Hi baby girl,

It's been nearly 4 months since I held you last and I still miss you fiercely. I was listening to some songs the other day and this one spoke to me. Remember how Daddy used to snatch you up and sing to you? Well, this one is from both of us.

"I thought you'd be out of my mind
And I'd finally found a way to live without you
I thought it was just a matter of time
'Til I had a hundred reasons not to think about you
But it's just not so
And after all this time
I still can't let go
I've still got your face
Painted on my heart
Scrawled upon my soul
Etched upon my memory, baby....
I was trying everything I can
To get my heart to forget you
But I just can't seem to
I guess it's just no use
In every part of me
Is still a part of you..."
-The Cult
"Painted on my Heart"

I love you princess girl!
Mommy

Dear Shelby, That song is perfect - sending you some huge hugs, Leejaye

Dear Shelby,

What a perfect song for a perfect song for a perfect girl. What a beautiful and simple tribute to your most precious Kayla!

This shows just what a good mom and dad you both were to her and how the love continues to flow in both directions! Thank you for sharing yourthoughts an love for Kayla with us.

We love you, too!
Bobbie, Trevor and the new guy, Dreamer

Hi leejaye and Bobbie,
Thank you both sooo much. I just wish everyone would have gotten to know Kay personally, she was such a good cat. She even was a certified therapy pet which is pretty unusual for a feline, but she never met a stranger, she was just so full of love for everyone. We would visit people in nursing homes and I really miss that.
Hope all is well in your worlds.
Shelby

Dear Shelby, That is so amazing that Kayla was a therapy pet, I don't think I've heard of many (any) cats doing therapy visits - Kayla is definitely one incredible girl, the people you guys visited in the nursing home will be missing her too...hope the world is being extra nice to you, Leejaye

Dear Shelby

Kayla Rose touched so many lives when your could see her. Imagine a cat being a therapy pet! All those heart she brightened and smiles she brought to worried faces. That's a BIG halo. And now, through you, she's touching hearts all around the world here on Lightning Strike - people who need her every bit as much as her 'patients' on earth. And a cat with a giant soul like Kayla picked you - YOU - out of all the millions of people in the world to be her mom. That's TWO big haloes. Please let the love of all of us touched by Kayla envelop you in a soft, warm love untiil you two can be together again in that Perfect World.

Love and honor,

Gretta's mom

Hi sweetness,
16 years ago today you chose me. My friend Michelle and I had driven out to Hampstead because the Baltimore shelter had just put all their cats down due to disease (my heart still breaks to think of all those babies). So we made the 90 minute trek to where you were waiting for me. It was a very home like place where you were, the cats were not caged and I believe that is what gave you the ability to just walk up and introduce yourself. It truly was purr at first sight. I filled out the papers and you became my furbaby.
Happy adoptaversary baby girl.
Mommy loves you.

Sunny days seem to hurt the most
Wear the pain like a heavy coat
The only thing that gives me hope
Is that I'll see you again someday.
-Kenny Chesney
" Who You'd be Today"

Hi there little one.
Tonight is the anniversary of the last evening we spent together. I wish I would have known our time was drawing to its end. There is so much I would have said and done. Actually, forget I said that. I'm glad our evening was normal, I don't think I could have borne the bittersweetness had I known.
Please don't forget me in heaven. I certainly haven't forgotten you here on earth. A Kayla shaped hole is still in my heart and your brother still won't take your place on my lap, its like he knows that was your spot.
Your human brother asks G-d every night to give you treats in "heaven's garden". Daddy can still be reduced to tears by your picture. I hope you know how much you were loved in your 16 years on earth.
We will always Love you baby girl!

Hi, Shelby, thank you so much for sharing with us how you're doing and your beautiful love letter to your beloved Kayla. It truly does not matter how long we are physically separated from our beloved companions - - the glow of eternal love continues on unrestricted by the physical laws of time and space. Please let me try to reassure you that you are forever a part of your beloved Kayla, - - you are her Forever Mom.

I hope today is treating you kindly, Shelby. Thank you so much for sharing your beloved Kayla with us. Please know you are in my thoughts and prayers, and that I look forward to knowing how you're doing, and sharing your treasured memories of your beloved Kayla.

Peace and blessings,
moon_beam

Dear Shelby, Your letter to Kayla Rose is beautiful - don't worry, there is no way your girl could not know how much she was and is loved. Thinking of you so much today, sending hugest hugs, Leejaye

Thank you moonbeam and leejaye. I appreciate all the thoughts and prayers I can get.
Shelby

Hello Shelby

Thank you for sharing your angelversary with us. The 8th was 15 months for my Sir Thomas. I truly believe he and Kayla and all of our other companions are up there in peace and harmony. Peace and blessings.

TTT

Kaylasmom, that is such a sweet letter to your little girl. She must have been quite a cat, and how wonderful that she was a therapy cat and you visited nursing homes with her.

Thanks Tracy and dannysmom. I only wish I could be half as articulate in words as I am in my head. Even though I'm married and a mom, and have another furbaby named Tyler, losing Kay rocked my world completely off its axis. I truly believe she was my good luck charm. She kept me alive when I was at my lowest, before my son was born and hubby and I had separated I really questioned my purpose and had pretty much concluded I had none but who would have cared for her and Ty? Hubby and I reconciled and after four years of infertility my son was born.
Since Kay passed, my hubby (an OTR truck driver) shattered his heel, was out of work 8 months (he still can't drive yet but his company gave him some part time office work) our house was foreclosed upon, etc. and I have been having physical issues along with panic attacks and a recurrence of depression. I know its stupid to say all this is because my baby girl passed on and we certainly weren't in great financial shape to begin with, in fact my birthday present from my mom was the money to pay Kay's vet bill. I only had around $30 in the bank that fateful day. I felt like a total useless failure. Tracy, I have been following your other thread so I know you can at least somewhat relate. Sorry to dump all this but sometimes it helps.

Kaylasmom, I am sorry to hear about your difficulties and your health problems. I can understand how Kay was an anchor to you and how she provided much needed comfort during those difficult times. It is amazing how our little fur children give us so much, and how they can cheer us up just by their very presence. I hope that things will get better soon for you and your family. You are in my thoughts and prayers.

Hugs,
DannysMom