Sunday December 9th 2012 I lost my beautiful little boy Gizy. Two large-breed dogs without the leash attacked him, I tried to protect him by covering him with my body but the injuries he received were too much to handle for his little gentle body.
Gizy was a tiny 17-months old Papillon only 12 pounds. He was the sweetest little boy and the best furry son mommy can wish for. I miss him so much… Every day it is a battle for me to survive without him.
He was my child, my silly little boy who loved me unconditionally and followed me around the house like a little tail.
He was full of energy! He loved to played hide and seek; he loved to steal my socks and make me chase him around the house; he loved cottage cheese and boiled eggs…
He was extremely smart. When we brought him home at the age of 2.5 months he was fully patty trained! The fluffy little ball asked to go outside where the grass was taller than him.
In his dog training school he was the fastest to learn commands and comply with orders. I was such a proud mom!
We did everything together and now I feel like a part of me was taken away… I can’t stop crying.
I keep fresh flowers right next to his little leather couch where I put his photograph and his toys.
I bought a “Name your own Star” package so now there is a beautiful bright star shining in the sky under the name GIZY.
I will be delivering food to the nearest dog shelter, making donations in the name of Gizy…
I don’t know how long it will take for this to get easier… At this time I take it day by day…
I love you Gizy with all my heart and I will miss you forever!
You are the best little baby and I am glad I got to spoil you!
Love,

Mommy

Hi, Gizy's Mom, please permit me to offer you my sincerest sympathies in the physical loss of your beloved Gizy. Losing a companion is never easy regardless of the circumstances or how long we are blessed with the privilege of their company. Losing a companion so very young and under horrific tragic circumstances intensifies the grief.

Gizy's Mom, this grief journey is filled with many different emotions that can overwhelm us all at one time - - it is frequently referred to as a horror roller coaster ride. This journey is one that can only be traveled one day at a time, sometimes one moment at a time in your own way and in your own time. It is a journey that will not be reconciled in an hour, a day, a week, a month - - or even 6 months - - for it is now a journey of enduring all the "first withouts" and the "this time yesterday, last week, last month, last year" - - and with each memory it will feel like your heart is breaking anew. It is a very painful journey of adjustment to the physical absence of your beloved Gizy - - both emotionally and physically.

The good news in the midst of this painful journey is that the love bond you and your beloved Gizy share is eternal. It is not restricted to the physical laws of time and space. Your beloved Gizy continues to share your earthly journey as he always has and always will. His sweet Living Spirit is always and forever a part of you, for you and you alone are blessed with the privilege of being his Forever Mom. You are the beneficiary of his eternal love, and to the blessing of the many treasured memories of his all too brief earthly journey. He is always and forever a heartbeat close to you.

I know there are no adequate words in any language that can soothe the seering pain of sorrow that is in your heart. I can only hope and pray that the words I share with you will somehow be able to offer you some measure of comfort, support, encouragement, and hope as you travel your grief adjustment journey. One of the many things you need to reember is that you are not alone in your journey. Each of us here do understand what you are going through, and we are here for you for as long and as often as you need us.

Thank you so much for sharing your beloved Gizy with us, Gizy's Mom. Perhaps sometime you will feel up to sharing a picture of him with us - - but only when / if you want to. Please know you are in my thoughts and prayers, and please let us know how you're doing.

Peace and blessings,
moon_beam

Thank you for the words of comfort...
I attached Gizy's picture and with time I will post some more pictures of my beautiful baby.
Love,
Gizy's mom

Hi, Gizy's Mom, thank you so much for sharing your beloved Gizy's picture with us. What a sweet adorable boy he is!! I know from experience how painful it can be looking at pictures when the pain of deep grief is still so very new. We will look forward to sharing your treasured memories and wonderful pictures of your beloved Gizy as you feel up to sharing them with us.

I hope today is treating you kindly, Gizy's Mom, and that you will have a very peaceful evening blessed with your beloved Gizy's sweet Living Spirit to comfort you. Please know you are in my thoughts and prayers, and please let us know how you're doing.

Peace and blessings,
moon_beam

Gizy's Mom, my heart goes out to you over the loss of your sweet, precious Gizy. Such a cute, loving little face! And he was only so young and you lost him in such a tragic way. I am so sorry for your loss. Gizy gave you so much love and brought you so much joy and fun. I know it must hurt so much. We, the people here on this board, understand. We have all at one time or another gone through losing a beloved companion animal. We know how painful it is, how it tears you up inside, and I know it must be especially hard at Christmas time. I hope that you have the comfort and support of loving friends to help you through your grief.

Hugs,
DannysMom

Thank you DannysMom.
I have some support from friends and family but my baby and I were so close, he was mine! He waited for me at the door smiling when I got home! He was momma's little boy. I don't have children and he was my son, the son I never had. It is so painful to have to live without him. I wish there was something I could do, I would do anything to get him back.
God help me... It hurts so much ((

Hi Gizy's mom,
First off, I am so sorry for the loss of your sweet Gizy. I have'nt been able to write about my own recent loss yet because I can't find the words, but I felt I should reply to your post because I am all too familiar with the pain of losing a companion in such a tragic way. Seven years ago my boy Kodiac (a 16 month old chocolate pomeranian) was attacked by a neighbors large aggresive dog that ran into our yard. He was killed right in front of my dad who was watching him while I was out of town for one night. I had been calling home often to check on him and when my mom answered the phone but couldn't speak my heart went in my throat. That phone call was the worst day of my life.

I still wonder sometimes how I survived the pain, it felt like it should have killed me it hurt so much. But I have learned to live with the hurt, for me time is the only thing that helps. I can only be thankful he was in my life even if it wasn't long enough, he was so special, what you said about your Gizy reminded me so much of him. The dog I haven't been able to talk about is Jack, also a Pomeranian. I lost him almost four months ago in a horrific way and I can't find the words or courage to tell his story, I can't see through the tears. The guilt and the replaying in my mind brings me to my knees. I have to keep reminding myself he is not in pain now, he can't suffer again and I loved him as much as humanly possible.

Gizy sounds like he was very muched loved. We would move heaven and earth to protect our babies, but sometimes things happen that are beyond our control, it leaves us feeling so helpless. I just wanted to let you know you are not alone, everyone here has somebody they are missing and understand your pain. You will be in my thoughts and prayers tonight.

Take care of yourself,
Kodi and Jack's mom

Thank you PomMom,

I am so very sorry about your little babies.
I found this web site because I needed to talk to someone who knew and felt my emotional pain... It seems like a lot of people don't understand how hard our baby's death can hit us. I got grey hair since my baby left me... I don't care if I eat or not during the day, I lost the feeling of being hungry. I can't sleep and have to take pills to help me at night. This is such a deep emotional trauma I can't describe. That's why I am on this website connecting to other moms and dads that love their fluffy children with all their hearts just like I do.
I hear people tell me to stay strong, but how can I when my son, my little baby boy, my gorgeous little pumpkin is not with me?!

I can't describe how much I miss you Gizy! Mommy loves you with all her heart!

Gizy's Mom, I can understand how you feel. I don't have children either, and I love my little cats dearly. They are my best friends. Sometimes angels have four paws and are covered with fur!

I know this will be a sad Christmas for you as you are in the beginning of your grief journey. It will get easier as time goes by, but the hole in the heart remains and the love we have for our departed little friends is always there.

It is so sad that the owner of those dogs who attacked your little Gizy didn't put them on a leash. Has the person at least apologized to you for what happened and is anything being done about it? I know it won't bring your Gizy back, but maybe it will help prevent something like this from happening again.

Has the person at least apologized to you for what happened and is anything being done about it? I know it won't bring your Gizy back, but maybe it will help prevent something like this from happening again.



He took off before the police got there... Terrible. In this case I believe in karma and wish he pays for taking my baby away from me, causing so much pain and tears.

Hi, Gizy's Mom, thank you so much for sharing with us how you're doing, and the wonderful picture of your beloved Gizy at the shore. Another cherished memory to treasure for both you and your beloved Gizy.

Please let me try to offer you some reassurance that the physical symptoms you are feeling are very normal deep grief - - loss of appetite, difficulty sleeping, inability to concentrate, feeling disconnected from the daily routines and other people - - and perhaps even more. Grieving the physical loss of your beloved Gizy is one of the most painful experiences you will know on this side of eternity both emotionally and physically. Grieving takes a lot of energy, and can also inhibit your immune system. It is very, very important that you try to eat something even if it's just a cup of broth several times throughout the day. You can become seriously dehydrated, which might require emergency medical intervention, and I know this is not something your beloved Gizy wants for you.

As for "staying strong" - - this is not the time for you to try to be strong. I know what it is like to have to put on what I call the "public face" to get through the hours of a job, and being ever so thankful for the privacy of the restroom where I could retreat for a few moments so that I could regain my composure and return to my desk to continue on with my work. I remember the drives home with the floodgates of uncontrollable gut-wrenching sobbing - - a release from having to "be strong" during the hours at work. I remember walking the aisles at the store and sobbing from the reality that I no longer needed to get a particular food or treat or toy anymore. It is imperative that you allow yourself the opportunities you need to openly grieve for your beloved Gizy - - it is essential for both your physical and emotional health.

Gizy's Mom, this grief journey can make us feel so isolated and alone even though we may have other people in our lives. Once again please let me reassure you that you are among friends here who truly do understand what you are going through, and we are here for you, with you, and beside you through step of your grief journey.

Thank you so much for sharing your beloved Gizy with us. I hope today is treating you kindly and that you will have a peaceful evening blessed with your beloved Gizy's sweet Living Spirit to comfort you. Please know you are in my thoughts and prayers, and please let us know how you're doing.

Peace and blessings,
moon_beam

I have this desire to run away and hide from everybody… I don’t want people to ask me questions about Gizy, it hurts so much being reminded all the time… I just want to crawl under my blanket and cry…

Christmas is coming and the scary feeling of loneliness is growing in my heart.

Gizy, momma wants to put your Santa outfit on you with the hat I just bought a few weeks ago. I want you to find your Christmas gifts under the tree like you did last year… Oh what a mess you made shredding the wrapping papers into pieces! It was so enjoyable to watch you have so much fun!

I love you my sweet pea, you were my best gift from God.

Miss your beautiful face!

Hi Gizy's mom,
I know what you mean about not being able to eat or sleep. I had to take something for anxiety and sleeping for awhile, I just couldn't control my emotions and didn't want to. These days I do a lot of crying in private because I spend so much time trying to put on that public face. My husband and I are self employed, today a man came into our shop and mentioned how the neighbor had hit his dog and left him in the road, and how devasted he is. I tried to sympathize and explain how I just lost my baby. I completely broke down in front of him, the tears welled up and I had to turn away. We can only do the best we can during times like these. Unfortunately, not everyone gets to experience that special bond with an animal that some of us do, so it's impossible for them to understand how much it hurts to lose them. Right now you have to do whatever it takes to get through each day. I would take physical pain over this torture any given time, I wish there was a way to make the hurt stop.

Thinking of you -
PoMom

p.s. I truly believe we will be reunited one day, until then there is a hole in our hearts.

Hi PomMom, I agree with you, I would rather accept physical pain that emotional.
I feel so sad for the gentleman who just lost his doggie under the wheels of his neighbor... I am so sick and tired that we loose our babies to stupidity and carelessness of others. My baby would have still be with me if one selfish idiot didn't let his dogs loose in a public place.

I am sorry but I have some mixed feeling, anger is one of them... It makes me sick that people don't act responsibly. I, the mom of my baby, took the best care of my son, all shots in a timely manner, god forbid he was sneezing - took him to the vet immediately, it's cold - Gizy wears a sweater, the best food possible, vitamins, the best toys, got him a baby swimming pool for the summer time. He went to the doggie training school to make sure he is safe, listens when I call him, stays away from the road etc. ... My life was my baby and he had all the best! How could some ignorant person take all that away?

I am helpless here, I can only grief and cry...

Hi, Gizy's Mom, thank you so much for sharing with us how you're doing. Right now, and for some time yet to come, all you can do is grieve and cry for your beloved Gizy. We live in a physically oriented world governed by the five senses of sight, sound, taste, touch, and smell. Every time our companions touch us, rub against us, lick / kiss us they are literally chemically imprinting themselves onto us so that they can identify us out of the millions of people on this planet. When they precede us to the angels, we literally experience a physical withdrawal from this bonding, and it is very painful - - both physically and emotionally. Clinical professionals recognize that the first year of a grief adjustment journey is very traumatic. Scientific studies prove that the tears we cry are literally healing tears as they literally wash the toxins out of the body that accumulate with the stress of grief. One of our correspondents wrote that our tears are collected by our beloved companions who transform them into diamonds to become a part of our crowns of glory which they will give to us when it is our appropriate time to join them in eternal joy. Diamonds are precious jewels that reflect the prism of eternal love we share with our beloved companions. So go ahead and cry, Gizy's Mom. I promise you one day when you least expect it you will find yourself thinking of your beloved Gizy and you will find yourself smiling - - truly smiling - - and your heart will once again feel warmed by the treasured memories you and your beloved Gizy share - - even though there may still be a mist come to your eyes. I promise you, Gizy's Mom, one day in your own time the deep crushing seering pain of sorrow will not be quite so intense.

I hope today is treating you kindly, Gizy's Mom, and that you will have a peaceful evening blessed with your beloved Gizy's sweet Living Spirit to comfort you. Please know you are in my thoughts and prayers, and please let us know how you're doing.

Peace and blessings,
moon_beam

Thank you everyone for the kind words of support... It is absolutely heartbreaking when we loose our furry children... I am thankful for this forum where I get to meet and talk to the moms and dads that know exactly how I feel right now.

Today is one of those day (again) where the emotional pain is unbearable... I am writing to my sweet baby and posting it on here... Hope my little angel will hear my words.


My sweet baby boy Gizy,

I miss you terribly today…
Tomorrow is Christmas Eve and the thought of you not being here elevates my pain to indescribable heights.
I want to tell you so much while gazing into your beautiful eyes! I want to squeeze your fluffy little gentle body and kiss your cold wet nose and your oversized ears.
I miss our “mommy and son” time so much my sweet boy. Just you and me sitting on the couch together watching TV; walking around the lake; practicing your favorite tricks such as “rollover”, “sit”, “high five”, “place”, “put all your toys in the basket”… You are the most intelligent little munchkin I have had a pleasure of loving and I am so proud to call myself "Gizy's mom"!

Baby, my beautiful little cutie, you are the best thing that happened to me!
My gorgeous little man, mommy loves you so much. I miss you sweetie!
Kisses

Hi, Gizzy's Mom, thank you so much for sharing with us how you're doing and your beautiful love note to your beloved Gizy. This time of festivity advertised as the "most wonderful time of the year" can in reality be the "most horrible time of the year" when our hearts are burdened with deep sorrow. I truly wish there were some miraculous words I could share with you that would take this horrible pain from you, but unfortunately I do not know of any. I hope and pray that somehow you will feel comforted in knowing that your beloved Gizy's sweet Living Spirit is always with you in your heart and your memories - - he is always and forever a heartbeat close to you.

I hope today is treating you kindly, Gizy's Mom, and that you will have a peaceful evening blessed with your beloved Gizy's sweet Living Spirit to comfort you. Please know you are in my thoughts and prayers, and please let us know how you're doing.

Peace and blessings,
moon_beam

Thank you moon-beam,

I am crying my eyes out today... I wrote Gizy a Christmas Card and put it on his little couch next to his photo. I also put his Santa hat so he can wear it when he comes to visit mommy in her sleep.

I miss you so much my baby boy!
Merry Christmas my sweet pumpkin and I hope you have a happy time up in heaven.

Love,

Your mommy

This is my baby boy Gizy last Christmas opening his presents.
Merry Christmas sweetie, mommy loves you.

This picture was taken a few weeks ago...
Gizy napping under the Christmas tree after he helped mommy to decorate it.
Love you sweet boy!