. I found her last night in the cat garage. Good job I checked to see if the cats needed food. She was in there - not sure why. But poor Lucy. Gramp says she was 15, so she had a good long life. Sure going to miss her.

I love you all and miss you all so much. Lucy - you are with angels now and you have so many loving siblings and relatives there. I love you Lucy and will miss you. Till we meet again sweet girl.

Love Mum.

Posted by: lynette Oct 4 2019, 11:37 AM

Hi my darlings.

God I miss you all so much. Awful news. Izzy is not doing well. I think she'll be joining you very very soon. She didn't want anything for breakfast this morning. She ate last night though - not a lot. I left her sleeping in her spot by the window this morning. Dad got home an hour ago and said she was still sleeping there. I miss her already. She has kidney failure and her body is no longer making red blood cells. She's 15 as you know so old age has finally caught up to her. I can't believe just 5 or 6 weeks ago she was fine. She tried jumping on the sofa, but fell and since then she's been going downhill. I honestly thought she hurt her leg. Poor thing. This hurts every time one of you leaves me. I'm going home at lunch time to see her. Dad is already there so we may have to make that decision to let her go today. I do not want her to suffer. Her breath smells really bad - supposedly the toxins from her kidneys not removing them anymore. I'll see how she is when I go home. Maybe she'll eat something. When it's time for her to join you guys, please, please come down and get her and take her home with you. I can't bear the thought of not having her around anymore. She's been with us for 11 years now.

I love you all so much and I miss you like crazy. I'll talk to you all tonight.

Love forever and ever, Mum.

Posted by: moon_beam Oct 9 2019, 01:44 PM

Hi, Lynette, thank you so much for sharing with us how your precious Izzy and you are doing. I'm so very sorry she's now transitioning from her earthly journey with you and your husband. I do so understand how painful this reality is for you, Lynette. Please let us know how your precious Izzy and you are doing.

As you may be aware, the L S Administrator is "sunsetting" the Forums effective January 1, 2020, so we won't have the opportunity to post here in the Forums when that happens. I want you to know that even though we won't be able to keep in touch in the Forums please know you will frequently be in my thoughts and prayers. It has been an honor and a privilege to be a part of this wonderful Forum and to hopefully be a source of comfort, support, and encouragement to you, Lynette.

Once again, I am keeping your precious Izzy and you in my thoughts and prayers, and please let us know how you're doing.

Peace and blessings,
moon_beam

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