Prayers For Nubis, Too

I am pretty emotionally exhausted right now, but please say prayers for my Nubis, too.

Friday night I came home and he was in severe respiratory distress. We took him to the ER Vet. He had a really rough night, they didn't give him the right meds so he didn't have a lot of improvement. This morning they got him on some better/right meds. They sent him home this afternoon after his breathing finally stabilized, but within hours of being home he was in severe trouble again.

He is back in the oxygen cage tonight. He is getting an IV of lasix. He also is running a fever. He is a fighter, I know he can pull through this.

Nubis went into heart failure last night. I had no idea he even had a heart problem. So, two cats in heart failure in one week. It's been pretty rough.

Please keep him in your thoughts
~NM

Prayers For Ivy

Please say prayers for my little kitty Ivy. She went into congestive heart failure late Friday afternoon. They gave her a shot of lasix and some pills for her to take with me.

I didn't think this would happen so soon. I have been monitoring her heart condition and she takes meds and supplements daily. I just lost my kitty Ren to to heart disease (HCM) in August '08, which makes this even more painful.

Ivy is only 3 years old. I have an echocardiogram scheduled for Tuesday morning, I will know more on her heart condition then. But please, please, please say a prayer for Ivy and sending healing/positive thoughts her way. I know there is hope, I know cats can live several years after this happens. Without hope, I would fall apart.

Thank you, Thank you for any prayers, healing thoughts, you can send to my little girl.

~NM

Strange Occurrences.......

OK, so I have to share this with you. This is so weird, and no, I'm not crazy, or making it up or anything.

Yesterday was the one week anniversary of my kitty Ren's death. About a month and half before that my cat Zorro passed away from cancer, so I have been having a really rough time.

Some very strange things have been going on the last two days, though.

Wednesday night my husband and I were sitting up in bed talking when the room became fridgedly cold. You have to know me to know what that means, I just never get cold for some reason. But the temp. in the room dropped 10 degrees or more. My husband was like, turn the fan off, and I was like, I don't have it on. So then I got up and went to the sink in the bathroom (this is where Ren would sit and wait for his treats every morning and night), and I felt a huge cold spot ONLY on the front of my leg, like something was there. I am talking cold, cold, cold, like not normal. There were no vents blowing on me. I turned around and told my husband, I think there is something in front of my leg. Then, it went away.

Then yesterday- and this is so weird. We were sitting and watching TV. I have other cats that were very good friends with Ren and Zorro. So, Jasmine starts playing on the ottoman (it's a big ##tail ottoman) with something that is not there. She continues to play and we watch in disbelief. She plays for a while, gets tired and comes and sits by me. She then proceeds to watch something that is not there (back and forth), like she would watch another cat. And not just the way cats kinda look around sometime. She was intently watching something. It was so eerie. It just gets weirder. Then, I am behind the couch and I looked down at my cat Tizer (who is the spitting image of Ren). Tizer looks at me and winks. Now this is weird because Ren and I used to play the winking game. I would wink at him, he would wink back at me, and we would go back and forth for a few mintutes. I also currently have the picture of Ren on my desktop at work, the picture is one of him winking at me. So I see Tizer wink, and then Jasmine was sitting by him, she looks up at me and winks. Then, Tizer looks away, and then all of a sudden looks back and me and winks. This went on like 6 times. Then, my other cat starts playing with something imaginary on the ottoman. At this point we are thinking, wow...

So later we go upstairs. Ren used to always follow me immediately up the stairs when I went. So Jasmine follows me up the stairs, and sits in the hall. I sat and watched her. She watched something imaginary move back and forth on the floor like it was playing, and then up and down the cat tree. As Jasmine's eye's travel up the cat tree to watch this "imaginary" at the very same time my other cat looks all the way up the cat tree like they saw the same thing. Then, Jasmine stood and looked down on the stairs. She watched something play on the stairs, up and down, up and down, partly up, all of a sudden down. I have no doubt she was seeing something I couldn't.

Finally I go to bed. I am fast asleep and my other cat Star is sleeping at my side. All of a sudden she wakes me up meowing, meowing, her greeting meow that she used only for Zorro. She rubs her head back and forth like she is rubbing another cats head, but she doesn't get up or anything. Just is meowing the hello greeting. I was so freaked out by this time I had to go down and get my husband, I was just totally freaking out.

Maybe some of it could be coincidence, but I can't get over the fact I know Jasmine was watching something play on the stairs, and downstairs that wasn't there.

So weird, isn't it???????

This Helped Me

Today is the one week anniversary of losing my beloved cat Ren to heart disease. This is after I lost my other cat Zorro to cancer, about a month and half ago.

I was driving home and listening to this song, and I just felt like it says so much of what we go through. It's by Nickelback and it's called "Far Away". It's about the pain of being away from a loved one. So much of it you can relate to. And the end is so pretty, I truly believe if my babies could talk to me now, they would say to me what is said at the end~ "So keep breathing, 'Cause I'm not leaving you anymore, Believe it, Hold on to me and, never let me go." They may have passed, but we must go on. But that doesn't mean that we have to forget them or let them go. They will remain forever in our hearts, minds, and souls- never forgotten. And they will be with us always now. I found that comforting.

Here are the lyrics-Far Away- by Nickelback~ listen to it if you can

Far Away lyrics

This time, This place
Misused, Mistakes
Too long, Too late
Who was I to make you wait
Just one chance
Just one breath
Just in case there's just one left
'Cause you know,
you know, you know

[CHORUS]
That I love you
I have loved you all along
And I miss you
Been far away for far too long
I keep dreaming you'll be with me
and you'll never go
Stop breathing if
I don't see you anymore

On my knees, I'll ask
Last chance for one last dance
'Cause with you, I'd withstand
All of hell to hold your hand
I'd give it all
I'd give for us
Give anything but I won't give up
'Cause you know,
you know, you know

[CHORUS]

So far away
Been far away for far too long
So far away
Been far away for far too long
But you know, you know, you know

I wanted
I wanted you to stay
'Cause I needed
I need to hear you say
That I love you
I have loved you all along
And I forgive you
For being away for far too long
So keep breathing
'Cause I'm not leaving you anymore
Believe it
Hold on to me and, never let me go
Keep breathing
'Cause I'm not leaving you anymore
Believe it
Hold on to me and, never let me go
Keep breathing
Hold on to me and, never let me go
Keep breathing
Hold on to me and, never let me go

Lost My Kitty Today

I am shocked and grieving, in so much pain. I took my six month old kitten in today to get neutuered. He had been diagnosed with a heart murmer. When I went in, the vet said it would be OK. They were doing a special surgery that used less anestic and was supposed to be safer. I got the call at 10:00. Nemo had two heart attacks and died. I feel so like this is my fault, because the anesthia killed him. How do I deal with this? How do I accept this? If I hadn't got him neutuered him might still be alive... please help.