My Beautiful Luna, Lost my 12 yr old today, im so upset Options

[olly41]

I am so upset. I feel so guilty and upset. My Rodgehan Ridgeback/Rottweiler cross was beautiful. She was so loving and playful and the most amazing dog. She has never been ill. We have been so lucky.

Last Feb she got a Uniary tract infection and we cleared it with anti biotics.

In January I was sure i saw a bit of blood in the wee. But then never saw it again and the wee did not smell. So I left it.

However, last week she started with a limp so made an appointment for Monday (today) to get her checked as her wee was smelling and she was weeing inside. Like last time. However, Sunday 9am, she could not walk and she collapsed in the mud in the garden. She just lay there all day in front of fire. We rang vets and they couldnt send anyone out as she didnt sound in pain. So my partner and me looked after her.

I decided to sleep downstairs to keep her company last night. My partner got cuddles of her and then went to bed. As he went up stairs she cuddled up to my chest in my make shift bed but watched him go up.

I then had cuddles and turned TV off to sleep.

1 hour later I woke up and she was lifeless. I started to shout her and shake her not hard , I saw movement her legs went up then down.

Im now guilty i didnt get her seen too and also I caused her to shock when I woke up, though m,y partner said she was cold and waited for us to go to sleep to pass away.

Im so upset and miss her so much.

My tribute: https://www.kizoa.com/Movie-Maker/d17197030...o1/luna-tribute

Thanks
Peter

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[Muffins]

Dear Peter:

Please accept my deepest condolences at the unexpected passing of your precious and beautiful fur child, Luna
In my opinion, animals are the perfect beings - including your sweet Luna.

I know the awful heartbreaking pain of losing a furry family member, so please know that my thoughts and prayers are with you and your partner. (((((HUGS)))))
It sounds to me that you did everything you could for your precious girl, though, that never makes your heartbreaking pain go away,

The tribute you made for Luna was absolutely beautiful It’s easy to see how very, very much she was loved. Thank you for sharing her tribute with us.

Peter, please know that the feelings you are going through right now - they are all 100% normal. It’s normal to be very sad, it’s okay to be angry, it’s perfectly acceptable to cry. I shed an ocean of tears when each of my kids went to the Bridge. There are so many emotions that you will most likely go through after losing your sweet girl - and that’s part of grieving. It truly is a process. Please know that I’m here for you, as well as the wonderful members here at Lightning-Strike.

In my heart, I know that Luna loved you and your partner with every fiber of her being. Even though she is not here on earth, she is still with you, in your heart, and she will forever be. It’s my belief that because animals are really the perfect beings, after they leave us, they go to a beautiful place called Rainbow’s Bridge. They are no longer sick or in pain - they are in Paradise, with other precious beings who have gone on before.

Keeping you and yours in my prayers.

Denise

[moon_beam]

Hi, Peter, please permit me to add my sincerest sympathies in the physical loss of your beloved Luna. Losing a companion is never easy regardless of the circumstances or how long we are blessed with the privilege of their company. I hope you can find some comfort in knowing that your beloved Luna transitioned from this earthly realm in the place she loves the most - - her Forever Home embraced in the love of her Forever Dad and family.

Peter, this grief journey is one of the most painful experiences you will know on this side of eternity. It is a journey that is filled with many different emotions that can overwhelm us all at one time which is why it is frequently referred to as a horror roller coaster ride. One of the many emotions we all experiences is guilt / remorse for this comes from looking back and trying to reconcile all the whys, what ifs, and if onlys that haunt and torture our hearts when we are so emotionally vulnerable. I hope in time you will be able to find a peace in your heart that your beloved Luna knows that you love her, and that you did everything in your human and humane power to give your beloved Luna a happy and healthy earthly journey. Your beloved Luna's sweet Living Spirit is always and forever a part of your heart and memories - - she is always and forever a heartbeat close to you.

I know so very well from first hand experience that when our hearts are entrenched in deep sorrow there are no adequate words in any language that can soothe the searing pain of sorrow. Still I hope the words I share with you will offer you some measure of comfort, support, encouragement, and hope as you travel your grief adjustment journey.

Thank you so much for honoring us in sharing your beloved Luna with us, and the wonderful picture of and tribute to your beautiful girl. Please know you are in my thoughts and prayers, Peter, and please let us know how you're doing.

Peace and blessings,
moon_beam

[olly41]

Thank you for your kind words. It is so hard, i keep getting waves off upset. Time has flown it is nearly a week and really hard to believe and take in.

I seem to miss her more everyday.

I have done a wall holder with pictures and a memorial to her name which sits above where she always lay

I am also getting wierd sleep patterns, every night im waking up at 1am, the time she died and 4am, the time she used to get me up for a wee in her last few weeks.

I know she can never come back to me, but I miss all her querks. I used to get fed up of her mucky feet and her snoring and now id paid any amount to have them again.

xx

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[moon_beam]

Hi, Peter, thank you so much for sharing with us how you're doing, and for these wonderful pictures of your beloved Luna. I can soooo relate to how you're feeling in your grief adjustment journey. Three months ago my beloved feline companion Noah joined the angels suddenly due to end stage cancer which was not detected until his final hours in his earthly journey. My heart is having a very difficult time adjusting to his physical absence, as he is my last companion now due to my senior years and health problems.

We live in a physically oriented world governed by the five senses of sight, sound, taste, touch, and smell. Every time our companions rub / touch us, kiss / lick us they are literally chemically imprinting themselves on us so that they can identify us out of all the millions of other people on this planet. When they are no longer physically with us we literally go through a physical withdrawal from this chemical imprint, which is one of the many reasons why this grief journey is so very painful both emotionally and physically. Knowing this, however, doesn't help much in enduring through the immense pain in our hearts and lives as we struggle to "re-invent" our lives without their physical presence. I truly wish there was an easier way to navigate this grief adjustment journey but unfortunately there are no fast forward or delete buttons we can press to speed up the process or make it automatically disappear. Unfortunately, this is a journey that can only be traveled one day at a time, one moment at a time with the hope that eventually at some point in time the deep grief sorrow will ease.

Please know you are not alone in your grief journey, Peter. Each of us are here for you for as long and as often as you need us. I hope today is treating you kindly, please know you are in my thoughts and prayers, and please let us know how you're doing.

Peace and blessings,
moon_beam