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carolk
post Aug 27 2010, 10:58 AM
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Think I'm about half crazy over my missing cat --Sassy Butt. Here on my bed one minutes with legs in the air and me rubbing her tummy and poof gone not a trace-nothing. It is the most despictable kind of grief-it tears your heart out inch by inch and for good measure kicks you in the stomach again and again. Ive been over our land again and again looking in sheds, barn, cubbyhole, old chicken house-nothing. She never went very far from the house and was easily frightened so its unlikely she would even be in some of the places I look but feel obessed to keep searching.

I had a very bad year in 2009 and she was my comfort and soulmate. I called her my healing kitty-she helped me heal from such bad depression-just running my fingers over her beautiful face was so soothing and peaceful. I cant even grasped the fact that iI cant do that again. My god, its like a nightmare that you cant wake up from.

We live in rural Oklahoma where cats (and dogs) are disposable-no one cares much about them and we dont have close nieghbors-besides she was a stay at home gal-never far from me or the other cats. She might show up but its doubtful-just not her nature to stray.

Thanks for listening. I just need to post to share the pain and thank you for taking the time to read this-Iknow you understand what Im writing about. An unresolved outcome is the very hardest to deal with as I have no closure-just this open ended hole that never heals. I know in time, the turmoil will lessen and life goes on but darn, to know it's without my Sassy is so sad. I loved her 100% and then some.

A very saddened lady
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janika
post Aug 27 2010, 11:17 AM
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Dear Carolk

Oh you must be at your wits end about your dear Sassy Butt. How long has she been missing? Sorry if I missed if you put how long, but I just wanted to reply quickly. I will be thinking of you and sending prayers for her safe return. Don't give up hope. Kitty's and Dogs too have turned up some days after going missing. Do you have people who can help you in your search? I do hope so.
Please keep us updated.
Hugs Jan and my Angels and Pixie xx
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post Aug 30 2010, 12:23 AM
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Have you found Sassy butt yet? We are hoping and praying for you and your soulmate kitty. doggielove
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pughug2010
post Aug 31 2010, 09:08 PM
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I'm in the same boat. My pug Chloe Bea went missing Saturday night, she has been with me for 8 years. She's so timid, scared, gentle and loving and never been away from home it makes me sick to think she out there in this huge city all alone. My body aches from walking for hours looking for her. I can't stop. I feel like I have let her down. I can't fathom never knowing what happened to her. What I would give to see her running up my sidewalk right now! So, I guess I don't have any advice, I just want you to know you aren't alone in your pain.
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carolk
post Sep 13 2010, 04:48 PM
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An update

My Sassy was never found and Im still grieving over the loss of her. Its still so painful. Each night I step out on the backporch and send my love to her--my sweet sweet baby. The frantic feeling have lessned and I have accepted she is gone but that doesn't make it stop hurting. I know I'm not unique in this but my feelings are that I've lost so much in the life, why did I have to lose her, too? Maybe we shouldnt love so much or give so much of ourselves over to these little ones. Would I do it again?---in a heartbeat. She was wonderfully unique and loving. Sas made my last year full of laughter, purrs, and gentle, gentle loving.

Thanks for asking and I think about another cat but I just dont know. I still have 4 others-but rather old and crabby, not the lap cuddling I so miss.
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post Sep 13 2010, 05:04 PM
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CarolK,

I am so, so sorry that your precious Sassy hasn't been found. The journey of grief you're embarking on will be a rollercoaster of emotions. We are all here for you throughout this painful journey. Again, I'm sorry.

Sending you hugs -- Cheryl xx


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It broke our hearts to lose you, but you didn't go alone,
For parts of us went with you ... the day God called you home


My beautiful Angel, Daisy - I will love and miss you forever xx
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post Apr 26 2011, 01:17 PM
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QUOTE (carolk @ Sep 13 2010, 05:48 PM) *
An update

My Sassy was never found and Im still grieving over the loss of her. Its still so painful. Each night I step out on the backporch and send my love to her--my sweet sweet baby. The frantic feeling have lessned and I have accepted she is gone but that doesn't make it stop hurting. I know I'm not unique in this but my feelings are that I've lost so much in the life, why did I have to lose her, too? Maybe we shouldnt love so much or give so much of ourselves over to these little ones. Would I do it again?---in a heartbeat. She was wonderfully unique and loving. Sas made my last year full of laughter, purrs, and gentle, gentle loving.

Thanks for asking and I think about another cat but I just dont know. I still have 4 others-but rather old and crabby, not the lap cuddling I so miss.



I feel your pain. I just lost my baby, Corrie. She was 2 1/2. I still have her brother, Bailey, and I cannot be around him anymore. Everything he does reminds me of her, and I wonder if I will ever get rid of this pain...
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post May 1 2012, 04:54 AM
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I am going through the same terrible grief and the added difficulty of not knowing what has happened to the dearest creature in my life. I also am living in an area where many people don't care much for cats - in my door knocking rounds I have heard about cats being delibrately trapped and taken out to the country to be killed - though there are quite a few neighbours who have or have had cats. None of their cats are missing.

I have also had a difficult year where my cat was an incredible support to me - so incredibly loving - like an angel cat. Last June, my fiance and I separated, then earlier this year, my best friend committed suicide. He was there for me through everything. He was also one of the most beautiful cats I have ever seen. I didn't even get to enjoy him for 1 year. '

The not knowing what has happened - really doesn't make it any easier. And it is so hard when you are used to having love and affection every day from a beautiful, gentle warm creature - and then they are gone. Not just my house - but my house street feels empty without him.

At the end of this week it will be one month since he disappeared - and it is still very raw and painful. I am okay when I am around other people and really busy. But as soon as I am at home alone ( I now live by myself) I just start to greive again...and today his local council (county) registration papers were posted to me.

My heart goes out to you. I hope we can both get to the stage where we can just truly give thanks for the time we had with our loved ones - and no longer feel the raw grief anymore.

Bless you and your Sassy cat - and may she be in peace whereever she may be.

L.
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post Sep 23 2012, 07:19 AM
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Hello there,

I appreciate you sharing your story. I felt the same way because it has been months since I lost my poor cat, Lily. It happened when we removals sydney from Perth. I think that she was feeling strange about the area. I am still hoping that I will see her again.
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gsnap75
post Oct 10 2012, 09:48 AM
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I too feel your pain - I lost my precious Henry on August 20th - it's coming up on 2 months and I have been desperate with grief. I was moving out of my apartment and he was scared and got loose from my arms and ran - I tried to catch him, but he was gone - I have spent every day searching for him and spent tons of money on different services and products in my efforts to find him - but he is still missing. It has been the most gut-wrenching experience of my life - Henry was my sweet, gentle baby boy - he was so precious, kind to all my other kitties, had this sweet little face and meow - and thinking of him being out there, afraid, alone, hungry, hurt, etc. - it is a living hell. I literally had a breakdown and could barely function. I am doing a bit better now, but my pain is still there and I still think of him every minute of every day. I feel like I abandoned him. I just want to scream to the heavens - WHY!!??!?!?

I spoke to an animal communicator who told me he has passed - I believe her, but also know it's not 100% verified. Not knowing is the worst pain - and not being there with him to protect him, love and comfort him - it's unbearable. Knowing I will likely never see him again - it's a pain I've never experienced - there is no closure, only pain and grief. I pray it gets better and that I am able to make some sense of it or come to peace with it, but in the meantime, my heart is broken. I miss my baby so much and my soul literally aches - I feel like I've been gutted. It's my worst nightmare and a truly a living hell.

Sorry to be so negative - I know everyone who has been through this understands, and I'm glad to be here to share and let other people know they are not alone either.

Bless everyone on here and their babies ~

Gsnap75
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post Nov 13 2015, 02:16 AM
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QUOTE (gsnap75 @ Oct 10 2012, 10:48 AM) *
I too feel your pain - I lost my precious Henry on August 20th - it's coming up on 2 months and I have been desperate with grief. I was moving out of my apartment and he was scared and got loose from my arms and ran - I tried to catch him, but he was gone - I have spent every day searching for him and spent tons of money on different services and products in my efforts to find him - but he is still missing. It has been the most gut-wrenching experience of my life - Henry was my sweet, gentle baby boy - he was so precious, kind to all my other kitties, had this sweet little face and meow - and thinking of him being out there, afraid, alone, hungry, hurt, etc. - it is a living hell. I literally had a breakdown and could barely function. I am doing a bit better now, but my pain is still there and I still think of him every minute of every day. I feel like I abandoned him. I just want to scream to the heavens - WHY!!??!?!?

I spoke to an animal communicator who told me he has passed - I believe her, but also know it's not 100% verified. Not knowing is the worst pain - and not being there with him to protect him, love and comfort him - it's unbearable. Knowing I will likely never see him again - it's a pain I've never experienced - there is no closure, only pain and grief. I pray it gets better and that I am able to make some sense of it or come to peace with it, but in the meantime, my heart is broken. I miss my baby so much and my soul literally aches - I feel like I've been gutted. It's my worst nightmare and a truly a living hell.

Sorry to be so negative - I know everyone who has been through this understands, and I'm glad to be here to share and let other people know they are not alone either.

Bless everyone on here and their babies ~

Gsnap75


Its been one month since my cat,Curious George has been gone,and I feel every bit of your loss deeply.
I am disabled,and my cat was my friend,my comfort,my joy..and now he is gone..
Not knowing what happened is the worst pain.
I exhausted myself looking,crying,praying,hoping,wishing,and my family has moved on..I cant..
Im coping,but numb.
I wish you all the best,and want to let you know there are people who understand,and care.
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