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27 Jan 2007
It was 6 months ago that my darling Furry died from hypertrophic cardiomyopathy. I can't stop the feelings of guilt - I just keep thinking that if only we had given her the aspirin she was meant to have, but which made her sick, she might still be here with me. Also, when I read here about how many times people have tried different treatments & vets I wonder if we did enough - we only took her once to see the consultant as it was such a long journey for her.
My husband says he remembers her as happy in the garden in the summer, but all I can think of is her lying gasping for breath in her last hour, & I can't even remember if I was talking to her or if I told her I loved her at the end.
I keep looking at websites about the disease & thinking there might have been something else to try, but why do I do it when it's too late for her now?
Would she still be here if we'd kept her indoors & not let her walk about & strain her heart? The Sunday before she died she was out in the garden & caught a mouse & it was this exertion that brought on the saddle thrombosis which paralysed her back legs. But she'd recovered from the same thing in February, so I just kept thinking she would recover again. I so regret going out shopping on her last morning, those few hours of her being here that I missed.
I suppose that the pain has got less, but right now my heart is breaking I miss her so much.
Judith - Furry's mum
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20 Dec 2006
How can I cope without her this year?
My heart is breaking, writing the Xmas cards & telling people she has died destroyed me. It's 5 months, but every day is a torment. I can't get over losing her & spend hours every day thinking of her & wishing she was still here. My husband doesn't want to hear it anymore & has no response to my grief.
If she had died at an old age I think I would have been devastated still, but able to cope, but 12 was so young, & she struggled so to carry on living. I know people will say to think of all the happy times we had together, BUT I CAN'T. All I can think of is how she should be here still. I love my Furry more than anyone or anything else in my whole life.
Judith
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15 Nov 2006
Do you have Rememberance Sunday services in the U.S.A.?
It is meant to be a rememberance day for all those servicemen & women who have died in wars, but I have also always treated it as a day to remember the dead people I have known. My mum & dad & brother, & so many others.
This Sunday my best beloved Furry was first in my thoughts - since she left us on July 23rd I have been suffering, but have been coping, but now I seem to be drowning in grief again.
The autumn leaves are the colour of her fur, so everywhere I go I see her.
I am tormented again with all the what if's & I feel that I should have & could have done more to keep her alive. When I read about the attention to detail that people have taken about their furbabies treatment's I think that I didn't try hard enough. We only went to see the specialist once & after that we didn't take her to the vet's unless she was poorly. If she we had taken more often perhaps they could have tried something else?
I miss her so & know that I will never care for anyone or anything as much again in my life.
I worry that she didn't know how much I loved her & curse myself for all the times when I could have been with her but was out doing other things instead. I never really thought she would die, even on the last weekend when she was so ill.
My husband doesn't want to talk about her any more & friends all assume I'm over losing her by now, or are too embarrassed by my grief, so this is the only place that I can say how I feel.
Furry I love you so.
Judith
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14 Oct 2006
Today, the 14th October, was the day 2 years ago when Furry collapsed & was at death's door. If only she could have carried on, what celebrations we would have had! Instead I am thinking that she has been gone for three months now, but it still seems like yesterday to me. When I lie awake at night I go over & over her last moments, with all the guilt & if only's that haunt me. I have felt better for a few days, then all the grief just comes back stronger than ever. I wish I could believe that she's in Heaven but I can't. I feel like I've been attacked by the Harry Potter film's dementors - so that I will never feel happy again.
My dearest Furry, I miss you so, & will love you forever
Judith
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27 Sep 2006
I read this today & it sums up how I feel:-
"I shall love her till the day I die. Every day I live I shall think of her. Every night before I sleep I will see her, & in every dawn I shall turn in my bed & find that she has gone. Every day & every night & every dawn until the moment I die."
Dearest Furry, it is just over 2 months since you lost the battle. Life is so empty without you, I don't know how I can carry on until we are together again. Why did it have to be you, when I could see that you so wanted to stay with me?
Loving you forever.
Judith
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