My sweet Ollie passed gently in my arms. I thought he had one more rally left. He wasn't doing well, a mother knows. So I took him to the vet and she said the most hurtful words, "there's nothing more we can do. Its time". She gave me a few more hours with him, gave him a shot to help him a bit and I brought him home. She came over a few hours later and as I held him on a blanket in the backyard in my lap, I sang his favorite song to him as she administered the last shot. He died in my arms. My boy is gone and I am just still so devastated. I am so grateful to have him with me for 17 years but oh dear God, I am breaking apart.

Hi, OllieBaby, thank you so much for sharing with us how you're doing, and your and your beloved Ollie's 3 month angel-versary. I can certainly relate to how you are feeling as you share with us: "My boy is gone and I am just still so devastated. I am so grateful to have him with me for 17 years but oh dear God, I am breaking apart." Indeed, even still at 3 months the grief sorrow can still be so very intense, and we can find ourselves wondering if we will ever feel whole again. The answer is "yes" and "no": Yes there will come a time when the intense sorrow will ease and we will be able to feel "alive" again - - and No - - because there will be an "empty place" in our hearts because no matter how much time passes during our earthly journey there will be times when we stop and reflect on the many treasaured memories we share with each of our beloved companions and there will be a twinge of sadness still pull at our hearts because we miss their sweet precious physical presence.

The good news is that as time progresses the intense sorrow will ease, and the twinges of sadness that will occasionally pull at our hearts will be momentary - - because as the intense sorrow eases we are filled with the warmth of the many treasured memories we share with our beloved companions, and we know that love is eternal.

I hope today is treating you kindly, OllieBaby, and that you will have a peaceful evening blessed with your beloved Ollie's sweet Living Spirit to comfort you. Please know you are in my thoughts and prayers, and please let us know how you're doing.

Peace and blessings,
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