Welcome Jasper & Maisey

Hi! I can't thank everyone on here enough for the support and care I have received (and still receive) over the last several months since I lost my beloved Casey in October. I didn't think that my grief would ever ease up enough for me to even start looking for another baby. Luckily, God knew better and put Jasper in my path. I've never had a male animal before and he is absolutely wonderful! I adopted him in late December, then adopted a little sister for him in January, Maisey. Jasper is the grey & white tuxedo in the pictures. They are true joys!

Lisa

Kitten Being Retested For Feline Leukemia ... Need Help

I lost my beloved Casey back in October, and was adopted by an adorable male, gray/white tuxedo from the humane society in late December. Jasper has absolutely shown me that I can love another kitty again!

Two weeks ago I adopted a sister for him from the same humae society people, and she has been sick since I got her. She tested negative for FeLV and FIV. She was on the streets with her sister and the humane society had her for a few days before I adopted her. Pretty much she has had a chronic fever and soft stools since I got her. The vet is hoping that it is just a "bad cold" and she is on metronaidazole and zithromax now (was on Clavamox). She has already given her "cold" to Jasper, who had to make a quick trip to the ER with a 105 degre fever. He has been seen by the vet too and is doing fine (also now on Zithromax).

He said that he wanted to retest for FeLV and FIV since she seems to have this chronic fever. Now I'm terrified that she could have given it to Jasper too is she comes back with a positive. I've kept them pretty much separated since I got her because of her illness and only let them be together when I'm home at night.

The vet said that he's seen a lot of chronic fevers come through this season with kittens, and sometimes they have to go through a few antibiotics before they get well. I'm hoping that this is the case. Just wondering if anyone else has experienced this and what you found out. Any help is appreciated!!!!

Thanks in advance,
Lisa

My Heart Is Broken

I lost my Casey on Sunday morning at 11:35 and I am completely devastated. Casey was my best friend and baby girl. I rescued her from the animal shelter 16 1/2 years ago when she was just 6 weeks old, and she has been the biggest part of my life since. I'm beating myself up over every time I fussed at her over the years ... I can't help it. She was the sweetest girl in the world, and never failed to show me how much she loved me. She died in my arms and I miss her more than I thought possible.

She had a place in everything that I do every day ... she would lay at my feet while I was putting on makeup every morning, she would meow "MaMa" when she saw me after I got home from work every day ... we had a routine each day of taking care of her and now I'm so very lost. I never realized how un-alone I was until Sunday afternoon, and even though I want to be home a greiving, home isn't the same place anymore. I see her everywhere ... my life centered around her and taking care of her (especially lately when she started to not feel 100%), and now I just don't know what to do with myself. Coming home from work yesterday to a completely empty house for the first time was horrible. I coulnd't do anything but lay on the couch, hold her picture, one of her bed cushions and a towel that was hers, and cry and keep asking myself if there was anything else I could have done for her. I still tell her goodnight when I lay my head down on my pillow because I've done it for almost 17 years and I just can't stop abruptly. The first day was awful, the 2nd day was awful, and the 3rd day is still awful ... when does the grief get any better? I feel like I've lost a part of myself. I know that she's healthy and waiting on me, but I am hurting so very much right now. I know that God will send me a sign from her when the time is right ... He has answered all of my other prayers for her in His way ... I just need to know that she is okay and happy and taken care of.

I apologize for rambling, but my thoughts are just so all over the place right now ...

She will always be my precious baby girl and I will always be her MaMa ... I just feel so completely lost and alone right now.