I Just Lost My 2nd Dog Bobbie

It was 10 months ago I lost Buck.
Today I lost Bobbie. I can't bear going through this again. I'm heart broken.

Four Months Since I Held My Buck

I don't understand why I seem to be fine one day or even a week and then it hits me again. I can't believe he's been gone this long and knowing I can't hold him again is killing me.
I miss him so much. My heart is still breaking.
I have plans to go see his plaque in the memorial garden but I'm so afraid I will break down. I noticed that when I'm having a hard time I seem to have nightmares. Buck isn't in my dream but I wake up trying to scream. I really miss him so much.

Deep Depression

I'm not sure how to do this. I'm just learning. I have horrible depression since the lost of my boy Buck
I have tried everything to stop the depression. I have been seeing a counselor for this. Can anyone else relate? How to cope? I'm lost.