The Passing Of My Light

Hello everyone,

Last night my dear cat Holly passed away at the age of 15.


I stayed up most of the night, unable to sleep and just crying until I couldn't cry anymore. What little sleep I got was filled with dreams of her and all the happy times we had.

I have been trying to keep busy since I am in the process of moving. I have been out of the house most of the day and when I come home I still expect to see her waiting in the entryway.


This morning we took her down to a crematory since I don't have anyplace to bury her. Thankfully I will have her ashes in addition to the memories and pictures. When I can afford it, I will get a nice remembrance box to keep her ashes.

I knew this was coming though, she had been ill for some time now...I thought I would at least have another week or even a month with her. When she passed though I was right there with her, stroking her fur and telling her it would be alright. In all the grief and sadness I am going through I am glad I was with her in her last moments. I would never forgive myself if I wasn't.

As I said I have been trying to stay busy, but whenever I stop for a moment my thoughts go to her and how much I already miss her. Like right now I am crying as I type this.

I don't know if I know how to cope with this. She was always there and now....she's not.

I know I will be sad for a long time, she was the center of my existance for over half my life.


She was my source of joy, my constant companion and my furry little child..and I will never stop missing her.