Stil So Sad And Having Nightmares

Hi
I dont know if any of you remember me, i posted beginning of Oct, my keo passed away after being ill for a long time
http://lightning-strike.com/forum/index.ph...amp;#entry44312 - this is the post i made.

Im not coping so well, i was ok, for a while but now its hard again
i miss her so much.
I lie in bed at nite, and think of her and it makes me very upset.

I did ask for a new pet rat,, a month or so back,i thought maybe it wud have helped,, but because of how i handled keos death ,, bein very upset and having to take time of work,, my mum said no,
i think the real reason she sed no, was because she was also very upset when keo was ill n passed away,, i dont think she wud like to go through that again, if i was to get another and it should fall ill.

im having real horrible nitemares about keo lately to.
last nite, i dreamt i had the cage in the bathroom, and had run a scolding hot bath,,
she came out on to my knee, and then hopped back into her cage, and i forgot the top side door was open and she walked out onto the rim of the bath and fell in,, and scolded herself
I had to go through her dying all over again
i woke up so upset, it was so real
i dont have any nice rememberance dreams about her, they are always nitemares where she dies all over again
its to much for me to cope with.

i dont know what the point of this post is, noone can help,, i just needed to get it all out.
she died the end of sept, but it feels like it was yday,

Keo Passed Away :(

My lovely/cute/friendly pet rat Keo, past away on Monday 29th September 2008.

I bought her from a pet shop on 17th September 2007,, it was the best day of my life,,, she was spoilt rotten by me.
She cheered me up so much
She was such a lovable funny character. I loved getting up in the mornings to ser her greet me and wait for her treat and also when I got home from work she would be waiting to see me all excited.

Sadly August 2008, a respiratory infection took hold.

First vet visit, I was given a 18 day supply of baytril antibiotic and the vet tried to prepare me for the worst,, she said once respiratory infections take hold, there is not much hope… but she reacted well to baytril and looked so much better, I was so hopeful. But two days of the meds, she was back to not being able to breathe very well, was lethargic and her coat was puffed up, and she had Prophin staining round her nose.

Obviously I took her back the vets,, was given more baytril and some corvental-d capsules this time to break open and take two beads a day and hide them in food
Again she picked up,, and then 2 days of baytril when it ran out, she was ill again
But this time I was really worried and very very upset.

27th September 08 was final vet visit
Was given more baytril more caps, and this time a steroid/antibiotic injection. She didn’t react good to it. Before this, she was eating and drinking fine/ After the injection she went down hill very very fast. She wouldn’t eat, not even her fave treats. She was jumping around like she was fitting.

But on sat night,, she decided she wanted to some rice to eat and ate a fair bit. And had a drink of her meds, I left the house hopeful that when I returned Sunday, she would look better with the steroid properly in her system.
I got home Sunday and it never happened, she looked hundred times worse. I was so devastated, I just cried and cried
I wanted to cling on to the hope she would get better

I woke up Monday and before work tried to give her her meds and she wouldn’t take them. I left them for mum to give her and asked her to text if she would take them, mums texts came through and I was hopeful once more cause she managed to get her to take them.

I got home Monday 29th sept around 1.10 lunch time, and keo was gone, she had passed away somewhere in-between 10.30am and 1.10pm
I was so upset. She was part of the family. She was the greatest little pet ever and I miss her very very much.
I feel very guilty that I never took her to the vets on sunday to put her to sleep,,, i was just hopeful she would pull through, I just hope she didnt suffer to much and if she did that she forgives me. Im sorry Keo.

Below are some memory’s I have to keep thinking of to get me through this very very hard time,, she was so funny and as long as I can remember these times below, I will get through it some how.



I used to let her run around the living room free range, and she would climb up the side of her cage and onto a chair and play around in the newspapers.
Or she would chase me round the floor like a little puppy dog. Id get up from the settee to go out of the room and she would chase me and sit on my slippers so I couldn’t leave the room.
She used to like me lying on the big settee and she would run in and out of my bed jacket and chew holes in it.
She loved her little tiny bowl full of tea, she loved a drink of tea
She used to like greeting me in the mornings, waiting for her yoghurt drop treat,, they were her favourites
She loved me filling her bowl up with frozen peas and water and bobbing for them
She loved all her furry tubes and beds that I bought her, aswell as hanging out in her hammocks. She had so many she never knew which to sleep in lol.
She loved gingerbread men, very much.
I bought her a cat toy. It was a pink bag, which made a crinkley noise when you touch it,, she used to play inside and jump around, enjoying the noise.

She was such a funny loveable character,, me mum n dad all loved her very much and always will.
I only had her for just over a year but it was the best year of my life and I will always remember it.


some pics of her
this is when she was a baby:


and as she was growing up: