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12 Aug 2010
I'm sure it is perfectly normal to feel the pain and grief that I am still experiencing, but it is so foreign to me. I do ok during the day. It's at night when I go to bed and I am lying there quiet that I hear him and see him. I do have other cats, 3 more, and they love to cuddle with me as soon as I lie down, which makes me think of him even more.

I try to give my other babies as much love and attention I can when I am feeling so sad and blue, and somehow, hope to comfort them as well because my oldest guy is missing him too. He spends most of his time on the computer desk. Far away from the coffee table that he and his brother always shared. It's heartbreaking because I feel his grief and depression, but have no way to help him, which makes me even sadder.

I know one day I will be able to think of Habibi and smile, but for now, my heart continues to grieve.

Here is a pic of the coffee table buddies - Habibi on the left and his big brother Pasheela on the right.


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28 Jul 2010
Hi Everyone,

Tomorrow marks the 3 week anniversary of my sweet little boy's departure from my world. He was only 8 years and suffered from diabetes. I found out he was diabetic over a year ago and it has been the most frustrating and heartbreaking year of my life. Test after test, poke after poke, different insulins, different doses, and mass amounts of money. It is the most difficult decision I have yet to make in my 44 years on earth, and one that will never be easily forgotten. Nothing can compare to the heartbreak of losing my precious Habibi.

Although I know I did the best thing for him, I have never felt guilt like this and I never thought I could feel such pain and grief. I have not cried, but sobbed everyday since July 8. Although I have 3 more beautiful and wonderfully loving cats with me, the loss of my Beloved is more than I can bear.

I am planning a memorial spot in the front of my house, where I will create a garden just for him. It will have the brightest orange flowers I can find (he was an orange tabby) and I should be recieving his memorial stone on Friday. He was my baby boy and I will never forget the unconditional love he gave me for 8 years. I miss my baby boy but I know I will see him standing at the Gates of Heaven waiting for me.

I am hoping that the pain eases and the guilt subsides...God knows I did all I could for him, but it just wasn't enough.

"If love could have saved you, you would have lived forever"

Thanks to anyone who took the time to read this. You do so in memory of my Baby Boy - Habibi Lee.



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