It's been 1 month today since Cobbles has been gone. I miss him so much today. I have a huge Cobbles' sized hole in my heart that makes it very difficult. I am getting married this Saturday and it is very difficult to be overly excited about it since i miss my little boy so much. I don't understand why God had to take him so young. Cobbles was barely 2 years old.

I live in fear everyday when i go check on his friend Pebbles. I fear that i will find her the same way as i found Cobbles. ( I found Cobbles already dead, no goodbyes, no I love you more than anything in the world, NOTHING. ) I can't get that picture out of my head when i found him lying there with his eyes half open and cold and stiff...and me Screaming "COBBLES, COBBBLES, COBBLES"... I keep reliving this horrible vision in my head. I am scared to go on my honeymoon for a whole week away from Pebbles that something will happen to her. I have a GREAT petsitter, but i still am very afraid. I am almost to the point of thinking about canceling our honeymoon which i think my fiance wouldn't approve of. He has been looking forward to going to Florida and I was looking forward to swimming with dolphins for 5 months now. I am just so upset about Cobbles.

Then today i went to Petco.com and was looking for stuff for Pebbles. On the page for rabbit stuff there was a picture of a rabbit that looked VERY similar to Cobbles. I broke down for a couple hours about this.

Cobbles, mommy missed you SO much. I hope you are ok at the Rainbow bridge. Until we meet again, just remember how much you momma loved you. I miss you little boy. I don't understand why you were taken so young.

Heather

Dear Heather,

I'm sorry about Cobbles. It's still so new. But ya know, going on a vacation (honeymoon) might do you some good. Pebbles will be OK with the sitter. I know it'll be hard. It's only been 3 weeks since Theo passed, actually 3 weeks to the hour, as I write this note. I have another cat Emily who is 16. She misses Theo so much and I would like to get away but I just can't leave her alone right now. If a good person stayed here to look after her I might be able to do it. So enjoy your wedding and go have a swim with the dolphins for Cobbles. Take care of yourself.

Luna

go and enjoy your wedding and honeymoon, your sweet bunny is with you in spirit , watching over you, and cobbles wouldnt want you to miss out, just say a little prayer for him before your wedding , so he knows u know he is there. dont worry about your other bunny , she will be ok have fun

Hi Heather,

If you don't have a lot of money already invested in the trip, and you really don't feel like you can cope with being gone. Don't go. Your new Husband will probably be disappointed, but I'm sure he'll understand. You can always plan a delayed honeymoon for later this year, or maybe even for your first anniversary.

On the other hand, if you decide to go, it may just be the therapy you need to start recovering from the depression from losing Cobbles.

Only you can really make this decision. No one can tell you what is right or wrong here. It's all in what Heather needs to heal.

Whatever you decide, we're with you.

Wishing you and your new Husband a happy and prosperous life together,
Tim

Hi Heather,

During intense times of grief its easy to forget some of our basic human needs like food, sleep, rest... We sometimes get so lost in emotions that we forget that there is another world going on out there. Some of us don't even care at times like this. What should be a happy and life changing event for you instead is overshadowed by this tragic event. After Odin died for the longest time I kept having visions of seeing him lying dead when I went to say goodbye to him at the hospital. The nurse was really nice, she brought him wrapped up in a blanket and made him as presentable as they could. I just couldn't believe that was my brave strong boy! As hard as I tried, it took me a long time to get my last look at him out of my head. Whenever I start to get that vision in my head, I instead would try to think of happier times when he was alive. Things that he did, they way he would play with his brother Loki. I would think of ANYTHING but the last time I saw him. The time I spent with him, the love he gave me would not be over shadowed by those last final moment of goodbye.

I was paranoid with fear for his brother Loki as well. Two weeks after Odin died I brought him to the vet to get him checked up to simply ease my paranoia. The covering vet understood and after unloading what had happened with Odin to him, he really helped bring things into perspective for me. Im not as bad as I was, but every once in a while, that fear does sneak back in. It's only natural for us to be concerned to the point of being obsessive with someone that we love. We have this desire to protect them from harm and when something happens to them, we feel as if we failed them somehow. Irregardless of what or how or why, its always easiest to burden ourselves with that guilt. And as much pain as we are in, life does go on. We take it day by day until it gets easier, for some its significantly longer than it is for others. But dont think for a moment that our furbabies wouldn't want for us to go on and be happy. They would want us to smile and laugh and to find new companions to share our lives with.

I think you should go on your trip. Cobbles would want you to be happy. The two short years you had with him were filled with love and happiness. You gave him a wonderful and happy home! Many animals don't get that. I only had three years with Odin, and I know that they were happy and loving years. And as cheated as I feel, I wouldn't trade those three years in for anything.

Wishing you happy thoughts, a happy marriage, and good weather on your wedding day!
Hugs,
Cynthia

I'M VERY SORRY SUNFLOWER. I AGREE WITH QORC.DAD . IT'S BEEN VERY HARD FOR ME TO ENJOY ANYTHING SINCE MY DOLLY DIED 3+ MONTHS AGO. I FORCED MYSELF TO DO THINGS. PEOPLE ON THE 'OUTSIDE LOOKIN IN' DON'T SEEM TO UNDERSTAND ANY OF THIS, SO MY MOTTO BECAME "TOUGH" DO OR DON'T DO WHATEVER YOU FEEL LIKE, OR DON'T FEEL LIKE.
THE DEVASTATION OF PETLOSS CAN BE WORSE THAN LOOSING FELLOW HUMANS. WE SEE THEM AS OUR CHILDREN. MY GIRL BEAGLE AT 12 1/2 WAS MY DAUGHTER; I'M SURE YOU FELT THAT WAY ABOUT YOUR ADORABLE BUNNY ALSO.
WE'LL ALL GET BETTER , I AM, BUT VERY SLOWLY . IN MY CASE, I REMEMBER STEVIE RAY VAUGHNS DRUMMER COMENTING ON THE TRAGIC LOSS OF STEVIE. HE SAID IN AN INTERVIEW, WITH TEARS IN HIS EYES : "I'LL GET BETTER WITH IT , BUT I'LL NEVER COMPLETELY GET OVER IT"
IT'S ONLY WHEN WE WORK OUT ALL THE PAIN ATTACHED TO THE WONDERFUL MEMORIES (CAN TAKE A LONG TIME) AND WE COME TO AN EMPASS WHERE WE ACCEPT ANIMALS VERY SHORT LIFESPANS AS BEING GODS WILL, ONLY THEN CAN WE TRULY ACCEPT THEIR PASSING AND WE CAN ENJOY FOND MEMORIES DEVOID OF THE HORRIBLE EMOTIONAL PAIN.
SO JUST HANG IN THERE FOR NOW AND EXPECT 'NOTHING' FROM LIFE FOR A WHILE AND ONE DAY YOU/WE WILL WAKE UP REALIZING WE ARE MUCH BETTER THAN WE WERE WHEN IT FIRST HAPPENED.