For quite awhile now, I have wanted to just say, Thank You!, to all of you for your help with my loss.I have not posted for several weeks. For the record, I went to my doctor and I am now on anti depressants and an anti anxiety medication. It has helped tremendously. Your forum is wonderful, but personally I had to get away from it to help myself heal. Selfish of me to take from you all and give nothing back, I know, but it is what it is, I am what I am, human, and had to do what I needed to do to cope and function. I would just like to say to anyone out there who is considering it, do not hesitate to call your doctor if you are so overwhelmed by grief that you become ill. I lost nine pounds in the first five days and slept perhaps three hours a night. I have a wonderful doctor who cried with me when I told him about Rusty. As he said, everyone grieves in their own way, and these medications will not lessen my grief, only help me to sleep and eat and stay healthy while mourning. I so appreciate the help everyone has given me, and I will still stop in from time to time.
On a happier note, last week, in the heart of this cold and frosty Ohio winter, I saw a rainbow! No rain, no mist, just a rainbow over a snow covered field. I'm sure I had a glimpse of the Rainbow Bridge. God bless you all.

No apologies needed. I understand the need to step back and have done so myself.
I have sought some help to cope with my grief too. We cannot move on in our healing if we become ill.
I hope you are doing better. I know I am. I still cry often but feel stronger.
I was compelled to respond to your post, because I too saw the Rainbow. 4 days ago, in a blustery, NJ January sky was one of the most spectacular sunsets I've seen. Along with the colors of sunset and in a different part of the sky, was a brillant rainbow. I cried when I saw it....I am certain it meant something special. I hope it was some message to let me and all my grieving friends know that our beloved furry friends are out there, safe, and watching over us.

I think we all get to a point where we need to take some time off from the site. I know I did...I started feeling like I was re-living Shiloh's death with each new post I read. I took a couple weeks off and it really helped. So, no apologies necessary. I'm just glad to hear that you're feeling better.

How wonderful that you and Indy's mom experienced that beautiful glimpse at the rainbow bridge.

Take care,
Kathleen

Thanks again to all.

I am so glad that you were able to find some help at your Doctor's. I know you had your beloved Rusty for 16 years and that is a long time for him to have been in your life and the loss must have been heart-rending for you. He is at peace now and his tired body is healed and well. How wonderful to have seen the beautiful rainbow over the snow covered fields. I have never seen a rainbow over snow ... it must be a very rare occurence, and maybe you did have a little glimpse of rainbows bridge. It is a lovely thought.

I'm not writing very well tonight, so please forgive me, but I did just want to reply as best I could, as I remember when you were first on the board, it was about one week after I came here when Ellie died and I had been wondering how you were doing and if you were okay. It is good to know that things are slowly getting a little better for you.

It is 2 months tomorrow for me and I still cry frequently and miss my little baby. I cannot believe it has been that long already, it all seems so recent in my memory and is all so vivid, whereas things like Christmas I can scarcely remember at all.

My thoughts are with you and with your beloved Rusty.
with love
jilly