I just had to say it "out loud." I am missing my Sydney so much. It's been nearly a month and I still ache for her. There is some irrational part of me that still thinks this is all a bad dream and I'm going to wake up and find her right next to me, alive and well. It still doesn't seem real. Then the reality hits and it devastates me, over and over.

Dear Jess,

Please don't feel alone in your grief. It is 5 weeks since I lost Austin and just when I think the grief is easing something snaps me back and I find myself crying as if it just happened. I wouldn't trade the 7 years I had with him for anything, but losing him so suddenly has just left me grief-stricken and shell-shocked. The only comfort I have is knowing how often I told him I loved him. Even if he couldn't understand the words he had to have known. I doted on him unbelievably. Someday maybe we will all be able to remember only the good times we had with our fur babies and smile, rather than cry when we think of them.

Wishing you peace,
Carol

Hang in there, Jess! You're not alone with that feeling...Try and surround yourself with your closest friends and family. I know that's been helping me a little bit; it's when I'm alone or it's quiet that I start feeling upset again. Stay strong.

It's tough - there's no doubt. I lost Hunny seven weeks ago. And even though we had months to say goodbye to her, it's still very tough. Some days are worse than others. I miss Lily too, we lost her last summer suddenly and unexpectedly. But they are together again. The sadness is just so deep sometimes it just seems to consume my whole body and soul. I know time heals. I've lost pets before so I know it takes time. We just have to take it day by day. I still have to bury Hunny's ashes, can't quite seem to bring myself to do that yet. I want to bury her next to Lily, but something is keeping her on my wall unit. I miss them both so much. I love being at home these days, that's where I feel closest to them. I'm working on a memorial garden for the both of them.

We just have to hang in I guess. One day, we'll be able to remember them without shedding any tears. One day!

Take care.

dear jess
you are not alone and we know the pain you are going thru. just about two months ago, actually closer to three now, i lost my little fred and a little more than a year ago, i lost my riley. both had been my little buddies and best friends for 14 years. they were with me thru breakups, job losses and changes, family quarrels and major surgeries. the pain i feel to this day is undescribeable. time does heal, because, yes, i can talk about them without crying now but the hole is still there, and i think will always be there. after all, our little ones were a big part of our lives. of course youre going to be in pain. its only been a month. even after a year, there are times when i think riley's going to come around the corner, or i think ive heard fred. and yes there are days when i think im feeling better and then something will trigger and i feel like im back at square one again. as hard as this may sound, something that i do is; i have my favorite memory of both of them and when i get really sad and i just want to curl up in bed and just cry, i force myself to think of that memory from start to end. i know it sounds so patronizing and trivial but it works for me. and 9 times out of 10, i end up smiling thru the tears. its wierd because i dont feel myself doing it, you know? and then all of a sudden its like i snap out of the sadness and realize im smiling or i hear myself laughing... its like when the sun comes out after a rainstorm...
one day at a time ok?
im so sorry for you loss and for the pain. youre in my thoughts.
patricia

I am so sorry. I wish I had a magic wand to bring all of our animals back to us, all happy and healthy.

I lost my kitty to cancer and kidney issues only 3 days ago and am in the intense stages of grief. I can completely sympathize with your pain. I feel so miserable.