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> The Day That Changed My Life Forever..., Was the day I met Scott
ComeBackScott
post Oct 16 2003, 01:03 AM
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My jaw dropped to the floor when I saw the skinniest, dirtiest, most neglected horse I'd ever imagined in my life.
When Scott came to me in March 1999, I was only too eager to
help him. He must've been in his late 40s, a very impressive record for a horse.
Especially one whose life I found out later was a sad story.
He'd gone from hand to hand, abandoned, starved, and neglected over and over again. But February 1999 was the last
month he would ever be neglected again. I fed him, showered him with love and attention.
Brushed him, treated his infections and his numerous infestations (you don't want to know).
Finally, six months down the road, he could ride with the best of them. He had the smoothest gait
and the best attitude of any horse I'd ever known. He loved going for rides, he would
hang his head if you took the others out for a walk without him.
We fell completely in love, both of us knew that we depended on each other. That we came into each other's lives to help
make them better. And we made good on it.
I went out and got my first job to feed him. He put on weight and learned what it meant to have a real owner.
He learned the true meaning of love, and I learned the true meaning of life at the time. To help others.
I made a promise on March 17 1999, that I would never let him starve again.
That promise was fulfilled when I finally decided on September 22 2002 to let him go.
His pain was so intense that he couldn't get up in the morning, he ached so much he could not stand still without
shifting his weight. His appetite decreased and his spirits dampened.
I knew I only had a little time left, so I spent the last hour brushing, cuddling, hugging, and giving him treats that
he was never allowed to have because his teeth were so bad
that he usually choked on them. But that was not a problem this time.
The needle had already been inserted, and in a few moments he
crashed to the ground, along with my heart.
That was the emptiest night of my life. I found myself angry
Angry at god for taking my boy away from me, angry at Scott for leaving me, angry at myself for having not spent
more time with him when he was alive...the whole shebang.
I never was prepared for the toll that decision would take on
my health. I heard someone mention taking Xanax on this board, well I had to take digitalis.
I've had massive, uncontrollable panic attacks ever since he left me. Thought I was having a heart attack (at
my age it's kinda silly, but you never know). I have had other
deaths in my life, such as Taurus back in 1995 which nearly destroyed me.
But the loss of Scott was a threat to my life. I couldn't breathe, he was everything to me.
But now I realize one thing about Scott's life that made it possible for us to meet was that
Even though things were bad, he still kept hoping for the day when someone would save him. Set him free from his pain.
I still cry day and night if I think about him.
But I realize that it was meant to be, it has made me better
because of it, I have grown so much.
I can move on now, it has been a year, it is time to start living again. Because that's what Scott would have wanted.
And so I stuff myself at lunchtime whenever I feel really hungry, because I will always commemorate Scott's new life
"May you never go hungry again"

In loving memory of Scotty-
aka Poor Starving Boy


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IN LOVING MEMORY OF SCOTTY
LAID TO REST SEPT 22, 2002
GONE, BUT NEVER FORGOTTEN
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kelly
post Oct 17 2003, 04:57 PM
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I just cried and cried at your post! Such a beautiful story, thanks for sharing it. I can't imagine how hard it must be to put down a horse, the crashing to the ground part just broke my heart as I know it did yours. But what an excellent person you are to make the latter part of his life so wondeful and full of love. You are a courageous and giving person and Scott was the luckiest of horses for having you and you the luckiest of people for having had him. Tonight I will say a little prayer for Scott, your little chicken and for you too. smile.gif

Kelly
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ComeBackScott
post Oct 22 2003, 08:08 PM
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Thank you Kelly. I love that boy soooooo much...forever and ever and ever and ever. Me and Onion thank you for your
prayers, we are both doing well!


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IN LOVING MEMORY OF SCOTTY
LAID TO REST SEPT 22, 2002
GONE, BUT NEVER FORGOTTEN
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