Have Yet To Grieve Afraid It Will Hurt To Much

I lost my very best friend he came into my life 16 1/2 years ago, batter and abused I thought I was rescuing him, instead we rescued each other. He picked me and did all he could to make sure I was the one. His name was Treasured Dash he was my horse, my friend. September 19 2013 I had to make the decision to let him be free from severe pain, there was nothing left I could do. That day haunts me even though I know I did the right thing. I also know I did the right thing because if he was not ready, there was no way he would let it happen. So many people who knew the bond and love I had for him found out he was gone, and could care less, not one word was said. I have yet to talk about it until now and the guilt is overwhelming.
I miss him so deeply I can not even look at pictures of him, not even of other horses right now. The sound of a horse even on the TV breaks my heart. I hope in time my heart will heal, I just don't know how.
I know I am not the only one who has lost a dear friend and my heart goes out to all of you.

Until We Meet Again My Dear Friend

RIP my friend until we meet again
My life is forever changed thanks to you
Both battered and broken we bonded & together we grew
They told me to let you go said you were not worth it
What little they knew
I knew from the start you had a heart of gold
You were intelligent, loving, proud, and bold
You were a little of Curious George, Dennis the Menace, and Eeyore all wrapped into one
You always pushed me to perfection and together we achieved things so many said we never would
They said we would never make the show
What did they all know
We entered with grace and elegance
Two bonded in spirit as one
We always made a stance, moving in grace across the ring as if it was a dance
All we needed was a chance
I believed in you, and you believed in me
In that we were always able to achieve
Ribbons and trophies line the wall
But that is not what it was about, at all
It was about true friendship bonded to overcome all things
The very thing they all said we could not do
We showed them between the two
We inspired each other encourage each other and grew
Into a team that always won the blue

You took me down the steep winding trails bold and brave
You led me through life the same way
So as I sit here today
Wiping the tear from my face
I can find comfort knowing I will see you again someday
I wont lie as I sit and cry
I will miss your sweet scent, the sound of you munching grass
your knickers and kisses I surely will miss
Most of all I will miss our naps lying the pasture
That made nothing else matter
I will cherish the time we had and miss you ever day
I wont say good bye it only makes me cry
So until the next time we meet again
When I am done here I can look forward to you waiting at the gate again
RIP my dear dear friend
To all who met you loved you
To all who met you learned from you
I miss you Treasured Dash AKA Boss