Afraid My Little Joe Is Dying

My Joe has been failing for a few months. Just not right. Then on Thanksgiving I noticed a lump on his head. Very flat but it was there. Next day, another lump, on his side. I had a Cairn terrier who died from lymphoma and these lumps are exactly like his. Growing rapidly. He is eating. I found out on TG that he will eat turkey so I've been cooking turkey breasts.

He does not seem to be in pain. Just depressed acting. He has had a lame hind leg and hasn't been able to go for his much loved walkies so I thought it was just that.

Anyway, I just called and made an appt with vet for Friday. I had not been able to call yesterday, I guess I feel like if I here the truth then it will be real.

I feel like if i cry the dam will burst and i will never stop. Also, I don't want Joe to see me cry, he gets very worried and is very sensitive to crying. He is a rescue. I am at least his third home, he has been with me for seven years. Through some very hard times he has made it worth getting up in the morning.

I am so grateful for this site and you folks who understand the pain. I have been reading here for two days and I do not feel nearly as alone as I did. My friends are kind but really don't understand what Joe's illness and possible (probable) passing means to me.

Thank you all for being here.