My baby Attticus died unexpectedly this past Sunday. He was only 2 years old! He left us 2 weeks and 4 days after his brother Mattie left us, and 1 year, 5 months and 5 days after his other brother Mulder left us. There is such an aching hole in my heart. It feel like I can't breathe. Nothing feels right and god it just hurts! My other babies keep looking for them, and I have to keep telling them that they are gone. I can't bring myself to move the bath may he passed on, and I keep expecting him to come around the corner or reach up saying "Hey Mom, PICK ME UP & LOVE ME!" I was able to prepare myself, at least a little bit, with Mulder & Mattie, they both had kidney disease, but Atticus wasn't supposed to go so soon! He had a heart murmur but th dr said he looked good at his last check up. He was playing in the bathroom one minute with his favorite toy, and I went in 10-20 minutes later and he was lying there, not breathing, no heartbeat, gums blue. Just like that he was gone! It is just not fair!!!!
These are my babies: Mulder- the tuxedo, Mattie- the Siamese/Maine Coon & my baby Atticus- the orange & white. Sorry for the rant, I just needed to get this out.

OH Kkitty
It's not a rant. It's the sorrow we all have felt when one of our fur-children goes back home. And it's particulary sharp and sshocking when it happens suddenly and without warning. You DO feel like you can't breathe. You DO feel like your heart has been shredded. And it has. We grieve in proportion as we love, and so your grief must be unimaginable right now. During this awful time, do whatever it takes to release some of the pain. if you're a crier, cry. If you're a shreiker, shriek. If you're a thrower, throw (soft) things. If you're a crumpler-into-a-ball, crumple - and take your babies with you so you can all feel the warmth.

KKitty, each fur-kid that we love takes with them a piece of our hearts and leaves with us a piece of theirs. So when you feel like a piece of your hearts is gone, it is. And if you look REAL closely into your heart, you'll see a new piece there. it may not fit perfectly into the empty place, but now matter. That is the piece of the heart that your precious kitty left for you to treasure. And one day, when you are reunited in the Perfect World, you will rush up to each other and each be completely whole again.

You've come to the right place, Kkitty. We've all suffered the agony of separation from our beloved animals so we know what each new person is going through as they reach out for our help and comfort. We don't criticize, we support each other. There are no "should's" here, only compassion and understanding. Alone, we are each fragile sticks easily broken, but together we are a strong bundle that no one break.

Please know that my heart is with you, Kkitty, as you go through this journey of grief.

Gretta and Rufus's mom