I Still Love You, Trevor!, separated from a most special doggie Options

[Bobbie]

My Dearest, Darling Trevor,

Well, here we are at a new crossroad in our Grief Journey and Life Journey. I was on this section, briefly, soon after we had to part, but then went back to the Death and Dying section, where I felt more comfortable at the time and met some exceptional animals and their people! I guess you could say that we are "movin' on up" to this new section to continue our love notes and messages. Make yourself comfortable, my hunky bunky!

Yesterday's ceremony was so special. I will stop by today and see how thngs look. Might even stop in and say hello to Andrew!

Trevor, my love for you continues to grow, each and every day. My gratitude to you will never cease. I still have so many questions about your life before us, but I'm not going to obsess about any of that. I think I'm going to take some time to remember and at the same time, look forward with you!

Please have a wonderful day with ALL of you buddies and friends! I'll write more tonight.

I LOVE YOU, TREVOR!
XOmommyXO

[Bobbie]

Good Morning my sweet boy!

I want to say that it seems a lot less active and almost lonely in this section, but I must watch my words so as not to offend. But what the hey? It's you and me and the baby duckling, all walkin' down the same path together. Did you know mommy has a new motto? Yup. It has a picture of the little baby duckling walking down a path (just how I remember they walked) and the saying is: "To Infinity....................and beyond!" Don't you think that's great? I just wish I could remember where the original picture came from so I could make some good copies.

Anyway, this is not about me, it's about YOU! Today I am going to visit you and gather the reminders of your First Anniversary in Heaven. I don't say "Angel-versary" because you were already an angel while still on Earth! Think of it.....all that pain in your neck and back and you having no idea what was causing it or when it would stop or how to make it stop. And, yet, you were gentle and kind and curious all the time. Only when you needed more medicine did you let mommy know. Then we had to wait it out together until the medicine "kicked in" and took (some or all of) the pain away. Those were incredibly fragile times for you, and me, because I so wanted the time to fly by to get you feeling better. And no matter where you were, in the room or in the house, you always seemed to make that last turn in my direction. I knew that was my signal to come and sit on the floor closer to you and MAYBE touch you, but mostly just talk softly to you. I don't know how I knew what you needed, and sometimes I was really wrong, but a mommy knows what her baby needs, whether that baby is human or not. And you were (and still are) my baby. My sweet, sweet, brave boy!

Oh! How I wish everyone could have at least met you once. Everyone that did, with one exception, just LOVED you. Of course! 1. You are a Cocker Spaniel and 2. You are Trevor! What more is necessary? I know my threads are long and scattered all over this site, so it is difficult for some to really KNOW what you are like. One day, soon, I'll give a "short version" again. That way we can hope that many, many loving folks will start to love you, too!

I'm going to start getting you ready (you and all of your Heavenly friends and family) for next week when mommy sees the BIG doctors and finds out just exactly how "good" or "not very good" things really are. Of course, you are alway right beside my heart so you will know when mommy knows. I'm going to lean on you and your example and follow your Life Lessons #2, 7, & 8. I must post these Lessons in more places around here for the immediate future so that wherever I am in the house, your Lessons will be close and I can read them again and again.

I will say au revoir for now, reminding you just how much mommy loves you.

I LOVE YOU, TREVOR!
XOmommyXO