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25 Jun 2009
I haven't been here in a few years, but I'm asking for prayers yet again. Yesterday, my dog, Keesha, was diagnosed with kidney failure. Keesha is 15 (at least - I rescued her off the street in '95), and I noticed Monday that she wasn't eating, and she was drinking a lot of water. I knew those were signs of kidney failure, especially considering her age, so I took her to the vet yesterday. They gave her subcutaneous fluids, an injection for nausea, and ran bloodwork. The vet called this morning and told me it is kidney failure.

Vets make me so angry, because I feel like I can never get a straight answer out of them. I don't know if Keesha is actively dying, or if this is a "chronic" thing and she can be around for another six months! It is so infuriating. Keesha ate last night, and this morning, and she's still "here" if you know what I mean - we've had plenty of dogs that we just knew they were ready to go, and she doesn't look like that, but I know that time is short.

I guess, if you wouldn't mind, and if you're so inclined, would you please say a prayer for strength for me? This is our tenth dog death in 10 years (all due to old age except Phoenix died of mega-esophagus at 10 years (she's my avatar), and Pepper died of hemaniosarcoma at 14 years), and Keesha is the last of my rescued furbabies. She has gotten me through a lot, and now I'm going to lose her too. Her picture is below.

Thank you and God bless to all of us who are grieving our lost furbabies. I'm so tired of grief.
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20 Sep 2007
Hello. I haven't been here in a while but my grief over losing my schnauzer, Pepper, on Feb. 10 2007 is as raw today as it was then (he died of hemangiosarcoma).

I contacted a "pet psychic" right after he left who did a phone reading (cost me $50) and she was definitely a fraud.

I am stuck in my grief. I was sobbing the shower last night. I have 2 other dogs whom I love with all my heart but I miss Pepper so much I cannot stand it.

I'm still so angry at God, I HATE HIM. I know I'll have to pay for that but I'm not strong enough yet to care. My boy was so full of life and I don't understand how such a huge presence can just be extinguished like a candle flame? (Damn - here I am crying again).

I literally have not had a second's peace since we found out that Pepper's cancer was terminal on Jan. 20th. I am truly at my wit's end. I am DESPERATE to contact Pepper. I need him to know how much I wanted to cure him. How much I love him. How much I miss him. How much I'm afraid I'm going to lose him if I'm stuck in this godforsaken life for another 20 - 30 years.

I am very, very bitter. I just want to hear from Pepper and know he's okay.

If you know of or have had dealings with a REAL psychic, please let me know.

Thank you.
11 Apr 2007
The death of my Pepper on 2/10 has really torn me apart. I do not have the energy left to do anything. I have no faith in God (I believe there IS a God, but I certainly don't trust or love Him). I have really given up on everything. If I'm not angry or grieving I don't feel anything.

Where do you REALLY and TRULY believe our babies go after death? I want with all my heart to believe that they are in Heaven. I certainly don't want to believe that they are just gone. But, I guess I'm looking, needing, desperate for proof of some kind and God is never willing to give us that.

I would really like to know what you believe (not what you HOPE - but what you truly believe). Thank you.

BTW - here is an older ('98?) picture of my Pepper who died of hemangiosarcoma on 2/10/07.
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1 Apr 2007


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12 Feb 2007
I called my boss and actually resigned. I can't take it anymore. My soul has been ripped from me (again). My heart has been shattered (again). My world has been turned upside down (again). And, all that matters in this world is going to work, putting on a happy face and paying my bills.

I can't do it anymore. People can call me lazy, I don't care. I really do not care about anything any more.

I'm already on Effexor and Welbutrin for anxiety and depression. Then I take Ambien at night because I can't turn off my brain to go to sleep. Last night I ended up staying up until 2:00 AM and drinking a bottle of wine because I could not face going to bed, knowing I was going to have to wake up and face going to work.

My baby DIED Saturday morning. I cannot go on like nothing's WRONG. I don't know how to face the world anymore and I do not have the energy or the desire to do so.

Yes - I WANT TO DIE. The only thing I want is to be reunited with my babies. And, I don't even have faith for that anymore. I want there to be NOTHING. Because the only thing I get HERE is grief and pain.
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