Death Of Dog

I've never felt this way before. Our beloved German Shepherd Hemi passed away Feb 15 2015. It's been 11 days and I feel like it happened yesterday. My husband and I had 2 shepherds before this so you would think that I would know how the grieving process goes and what to expect. But with Hemi it seems 10 times worse and I can't wrap my head around it. Our 1st GSD was 5 when she was hit by a drunk driver. She was not in the street...she was in our yard. Our 2nd GSD died of old age at 13. Hemi died from cancer that we didn't even know he had. He was 8 yrs old. It was so unexpected. It blindsided us. He didn't even show signs of the cancer. I feel like someone robbed me of the love of my life. He was more my dog than my husbands although he is just as devastated. We are those people that love animals more than humans (sad to say) we have no kids so we dedicate our lives to our animals. Hemi was such a good boy! Loved to play like a puppy even the day before he died. He was my whole life!! My husband keeps offering to get a new puppy but right now all I want is my Hemi home with me. I feel like I don't have any other love in my heart to give to another sweet deserving dog. I feel that I would be unfair to a new puppy right now. How do I get thru this? I feel like I can't go on without my Hemi!