It's Over...

Hello to all my new-found pet-loving friends,

I'm writing this to let you know that Bonny passed away peacefully yesterday afternoon at about 4:50 pm. She was scared and shaky, but it was over quickly. I was alone because my husband's flight was delayed and he didn't make it home in time. I stayed with her the whole time and I held her, cuddled her and told her that I would see her again someday.

I took all the advice that I received. I made a stepping stone and put her pawprint on it (I bought the kit months ago and stuck it in a closet), I trimmed off a bit of her fur to keep, I took lots of photos and treasured the remaining time that I had with her.

Despite everything, I feel just awful and can't stop crying. I know that I did the right thing but I miss her so much, my chest aches. I hate coming home knowing that she won't be there to greet me at the door.

Thanks to each of you who responded to my post, emailed me and offered your kind thoughts and prayers. Each and every one of you were a ray of light on a dark, dark day. Finding this board on such a sad day was a true blessing, and I'm thankful for all of you.

I know that I'll be around for awhile as I work through my grief. I also know that if I can help someone else navigate through this painful experience, it would make me feel a little better.

Thanks again for everything,
Georgette
Bonny's Mom

Euthenizing My Dog This Afternoon

Good morning. I'm so glad that I found this site in my quest for some comfort. I have a 16 year old Cairn Terrier named Bonny that is being euthenized this afternoon. She has an inoperable tumor and her kidneys are failing. I know that it's time and that only I can end her suffering, but I am in so much pain knowing that I am about to kill my best friend. She was my first "baby" and since there has been a me on my own in my own place, there has been her. We've been through so much together and I can't believe that it's almost over.

I have read many posts and I know that there are many people on this board that have already done what I am about to do. I guess I'm looking for advice. Is there anything you wish you had done and didn't? I've taken tons of photos of her today, given her all her favorite treats (she is still interested in those) and cuddled with her as much as I can. Is there anything I'm missing? I would hate to wake up tomorrow and think, "If only..."

Thanks so much for being here. I was so relieved when I started reading this board. Finally, people who understand! Any advice or words of encouragement would be greatly appreciated. I feel as if my heart is breaking...

Georgette, proud owner of Bonny