I lost my dear bunny Harry suddenly yesterday, Saturday, February 13, 2016. He was the most loving, adorable little rabbit. My heart is broken. It's all my fault that he's gone.

I adopted him on June 27, 2008 from a rabbit rescue organization. They thought he was 2 or 3 years old at that time. Harry and I had never been apart a single day since then. From the beginning, he was an extremely anxious bunny. According to his rescuers, he "was rescued from Prince George's County Animal Management in Maryland. He had been confiscated from the home of an arrested drug dealer who intended to eventually feed him to a snake. When [he] came into Friends of Rabbits he was terrified. After months of living in safety and love, he grew to enjoy being around people. On June 27, 2008 he was adopted."

From the day I brought him home to his last day with me, he lived at home, cage-free, running around the whole place. As he was anxious and hard to handle, I was unable to catch him and hold him for the first few years. Even petting him was a challenge for the first year. Ironically, the first few weeks at home, he developed a habit of hopping onto my bed and sitting next to my pillow, next to my head. He would just look at me. I would wake up to see his cute face staring into my face. When I tried to pet him, he would dash away quickly. In the last couple of years, he finally calmed down enough to really snuggle with me. At night, while I would be reading a book in bed, he would hop onto my bed, right next to my pillow, and back up his fluffy bottom to nuzzle my face and neck. He would sit like that for hours while I read. If I moved a little, he would adjust his position to maintain full contact with my face. Oftentimes, he would turn around and look into my face, making sure we made eye contact, before turning back around and pressing his furry bottom to my face again.

He was the sweetest bunny, eventually trusting me enough to let us be close in the end. Now he's gone. I miss him so much. I can't stop crying.

His health started to decline last summer. I immediately took him to a new vet. His previous vet had made him scream his heart out. His last visit with that vet was disastrous. Even after I warned the vet about how anxious Harry was, he picked him up under his armpits, letting his legs dangle in the air. Harry started screaming bloody murder for at least 15 seconds before he handed Harry off to the technician, who also held him under his arms with his legs dangling in the air. He continued screaming for several seconds more until the technician finally put him on the floor. Harry ran to the corner of the room, scrabbling at the wall, eyes bugged out, his whole body shaking. I ran to pick him up, and as I held him close, he defecated liquid stuff all over me.

I never took him back there again. I should have known then that those vets were incompetent and dangerous. They had killed my baby bunnies Hermione and Albus.

At the new vet clinic last summer, Harry was diagnosed with pneumonia in his right lung, bladder sludge, overgrown teeth, and GI stasis. He liked his new vets and the technicians. He never screamed there. His problems were treated successfully, except for the persistent sludge in his bladder. He went in for a check-up last Friday and the vet found overgrown teeth again, so he had a dental procedure and x-rays that day. His x-rays showed persistent sludge. The vets considered flushing out his bladder that day, but they had already woken him up from anesthesia. They recommended supportive care: fluids, medications. He did well that weekend and the beginning part of last week.

Around Wednesday of last week, he started to behave strangely--bumping my leg with his nose insistently, knocking photos of his deceased mate Hermione onto the floor, chewing cardboard and blankets. I just pet him and didn't investigate further. I should have known something was wrong. By Thursday afternoon, after coming home from work, I noticed he hadn't eaten much, but he had urinated and defecated. By Friday morning, I noticed that he had not urinated or defecated enough and he had not eaten much again. He was acting strangely. He would look up, as if he was looking at something or someone, but there was nothing to look at. He would look up at the glass shower door, but no one was inside. I didn't know if he was looking at his reflection. He had never done these things before. I immediately made a vet appointment for early afternoon.

X-rays showed an enlarged cecum, full of gas, and a sludgy but normal-sized bladder. His urinalysis and blood work were normal, but his temperature was low. They recommended hospitalization, but they allowed me to sit with Harry and massage his belly for several hours. His temperature improved, but he still did not pass any stool or urine. I asked if I could take him home to continue massage and medications overnight, thinking that his anxiety might have been the reason he refused to go to the bathroom. The vet allowed me to do this, advising immediate return to the hospital if he doesn't improve. I massaged his belly hourly throughout the night and gave him his fluids and medications as scheduled. By morning, he had urinated clear urine twice in his litterbox and produced over 20 little poops. I thought he was getting better. I was wrong.

I called to update the vet at 8 a.m. and emailed a photo of his litterbox. The receptionist who answered the phone said Harry has a 9 a.m. appointment scheduled if he is not doing well. I said I thought he was doing better and cancelled that appointment. By the time I got the vet's email at 12:30 p.m., Harry had stopped urinating and defecating again. He was eating a bit though. I called immediately and they told me to bring him in at 5:00 p.m. When I arrived there, they took my poor Harry to the back for x-rays. His bladder was huge! They tried putting in an IV, but it was difficult and required two rounds of sedatives. They tried catheterizing his bladder, but they were unable to pass it in. They recommended cystocentesis right away but allowed me to visit him before that procedure.

My poor, poor Harry! He looked so stressed, breathing rapidly, laying on his side, eyes glazed over. I told him I love him so much. I told him not to die on me. I told him I'm sorry, that this was my fault for not acting sooner. I told him to be strong. I told him I'm not abandoning him. I'm not sure if he heard anything I said. I'm not sure he even knew I was there. I pet him for the last time, stroking his head and side.

They took him for the procedure. Minutes later the vet came to get me from the waiting room. The look on her face said it all. His heart stopped. He was gone. I asked to see him. They were doing CPR on him. He was floppy. His eyes were blank. He was gone. They let me hold him right away. I kissed him over and over. I held him tightly, but he was already gone.

The vet said they took out 80 cc of urine, and then his heart stopped. Oh, Harry!!! It's my fault for letting this happen. He was in so much pain. He was so stressed. I should have taken him in sooner. I should have left him there overnight. This shouldn't have happened. He shouldn't be gone.

I feel awful. I let Harry down. He tried telling me something was wrong, but I didn't listen until it was too late. I miss him so much! I don't know if he's angry with me. I don't know if he knows how much I love him and miss him, how sorry I am for letting this happen to him.

Even though the vet told me that he didn't suffer, I know he did. I let him suffer. And even though the technician said that at least I had one more night at home with Harry that night, I feel he probably would still be alive had I left him there.

I didn't get to hold him or kiss him one more time before he died. My last contact with him while he was still alive was just a stroke of his face and side. He probably thought I was abandoning him and just gave up.

I am heartbroken. I hope my Harry knows I love him. I will always love him.

Thank you for allowing me to share Harry's story.

Harry's Mommy
(Hermy and Albus's Mommy)

I will respond in just a few minutes. Have many things to say.

In the meantime let me just tell you 2 things :
Harry absolutely loves you and he knows how very much you love him.
There couldn't be a Mommy any better than you. That is the reality, but in your deep grief you are not seeing that it's true.

Back in a bit -

Hi, Lisa, please permit me to add my sincerest sympathies in the physical loss of your beloved Harry. Losing a companion is never easy regardless of the circumstances or how long we are blessed with the privilege of their company. It doesn't matter if our grief experience is our first or our thousandth - - each grief journey is uniquely painful.

Lisa, unfortunately guilt / remorse is a part of the package of this grief adjustment journey. There is no way to escape it, but we can deflect it by remembering when we feel overwhelmed by the demons of doubt and guilt that we did everything in our power to give our beloved companions a happy, healthy earthly journey - - and you certainly did that with your beloved Harry. When we are entrenched in deep grief we are emotionally vulnerable to all the whys, what ifs, and if onlys that consume our hearts and minds. From what you share with us there is no guarantee that if you had left Harry at the vet hospital that he would have survived. I totally agree with your vet tech that you and Harry are blessed to have had one more night together, and I also agree with your veterinary practitioner that your beloved Harry did not suffer for he already had been given sedatives in preparation for an IV. Your beloved Harry does not want your heart and mind consumed with the final events of his transitioning from his earthly journey. He DOES want you to remember all the wonderful memories you share - - with the absolute reassurance that his love for you - - and your love for him - - is eternal - - nothing can ever change that.

Thank you so much for honoring us in sharing your beloved Harry with us. He is adorable and you are sooooo blessed to be his sole, and soul, heir to his eternal love. I know there are no adequate words in any language that can soothe the searing pain of sorrow that is in your heart, but please know you are in my thoughts and prayers, Lisa, and please let us know how you're doing.

Peace and blessings,
moon_beam

Dear Harry, Hermy, and Albus's wonderful Mommy Lisa,

I am heartbroken for you, to hear of the physical loss of your precious Harry.

Please believe me when I tell you that NOTHING was your fault. I believe that Harry might have passed in the night at the hospital had you not taken him home with you. You sensed that he needed you, and if it was medically possible to do what needed to be done (massage and medications) at home, you were going to make that happen, and you did!

When you petted him and told him you weren't abandoning him, he KNEW that. And he heard you telling him how much you love him (he already knew that too). His physical self at that point was deteriorating, but he was (and will always be) the same Harry that you've always known. He absolutely is NOT angry with you. He knows he had a quality of life in the top .000001 % of any bunny who's ever lived. He wants you not feel an ounce of guilt. (Unfortunately, guilt seems to come automatically with grief, but please keep reminding yourself of all the unbelievable good you did for these 3 lucky bunnies. You are amazing.)

The story of how you came to adopt those precious 3 bunnies is truly heartwarming. The fact that they survived---and thrived---is completely thanks to your care and immense love. Not many people could or would have done what you did throughout their lives! (I hope one day, soon, you will be able to believe what an outstanding Mom you are. )

How Harry evolved from an anxious little guy into a cuddler is just remarkable!!! You worked miracles with your love.

If I remember right, didn't Harry kiss the pictures of Hermione? All three are together---while at the same time with you. In the blissful realm they're in, there are no time / space limits! I am wondering whether he was seeing her when he knocked her photos off last week (probably trying to kiss them again)! They might have been in touch, possibly with Hermy sensing it was his time to pass on from his physical self.

Do you have supportive friends / family? And I can't remember whether you have other pets? If not, would you be open to Harry, Hermy, and Albus guiding you to another animal who needs you (someone very lucky indeed to end up with you)?

Please keep in touch here! I want to know how you are doing. Sending you heartfelt prayers, hugs, comfort and understanding,

Kathy
P.S. Harry is SO handsome!!

I also lost a friend yesterday, and I have lost rabbits in the past too. I still have one rabbit with me now.

Rabbits are fragile creatures. I'm sorry to hear about Harry. He was obviously very loved and he knew.
I'm not too good with words, but know he is not suffering anymore and we will support you. He is always with you, even if you can't see him.\
He was very pretty.

Thank you so much, Kathy! Your kind words are much needed at this sad time. I hope Harry knows I love him dearly.

Harry is my "love-at-first-sight" bunny! I had planned on adopting two baby bunnies, Hermione and Albus. When I went to the foster mother's house to pick them up, the first bunny I saw when she opened the door was this beautiful, fluffy, scared, bug-eyed rabbit huddled in the back of his cage. I fell in love with him instantly. After completing all the paperwork for the baby buns, I asked the foster mother about Harry (previously named Nacho). She said he was adoptable but very anxious and skittish. He smushed himself against the back of his cage when she struggled to pick him up to show me. Of course, you can't stop true love. I told her, "I'll take him!"

Fast forward 7 years and 7 months later and I'm grieving the loss of my very special love bun, who learned to trust me and, I hope, love me. My love for him only became stronger with the passage of time. I will forever miss his nose kisses and his furry bottom smushed against my face. I will be forever grateful to him for letting me be his bunny mommy.

Thanks again, Kathy!

Lisa (Harry, Hermy, and Albus's Mommy)

Dear moon_beam,

Thank you very much for all your words of comfort and wisdom. I have found your support and understanding, as well as Kathy's, in this forum absolutely life-changing (and life-saving!) over the years. I cannot thank you, Kathy, Trevor's mom, Gretta's mom, sapphireluna, and everyone in this forum enough for the help you have given me as I have lost my precious bunnies.

Thank you especially for your reassurances. You are absolutely right about doubt and guilt. I'm currently in a sort of "fog" of self-doubt, questioning everything I could have or should have done for Harry. I am so grateful to Harry's new vets and vet techs. By the end, he had seen all 3 vets and all the techs. Through all of his medical issues and crises, from last summer to last night, these veterinary professionals have shown Harry (and me) not only superior veterinary knowledge and skill but also great compassion and empathy. What a refreshing change from poor Hermy and Albus's experiences at the end of their journeys.

I agree with you--I do need to focus on the wonderful memories with Harry. I am trying, but it is so painful to relive those last moments with him: the last time I talked to him and pet him while he was alive and the last minutes of CPR. Unlike in Albus's case, I feel some sense of closure or peace, seeing those caring professionals do everything possible to save my Harry's life.

Thank you again, moon_beam. May you have a restful evening.

Hugs,
Harry, Hermy, and Albus's Mommy

Dear sapphireluna,

Thank you for your comforting words. I am so sorry for the loss of your beautiful Haruka. I will post on your thread as well.

You are right about rabbits being fragile creatures. They hide their pain, and for me at least, it is always too late for me to realize how sick they are.

Thanks for being so supportive. It is wonderful to have a such a warm and caring place to share our grief with others who understand and have experienced what we are going through. There is no pain like this pain, right?

I wish you a peaceful and restful night, sapphireluna.

Hugs,
Harry, Hermy, and Albus's Mommy

Dear Kathy,

Thank you SO much for your kindness and support. Without you and moon_beam and this forum, I would be grieving alone. So a big thank you!

It is unbelievably comforting to read your words "I believe that Harry might have passed in the night at the hospital had you not taken him home with you. You sensed that he needed you, and if it was medically possible to do what needed to be done (massage and medications) at home, you were going to make that happen." I felt that he might have given up or let go overnight at the hospital. With his history of extreme anxiety and with our history of never being apart (aside from going to work), I was fearful that he would see it as abandonment and give up fighting.

You are right about his physical body deteriorating. However, that is my fault and a direct result of my inaction and delayed action. I can never forgive myself for not taking him into his 9 a.m. appointment that morning. I let my fear cloud my judgment. Those 8 hours might have made a difference. I will never know, but I do know that I will continue to beat myself up over it.

You have a great memory, Kathy! Harry is indeed the one who would kiss the photos of Hermy and then appear to wipe his nose on some Kleenex (he was probably chewing it). I'll try to post a photo. I have always known that he misses his mate Hermy tremendously. They were very much in love. For some reason this week (maybe telepathically), I felt that he was trying to tell me how much he wanted to be with Hermy again. We even talked about it. I said, "Harry, I know how much you miss Hermy, but I really wish you would stay here with me." He lowered his head and looked sad. I said, "Please, Harry, please. I love you so much. I would miss you so much if you left me." I believe he might have been communicating with Hermy somehow. The last two days he was alive, I noticed his strange behavior of looking upward at nothing in particular. He looked like he was looking at someone or listening to someone. His head was tilted up and his gaze was very intense as he stared at a point in space in front of and slightly above him. Perhaps he had been doing this before I noticed, communicating with Hermy or Albus.

I know I should be happy that Harry, Hermy, and Albus are together once again and for forever this time, but I miss them so much. They have left me behind. I wish I could be with them too. I love them and will always love them. I hope they won't forget me, especially when the time comes for me to join them again.

I still have Ron with me. He's a very good bunny, but for whatever reason, I am not as strongly bonded to him emotionally as I am to the others who have passed. Maybe it is because I adopted him later or because he never got along with the others. I'm not sure why, but I do love him, just differently.

Thanks again, Kathy, for everything! I have been unable to sleep and eat since Harry passed, but I will try to rest a bit now. I'll write again tomorrow.

Good night! Warm hugs!

Harry, Hermy, and Albus's Mommy

Hi, Lisa, thank you so much for sharing with us how you're doing. Like our forum friend Kathy, I also believe that your beloved Harry and Hermy were communicating with one another as I have witnessed similar behaviors with my companions prior to their transitioning from their earthly journey. Your beloved Harry's physical body could no longer endure the many medical challenges he had and the only way he could be restored to his former youthfulness was to have his sweet Living Spirit released from his physical form. This grief journey is both an emotional and physical adjustment to the physical absence of our beloved companions which is one of the many reasons why it is a very painful journey.

Each relationship we have with each of our companions is uniquely different because each of our companions is individually unique. Perhaps as you and Ron comfort one another now you and Ron will discover a new dimension to your relationship that will bring you closer together in a special way just for you and Ron.

I hope today is treating you and Ron kindly, Lisa, and that you both will have a peaceful evening blessed with your beloved Harry's, Hermy's, and Albus' sweet Living Spirits to comfort you. Please know you are in my thoughts and prayers, Lisa, and please let us know how you're doing.

Peace and blessings,
moon_beam

Dear Lisa,

Your story of how Harry came to be adopted is really touching. Little did Harry know at that moment how his life was about to change!!

(By the way, I have a similar "love-at-first-sight" story with my cats. I had planned on adopting 2, then, there was Sunny [previously named Nomar]. And, he has severe separation anxiety; he and I, like you and Harry, have rarely been apart).

There is no pain quite like the pain you are going through right now. Wondering how the night was for you and how today has been so far. Have you been able to sleep or eat?

Harry's worsening physical condition was not your fault ! I truly think he knew somehow that it was his time to pass; I'm thinking he felt he needed to be directly with his soulmate, Hermy. (I love the Kleenex story!!! And the picture of him looking at Hermy's picture is heartwarming.) I do think they were in communication.

Your precious trio will not forget you. To them, it will seem like a split second has gone by between now and the time that you join them in that blissful realm. They don't have to deal with the time/space limitations that we have to.

That's right -- You have Ron! I remember now. Maybe you will find that you and he need each other now and will really bond emotionally. Somehow I'm thinking that Harry, Hermy, and Albus know that you will be okay and I think it has something to do with Ron. Speaking of Ron, could you post a picture of him sometime? I'd also like to see more pictures of Harry, Hermy, and Albus, if you are up to it.

Am eager to hear from you and know how you are doing. My biggest wish for you---and it's Harry's, Hermy's, and Albus's wish for you too, I have no doubt---is that you are able to quickly let go of any guilt. You don't deserve to be consumed with any guilt. Maybe make a list of all the good experiences and good things you did for them? Numbers 1 and 2 on that list should be that you adopted them and that you gave them real love. And in Harry's case, with his skittish personality, he would have been unlikely to get adopted! But then you came along and showed him patient, unconditional love. I believe God gave you Harry, Hermy, Albus, and Ron because there was no one more perfectly suited to be their Mom.

Check in soon! Comforting hugs,

Kathy

Dear moon_beam and Kathy,

Thank you so much for your posts. They are so comforting and truly life-sustaining. I believe you both have told me in the past that this is an emotional roller coaster. You are so right! I am on this roller coaster again.

Because of the snow/ice/sleet/freezing rain today, my office was closed and I've stayed at home all day. Even though I worked from home for a few hours this morning, I had moments when I just broke down and cried uncontrollably. Sprinkle in a generous amount of guilt and self-doubt and away I went with the blubbering and sobbing.

moon_beam, thank you so much for sharing your comment about witnessing similar behaviors in your cats. I shared my observations with my parents, and they thought I was crazy. Knowing that Harry's spirit has rejoined Hermy's and Albus's spirits gives me some comfort. My heart is split: I am happy for Harry because I know how much he was missing Hermy and how much they love each other, but I feel such pain and sadness at the loss of his physical being too. I feel guilty as well for being so selfish.

I know Valentine's Day is sort of a made-up holiday, but I was thinking last night that Harry and Hermy are finally together again on Valentine's Day and all three of them will be together every single day forever and ever. He is my love bun and cuddle bun, but he is really and truly Hermy's only love. And she is his too.

Kathy, thank you too for your reassurances. I agree with you and moon_beam about Harry being in contact with Hermy somehow. I think I sensed it too last week but stayed in denial.

I haven't been able to eat yet. Harry and I used to eat dinner together every night. He would munch on his salad while I read the newspaper and ate my dinner. When he finished dinner, he would stretch out next to me and just relax the rest of the evening before our nightly cuddle. I miss him so much!

As for Ron, I feel guilty about not showing him the same affection as I did the others. I agree with you that I can start a new relationship with Ron. Under these different circumstances, Ron and I can learn more about each other and hopefully become closer.

I appreciate your support and encouragement. I really do. Your gentle reminders about letting go of guilt and embracing good memories and experiences are very helpful. I'm so busy beating myself up that I forget everything and everyone around me. It feels like I'm literally drowning in guilt and regret.

I will try to stay positive and honor their memories by remembering how wonderful and lovable they are and how much I love them.

Wishing you a peaceful night.

Hugs,
Harry, Hermy, and Albus's Mommy

Hi, Lisa, thank you so much for sharing with us how you're doing. As I was reading your post I could not help but smile - - as a thought came to my mind about your beloved Harry, Hermy, and Albus - - looking at their picture - - the "three musketeers" - - "all for one and one for all". How much joy they brought to you during their earthly journeys - - and the infinite wonderful memories you share together now.

I hope today is treating you and Ron kindly, Lisa, and that you both will have a peaceful evening blessed with your beloved Harry's, Hermy's, and Albus' sweet Living Spirits to comfort you. Please know you are in my thoughts and prayers, Lisa, and please let us know how you're doing.

Peace and blessings,
moon_beam

Dear moon_beam,

Thank you so much for your post today. I went to work this morning, going through the motions, but my heart and mind were with Harry. I miss him so much. Harry, Hermy, and Albus really are my three musketeers! They did everything together--eating, sleeping, playing, grooming, relaxing, putting up with their mommy's picture taking. They always made me smile. They made my heart so very happy!

I hope they are happy to be together again. Harry grieved deeply when Hermy and Albus passed away. I can only imagine how Hermy and Albus welcomed him "home" and kissed him and cuddled him. Even so, I miss them all tremendously, and I selfishly wish they could be here with me again.

Thank you again for thinking of me. I am trying to be strong, but my heart hurts so much. Still crying...

Wishing you a peaceful evening.

Hugs,
Harry, Hermy, and Albus's Mommy

Lisa,

I LOVE the picture of the 3 of them!! (the 3 musketeers)

Hoping the guilt might be lessening...

Hoping you and Ron might be snuggled up tonight. Thinking of you both. Please stay in touch. Will write more soon.

Warm hugs to you tonight,

Kathy

Lisa, I'm so very sorry for your loss. Your story of how you came to eventually forge a trust and bond with Harry is so heartwarming and the story of his eventual passing made me cry. I do know firsthand about the guilt and regret that permeates so much of the days and weeks following the passing of our furry loved ones. What could I have done differently? I should have been a better parent. I should have, would have, could have... the list goes on. The blame I heap on myself for what I should have done differently (so many things) is overwhelming. Both Kathy and moon_beam have helped me immensely over the past couple of days. Their compassion and thoughtfulness is life sustaining.

Please don't blame yourself for anything that you may think you did or didn't do. The wonderful life and love you gave Harry is so evident in your words. The worst thing we can do is second guess our decisions after the fact. When we are immersed in the moment, the decisions we make are the best we can manage considering the horrible circumstances we're faced with. If you hadn't take Harry to the vet and he had passed away at home you would probably blame yourself for not taking him in. There seems to be no perfect choice in situations like this when the outcome is so hurftul. Harry clearly loved you so much and that never faltered. Our little fur babies love us unconditionally.

Like you though the self-doubt haunts me. What if I had taken my dear Fiona to the vet sooner? I delayed because of the stress it always caused her. What if I had just waited another couple of days before making the decision to end my little fur baby's pain? Would she have gotten better? These questions haunt me. They may haunt me for years to come. I can't imagine my life without her by my side. So you are not alone in the guilt. Like Kathy and moon_beam told me, it is something we all share after losing our best friend. It's a natural part of grieving. I wish it wasn't so, but it helps to know we aren't alone and that there are such wonderful people as Kathy and moon_beam to help guide us through the grief.

Thank you for sharing your story and letting me know Harry. Such a handsome little boy.

John

Hi, Lisa, thank you so much for sharing with us how you're doing. I truly can so relate to how you're feeling as you share with us "I went to work this morning, going through the motions, but my heart and mind were with Harry. I miss him so much. I am trying to be strong, but my heart hurts so much. Still crying..." I remember so well the gut-wrenching sobbing during the drive into work and for being thankful for the privacy of the restroom where I could retreat to regain my composure so that I could go back to my desk to resume my work. And then once in the car for the drive home the dam of tears bursting once again into gut-wrenching sobbing. During the deep grief it feels like the searing pain of sorrow will never ease -- but eventually it does - - one day at a time, one moment at a time. We are here for you, with you, and beside you, Lisa, during the not so bad days, the not so good days, and the days when it feels like your heart can no longer bear the burden of your deepest sorrow for as long and as often as you need us.

I hope today is treating you and Ron kindly, Lisa, and that you both will have a peaceful evening blessed with your beloved Harry's, Hermy's, and Albus' sweet Living Spirits to comfort you. Please know you are in my thoughts and prayers, Lisa, and please let us know how you're doing.

Peace and blessings,
moon_beam

Hi John,

Thank you so much for your post on this thread, and thank you for reading Harry's story. Your words of encouragement and understanding are much appreciated and much needed at this time. I wish none of us would have to experience this kind of pain, but that would probably mean we never would have the opportunity to experience this kind of love either. Our furbabies' love is truly unconditional.

I hope you have a good night and will try to get some rest. I'll write more later.

Hugs,
Harry, Hermy, and Albus's Mommy

Dear moon_beam,

Thank you so much for your note today. I am trying to hold it together at work and then letting loose at home. It truly is a "dam of tears."

I think I must have said, "I miss Harry!" over 10 times at work today. Bless my co-worker. She gets to work with a broken record for the next several weeks, at least. But I DO miss Harry. I love him so much!

I am taking it one day at a time. I don't think there is any other way around it, unfortunately. I watched a short video of my bunnies tonight. It helped a little bit, but I yearn to touch them, stroke their soft fur, nuzzle their noses, and give them big hugs.

I'll write more tomorrow, moon_beam. Thank you again for everything you and Kathy do for us here.

I wish you a restful night.

Warm Hugs,
Harry, Hermy, and Albus's Mommy

Hi, Lisa, thank you so much for sharing with us how you're doing. I can so relate to how you're feeling when you share with us "I watched a short video of my bunnies tonight. It helped a little bit, but I yearn to touch them, stroke their soft fur, nuzzle their noses, and give them big hugs." The physical adjustment to our beloved companion(s) physical absence is excruciatingly painful. I found holding one of my beloved companion's toys, blankets, collar -- something that belonged only to them - - helped to bridge the physical void of not being able to hold them. No it isn't the same as holding them - - but sometimes it does help.

I hope today is treating you and Ron kindly, Lisa, and that you both will have a peaceful evening blessed with your beloved Harry's, Hermy's, and Albus' sweet Living Spirits to comfort you. Please know you are in my thoughts and prayers, Lisa, and please let us know how you're doing.

Peace and blessings,
moon_beam