It occurred to me last week that I have been without Sadie for 6 months. I really can't believe it has been that long...and yet on other days it seems like forever.

I don't have anything profound to say except that I still miss her dearly every day. I still talk to her. I still wish that I could hold her just one more time and kiss her cheek and tell her how much I love her.

I used to tell her that I loved her more than anything in the world. I meant it and I still do...except she is not in this world anymore, she is in the next world.

For those who have just lost your precious baby I just want you to know that I'm sure I know how you are feeling. It is so hard. There are no words to describe the pain and void that you are experiencing...and it may take awhile to get through that...just take you time. I also want you to know that it does get much better. You will never stop missing your baby, but I believe with all of my heart that you will climb completely out of the dark hole you are in right now. Yes, you will even smile and laugh again. Hard to imagine I know...but would your baby want anything less for you?

As I said it has been 6 months for me and I'm feeling worlds better, but I'm still not ready to get another kitty, but I do admit that the urge gets stronger and stronger every time I see kittens in a window.

Take care
John B

Hello John

First of all thank you for the kind words you had for me when I lost Calvin last Thursday.. I read about the loss of your friend with a very heavy heart.. To lose a friend in such a way is unacceptable. Every single person who is in charge at Iams should go to jail, but they won't. Every single shareholder in this company should feel disgusted with themselves..but they won't. I hope you find peace soon. I hope that oneday you will be able to give another friend a home, because they need our help. Take Care

Thank you, Bluestl, for your words of encouragement. A week is such a short time ago for you. I hope you are ok.

John B

Hi John,

I don't think there's anything you could say to Sadie now that you haven't already told her before. She knows how much you loved her when she was here with you physically & she feels your loss of her now. She was an awesome cat who had a very loving daddy.

Someday a new kitty will come into your life & you when the time is right you will welcome him with all the love I know you have in your heart.

Take care, John. I'm thinking of you.

Hi John.

I'm glad you are starting to feel better. I am sure it comes and goes, up and down, hopefully gently moving toward a fond memory of a beautiful cat. I am sure one day you will have a new relationship with another lucky kitty!

Paris.

Hi John, I'm glad your feeling better, But I know how much you still miss Sadie. I'm so sorry that you've been without her for so long. For me it's strange how sometimes it seems like forever since I last seen and held my babie, then I think about him and it seems like just yesterday that he was with me. Like you said to me we are never without them. Our memories of them will always keep them alive. Sadie will always be with you. On a lighter note, so a kitten? I think that sounds great. You deserve the love. I think that a new kitty would recieve 10 times love back in return because it would have you. Take care John K9pal

Hi John, Huge hugs for you as you come upon the sixth month mark of your beloved Sadie, she was truly beautiful and you must miss holding her like I miss holding my cats. I have some barn cats that I can pet a little and that feels good. I would go crazy without having any cat to pet and soothe my hurt a bit, somehow it does this to you.
Then the whole relationship, well as you must remember for Sadie, it doesn't happen over night, it grows as the love for each other does, and this takes time and becomes more precious as time goes by, it is not an instant bond but one that may become a deep gratifying bond and this, and all the love that it brings, is not a bad thing. Hope you hear you heart say 'go for it!' when you do your window shopping one day!

John,
Please give yourself some time first. I was used to having a cat with me almost twenty years, and then when Precious died last year there was such an emptiness and a roaring silence that couldn't be quelled until I adopted Patches a month and three days later. He was not a replacement for the original! He helped fill a void left by Precious' death and he is still a joy to me today (along with my other two twins, four-month-old kittens that adopted me last June).
It's hard adjusting to life as you once knew it with your Sadie, I know. You still miss her, you always will, but she still holds a very special place in your heart. Things will get better; time does heal.
Lisa

Dear ((((((John))))))

I'm so sorry that I didn't see this thread earlier.......

Wow.....I cannot believe that six months has gone by since your beautiful, precious girl Sadie went to Rainbow's Bridge.....



With all of my heart, I KNOW that you miss her so very, very much.... I'm glad that you still talk to your Sadie -- I truly believe that she is right inside your heart, John - and, she loves YOU very, very much! You both shared a very close & special bond.... NOTHING will ever take that away... All of the memories that you and Sadie shared.... they are memories that are yours & yours alone; NO one can ever take them away from you.

I clearly remember when you first came to LS John, and how very heartbroken you were (and, at times, still are).... As you were dealing with your own grief, I know that you immediately started comforting others who were newcomers, just like yourself. You gave of yourself, even though you were hurting badly.... I just want to commend you for that -- Thank you, my friend.



I know all about that urge, too . I remember checking out shelter websites in my area after our sweet Ernie-Bird went to Rainbow's Bridge... I couldn't help myself...
When YOU are ready.....YOU WILL KNOW .

Wishing you much peace, love & all things that are good.

God Bless You & Yours,

Denise

I agree with Muffins. John you are so kind and helpful to others on this site and we miss you. So get back here and join us again. Your friend k9pal

Thank you all for your kind and loving words. You people truly are the best and I love you all! Yes I said the L word and I'm not ashamed.

I've been away for several reasons. Partly I was in a bit of a funk thinking about being without sadie for so long and I guess I needed alone time. Also I just got a better job, which unfortunately doesn't have internet access yet, but I'm told it's coming.

Anyway, I do feel better now emotionally, but now I have a bad cold.

I know that I will never stop missing or thinking about my baby Sadie, but I know when the time is right I will take on another little holy terror.

Take care
John B

Hi John.

I'm glad to hear you got a better job, and that you are progressing emotionally. Your love for Sadie is so strong and pure. I feel your pain.