Snugs Is Gone- And I Am Struggling To Cope

My darling boy is gone. His cremation was today. I decided to observe the cremation. I was nervous, but I am glad I did this. It was a last chance to touch his soft fur. I am still struggling to move on. Everything I look at reminds me of him and then I feel so sad and empty. I am crying less now than I did a week ago, which is when my boy died. I have been reaching out for support, which is not easy for me. I even attended a pet loss grief support group.
How do I ever get another cat, when I will always compare that cat to my perfect Snugs, I can't imagine how I can be a good parent to another cat. I also don't want to go though this again.
My boy Snugs was beautiful, intelligent, and had a great personality.
Since he used to sleep with me, I am still having trouble sleeping. I know I took good care of Him, but there are times when I am filled with guilt, wishing I gave him more attention. I took him to his vet for regular exams, but I didn't know how important it was to have his blood pressure checked as he grew older. His regular vet never brought it up until it was too late. With vision problems and kidney problems, he bravely continued on a couple of more years, I wish I could go back in time and check his blood pressure before he had problems.

Tribute To Snugs

SNUGS
1988 - 2012


I can still see your bright blue eyes and feel your soft fur against me. You were so sweet and loving. You were always so patient with me, accepting any pill or injection I gave you, even though I know you hated it.

You asked for very little but you gave so much in return. When I was Ill, you kept me warm and soothed me. When I was sad, you had your clever ways to cheer me up. I could never resist your soothing, caring attention, and before I knew it we were playing and my sadness lifted. Now I have to manage without you, and it is difficult. My sadness is deep, as I miss you so much. You brought incredible comfort and joy to my life,

You had favorite games and would charm me into playing with you. I loved hide and seek. You would play until exhausted, rest a few minutes, and then be ready to play again. You loved gardening with me and I can't put into words how much I enjoyed it too. You had special games with Rebecca too, and then would fall asleep in her lap.
You were beautiful to observe. I loved your poses that showed your perfect markings. You were so symmetrical, with your dark face, paws and tail, your blond body with a touch of blond in front of your ears.
You had the softest belly fur possible. You had an incredible personality. You were always positive, persistent, and full of energy. Even as you aged, your personality and spirit enabled you to keep going, even with very difficult and sometimes painful challenges. You inspire me with your enthusiasm for life.
You were intelligent and curious, always wanting to explore your surroundings.

You will always be in my heart. But I miss you and would give anything to hold you again. I loved having you sleep by my side. There will always be a feeling of emptiness inside of me that you are no longer around to fill.

Today is a sunny, mild day. Just the weather you enjoyed the most.

You are a treasure - the best cat I could ever wish for. You will always be missed.
I love you

Mourning My Loving Snugs

My wonderful, lovable cat, Snugs, died Friday Sept. 21. He was my therapist and friend. I can't imagine my life without him. I can't stop crying. I know he was a cat, not a person, but he meant so much to me.
Can anyone tell ,e what to expect. When does it get any better? What helps?