I Need Advice, Folks

My posts and visits to this site have been few and far between in the last 2 years or so, and I feel a bit guilty just coming here now when it's "about me". For that, I apologize up front, but after losing Inky in 2005 and moving on after time, you all understand, I'm sure.

It seems I'm about to be in that place again... Taz, my big beautiful 17 year old cat buddy, has been breaking down rapidly over the last few weeks. My poor old kitty suddenly has problems standing, walking, and just moving around. He was always so meticulous and is now going to his litter box, stands in front of it with all intentions of getting in, but just pees right there. Not an issue as I've blanketed the vicinity with heavy duty weewee pads, but the fact that this is just such a sudden and drastic change is really putting up some huge red flags.

He's been on 5 medications twice a day for the last 2 years with blood pressure issues and extreme... and I do mean extreme... weight loss. My 30 lb. cat is now about 11 lbs.

I know his time is very quickly approaching and I know I absolutely have to do the right thing by him, but I'm second guessing myself. He's pulled out of dire situations before and I'm wishing it will be the same now, but know in my heart this cannot go on. Someone just spell it out... someone just tell me that I'm justified in making that ultimate decision for him (and I won't be blaming you, later, so no worries there! )

You all know what I mean and I also know you all realize where I'm at odds with myself. This wasn't a decision I had to "plan" with Inky, it just was something that had to happen at the given moment in time. With Taz, it's a conscious decision to take him to the vet with one purpose only. Although I have an appointment for him one week from today, it just may take me that long to get my heart to do what my brain knows is right.

All opinions and comments greatly appreciated.

Upcoming 1 Year Anniversary

It's just so incredible that next week, February 5th, marks an entire year without our Inky. It seems like it was just yesterday since we lost him, but feels like 10 years ago at the same time.

Life went on. That is NOT something I would ever have believed, but it did, does and will continue to. Not a day passes that he isn't thought of and mentioned... he was/is so much a part of our hearts that, although he isn't physically with us, he's still, most definitely, with us.

We love you, Inky.

Nobody Leave

Ok, I don't want to read anything about anybody leaving. Losing Inky was bad & losing any of you guys would be just as bad!!

You don't want to make me upset, so you're staying. Got it????

(Tough love!! LOL!)

Hugs to everybody!!!!!

Pat

Not Furbaby Related

All, I apologize for dumping "people" issues in our furbaby place, but with the love, understanding and support of all of you wonderful people, I knew I could come here.

My life long friend (since we were 5 years old) suffered a massive heart attack last Monday morning and has been in a coma since then.

I just received word that she's not only not expected to recover, she WON'T recover and not expected to last much longer. Ann is only 45 years old.

I'm sitting here at my desk, crying my heart out for all that's been wasted in such a beautiful human being... crying for her, my Inky, myself. Although selfish, my thoughts are "what am I going to do without her?? She's always been there for me, has always been in my life, has always been my best friend.

I'm sorry for dumping on you... I don't know what to do right now.

Pat

Update On Taz

Taz's results from his sonogram came in today and, it seems, he has pancreatic cysts. Both the vet and I agree that he's most likely going to be fine by just giving him 2cc's of lactulose daily.

WHAT A RELIEF!!! We went from possible renal failure to pancreatic cysts.

I'm confident he'll be JUST FINE!!!

Very special thanks to all of you for your concern and for those personal "checking in" emails. My love to you all for caring.

Hugs,

Pat