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1991Baby
post May 3 2008, 04:38 PM
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My little Kahlua turned 17 a month ago. I looked at her and thought we might have a shot of getting her to voting age. But the past few weeks have been bad, and the past few days even worse. Her appetite began diminishing a few weeks ago, I tried altering her diet, giving her different things to get her to eat, she accepted food up until about 3-4 days ago. She's only eaten enough food to fit in my fist since then. I took her to the vet today - her urine was deep yellow, the vet said she is dehydrated to, we gave her an IV. She was 26 lbs, now she's 19 lbs.

The vet said it would be okay to let her go today, but I said I wasn't ready. I'm just not ready to lose my little girl. She means the world to me. This news devestates me. The vet was able to get Kahlua to take some food by forcing it on her tongue. I'm going to try to do the same thing. The vet said if she takes a small can a day she'll be okay, but the end is approaching and there's not much we can do about it.

I am so not ready for this. I've tried to steel myself and mentally prepare for a long time, first posting here 6-8 months ago. This is going to tear me up something fierce. I just want to hold her and hug her and spend every last minute I have with her while she is of this earth. I'm in so much pain and anguish now. I don't want to torture her by watching her starve to death out of my own selfish needs to hold on. But I'm just not ready to call it. This will kill a huge part of my insides. I hope to have the wisdom and compassion to recognize when she's crossed a humane line and make the call. Oh, dear God, why, why, why, I love her so much.
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post May 3 2008, 05:17 PM
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Its a difficult time, but this is when you love someone so much that you take on your pain yourself. She is hurting, and can't tell you how much...she WILL be waiting for you at the rainbow bridge, so dont lose hope. Give her love, and take on her pain.

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post May 3 2008, 06:29 PM
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I'm so sorry for what you are going through, I don't care to count the number of times I've been there myself. It's unbearable. You and Kahlua are in my thoughts and prayers. Keep us posted.

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post May 3 2008, 06:37 PM
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sad.gif I am so sorry to hear that Kahlua's health is failing. You will know when the time is right to let her go. What you think is what is important. Follow your heart and look within yourself. The answer you are seeking is there.

When Goliath died so suddenly in my arms that fateful night, it about killed me. I too asked WHY WHY WHY??? Though I still don't understand why, I trust there is a reason. I also have faith that one day we will be reunited in a place where there is no disease, no death, no evil. The place I speak of is Heaven, where only complete love and harmony exists forever and ever.

Take this time with Kahlua and comfort and enjoy the love you have together. When and if the time comes that you "have to make the call," you will know what to do. You and Kahlua will remain bonded in your hearts even after death. There is no changing that and nobody can ever take it away from you.

May you be comforted in love and compassion during this painful time of your life. You found a special love in knowing your precious Kahlua and that makes you very special too. Many people are never blessed in having this kind of love connection with a human or an animal. YOU have been blessed.

Please come back and talk with us. There are so many loving and understanding people here. When I first came in January of this year I was crippled up in pain and thought the future held no happiness anymore for me. I was wrong. There is a way to find happiness and the encouragement to go on. This is what you will find in this forum. By the exchanges of dialogue here we help each other to recover. This place is part of my family and I will forever give thanks for having found them.


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post May 3 2008, 06:38 PM
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All I can do right now is pray for you, and I am. This is an excruciating time for you and nothing can make it any easier. You will get through it, and it will be awful but that is because your love for Kahlua runs so deep. You have been going through anticipatory grief for a long time now which will help a little bit but I can tell you from my experience that it just hurts SO DARN BAD that you can't stand it. Just cry (if you are a crier) and don't deny yourself any of your grieving no matter what anyone says to you. Pay close attention to Kahlua and you will know when it is time for you to make the decision. Then just ask for strength and you will receive enough strength to get through, even if it is just minute by minute or second by second. Snuggle your little Kahlua and love her, and know how lucky she is to have you!!!
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post May 4 2008, 11:30 AM
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I'm just a wreck. Just spending the weekend sobbing, hugging and laying next to my little girl. I don't want to let her go. I'm begging her to eat and drink more, hand feeding her and scooping her water to lick off my fingers. She still has her ever-present smile across her face, such a pretty little face. I can't bear to think I'll never see this face again in this lifetime. Such a lover, such a little lover she is.

Thank you to all your comforting posts. This is the worst of times. My family lives far away, I'm not date-ing anyone now who could help console me, my close friends are pretty cool customers with their emotions, so no outlet there. This is a terrible time. I feel a hole being carved from my heart right now that I can't see ever being filled. Oh, Kahlua, please hang in here awhile longer.
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post May 4 2008, 12:45 PM
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I'm sorry for what you and your baby are going through at this time. I do agree with what Stitch replied above to you. You might have forgotten but you did post in December 2007. It might help you at this time to go back to your thread there and read what you wrote and what others wrote. You might find some answers there.

I had a spaniel as a child and she did not live to be 17. In fact I have never had a pet live that long. You have been blessed with many years with your baby and I understand how hard the decision is to let her be at peace...especially the first time we have to make it. I know I will never forget my first time that I had total responsibility for that decision. But that is something that comes with having these special ones in our lives. It is the many years of happiness with them that we have to concentrate on...the sadness cannot be avoided..it is a part of life. I totally agree that these thoughts and fact do not make it any easier when the time comes.

One "Mom" who lost her baby said: The pain of losing her will never ever be greater than the joy of knowing her.

My Little Guy was also born in 1991 and I lost him in September at age 16 1/2. I have to remember that I had 16 years and a couple of months of a happy, healthy baby, and although he had a problem for about 8 weeks at the end but the vet said maybe there was a tiny bit of hope I kept in contact with her weekly and watched him daily looking for good signs of which there were few. With him, I don't know when I actually would have made the decision but when he dragged himself from the back of our home to our living room and fell down, we thought he had died and rushed him to the ER when we saw he was still breathing. But his x-rays showed he was really starting to suffocate so we had to make an immediate decision. The vet could drain his chest (painful) but he could breathe but as soon as the fluid came back (and it would), the whole thing would start over again. I just told the vet I didn't want him to suffer and if there was no cure, well my decision was he should not suffer. He gave me so many years of unconditional love and happiness..the least I could do is give him peace. We were lucky to be home when he had his emergency else he would have died alone and suffered..I did not want to come home to that. I have enough sadness and grief having to make the decision to pick the time as if I were God..I hate that decision and I always will but the years of happiness makes me feel no regrets for giving a home to any of my babies.

Actually, my first time I had just gotten a puppy so I had 2 babies and when I came home alone, the puppy demanded my attention and helped me through my grief. I had to put down a 3 year old so I was very unprepared to make that decision but when the time comes that they become ill their age has no meaning to whatever made them ill...it can happen at any age. I asked a vet on 1 baby who I knew wasn't in pain but who was not living a normal life when to make such a decision. His advice was when I saw they had no quality of life. I let that be my guide as they are not always in pain when it is time but can become terribly disabled due to some diseases.

I did always involve my vet in my decision if I wasn't certain. They are not allowed to say Yes or No but they can tell you what is going on and how your baby is feeling. So I would take what the vet says into consideration and also watch my baby on a daily basis as to her quality of living and hope one day I know when it is time. It is probably the highest degree of love we are capable of giving them even though it breaks our hearts and changes our lives forever.

It is a very very sad subject but it is a part of what we go through by opening our hearts and homes to these special ones. Their love for us is always unconditional and we cannot get that from a fellow human. I wish I had never lost any of the ones I have had but as each one left, I did open my heart and home to another one and while we have no choice when it is their time to leave us, we do have a choice to continue inviting another into our home and I have never regreted having any of the ones I had. It is so hard to exist without that unconditional love once you have had it. It just lights up our world.

I will say what helps me today is having taken pictures of all the ones I have had. Pictures help keep the memories alive and when the time does come for them to leave us...it is the good memories as shown by our pictures that seem to help us the most. I also have a bit of fur and their favorite toy that I have kept. that's as close physically as I can be with them now.

I wish you and Kahlua more quality time together. It might help for you to talk to your vet ...not about making the decision but about how he thinks she is doing on a daily basis and if there are signs you should look for that would tell you the time is getting close to consider the decision, and then just love her, hug her, as much as you can..and watch her to be sure she is doing okay.


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post May 4 2008, 03:14 PM
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I'm thinking of you and your loved one today. Hoping it will bring you memories of love that will light you through the darkness that will come, rembering that it is coming for you...not for her.

Having said that, I'm wondering if you have considered getting a second opinion, ( or if you have and I missed it in my reading of your previous posts ). In my experience, even the best vets sometimes miss something. NO ethical vet would suggest any expensive extraordinary measure. but sometimes different vets know of a therapy, or treatment...or just have a special knack with certain conditions that the vet across the street does not. Also I certainly think LOVETHEM's suggestion about talking to your vet about signs , or how she is doing on a daily basis is very sensible. If you can bring yourself ( and I know how hard this is) to establish in your own mind a firm..." I will ask her to bear this much...AND NO MORE", then you will be better able to enjoy the time you have. Personally, I trust your instincts.

meanwhile many hugs to you both, wub.gif
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1991Baby
post May 11 2008, 06:52 AM
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Kahlua girl is still with me. She's eating sporadically, earlier in the week and mid-week I had to force feed her, but she's started taking food on her own the past couple of days. I think the dramatic weight loss has stopped, she's still underweight, but not losing any more as far as I can tell.

I'm treasuring every moment I have with her, holding her, cuddling with her, giving her countless kisses. I went through all my pictures and pulled out all the ones with her in it. I've gotten so used to her being a senior citizen that the memories the pics spurred are dramatic, almost like a totally different dog I had "back in the day". I've almost forgotten that it was just two years ago she was still running with me up mountain trails, leaping 2-3 stairs in a single bound, playing "catch me if you can" (and I still couldn't keep up with her at 15) with me up and down the street. Gosh, she's been one heck of a companion for so much of my adult life.

Losing her will be severing the last tie to so many different stages of my life. I think the symbolism of that is almost as distressing as actually losing her. I'm trying to get to be at peace with the inevitable. I relish all these moments I have left with her. I'm actually kind of PO'd at the vet for saying it would be okay to put her down last Saturday. Having shared this week with her, and her spirit still strong I realize I would have killed her, as opposed to setting her free, if I followed the vet's advice when she still had life to share with me in her. I tell ya, I'm not listening to that vet again, I'm going to trust my instincts and wait for her to look in my eyes and cue me on when it's right.

I totally understand some of the posts where people are mad at the vet or themselves for giving up on their beloved furry friends too soon. I can't, I won't put her down a moment too soon, and if I err at all it will be slightly to the waiting too long side - but not to where I'm putting her through prolonged unnecessary pain. I need to be with her and she needs to be with me up until the last moment it is worthwhile.

I think I'm going to have a house vet come to my home and spare her the trauma of an unfamiliar, cold room. Then I'll take her to the Dumb Friends League and have her cremated. And I'll make a point of going to our favorite camping spots this summer to spread her ashes in the mountains on high. She's Daddy's Little Girl, and seeing all the pics from our times in the Rockies compels me to make sure she is free to run up there forever and ever.
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post May 11 2008, 09:19 AM
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It's heartbreaking I know. My heart is still breaking - it was 4 weeks ago this tuesday. One thing I am sure of is that you will know when the time is right. Until it's right, you won't be able to do it. When it's right, you won't be able not to do it.

We had the vet come to the house. For us, and for Lenny, it was definately the right thing to do. Just as we were with him all day every day in the last week. He needed us near him all the time.

I didn't think I could do it. I thought about it before hand and there was no way I could do it. But when it came down to it, the love we had was so great that the worst thing I had to do became possible. He had passed the point of his tolerance and my feelings, my pain, didn't matter. Only he mattered.

Keep coming here. Everyone here is so supportive. I thought I was the only one to feel as I do until I came here. I'm still in pain, I'm still prone to crying, I'm still devestated. But it's early days. And knowing you are not alone - it helps.




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post May 11 2008, 11:05 AM
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Reading your last reply it really sounds as though you are doing all the things you will always be glad you did. I am glad to hear she is doing somewhat better and you are getting some more quality time together. When they are gone, physically, unfortunately, that is forever, but they do remain in our hearts for all time. But each day we can truthfully hug them and love them is a real blessing and I wish you all the best and lots of days with your baby. You have the right attitude...hold onto that.

Hugs to both of you, keep writing and letting us know how she is doing and post some of those pictures you were talking about.
Pictures can make us smile and we all need that moment in time every so often.



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post May 13 2008, 01:34 AM
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I only have a moment here, so I just wanted to pass on this information to you, in case it might be of some help. There's a vet named Dr. Tina Ellenbogen, in Seattle, who provides hospice info. & guidelines to those interested in home care for their ailing beloveds. I don't know where you live, but if it's within her area (Bothel, WA), she makes house calls for this type of care, and even if you don't live there, she does telephone consults or email consults. Her phone # is 425-485-7387 and she's happy to provide people with detailed information on how to minister to the needs of their furbabies when they're ailing. (she also knows and has liased some with Dr. Ella Bittel, the vet who's helping educate people about all the options of letting their babies go (natural death, euthanasia, palliative care, hospice care at home, etc.).

There is also Martha Norwalk, an animal behaviorist and communicator, who apparently provides one FREE on-phone "evaluation" if needed......although I'm not exactly sure if this applies to only behavior issues or if it's a communication, for whatever problem.

As well, I'd also just heard about the International Vet. Association For Pain Management, which is available publicly for information at www.IVAPM.org .

I just hadn't had time to post all of this on a separate post anywhere yet, but it sounds like you might want or need these resources now, so I'm mentioning it now, regardless.

I also agree that I think you've got your head on really straight in how you're dealing with and thinking about your girl. I'd also agree about getting a 2nd opinion, just in case, although of course that means hauling Kahlua to another clinic, which isn't the greatest, so only you can weigh that option. It's so terribly hard to make all these kinds of decisions, as all of us here know. I'm not being very eloquent right now, as it's late and I'm bagged, but my heart is empathizing with you and your girl just the same.

Wishing the both of you all the strength, love and connective wisdom in the universe to help you through whatever is to come!


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1991Baby
post May 18 2008, 04:56 AM
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I am having so much difficulty with this. I've searched other websites to get some guidance on euthanasia and when it is the right time. So many of them say that if your pet is incontinent (Kahlua is), doesn't do basic life survival things like eating on her own (Kahlua doesn't much), is in pain (I watch Kahlua walk in circles trying to lay down with so much unease) that it is probably time to let go. There was a fourth area that Kahlua is still ok in, but 1 out of 4 doesn't bode well.

All that being said, when I hold her, lay her across my body and chest and look down at her big brown eyes staring up at me I see life... and a big smile. It's as if all of her ills go away as long as I'm holding her. When she can look up at me, feeling my touch, all is well for her. Also, when she wanders outside she is so much happier ( I live on the fourth story of a condominium, so no yard, just landings unless I take her to the park down the street). She just hung outside tonight and laid down next to some plants and seemed so happy to be there. I'm in a slow part of my business year and work from home, so cleaning up after her and giving her additional attention is not a burden by any stretch. But the indicators these websites give are all against her in her current state.

While they all say it is a deeply personal decision, and only I know best, I gotta say, they're not much help given where I'm at. I know she's in a tough place, and this day is probably the healthiest day she has left in her life (as each successive day will be). I just can't make the call yet. I am so tormented by this time. I won't, I can't pull the plug on her as long as I can look at the life in her eyes. I know I can't do it at this moment, I hope I don't sound cruel to others, I just can't. The only clear line I know I've drawn is if I see her in major discomfort and stress. I don't know if I should draw a line closer in to that standard, which is probably asking her to bear too much. I just can't say goodbye forever with her eyes trained on me in the loving, contented way she still does in while she's in my arms.
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post May 18 2008, 06:31 AM
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While they all say it is a deeply personal decision, and only I know best, I gotta say, they're not much help given where I'm at. I know she's in a tough place, and this day is probably the healthiest day she has left in her life (as each successive day will be). I just can't make the call yet. I am so tormented by this time. I won't, I can't pull the plug on her as long as I can look at the life in her eyes. I know I can't do it at this moment, I hope I don't sound cruel to others, I just can't. The only clear line I know I've drawn is if I see her in major discomfort and stress.


With animals, they try hard not to let the World know they are sick and vulnerable, because in Nature, they become prey or outcast. Just like the proverbial man in denial who will not see a doctor, they will say "I'm fine!".
My relationship with Miles was the most intense, deep relationship I ever had with a lliving creature. When I saw the XRays of her riddled with cancer, I was amazed at the effort she put in to purring. She did that to make me feel better.
I did not think it was fair to make her continue to struggle to do that. She purred till the last.
To be fair to her, I had to ask "Who am I keeping her alive for, her or me?"
My healing would not begin till I accepted closure. It still hurts, a lot, and will for a long time. But it is not hurting her.

That's the best I can offer. She has been gone for two months now. We all know how you feel and what a terrible place it is. Someone on here remarked that having a special friend is the only time you really pay for something at the end, not the beginning. It is especially bad when they have been with you and shared a significant portion of your life.


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post May 18 2008, 11:03 AM
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I understand exactly what Jon is saying as being the truth. I have been through this more than once and it is the worst of times.
All I know is this is the one decision these babies are unable to make for themselves...they trust us as only we can decide how things will end.

Only you know how different your baby's life is. You know you see love in her eyes just as you love her. Because of that strong love, you know they would never want to leave us and would endure whatever they had to...to be with us. But we love them too and that is what makes it all so terribly hard to make a decision that is so final.

Jon asked the right questions of himself. You might think about having a talk with your vet at this time and while he cannot advise you what to do..he can answer questions about how he thinks your baby is doing....how long would he think she has on her own and what can be expected as the days go by. These are difficult questions because the decision is really the most difficult one to make for anyone.

Hugs to the two of you...love her and hug her each day...and think about talking to your vet again...it might help you.



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post May 18 2008, 11:58 AM
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QUOTE (LoveThem @ May 18 2008, 12:03 PM) *
All I know is this is the one decision these babies are unable to make for themselves...they trust us as only we can decide how things will end.

This is so true. We make decisions based on the information we have available to us. When we have a connection so strong with a furlove, they love us and trust us with every choice we make for them.

Follow what your heart tells you what to do. wub.gif


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post May 19 2008, 10:37 AM
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The best advice I ever got was at a site I stumbled on - about when you know its time to put a pet you love down.
Its on a site that sells cremation urns - I'll try to post the link here - its how to cope with pet loss but at the top there is a piece written by a veternarian.
http://www.ashestoashes.com/How-to-cope-with-pet-loss.htm
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1991Baby
post May 22 2008, 04:01 AM
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Oh, my God!

I've gone too long. My baby is in pain, so much pain. It's 3 in the morning and there's nothing I can do for several hours for her. Oh my God, this is it, this is our goodbye and she's in so much pain.

Kahlua started yelping at small movements around midnight. I've been laying with her, trying to comfort her for these past few hours and she'll be okay for a spell but then have to move and start yelping again. I waited too long, I selfishly waited too long.

All I can do is hug her and kiss her when she'll let me. Once she finds a position I don't dare move her, lest I cause her pain.

This is the saddest moment of my life, I dread the somber morning that lies ahead, but I've been telling her she'll be okay very soon, and be able to chase squirrels forever after today.

I've not wanted to believe it since the vet gave me the news, wishing, hoping, praying, dreaming that she could pull through this if I just tried hard enough and helped her enough. Denial, absolute denial. Now I face the anxiety of the actual moment, the moment my baby girl is literally screaming for now. I know of the stages of grief that will follow, but now all I care about is easing the pain for her until daybreak and the vet opens. I wish, I desperately wish there was something I could do for her.
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katzen11
post May 22 2008, 06:17 AM
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1991Baby
Kahlua,
i am so very sorry.
i have been together with a wonderful boxergirl 10 years,
and quite a few precious cats.
me, and we all together know, how hard it is, to let a good friend go.
i can imagine her, smell her, i can feel her warmth,
i can feel my heart pound so loud and violent, making this last decision
you will have a lot of good memories of your beloved dog,
yours, Eva


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in loving memory of my sweet babycat Felice
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post May 22 2008, 01:23 PM
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I am so sorry for what you are going through. This part really stinks. I am praying for your comfort. Please don't doubt yourself. Your love for Kahlua (and her love for you) is what has kept you and her going for so long.
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