Gizmo The Hamster Has Gone

We only had Gizmo a short while, 8 months. He was given to us by one of the security guards where my other half works, who said he was about a year old then. His cage wsa cleaned regularly. He always had clean water & food, so finding him curled up in his bedding yesterday was so upsetting. I've now buried him in the garden. I feel so bad because my daughter is at Brownie camp and knows nothing about it. I've got to tell her when she comes home tomorrow afternoon.

I've not posted on here for a long time. But often check in to read messages left by others.

Goodbye To Bam

I just found this forum, read a few thread and feel I've found an amazing support network, where everyone is there for eachother.

This morning we had to have our 14yr old dog put to sleep. She was my partners dog, but eventually became a great family dog. Externally she had that grey/white muzzle all senior dogs get, she'd also lost a lot of weight and had a lump on her back leg. The lump split at the weekend, we bathed & bandaged it and tried to make Bam more comfy. But she didn't seem like Bam. The spark had gone. Do you know what I'm trying to say? Her energy levels were low and she had no enthusiasm for life anymore. I regcognised that 'please help me' look from 2 years ago when we had Oscar (also 14 at the time) put to sleep. Heartbreaking as it was we knew it was the right decision.
Last nught we tried to explain to our children 9yr old daughter, 4yr old son what would be happening today. We also told the school & nursery in-case of any change in behaviour. It's what we tell them tonight that's harder. Can't even remember what we said when we lost Oscar. Think I might say she's gone to play with Oscar.
The vet looked at Bam and knew what she had to do. Her nurse was really compassionate. It also turned out Bam had a slight heart mumur, low blood pressure & bad circulation. She also had internal tumors. It was time to let her go.
The house is so empty. I'm walking round in a trance. Can't remember the last time I had a decent nights sleep or a proper meal. Haven't felt like it. Did everyone else get that?
It'll be a few weeks before we collect her ashes. We have Oscars onthe dressing table. Was going to scatter them over the park, but couldn't completely let go. What I'm going to do at the weekend we're going to buy a small helium balloon and put a card on it for the kids to send to heaven.

Thanks for listening. Jeanie xx