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[ann]

Hi Everyone, I'm not sure why I stopped by LS tonight..It will be 4 yrs in June when I lost my boy...4yrs. wow doesn't seem that long at all. Being honest, it still hurts. I read only the 1st post I saw and I needn't go any furthur..Truely my heart breaks for all..

I spent the 1st yr of my loss, litteraly crying everyday...Didn't do much for my physical and mental health, needless to say my
relationships with friends and family..Pretty much shut myself off of everything...But, we all deal with it differently..I will never forget the support of so many people here, and I hope I helped them as much as they have helped me...

I still have a hard time looking at his pictures (even though I have them above my computer and on my locker at work and on my
i.d. badge, in my car, still.) but I just don't want to forget him and the others I've lost...About 4 mo. after my loss, I decided to voulenteer at
my local shelter and have been there ever since...It's still challanging, but it has taught me to how to "let go"..So many beautiful
animals have come and gone and so many I had become attached to, and a few I found homes for, which has brought me great joy.

I've since adopted 2 disable kitties with cerabella, that have filled my heart..(although an empty space remains)...They are so loving and fun
and are living the good life...Life has not been kind to them, but they don't know that because of the love and care we give them. They require some extra work and care, but
well worth it..And I would recommend to anyone not to be afraid of adopting a special needs pet... I know alot of you are saying never again, no more pets, can never go thru this again...but more than likely you will, and you'll know when the time is right..I have a few videos of them on youtube under "wdapcb" if anyone needs a smile, check it out.

I even found a stray in my yard that has been hanging around a few years now.(Mr. Peaches).Can not for the life of me understand how he has
survived the elements, weather and wild animals...but he has, and I feed him just about everyday..still, he won't let me go near him,
but maybe someday...that's ok..I look forward to doing it and I know he appreciates it..

I can't say my heart has healed, I can't say I'm guilt free, still, but was there a reason for all this? Maybe getting invovled in helping
animals is what I'm meant to do..Not sure....No need to reply to this post...Just wanted everyone to know that I wish all of you
a speedy recovery in your grief, and I'm sorry for your loss...I hope you all find comfort here at LS, as I did...Take Care...Ann