I Still Love You, Trevor!, separated from a most special doggie Options

[Bobbie]

My Dearest, Darling Trevor,

Well, here we are at a new crossroad in our Grief Journey and Life Journey. I was on this section, briefly, soon after we had to part, but then went back to the Death and Dying section, where I felt more comfortable at the time and met some exceptional animals and their people! I guess you could say that we are "movin' on up" to this new section to continue our love notes and messages. Make yourself comfortable, my hunky bunky!

Yesterday's ceremony was so special. I will stop by today and see how thngs look. Might even stop in and say hello to Andrew!

Trevor, my love for you continues to grow, each and every day. My gratitude to you will never cease. I still have so many questions about your life before us, but I'm not going to obsess about any of that. I think I'm going to take some time to remember and at the same time, look forward with you!

Please have a wonderful day with ALL of you buddies and friends! I'll write more tonight.

I LOVE YOU, TREVOR!
XOmommyXO

[Bobbie]

Dear Trevor,

How do I seem to make it, day after day? especially with this awful medical stuff staring me right in the face and making me so tired that I can barely do anything actively? when I miss you so much and could use your example right now? Your mommy is so frustrated and I know that you know all about being frustrated.....you must have been so many, many times just living with us, not including the years before that. Mommy is scared and I know that you know all about that, too. So many things scared you, especially towards the end. I can't even imagine how scared you must have been before meeting Grandmom and while you were living in that nasty foster home. Of course, you stayed in the here-and-now, whereas mommy has thoughts running all over the place in her mind. It IS very hard to LIVE each day as if nothing was going on when plenty is and shows you by sucking all your stamina and strength right out from under you. You doggies and kitties and bunnies and all of God's creatures have that as an advantage to you. Humans can, without even trying, imagine all sorts of awful things happening to/for them and that scares a lot of us. And you also know all about being alone for hours at a time.

So, Trevor, please know that your mommy continues to love you with all that I have and even more than that. I must remember what a good example you set the entire time we were together and how not to be afraid of crossing my own Rainbow Bridge if it is that time sooner than I'd like. Because YOU will be there, with all your friends and brothers and cousins and all of mommy's friends and relatives that went before her. I don't think anything like that is going to happen soon, but it is an eventuality that I must address. So there, I've addressed it.

Thank you, my sweet boy, for always being in my thoughts. Just push your way in when you need to or when you know I need you to. And stay the wonderful, gentle and kind Cocker Spaniel you have always been.

I LOVE YOU, TREVOR!
XOmommyXO