4 Months Today

Well, it's been 4 months since we lost our boy Capone. Back in September, I didn't think I would be able to get past it and stop crying, but it has gotten better, although today I am very sad again.
His ashes sit in our bedroom with his picture and they make me both happy and sad. My husband and I still miss him terribly and so does his brother Dugan. I still have a couple of videos of him on my phone
and will never delete them. One is of him opening Christmas presents, something he loved to do. I had a dream about him the other night and it made me smile. I really think he is still here with us and it
makes me happy but just isn't the same. I hope he's happy up in dog heaven and knows he is very much missed!!

I Miss My Boy--it's Been One Week

It's been one week today that my sweet boy Capone left us. He had sudden kidney failure and we were told by the vet it was time. It all happened so fast and I was quite a mess all last week. He was almost 12 years old and
we really thought there would be more time with him. I think of him everyday, several times. It has gotten somewhat better. I find when I'm at work and occupied I'm OK, but when I see his picture on my phone or
look at his urn with his ashes, or toys, I still mist up. We took our other Lab to the park yesterday and I cried because we had planned on taking both dogs there together. I know he misses his buddy and that makes me sad also.
The car ride to and from work is long and that's when I think of him most and cry. Today was the first day I didn't cry (a lot) It still hurts, but I must say that just being on this chat room and hearing other's stories has
helped me immensely. Just knowing that other's are going thru similar situations and that they understand how it feels makes a huge difference. I know it will take some time before I can look at his pictures and think of him and smile instead of cry, but I really feel like I'm getting there and hope that others who read this will
feel that as well. At this time last week I couldn't imagine smiling or laughing again, but now I know that I can. I will never fully heal (it feels like) but as time goes on I know it'll get better.
So if I can say one thing to everyone who feels lost and alone and overcome with sadness, please know with a little time and the help of friends and family, it will be OK. You will smile again

Thanks for listening and God bless you all.