Our First Full Day W/o Molly

We had to put our beloved Molly to sleep yesterday. She was 11+ years old and was diagnosed with CRF a little over a month ago. We had hoped that through diet and medicine to keep the disease at bay for at least a few more months, but unfortunately the rate progression was very fast. After watching here lose 7 pounds, getting weaker everyday and being unable to stay hydrated we knew that soon the end stage was near. It broke our hearts to see her this way and after two days of agonizing over the decision to put her to sleep, we watched as the vet put our beloved Molly to rest.

It has been much harder to deal with than I ever imagined. I didn't want her last moments to be that of fear, but unfortunately Molly's experiences at the vet were not all that positive, so she was very scared to be there. I feel so guilty right now for how she died, but watching her deteriorate each day was taking a toll on the whole family. I thought that knowing that she was no longer suffering would comfort me, but unfortunately the pain of losing her is overwhelming.

I am home today and Molly's brother Ted is searching the house for her and meowing. They have been togther since birth and I just watching Ted look for Molly hurts even more. We are blessed to have Ted and will enjoy his love and affection as long as we can, but I am not sure I will ever be able to look at Ted and not think of Molly (nor would I want to). I look forward to the day when I can think of Molly and not cry.

Dave